You also want an ePaper? Increase the reach of your titles
YUMPU automatically turns print PDFs into web optimized ePapers that Google loves.
dw s h t ; e l t atn f tu lw k r ïb tr m f<br />
mÃxuBch 2004<br />
3 1<br />
rfNt uh ht J¤<br />
yb u r hf t lt k ct u h tk r fN tu h htJ¤<br />
Kishor Raval<br />
rfNt uh htJ¤ kishor@markis.com<br />
7901 Henry Ave G109<br />
Philadelphia PA 19128<br />
kishor@markis.com<br />
(215) 482 09<strong>24</strong><br />
From www.kesuda.com<br />
jF v ; l tu rfHt u yk slt ’jt j<br />
n he å A t bn uL÷ Ntn<br />
ft u x uµ h, fåA yk slt ’jt j<br />
શબરન બ ર<br />
ક કકલ રવળ
મરઝ<br />
ભલ બઠ હજર વર એન હથ ઝલન,<br />
પરત એ ન સમજય હજ પણ એન નસ ક છ!<br />
સમય ચલય ગય ,જયર' અમ મ*ગજળન પત'ત,<br />
હત જ એક જમનમ હવ એવ તરસ ક છ<br />
નથ એ ભન ક' આશ ક ઈ હત ક' નહ0,<br />
કહ શકય આ હલતન બદગ ક' નહ0<br />
ઘણ સમય થય જ ય નથ હદયન તરફ<br />
નથ ખબર ક' હત આગ ત બ 7ઝ ક' નહ0!<br />
એન જવન સમજ ન બઢપમ હ' ખદ!<br />
જણ વતવ હ ય જવન ગમનમ,<br />
ક ઈ સહય દ'શ એ શદ નથ મન,<br />
શકન હ ભલ ક' રહ છ સવમનમ<br />
મજ નથ છત પધ વવન નહ0 ચલ,<br />
તરસ વધર દધ છ શરબ આપન.<br />
છ તથ મર હર'ક વતમ પર'શન,<br />
પવવત કદલ દધ જવન ખરબ આપન.<br />
પભએ વહ ર' ક'વ આ રગ જમવય છ,<br />
ગલબ કદલન ન એક પણ ગલબ આપન..<br />
સધ ચણવવન પયતન ત વયથS છ-<br />
ફટ ત 7ટ'લ જજWદગ પહ'રમ હવ.<br />
મવડ આખ છ બધ ઝરલ છ નજર,<br />
મર જવ શક' નહ0 એ ઝરમ હવ.<br />
કદનશ પડ_<br />
ઊગ ગય છ ઘસ આ શબદ ન આસપસ,<br />
ટકઓ તરફડ' નવ શબદ ન આસપસ<br />
દ ષકર છ છ ડવ હવ ભરડત શ 7નયત,<br />
ઝળ કર ચળય કર' શસ ન આસપસ<br />
સ<br />
શરદ તરસકરય<br />
અમ*ત ઘયલ<br />
ક ઈ જવ મરત મરત, ક ઈ મરવ વક'<br />
ક ઈ જવનન નહ નખ જવ જન મ જ<br />
લ ક ભખ સર 'ઘયલ' એવ આગહ શન<br />
હણમ હણ પણ ભખ જવ જન મ જ.<br />
મરવન અણ પર છ છત જવ શક છ<br />
સદ'હ તન હ ય ત , આ પડખ ફયN, લ!<br />
સચ જ તમચઓથ ટ'વઇ ગય છ,<br />
અજમવવ છ હથ ત આ ગલ ધયN, લ!<br />
હવ ત કચકચટ બ લ છ ભતર કઈ એવ,<br />
ક ઈ હરકણથ જણ કદલન કચ કપ છ.<br />
અવર ત ક ણ કદવન વવન સહસ કર' એવ,<br />
કર સવSસવન હ ળ કદવસ ન રત તપ છ.<br />
શખદમ આબવલ<br />
વહવ ક'વ છ આ હવ<br />
શસ લત ફલ મરઝત નથ.<br />
આ હવન મ 7લય જણ જજWદગ,<br />
શસ છ ત તય મ તન પગલ નથ.<br />
કકસન સ સ<br />
બ ય પડખ તપ ર'તન સમદર ઊછળ,<br />
ઓવશયળ એક ઓશક' કહમળ ઓગળ<br />
ચચતમ બત બળ ન મ ભથ ઝકળ ગળ,<br />
છ અવજ ન રદન એકનતન ચદર તળ.<br />
મનસખ નકરય<br />
હવ ખરદવ પડ' શહ'રમ હવ,<br />
લ. વચ શસન થશ જહ'રમ હવ .<br />
ર<br />
ણઝણત, રણઝણત એક ઝરણ<br />
બનય નદ ભર ભર,<br />
કળઝળ સ 7રજન આગ,<br />
ન તપત ધરતન તપ,<br />
બન અસસતતવવવકહન<br />
બન બષપ ઊડ' ઊચ આકશ,<br />
થઈ અળગ આ દ વનયથ,<br />
વળગ, આક શ, આકદ' અનક.<br />
દ7ર દ7ર અવકશમ,<br />
ચલપત થવ મથત,<br />
ઊડત. . . ભગત વદળ ,<br />
કળ ભમમર વદળ,<br />
કદશહન ફગ ળત વદળ<br />
ન છત ય વરસ જવ ઉતસક વદળ.<br />
ઊડ ઊચ ઊચ<br />
ન<br />
આચલWગ અચનક હ'ત<br />
પવSત,<br />
ન<br />
વરસ...!<br />
વરસ ર' અનરધર<br />
દડ, ર'લત, છમ. . . છમ. . . છમ<br />
રણઝણત ઝરણ...<br />
બન નદ ભર ભર!<br />
fum ² zt k ykf 31 mÃx uB ch 2004 2
C th;l e mtk s u<br />
hu Ft<br />
Nw f Tj<br />
... y t JN u<br />
yt r’ j<br />
bLm²he<br />
Mb] r;vxlt «tkdKu mk Mf] r; le gt’tu...<br />
aK u b tu;e zt k ytkdKu yu btu hjtl e gt’tu...<br />
;wjmele «’rûtKt, Jz ju "tdt m²; hl t...<br />
cthK u jejt k ;tuhK tu lu j´Ãgt ytk dKu hkdtu¤eyt u...<br />
bkr’ hl t Dkxlt’ Jåau yth;ele gt’t u...<br />
«dxu ’eJz eytu l u ytCu Íc²fu ;thjtytu. ..<br />
’ t ’e l e ’e f he<br />
hm ej t<br />
fr z g t<br />
®s ’deb tk yuJe gu v¤ ytJNu<br />
sgt hu bhJtle W;t J¤ ytJNu.<br />
V²jle ¾gthe fu ctJ¤ ytJN u,<br />
su ;bu JtÔgwk ;u ytd¤ ytJN u.<br />
J]ût "ehs lt ;b u JtÔgt fhtu ,<br />
ytJNu ¾gt huf ;tu V¤ ytJNu.<br />
sgt hu btu mb f²a fhNu ctd:e,<br />
V²jle ytkFtu bt k Ítf¤ ytJNu.<br />
mtkslt ytu¤t ytu jkctE hÌtt,<br />
