Beginnings
Beginnings
Beginnings
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heavily, I still have the image of her standing there, drenched to the skin, hair and body soaking<br />
wet, smiling at me, even though she was freezing cold.<br />
I still have those books from that day. They still look like concertinas, all bevelled and ruined.<br />
The pages barely separate and they look tired and old. I keep them wrapped up in a bright red<br />
jumper. Her bright red jumper. They were the only things I had of hers and there was no way I<br />
would part with them.<br />
Ever.<br />
After my mum left my dad, I found out she had actually been seeing someone else. It was funny<br />
in a way, because I had met him on more than one occasion. He worked with my mum at the<br />
nightclub - he was the head chef, so I had never thought it was weird when my mum had taken<br />
me and Jo around to his flat to meet him.<br />
To tell the truth, I thought he was wonderful. He always had time to chat, always took an interest<br />
in what we were doing, and in retrospect I realised he thought the absolute world of my mum. It<br />
was good for the soul to see her so happy. Years had been wasted with a man who had told her<br />
nobody else would ever give her a second look, but now she was with a man who thought the sun<br />
rose and fell because she was on the earth.<br />
Those ten years were not easy, by any stretch of the imagination. My dad had great joy divorcing<br />
my mum on the grounds of adultery. All his philandering meant nothing to him, and he glorified<br />
in his statement that he would never forgive her for leaving him … 'for another man at that.' He<br />
failed to recognise his own shortcomings - the affairs, the lies, the fact he got a girl who was a<br />
year older than his daughter pregnant, believing it was his right to do all these things.<br />
My brothers were on his side, following steadily in his footsteps as womanisers and drunks. All<br />
except Alan, and as soon as he was old enough he was off to join the gang. I told you he was an<br />
idiot didn't I<br />
Angie had married a man who looked like Brains from Thunderbirds, although most of the time<br />
he reminded me more of Joe 90. Four of my brothers got married and then three of them got<br />
divorced. They were definitely like their father. Actually Aiden was remarried … and wifey<br />
number two was getting sick and tired of his absences … and I don't mean the times he spent in<br />
nick either. I doubt they will ever learn.<br />
At sixteen I left school and started college to do my A levels.<br />
And that is when I saw her again.<br />
Ash.<br />
My Ash. In the flesh. Bigger, taller, darker, and absolutely positively the most gorgeous creature<br />
on the planet.