Beginnings

More documents

Recommendations

Info

when I turned to see her reaction to a particularly gruesome bit. My face must have showed confusion, as she nodded to where my hand was resting on her thigh, totally ensconced in her own. I looked back at her and was just about to apologise and pull away, when she smiled at me, moved closer until she was firmly pressed against my side, and began to stroke the back of my hand with her thumb. I should have felt disgusted … a woman was holding my hand, and not in a way friends would usually hold each other's hands, if you know what I mean. However, I wasn't disgusted. Far from it in fact. I felt a growing excitement build in my gut … the same excitement I felt every time I thought of Ash … and her smile … and her eyes. Shit … I didn't know what this meant. Was I gay then A lesbian But I had never … Me Gay A lezza A dyke A queer Nah … I wasn't one of those … was I I had been with lads, not … erm … like … all the way … you know … but I did fancy lads … didn't I 'Are you all right, Lou' Sarah's face was close to mine and I had an urge to kiss her … on her mouth … her lips … taste her lipstick … slip my tongue … fuck. 'Ahem … yeah … yeah … fine.' My face was incandescent. I could feel the glow race around my body, shouting to all who were listening 'Lou's a lezza! Lou's a lezza!' 'Why are you sitting forward like that Sit back … come on … enjoy it.' What Enjoy what Shit! Did she know Fuck! Was she a lezza too As these thoughts trotted around my mind, going to every corner of that grey matter asking for directions, I could feel Sarah's arm sneaking around my back. I could also feel myself stiffen at her touch. 'Hey, Lou … it's okay … it's okay …' Her voice was soothing … sweet and soft … and I drifted back into my seat, with her arm around my shoulders and her hand in mine. We sat this way until the end credits, which by this stage came all too soon. ******************************************************** Sarah had her own car, and had passed her test in the summer. It wasn't anything special, just a old Mini, but at least she had transport. When she asked if I would like a lift home, doubt flooded my mind once again.
Did I want to get in the car … alone … with her What if she … if I … if we … Never mind. To cut a long story short, I got a lift. Sarah was easy to talk to, and we laughed a great deal on the way home. She was a student at Manchester Uni, and she worked two jobs as well … one on the market, and one in a pub on a Thursday night. My expression must have said it all … how on earth could she work on a Thursday when she had to get up for Uni She explained student life at the higher level was less demanding. More focus was placed on independent learning, and students didn't have to be there all the time. And the added bonus was … she never mentioned the hand holding incident … or the arm around my shoulders. But … I honestly didn't know my arse from my elbow by the time we reached the top of my road. Not that I usually do … but still … I was becoming confused. She pulled up on the side road, as my house was on a corner, and turned her ignition off. If you had been there I guarantee you would have heard my heart rate build up and up and up. The silence in the car was making screeching noises … and was finally put in its place by the thudding in my chest … gut … and maybe even a little bit lower. The blood gushing in my ears was beginning to become a problem, especially when I had to ask Sarah to repeat what she had just said. A sheepish smile flittered across her face, and she cast her eyes down to her lap before raising them to meet my own. 'I said … I've had a lovely night tonight … and thank you.' The smile danced along the corners of her lips … not a crooked one … but still quite charming in its own way. 'Same here …' 'Could we … would you … erm … like to do it again … erm … sometime' Why was she so nervous, said me, who had an entire butterfly collection fluttering around in my gut 'I'd love to.' Her face broke out into a grin and she bit her lip whilst bobbing her head up and down … 'Good … good …' I just watched her, transfixed by this woman seated next to me, watching the lights from the street lamps do wonders with her eyes … making them glisten and sparkle … although they didn't twinkle … I had only ever met one person who's eyes twinkled. But this is not the time to be thinking about her, is it I was sat in a car with Sarah. Not Ash. Sarah. I looked at her, sat there, staring ahead at the quiet road and really digested this girl who was here with me. She was pretty … very pretty in fact. Her hair was darker in this light, but it was usually a dark brown. Her face had an angelic quality; her skin smooth and clear. Her lips,
Page 1 and 2: Synopsis ~ Beginnings ~ by Fingersm
Page 3 and 4: twins, but without the shared organ
Page 5 and 6: overdrive. I raced away, vowing sil
Page 7 and 8: Ashley Richards. Even today, when I
Page 9 and 10: smelling lotion ever invented. Even
Page 11 and 12: whenever she was in the company of
Page 13 and 14: to eat on our day out. Inside the b
Page 15 and 16: 'Keep it … I'll get it later.' He
Page 17 and 18: Tremors shook through me, the wail
Page 19 and 20: I hadn't been enrolled very long, a
Page 21 and 22: struck mute by the situation, the a
Page 23 and 24: sniff of my skin, I decided she had