yule ytkF tul wk fts¤ ytJNu.<br />
Ídbd u Au m² go vuju vth vK<br />
Jåau Nkft lt Jt ’¤ ytJNu.<br />
bt he fhe lt ltle Au, ytÏF t Dhle htKe Au.<br />
’t’tlt Jntju QkDu Au, òdu ;tu ’tZe FUa u Au.<br />
bt p bl e jtzje c uxe Au, zp zele ztne ’efhe Au.<br />
ctle Jntje MJexe Au, mtile ;u ;tu ¾g²xe Au.<br />
Ãjubux vh ;u Fuju Au, np®L dd xtpgÍ lu ;u vfzu Au.<br />
me ntpm ole v² kAz e FUau Au, beXw k Bg²rÍ f mtkC¤u Au.<br />
Qk"t vz Jtlw k NeF u Au, vux ’c tg ; tu hz u Au.<br />
su ftkE nt:btk vf zu Au, ;u mt ilu btu kb tk l tkF u Au.<br />
®MJdbtk cum e Ͳju Au, cthe cnth swyu Au.<br />
J]ûtt u lu V²jtu ltau Au, fhel t htS htS Au.<br />
Qkau yt Cu swyu Au, ydz kc dz k ctuju Au.<br />
vprmVtgh a²mu Au, yuf ’b ytkFtu b´ au Au.<br />
ctWLme m exbtk cu m u Au, ypfTJurh gb rlnt¤u A u.<br />
vd:e btAje Vuh Ju Au, mtdh mkde; mtkC¤u Au.<br />
nt:vd F²c njtJu Au, FtMme fmh ; fhu Au.<br />
¥yt yt ct ’t Wk¥ dtg Au , ;tlthehe clu A u.<br />
aL÷ òu btuz t u vzu ;tu ar L÷ft<br />
:ilu nh Ke sub rJú¤ yt JNu.<br />
ÍtkÍJt vfze leatuJe òuE ju,<br />
yuf Íh Kwk Jnu; wk F¤F¤ ytJNu .<br />
Auf Au Hu lef¤u yb]; f’ta<br />
vnujtk ;tu fuJ¤ n¤tn ¤ ytJN u.<br />
ðgtk s htuf tE sJt lwk bl :Nu<br />
yuf yuJwk btdobtk M:¤ ytJNu.<br />
vÚ:htu Jåau hnu Jtlw k bé gwk<br />
¾gtk:e MvNtolk’ ftub¤ yt JNu<br />
yt lJe rnsh;:e dChtytu ln ´<br />
sgt k sNtu mt :u s yks¤ ytJNu<br />
¥Fwj ò rm brm b¥ bk ºt C²je òJ ;tu<br />
ïthbtk m k; tz uje f¤ ytJNu.<br />
FwHtk ntu fu ck", Dhl tk cthKtk,<br />
b]ðgw FFztJelu mt kf¤ ytJNu.<br />
fum ² zt k ykf 31 mÃx uB ch 2004 3
;the ©Øtlt Fzf lu ;t u zJt ,<br />
yuf bu Á vK yrJa¤ yt JNu.<br />
ytÏFeg v]ÚJe Vhe z²ce sNu<br />
"mbm k; t yuJtk fI s¤ ytJNu.<br />
òK u l Je lftuh mwn td ht;!<br />
v´Ae<br />
rd he N<br />
Ji¼<br />
Jtx òu;e ytkF FwHe hne dE<br />
yu l n´ ;tu yult u ftd¤ ytJN u.<br />
fc{btk Qkzu W ;the ’u ;lu<br />
ðgtk mw"e yt ’wrlgt vtA¤ ytJN u.<br />
fc{ ;tu vnujw k vdr :gw k Au yl u<br />
®s’deltu b tdo ytd¤ ytJN u.<br />
Fuj vkrz ;lt u nJu òugt k fhtu<br />
vtDze Auzu c"t J¤ ytJN u.<br />
jtu dÍj v"htJtle ytJe Dze,<br />
mt:u yût; fkfw ©eV¤ ytJNu.<br />
b]ðgwle ytr’j fhtu ;igthe ytu<br />
SJJtlwk vK bl tuc¤ ytJNu<br />
yc t u j t<br />
v² r K ob t vxu j<br />
yt ;tht Jthu Jthu juJt;t yc tujtlu<br />
fu ;tÁk vzFw k Vhe lu m ²E sJtle ÍDz t vAe le yt’;l u<br />
òu nwk b tV fh e yJdKe Nfwk,<br />
;tu vAe ytvKe Jåau le yt ;fhthle f tuE sY h; s ¾gtk A u<br />
;tht «ubl wk yrM;ðJ MJef thelu,<br />
bt ht Nç’tultk sJtcb tk ;tÁk bti l òu nwk m ne N fw k,<br />
;tu vAe ytvKe Jåau «ub A u fu ln ´ yuJtu mJtj s ¾gtk Au<br />
;tÁ k fNwk g fÌ tt Jd hlwk vK DKwk c"wk f nuj,<br />
nw k ytb; tu nJu mb S Nfwk<br />
yl u ;tht b lt Ôgt r Jltg, btht k hem tbKt k Atuze ;t ht yctujt ;<br />
tuztJe<br />
Nfwk.<br />
vK W’tm jtdK eytu òu Cude :E ytb ¾gth uf<br />
yatlf s Ó’g vh nwbjt u fhu<br />
;tu ; th t «ub lwk ntuJt vKwk nwk vz fthe Nfwk<br />
vK r«g; b, ; wk f ub btht «ubltk vwhtJtltu ytd{ n ht FuA u<br />
;tht :e ¾gtk Au yòK ytvKt yctujt ;²xT gt vAele nh yuf<br />
ht ;,<br />
bt he hkdel jtdKeytule hswyt;,<br />
c the ,cthK tk<br />
cnth<br />
’eJtjtu:e ’²h ’²h ðg tk<br />
ytftN Duhtgujw k Au.<br />
rfhKtule mtuz ;tKe m²hs vK m² ;t u Au<br />
Duh tgujtk Jt’¤ J"t hu lu J"thu Duht k;t òg Au,<br />
c hV lt k Vt uhtk J"thulu J"thu Duhtk ;tk òg Au.<br />
Jtz,<br />
Jtzt,<br />
; cujt,<br />
bu’tl,<br />
xufht,z w kdht,<br />
l’e, lt¤tk,ÍhKtk, Jt ukf¤tk,<br />
dhlt¤tk,<br />
Ftcturag tk,<br />
bkr’h, bmS’, rdhò,<br />
xtWl,<br />
xtWl<br />
ntuj,<br />
fc{M;tl,<br />
c "wk chV leau j’t gu jwk Au,<br />
’ctg ujwk A u,<br />
’xtgujwk<br />
Au.<br />
ylu yu c"t:e ’²h ’²h yn´<br />
Xhuje ’eJtjtu Jåau ,<br />
chV suJt mVu’ f td¤ vh<br />
v´Aelt jmhfu jmh fu btht:e Vrj; :tg Au..<br />
ytftN ...yuf ytftN ,<br />
CwÁk CwÁ k ytftN,<br />
yufjw k yu fjwk ytftN.<br />
C²ht, C²h t ytftN lu yu fjwk yufjw k jtd u Au,<br />
yufjt,yu fjt ytftNlu C ²Ák C²Ák jtd u Au<br />
lu nJu v´ Ae ae ;he ’u Au<br />
yuf fjdevtuN vût e<br />
vûte le yu móhkde fjde...<br />
vûte le lJhk de yu vt kFt u, yu veA tk<br />
yule vtkFtu:e nJu ChtE òg Au ytftN.<br />
yult xnwfu xnwfu QCh tg Au Jmk ;<br />
ylu ðg tk s vût ele móhkde fjdeyu<br />
V²xu Au b²Alt u ’tuht u<br />
nJu vûtelu yufjw k yu fjw k jtdu Au,<br />
fum ² zt k ykf 31 mÃx uB ch 2004 4
lJhkde vtkFtul u C²Ák C²Á k jtd u Au,<br />
at kalu ;²Ák ; ²Ák jtdu A u.<br />
yult xnw ft Ntu"u Au ceò xn wf t,<br />
mt’ Ntu"u A u «r;mt ’.<br />
nJu vkAe ctJh t hu ...vkAe ct Jht hu<br />
ylu ðgtk s ytfth ju Au<br />
j¤f; e,<br />
Z¤f;e,<br />
nhFt;e,<br />
nu;t ;e,<br />
:ldl ;e ,<br />
:h:h;e,<br />
Nhbt;e,<br />
lta;e, lFht¤e, lbKe<br />
v´Au v´Au veXe atu¤u je,<br />
bU’e hkduje,<br />
yuf<br />
bult.<br />
vujt f jde’th m tVvt uN vût ele rcjfwj jdtujd<br />
yule lJhkde vtkFtubt k<br />
jvt;e,<br />
ak vt; e,<br />
mb t;e<br />
bult.<br />
yl u bult ytu Ze ju Au vujt vû tele<br />
l Jhkd e vtkFtulw k vtlu;h,<br />
Jmk ;e Jt ghtbtk m²h Au NhKt Elt.<br />
at ka:e atka WXtJu Au<br />
f wkJth t yhb tltultu D² kDx!<br />
at hu cts w dt uXJtE òg Au DuD²h J]ûtt u,<br />
J]ût tul e zt¤u zt ¤u Ͳju Au bt¤t.<br />
ð gt k s ya tlf<br />
cthe<br />
cnth<br />
’eJtjtu:e ’²h ’²h ðgtk- -<br />
rJfht¤ Jtght JK mu Au,<br />
Jt’¤tu J´Ítg Au ,<br />
Jt’¤tu J´"tg Au.<br />
bu D dsoltlt rJMVtux!<br />
rJMVtuxlt<br />
vz Dt!<br />
vz Dtlt<br />
rJMV t ux!<br />
l u JKmuje, Jfhu je Jes¤elw k<br />
fzt ft Cztft mt:u Jzjtlt J]û t Wvh ºttxfJwk<br />
mt:u s m¤d ;t bt¤t lwk ,<br />
jtunel tu jtua tu :E chV vh Juh tE sJwk.<br />
mV u’ fV lNt chV vh athu c tsw v:htgujt k<br />
l Jhkd<br />
v´Atk<br />
-- lt, lJhkde vtl u;hl t a´:h tk ,<br />
l tzt Aze :e ctk"ujt fVl vh Atkxujt k fkfwl t Atkxt <br />
bt ht raºtb tk vujtk cÒtu VVz;tk vûtel e dCht gu je ytkFtu btk yuf<br />
mJtj<br />
n;tu.<br />
Nwk<br />
:gwk<br />
Nt lu :gwk <br />
l u btht nt :btk:e mhe vz u Au v´Ae....<br />
l tl tk ltlt k ftÔgt u<br />
f ]»Kt r’ ðg<br />
ºt K h uFt raº ttu<br />
r’lht; ftuE vtº t AjtuAj Cgto fh u<br />
;tu g ; ]»tt le ; hm hÌtt fh u<br />
yuf ytkm w vzu rflth u<br />
mbw÷ F¤C¤u.<br />
Ftujw k sgtk vkatkd<br />
b] ðgwr; r: b¤u..<br />
miftyt ule mkMf]r; l wk mh Jigwk<br />
gwØ gwØltu ;tv yK wAºt elt u Atkg tu<br />
rn htuN ebt le<br />
yKwhs<br />
J]rÐb tk<br />
’uJ¤ z ²ç gt k.<br />
ºt Ku Jt k’ht<br />
swyu mtk C¤u c tuju<br />
dtk"e<br />
s;t kbtk<br />
n wk l ztuN e<br />
l ehJ vx uj<br />
"ò Vh fu<br />
bkr’ hl e<br />
;zf u<br />
rC ûtwf<br />
"{²su<br />
ak÷ ;K e at cwf:e ab ¾gt<br />
yµtu ~gtbj mb w÷lt<br />
nw k btht xucj vh vtAtu VÁk Awk<br />
fum ² zt k ykf 31 mÃx uB ch 2004 5
(bthtu bbh tu& a² kxKe xtK JN thJt le<br />
Jt; m. b tKn l tuF tk, "²; th t l tuF tk,<br />
b; mJtr ’gt ltuFtk vK btlJe Elt E ylu c¤;ht E<br />
l e E, lI<br />
1<br />
nt¤t atje -våat Jhn :e cFt¤t fh m<br />
vK f~ Ntu CjeJth jtJ;t l:e yubl t ftpb bk.<br />
cu-vtka Jhn :gtk l:e<br />
fu ytgt b ; btdJt!<br />
nt¤e f~Ne d;tdb vz; e l:eytxytxjt<br />
b; òg m ågtk<br />
fp¥m f yt JF; ;tu Jtjtu ltk buh e QCt m...<br />
nti fu¥m btKn nth tu m.<br />