Page 25 and 26: eason. And this alone made me even
Page 27 and 28: ehind my back. 'Tomorrow, then Sund
Page 29 and 30: 'Are you going to see her again' Th
Page 31 and 32: Then a doubt crept into my mind. Wh
Page 33 and 34: I stood there with the tea towel in
Page 35 and 36: turned the corner. I settled down i
Page 37 and 38: She just stared at me, the grin fix
Page 39 and 40: The sound of brakes screeching to a
Page 41 and 42: fail the health and hygiene test. A
Page 43 and 44: Ash did. Right in her blackcurrant
Page 45: A smile broke out on her face and m
Page 49 and 50: Sensations bulldozed through me. Th
Page 51 and 52: I nodded, as I was unable to speak.
Page 53 and 54: lanketed the reality of my confusio
Page 55 and 56: 'Can we talk' The voice of rich vel
Page 57 and 58: I didn't hear Sarah. I couldn't. Th
Page 59 and 60: And this led to a very interesting
Page 61 and 62: okay' A weak smile trickled onto my
Page 63 and 64: and glorified in the contact as I s
Page 65 and 66: I loved my sister … still do …
Page 67 and 68: Just the once. But no. Reason gripp
Page 69 and 70: So Sarah it was. And … I did feel
Page 71 and 72: The act. The bountiful display of t
Page 73 and 74: I was just about to go upstairs and
Page 75 and 76: A hot body covered my own … smoot
Page 77 and 78: My smile was weak to say the least,
Page 79 and 80: But mainly I was ashamed because I
Page 81 and 82: 'I'm gay.' Short and to the point.
Page 83 and 84: 'Why on earth should you say that'
Page 85 and 86: did feel guilty … She looked so l
Page 87 and 88: Buggeration. Double buggeration. I
Page 89 and 90: How could I ***********************
Page 91 and 92: Could I possibly answer that Could
Page 93 and 94: A very good way to muffle the sobs
Page 95 and 96: 'Come on, Lou … it's our turn.' I
Page 97 and 98:
She had her back to me, but as I go
Page 99 and 100:
'How about all three' She cocked he
Page 101 and 102:
'Of course you haven't … Sarah
Page 103 and 104:
She kissed me. On the mouth. Her mo
Page 105 and 106:
after all those years apart. Stephe
Page 107 and 108:
Far away. Far away from Manchester
Page 109 and 110:
my mum's vast list of expressions).
Page 111 and 112:
'I promise, Ash. This isn't the end
Page 113 and 114:
lips, and it wasn't just the water
Page 115 and 116:
darkened room that promised the del
Page 117 and 118:
eaths that warmed much more than th
Page 119 and 120:
I craved to nurse her nipple in my
Page 121 and 122:
Part Two 2004 Chapter Twenty-Two Yo
Page 123 and 124:
Peas to the ready, and I was in pos
Page 125 and 126:
One of these gems was Sam Read. God
Page 127 and 128:
with my heart. Every single hair on
Page 129 and 130:
didn't realise they were using him;
Page 131 and 132:
steering wheel of his car as he was
Page 133 and 134:
I was trying to soften the blow, an
Page 135 and 136:
for a long time after. Especially b
Page 137 and 138:
'I think so ... but I wouldn't stak
Page 139 and 140:
jumper. But that was never to be. T
Page 141 and 142:
I could feel the emotion building u
Page 143 and 144:
Tentatively, I picked up the paper
Page 145 and 146:
especially when they were connected
Page 147 and 148:
'Brrrrrrrrrrriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnn
Page 149 and 150:
'Coffee.' 'Tea.' Spoken at the same
Page 151 and 152:
Chapter Twenty- Nine What was it wi
Page 153 and 154:
'I haven't come to speak to Sam. Ju
Page 155 and 156:
'Can we go and grab a coffee or som
Page 157 and 158:
a holiday on some crappy day time s
Page 159 and 160:
'How on earth …' 'Well if you …
Page 161 and 162:
Remember Well, as it turned out, he
Page 163 and 164:
Ok. Danny Spencer, however much I h
Page 165 and 166:
And just like all those years ago -
Page 167 and 168:
hips began to grind into her; rhyth
Page 169 and 170:
Hips jerked of their own volition;
Page 171 and 172:
I knew I would never have enough of
Page 173 and 174:
and jittering around inside the ves
Page 175 and 176:
After placing the empty vessel back
Page 177 and 178:
'Okay … you get settled and I'll
Page 179 and 180:
She sighed, knowing I wouldn't give
Page 181 and 182:
So the fingers ventured lower, and
Page 183 and 184:
I had to force my traitorous body t
Page 185 and 186:
'I know son. Well done.' Danny Dann
Page 187 and 188:
'You're right. It all stems down to
Page 189 and 190:
lack once again. ******************
Page 191 and 192:
he was on his feet and walking over
Page 193 and 194:
***********************************
Page 195 and 196:
different … lived in different pl
Page 197 and 198:
get in and out of the house. But sh
Page 199 and 200:
When he'd finished with me, he was
Page 201 and 202:
Fuck. 'I doubt I'll fit in that now
Page 203 and 204:
'You don't have to say it back just
Page 205 and 206:
She waited a little while before sh
Page 207 and 208:
to be tried there. It didn't stop t
Page 209 and 210:
didn't know about the Child Protect
Page 211 and 212:
And I wanted to pick up the phone a
Page 213 and 214:
not what I was feeling. 'Oh … I c
Page 215 and 216:
'Why don't you take the bloody door
Page 217 and 218:
But she still had that evil streak
Page 219 and 220:
I didn't care that my hair was plas
Page 221 and 222:
'Your shag' The bitterness was back
Page 223 and 224:
Within two days, Ash and I were bac
Page 225 and 226:
Yes. In some cases. But throughout
show all

Beginnings

Create successful ePaper yourself

Delete template?

Save as template?