fp¥Jtg m f Cjtu yt’b e ctctmtguclt JF;:e<br />
dhec-d whctkltk ftkb fh m.<br />
vK yt htÏ FN tub t k ctvztlw k nwk dsw<br />
ctuj, ztuN e, nwk fhJwk m yt Vuht<br />
;bu ;tu slblt Ctur¤g t, ztunt<br />
Ji;htk f²xe FtJ.<br />
ntkCgwO m f bt:t’eX ’n bj m <br />
yli dtk rXgtlwk vzefwk mtud tb<br />
btuxh b uje òg l ji òg.<br />
Diz i- DizvK bnt je jtu cu Dze -<br />
vtuxje vtkKe veJwk ntug ;tu ve jt u.<br />
Jtjt ltkb uhe lw k CdJtkl ntÁ fh -<br />
bK b; ;tu blw Cil k.<br />
òJ, sElk CtJ;tj fhe ytJtu,<br />
fu¥òu f cu sK m&<br />
nwk lf ztuNe.<br />
2<br />
Ci ntk Cg wO m f yu ;tu bt:t ’eX ’n ytj m<br />
;bth cth ytjJt ntug ;tu<br />
cu<br />
m&<br />
nwk l ztuNe...<br />
ÍtÍt<br />
l:e,<br />
cu ’nt zel t b²j m.<br />
ybth cu Dze rJnt kbt u Ji;htk b tk: e.<br />
ctfe ybu ;t u yt nU zTgtk ntz ftk JUKJt -<br />
bdtu b U;h ftu:¤u vt ka ytj m<br />
ntks vz ht uxjt Cu¤ :gt<br />
yuxj Cgtu Cgt u.<br />
Ci ;bl k ntukÃgtk hts l vtx<br />
ybth ;tu Cjtu yb thtu hͤvt x.<br />
ftp¥, ’t¥zt u aZ m<br />
lk zt uNe Ftuxe :tg m...<br />
ytjJt m bt:t’e X cth<br />
cu<br />
m&<br />
nwk l ztuNe.<br />
( ¥vhc¥btk:e mtCth)<br />
¾gtk Au<br />
sgk ; vt Xf<br />
(bt htu b bhtu & rNÕvele s ub yuf yuf Nç ’lu f kz the vkrfT ;yt ub t k dtuXÔgt<br />
Au ylu gt’ltu Í whtvt u ylu Íwh tvtl e Ju’l t Jtka;t ytvKlu d¤u z² btu<br />
jtJe ’u Au....)<br />
òkcwztl t Ítz W vh jxf;tu<br />
jejtu jejtu b thtu m²hs ¾gtk Au<br />
¾g tk Au b tht Fu;hF ²Ktlt f²Jtb tk<br />
fc²;ht kle vtk Ftu Wvh m²;u jtu<br />
Ctu¤tu C tu¤t u yk"fth<br />
«Ct;vkFelt vdjtkl e rjr vbt k<br />
yt¤Fujtu<br />
zw kdh Vh ;tu, afht;tu yu aejtu ¾gtk A u<br />
¾g tk Au b the vÚ:h Jåau<br />
vtKe jElu Jn u;e<br />
mbKt suJe l’e<br />
Jlvhelt ltlfzt Ftuct suJe<br />
;hkdle ytkd¤eytu Jåa u<br />
vJl hbtz ;e<br />
vuje bthe ;jtJz e ¾gtk Au<br />
¾g tk Au b tÁk xufheytulw k dtb,<br />
fum ² zt k ykf 31 mÃx uB ch 2004 6
dtblwk Dh, Dhle ftuZ, ftuZ btk<br />
yk"thtle ft¤e dtglu ’tu ¥;e bth e ct<br />
¾gtk<br />
Au<br />
( ¥vhc¥btk:e mtC th)<br />
d Í j<br />
hEN ble y th<br />
yt ldh vK yuf xtu¤wk :Edgwk,<br />
ytvKwk ntuJwk. ..l - ntuJw k :E dgwk.<br />
suxjwk J;w o¤ b tuxwk :E dgwk,<br />
yuxjwk yu ytuh vtujwk :E dgwk .<br />
mt; h kdtu le mCt cu ath ûtK,<br />
yu vAe ytftN "tu¤wk :E dgwk.<br />
ò;lu Jemh elu vtBgtu Awk ;lu,<br />
vtbJw k vtu; u s FtuJwk :E dgwk .<br />
’’o ;tÁk Nu hbt k ;U f ne ’e"wk,<br />
"l n;w k ;tÁk ;u mtil wk :E dgwk.<br />
xtua vh vn tukå gt kle yt Au V¤ ©wr;,<br />
®s’deCh leatòuKwk :E dg wk.<br />
b th tu<br />
bbhtu<br />
rl ht j k ct mh M J;e<br />
r fN tu h htJ ¤<br />
mtk EXl t ’tgftbtk nwk bw kcE le yuf yprLs rlgh´ d fkvlebt k ftb<br />
fh;tu n ;tu ylu ; ult ;h V:e bthu yuf ºtKuf r’Jmle b Nel -xwÕm<br />
rJ»t ule mur blth vh vJtEle ytE.ytE.xe.btk sJtlw k :gwk. sw’t sw’t<br />
rJ»tgt u vh yh "t fu ytFt r’Jmle c uXf tu dtuXJuje ylu ’huf cuXflt<br />
rlgkºtK bt xu s²’t s² ’t Ïgt;ltb b tKm tul u le buj t.<br />
yuf cuXf xtxt fkvlelt btu xt bpl psh rb.xkzlu mkCt¤e. yu<br />
cuXflw k ftb v²Ák :; tk :t uzt u mbg cågtu n; tu. r b.xkzl u yuf rJl r;<br />
fhe. ªbt hu n igtle :tuze Jt; fhJe Au. yu yts lt rJ»tglu ykdu l:e<br />
vK yn´ W¼tud, fu¤JK e yl u mhfthlt yd{d½g btKmtu mt:u cuXt<br />
Au ; tu yn´ yu A uzJe Wra; jtdu A u. mtkC¤Ntuª<br />
mti lwk ylwb tu ’l b¤; tk Jt ; NY fhe. ªytvKe fu¤JKele mkM:tytu b tk<br />
C Kujt k rJ¼t:eoytu ybth e vtmu ftb Ntu "Jt ytJu Au. ylu ;uble mt:u<br />
Jt; fh;tk yJt hl Jth yblu yu Jwk :tg Au fu ytslt mk’C ob tk ybt hu<br />
sYhe A u yuJe JM;wytultu yubl u fkE Ïgtj s l:e ylu sul e f’e sY h<br />
vz Jtle l ntug ;uJwk lftb wk DKwk yb:w k yb :wk ;ub l u N eF JJtbtk ytÔ gwk<br />
Au. yu ftb fhJt òuztg ðgth u vnujt k A br nlt ;tu ybt hu ftb lwk<br />
Ne FJJt ylu lf tbw k CwjtJJtbt k dt¤Jt vz u. ; tu ytsu ytvKu mti<br />
yn´ Cudt :gtk Ae yu ;tu ytvKu yhm vhm yuJt u yuf Jt; tojtv NY<br />
f he Nf eyu su:e ftpjus fu g²rlJrmoxeltu yÇgtm¢b J"w y:ov²K o fhe<br />
Nfeyu mtil u Vtg’tu :tg ;uJe Jt; Au. ylu nwk yu c"t k VuhVthtu ytsu<br />
yn´ fhJt yub l:e fn u; tu, vK yu r’Ntbtk mnfth:e ytd¤ J"Jt<br />
l ¬e f he Nfeyu Fh tk....ª<br />
yub Jemuf rb rlx yu bl t ylw CJ vh:e ’tF jtytu ytÃgt,<br />
m²a lt u fgto ylu rJJuf:e yu «M;tJl u xuftu ytv;e Jt;tu fhe .<br />
yuble Jt ; v²he :E yuxju ðgtklt ze l, CkJt azt Je, ltf<br />
V wkdh tJe MxuEs vh ytÔgt ylu Qk at yJts u vh FtÔgwk, ª; bu<br />
W ¼tu dJt¤tyt u ;bthe ò;lu mti:e Q kae dKtu At u. vK mbòu fu ybu<br />
yn´ ath J»tob tk Ne Fz tJeyu ; u ;bu atje m J»tuo vK l n´ NeF ztJe<br />
Nftu ...ª ylu yu he;u dwMmtb t k, yf¤tE lu ct ujJt jtøgt. yublt u b ²z<br />
vth F;tk rb.xkzlu yubl u Jåau s htu¾g tk, ªb tV fhòu, b thtu yuJtu ftuE<br />
R ht’tu ln tu;tu fu yb u ;btht fh;tk Qkatk. nw k bth t Nç ’tu vt At FUae<br />
jW k Awk, mtuh e, Juh e mtuhe...ª ylu Jt;lt u yk; ytÔ g tu.<br />
bl u :gwk f u ytsu yt xjt J»tuo c"w k c’jtgwk nNu.<br />
nwk dgt rNgt¤u C th; dgujt u. ¾gtkf ftuEf ftpjusbtk CK;t<br />
rJ¼ t:eo mt:u Jt; fhJt cuXtu. v²A;tk Fch vze fu ykd {uS mtrnðg<br />
bw Ïg rJ»tg htFe lu ;u yu b.yu. CK u Au . bU v²ATgwk, ªCtE, yÇgtm<br />
’hr bg tl fgt fgt ykd{uS juFftul tu vrhag fhtJJtbtk ytJu Auª ;<br />
tu ;ubl u :tuz t ’tFjt ytÃgt, ªswytul u N uf Tmrvgh , bpft uju, Npje ylu<br />
f exTm. ..ª bU fÌtwk fu ª ft uE yt "wrlf ju Ff tul tu vr hag Fhtuª ªyt "wrl f<br />
yuxjuª ylu Fch vz e fu c x[to Lz hmuj, ytÕzm nfTmje, ßn tpl<br />
MxtE lcpf, suEBm rb Nl h, yu .su .¢tprll, lpr Jj N²xl t l tbtu s<br />
F ch ln ´! yu ;tu mbs gt vK yt dt:t r¢Mxe , ve.S . J²z nt Wm,<br />
yprb je rzrfLml y:Jt ytvKtk yrl;t ’um tE, rJ¢b Nu X, mjbt l<br />
hN ’e s uJtk ltbt u:e ;Æl vK yò½gt . yuxju yuJwk nNu FÁk fu<br />
yts lt rNût ft ult rNût ft ult rNût ft u su NeÏgt n; t yu vh :es yt sl t<br />
yÇgt m ¢btu Dz t;tk n Nu<br />
ðgt k n;tu ð gthu yuf CtE yuf l Je, ck"tg uje yl u nbKtk s<br />
NY :;e, yVjt ;²l yprLsrlg®hd ftpjus ’uFt zJt jE dgt n;t. yu<br />
vtu;u ftpjuslt rlbt oK bt k, Ãjt® ldbtk N Yyt;:e s òuz tg t n; t. mhm<br />
f uBvm n ;wk, vim tu F²c s F ha ujtu n ;t u. bU v²ATgwk, ªyt mk M:tlt<br />
rl bto Kb tk ;bu yt su W¼tudbtk Nwk :E hÌtwk Au ylu yulu Wra;<br />
yÇgtm btk N wk fhJwk òuEyu ;u bt xu yublt ftuE m²a lt u je"tk n; tk<br />
F htkª ;tu sJtc bégtu, ªCKtJJt bt xu Nwk Nw k fhJwk vzu yulw k v²Á k ¿t tl<br />
ybt he fu¤JK el e mkM:tyt u vtmu Au ybthu W¼tu dvr; ytul e ’tZeb tk<br />
nt : ltFJtle fNe sYh ’uFtKe l:e.. ..ª<br />
mòd hn elu CKJtlt, C KtJJt lt lJt ; he ft ytu ¥RltuJuNl¥<br />
Nt u";t hnu, mso;t hn u ylu NY N Ybt k ceò ytd¤ J"ujt ’uNt ul wk<br />
yl wfhK fh e Nf u yuJt btKmt ul u b tuF hu fub jtJe N ftg<br />
rmleytp rhxe l e mt :u mòd hnelu yt fh t mJtjt u v²Ae N fu ylu yu:e<br />
l Jt rJathtu hs² fhu ylu ybjb tk b² fe Nf u yuJtyt ulu ytd¤ J"the<br />
l<br />
Nfeyu<br />
fum ² zt k ykf 31 mÃx uB ch 2004 7
m kDh u jw k<br />
m wF<br />
r fN tu h htJ ¤<br />
ªytsu ;wk yt NwC ftb N Y fhu A u ðgth u yu mt at y:ob tk ; wk c {t ñK :t<br />
yuJtk yNeJto’ ytvwk Aw k.<br />
ªr ca tht k ct¤ftultu nJt jtu r’Jmb t k A fjtf btxu ytvKlu mtukvt g<br />
ð gt hu ytvKu b tc tv Aeyu yub bt lelu s ;ubl u bt do’N ol yt vsu ylu<br />
bt ct vle ^rÐyu ;u bl u rl hF e ; ublt rJftm btk b ’’Yv :tsu.ª<br />
;b u v² ANtu fu mwF ltk ;u fk E vz ef tk n tug!<br />
mtkC¤tu yt Jt;.<br />
Jem ctJe m J»tole huJ;elu nsw vK Ítz òu;tk s fAtuxtu Jt¤e Wvh<br />
aze sJtlwk bl :E òg. ylu yu WBbhu ;ul u ¥ bkd jb²r ; o¥<br />
ctjbk r’ hb t k ¥btM;htKe¥le ltufhe b¤e dE. C KJu yu¬tu n;e<br />
yuxju Atufhtk CKtJJtltu ftuE z h l ntu;t u. ;tuVtl fh u yuJt<br />
rJ¼ t:eoyt ulu vK vn tuka e J¤Jtl e ©Øt vK v²he . btu xt btM; h<br />
blwCtE yu ; ulu vnuju r ’Jmu ctujtJe :tuze m²a ltyt u ytve ylu AuH u<br />
vtu;tle rVÕm²Ve ÔgfT ; fhe..<br />
ªò u cul, bl u ;tu btM;hle Sk’de yuJe V¤e Au fu cesu slb vK blu<br />
bt M;h s cltJu yub Rå Awk. fw b¤e Jglt ct¤ftulu nt:b tk jE s² ’t<br />
s ²’t Dtx DxJtbtk yuJe ;t u bò yt Ju Au. ve vhbe x suJt mti l tuF t<br />
l tuFt. y"to Dt x DztEl u ytJu ylu ytvK u ;ul u ¾gt huf c’jJt vzu,<br />
¾gthuf ;ub lu s ;u blt MJgkC² MJYvl u rJfmtJ;t NeFJtzeyu, Dhle<br />
’eJtjt ule cn thle ’wr lgtbtk Nw k Nwk CgwO Au ;ult u ; ubl u ytMJt’<br />
fhtJe yu...<br />
ªnwk sLb u c {tñ K yl u dt k"eSyu ;tu l t; ò; lt Cu’t u Ct kdJt yb lu<br />
«uhujt. ylu n wk yuJtu m²dt¤Jtu l:e fu ytle nthu vtxjtu ltu vztg yl u<br />
ytlt f h;tk yt W•tb yuJw k n wk b tle Nf wk. vK ytxjt J» tuo blu yu f<br />
MV ²hK t :E ytJe Au, yuf «ftN :gtu A u fu f’ta yuJw k l n tug fu<br />
ctv’t’tyu c{tñK JtrKgt fhe b ²¾ gt ;ule vtA¤ yuf W•tb CtJlt<br />
s nNu ! c{tñK yuxju sulu ¿ttl «tró ylu ¿ttl vehmJtltu F²c s :<br />
ldltx ntug. yu sbtl tbtk ¿ttl yuxju Ju’tuåath fh Jtlt , bkºttu<br />
svJtlt k, sgt ur;»t, lûtº ttul wk drK; mbsJwk, mk de;l e ytht "lt<br />
fhJe, SJlle mtrðJf ;t fub s¤ Jtg ;ulw k bltu b k:l fhJwk yl u Wfuj<br />
ftZ Jt. V¤ V²j FtE lu mt’tE:e hn uJwk ylu mt htk rN»g tu b¤u yulu ;<br />
ub ltu ct u" ’uJt u yu f vimtle ytNt htÏgt Jdh.<br />
ªy® fa l h nuJw k vK vimt Ft;h ¿ttlltu Ju vth l fhJtu. ft uE ztkxe<br />
òg ;u mtF e l juJwk. "l b txu f tuE le f’bvt uNe fhJe l db u. mð g<br />
yl u Lg tgle SJlCh Ntu" f h;tu hnu ;u c{t ñK. ylu yu c{tñ Kð J<br />
Jth mtbt k s Q; h;w k h nu ;u C tJlt:e Jtzt ctk"Jtbt k s C ²j fhe c uXt.<br />
hu J;e lu b lb tk n mJwk ytÔ g wk. ybu s ct¤f tu suJt Aeyu ;t u yblu bt le<br />
f u ctvle ^rÐ fuJe h e; u jt"u vK yuKu mtkC¤e je"w k. mtu kvu jt Jdolu<br />
mkCt¤Jt<br />
jtde.<br />
Jdo ltk ct¤ft ulu òuElu ve vhbe xle m hFtbKe yuxje W ra; jtde fu<br />
bt uk bhfe dgwk. jtkctu yç’wj, x²kft u ~gtbw , ’tuKe suJtu, b jtFe<br />
ytkFtuJt ¤tu Jtzejtj, ;eKtk m t’Jt¤tu ylu j:c: QkatJt¤le<br />
c tc he vt z; tu b"w, hzbm sgtur;, bh f;e ylu dtjbtk dj vtz ;e<br />
bk sh e, ht bw, ’u Jw, sgJ’l fu Jtmk ;e , òz tu yuJtu «¼w Bl ylu ’tZeb ²A<br />
Jdh lt yDtuhe suJtu ylk ;.<br />
yl k; c"t btk s²’tu ;h e ytJ; tu. WBb h ;tu mt; ytX J»tole vK l<br />
f vzt kbtk XuftKt , l Jt¤ mhFt ytu¤ujt, Nu»tltd suxjtu bl vh c tuòu<br />
yl u rJ»tt ’, ’wrlgt:e vh- ;Æl sjfb J;T yuxju fu btu k vh f’e m hF wk<br />
vtK e Atk xTg wk nt ug ;uJwk l jtdu. mtJ jDhJDh ylu N²L gb lMf!<br />
yuf :ujtbtk vtxe, vul, yuf ltuxc²f, vurL mjlt cu cxftk ylu yuf cu<br />
C KJtle atuvz eyt u Xtk mel u jtJu. ; ub tk:e ò uEyu ðgthu fkE szu lr n<br />
yl u Ntu"Jtle sYh vzu ðgthu :uje Qk"e f he sb el vh Zdjtu fhu . nh<br />
JF ;u yubt k :e yuf lt lwk vtJzh lw k zcjwk ’ze yt Ju. yu s²lt Xtuc ht suJt<br />
vtJz hl t z çctb tk ftuK òKu Nwk Ch;t u n;tu ;u yu òKu. ftuE r’¥ Ftuju<br />
l rn ylu ftuElu Ftu jJt ’u lrn. c"tk ;u lu ¥yk; w zcje, Fme dE<br />
z d¤e¥ fn e FesJu. vK FeòJtle vK ct"t. ;Æ l jtvhJt.<br />
hu J;e r’Jmu r’Jm u c "tk mt:u vrhra ; :;e dE. blwCtEyu fÌtwk ;u<br />
mta wk jtøgwk ylu Atufht kytu btk Jnt je :; e dE. l ft uE he;u am fu vujtu<br />
yk; w. juml r lgrb; l fhu, ylu fhu ðgth u JuX Q ;thu. y¬jltu<br />
y"²h tu ;tu l jtøgtu vK ytxje WBb hu ¥yt ymth mkmth btk mthYv<br />
mkL gtm... ¥ yuJwk fkE ¿ttl b¤e dgwk l n tug ! fNwk fh Jwk s l:e ;uJe<br />
yuf CUfth b ltu J]r•t MvÐvKu lshu ytJu.<br />
br nl tu v²h tu :;tk huJ;eltu vnujt u vdth ytÔgtu. ylu vimt sElu<br />
hu J;e yu ctvwlt nt:btk b ²¾gt . ctvw f nu fu huJ;e, cuxt, yt vimt ; th t<br />
s Au yl u ;the vtmu s htF. ytd{n f h;tk vK ctvw am¾gt lrn.<br />
fum ² zt k ykf 31 mÃx uB ch 2004 8
hu J;e ;ule cnulvKe Jk’l t mt:u Qvz e còh u. yuf fumh e ctuz ohle<br />
mVu’ mtz e je"e , yuf cu çjtWÍ vem jE bkd ¤t ’hS lu ðgtk meJJt<br />
ytÃg tk. Dh lt u yuflt u yuf ’tkr ;gtu cu-ºtK ’tk; u ctuFtu :E dg ujtu yuxju<br />
Dh btxu ÃjtrMxfl tu C ²ht u yuf ’tkr ;gtu je"tu. yuf h tKe fjh lt fkfwle<br />
z cje je"e. ðgtk lsh dE yuf vtJzhle zce W vh. W vh jFujwk<br />
¥$røjN jJkzh xtÕf b vtJzh.¥ ’wftlJt ¤tu fnu& ªyMmj #røjN<br />
bt j Au, cnw s s²le ylu òKe ;e aes Au. mwdk" ;tu òuE s²yt u.<br />
ytr£l :E sNtu. ª zctu Ft uje m²k ægtu , ltf ; tu Nwk vK bl vK bD bDe<br />
QXTgwk. FUa;tK f he C tJ fgtuo ylu jElu Dh C Ke W vze. Jåa u<br />
òl bn Bb’l e ’wftl ytJe yuxju huJ;ey u cnulvKeltu nt: FUågtu<br />
yl u c Òtu sE yk’h cuXe. yuf ae fwlt ytEm¢eble Ãjux b dtJe<br />
vnu jtu vdth QsÔgtu.<br />
ces u r’Jmu ¥bkdjb ²r;o¥ Qvz; tk huJ;e yu AuH u vujtu vtJzhltu zc tu<br />
F tuje yk’hltk vV:e btuk vh AtkxTgtu. ¥vdjtk "h Ke vh ylu bt: wk<br />
MJdu o¥ yuxju Nwk ;ultu Ïgt j ytJe dgtu . btu k vh yt;b ltu ytuòm<br />
«mhtE<br />
dgtu.<br />
ytdjt r’Jm u Atufhtkytul u rzfTxu Nl ytÃg wk n;wk ylu ytsu c"tl u ;<br />
vtme lu ytvJtlt ftd¤tule :Ãve :ujebt k:e ft Ze yuf vAe yuf lt b<br />
ctuj;t k ;ub lu xucj vtmu ctujt Je vh; fgtO. ftuKu fuxjw k mtawk fgw O ylu<br />
fuxje C²jtu fh e ;u rJ»tu m; ; r lJu’l atjw htÏgwk. ª Jtmk;e, F²c<br />
mh m. yt JF;u yuf s C²j vze. yût htu :t uzt mw"thJt le sYh Au...<br />
yç ’wj, ; wk ;tu ; wk ctuju ;uJ wk jFu Au . òu, ¥Jhe Jhelu bU vtA h òugwk ¥ òu<br />
C tE, nwk ctu jwk yub jFJtlwk- ;w k ctuj;tu ntug ;u b lrn...ª<br />
vujt yk ;w lt u ftd¤ nt:btk je "tu.ytudK em C ²jtu n ;e . c"tkle sub<br />
òn uhb tk fnuJt dE vK :tuze yaf tKe . yk; w ;tu ;ult zuMf vh bt :wk<br />
l tFe ’²h ’²h rûtr;s vh fkE òuE hÌ ttu n;tu, ;ul u fNe vhJt l nt u;e.<br />
v¤ yuf :kCe dE. vAe ct uje& ªcm Jdo mbtó. mtilu Awèe.<br />
yl k; , ;w k sh t vtm u ytJ;tu yuf rbrl x...ª fuhb h b; tk òuÁftu btKm<br />
yuf Vxfu Mx[tE fh:e c"e f²fheytu Juhr JFuh fhe ltFu yub ;ub mti<br />
Jdo Ftje fhe Qvze dgt. ylk; sh t bt:w k Qkawk fhe xefe xefel u<br />
hu J;e mtbu òu;tu cuXtu .<br />
b:;e h uJ;elu Nç’tu s zu ;u vnujtk f’e l fÕve Nftg ;uJwk :gwk. yk; wl t<br />
bt uk vh yu f ytùgo ylu b eXw k b tun f rMb; «dxTgwk. ª;b u yMmj bt he<br />
c t s uJt s Atu. ;b thtb tk ; ul t suJe s mwdk" Au!ª<br />
hu J;e abfe QXe. yk ;w lt anuht vh fkR yfÚg rJMbg, yv²Jo yt lk’<br />
rl hÏgt u, fkE yC²;v ² Jo au;l t ’eXe! ylu vujt u ftd¤ huJ;elt<br />
nt :btk:e mhe dgtu. ª ;t he ctl e mwd k" yu ;tu J¤e fuJe btlJelu<br />
J¤e mw dk" ntugª<br />
ªn t, cnws mhm nt ug. s²ytu bU yuf zc tb t k C he htFe Au. c ;tJwkª<br />
’tu zel u ;u vtu;tle cUa vtmu dgt u. :uje Qk"e fh e Ft je fhe. yk’h:e<br />
vujtu zctu ’ze vzTgtu ylu yu jE yk; w hu J;e vtmu vntukae dgtu. xtuat<br />
vz ujtu, y"t uo hk d QFze dgujt u yu zctu òu;tk s huJ;e lu ¥ $rø jN<br />
jJkz h xtÕ fb vt Jzh ¥le vtu;tle zce lsh mtb u F ze :E .<br />
yk; wy u zce Ftuje vtu;tlt ltf ytd¤ "he m² kDe ylu vAe h uJ;elt<br />
l tf ytd¤ z ctu "gtuo. ªblu b t gt’ ytJu ðgthu nwk zce Ftuje m² kDe jWk<br />
Awk .ª ytkFtu ck" fhe yuf Qkztu µtm je"t u. ªcm, bth e ctle s mwJtm<br />
Au ;bthtbt k.. .ª<br />
hu J;e le ytkFtu mbs:e Cele :E dE, yu ftugztu f¤tE dgtu. yk; wl w k<br />
bt :wk jE At; e mhm w k atkve ’e"wk.<br />
f tuK fnu Au mwF lu ’t czeb tk C he l Nftg fu c:btk C´me l N ftg<br />
hey j<br />
Ctø gtu’ g<br />
vÒ tt lt g f<br />
ªyn´ ytJ ;tu, CtE sh tª huJ; ey u yk ;wl u c tujtÔgt u. huJ;el u<br />
yf¤tbK :E ytJe fu n[ MJ R Jtvhe ¥lr:¥ jF u ;ul u Nwk fn uJwk! fgt<br />
Nç’tub t k ;ul e mtl XuftKu jtJJe! "bf tJJtl e ftuE ymh l :tg,<br />
be XtN:e Jt; fh tu ;u vK l dKfth u...<br />
vujtu QC tu :E vtmu yt Ôg tu. huJ;eyu ftd¤ nt :btk Qka ¾gtu . ªòu sh t<br />
yt ctsw ytJ. yt vKu ò uEyu fuxje fuxje C²j vze Au.ª FwhNe vh<br />
cuXuje h uJ;ele ctsw bt k yk ;w ytJelu QCtu. blbt k Nç’t u dtuXJJt<br />
yts u ybu rhf tb tk :pLfTmrd® Jdltu ;nuJt h Au. yburhf ltu ytsu xfeo,<br />
Mx®Vd, bp~z vxuxtu, ¢p lche mtpm ylu vBvr fl vtE le sgtV;<br />
W ztJN u. n wk, htsu Nf wbt h vkz Tgt, yts u :pLfTm rd®Jdlt r’Jmu btht yuf<br />
c uz Yblt yvtxob uLxb t k yufjtu yufjtu v:th ebtk yt¤tuxwk Awk.<br />
fum ² zt k ykf 31 mÃx uB ch 2004 9
lu yburhft ytÔgu atuJem J»to :gtk A u. yt vn ujtu s :pLf Tm rd®Jd lt u<br />
r’Jm A u sgthu bt hu Duh ftuE ytJJtlwk l:e. yufjtu yu fjtu yt¤tuxw k<br />
Awk . mtb u xeJe atjw Au. Lg²Í ytJu Au.<br />
bt he WBbh rvM;t¤em J»tole Au. bthe vtmu ykd {uS mtr nð gbtk<br />
gwrlJrmoxe ytpJT fprjVturlogtle ve.yua.ze.le rzd{ e Au. r Nf tdt u<br />
gwrlJrmoxe bt k C KtÔgwk Au. fuxjtg ltucuj «tEÍ cwrØSJe rJsu;tyt u<br />
mt:u ftb fgwO Au. yuble mt:u ng tuoVg tuo Awk. btht yu f c uz Yb lt<br />
yvtxob uLx bt k mt i:e J"w s øgt htufu Au rJµmtrnðgltk W•tb vwM;ftu:e<br />
mCh NpÕÔÍ. bU JmtJuj wk yufuy uf vwM;f bU Jtk ågwk Au . yðgthu yuxju fu,<br />
AuHt ºtK Jhm:e b the vt mu ftuE vK òpc l:e.<br />
bt Ák jølSJl mwFe n;w k. ct¤ft u bl u db; tk vK ybth u ct¤f ntuJw k<br />
òuEyu yultu ytd{n lntu;t u. b the vðl e c eltlu ct¤f òuE; wk n;w k. yu<br />
yule btlu b wkcE b¤Jt dE ðgthu ; uK u yult mdCto :gtl t mbtath<br />
ytÃg t n; t. bU ytl k’ ÔgfT; fgtuo n;tu. ybtÁk ct¤f ;u le lt. lel t<br />
yð gt hu ctJem J»tole Au, vpl MxpExTbtk s wrlgh Jhm btk CKe hne Au.<br />
yu ftuE f t¤t At ufht mt:u Vh u Au. ytE je J nh yjt ul.<br />
jølS Jl ’hBgtl b thu btd tohu x, vpde , mt:u ytu¤FtK :E. yu bthe<br />
mt:u s C Kt J;t zur J z ftun ul le cn ulvKe n ;e . zu rJ z m t:ul tu yultu<br />
mkc k" ;²xe dgtu vAe ybthtu mkc k" NY :gtu. vude Jt;to jF;e. b lu<br />
Jka tJ; e. ybu mw"th tJ"tht fh; tk. vAe yu AvtJ;e. yultu Jt;to mkd<br />
{n :gt u. blu yvoK fhujt u. :tuzt mb g vAe vud e Jt;tomk d{n lt<br />
«ftN flu vh Ke dE. yt mt; Jhm vnujtk le Jt ; Au. bthe vtmu<br />
yultu Vtul lkch Au, vK fh;tk yaftWk Awk . vude mt :ult mkc k"l u fthK u<br />
nw k ylu ce lt yu fceò :e ’²h :;tk s;tk n ;tk. yuKu A² xtAuztl tu «M;tJ<br />
b² ¾gtu . ath Jhm vnujtk yb u mbs² ;e:e A²xt :gtk. lel t yule mt:u<br />
hnuJt dE. b U Dh c eltlu jFe ytÃgwk. cel t yðgt hu ftuE<br />
yprLsr lghlu vhKe A u. JuMx a pMxhb tk hnu Au. leltle Ve ChJtle<br />
nt ug ðgthu bth t vh Vtul ytJu A u. bU lel tl e Ve ChJt ylu btÁ k Dh<br />
ajt JJt bth t rcÍlum b ul btb t vtmu:e at¤em nòh ztpj m o jtul vh<br />
je"t Au. yuf Jth òppc b¤N u yuxju c"tk ztp jmo a² fJe ’EN.<br />
cu Jhm vnujtk yuf AÔJem Jhm le Atufhe - ltb u rMb ;t - mt:u<br />
ytu¤FtK :E. yult u Ct E yn´ zt pf Txh Au. yul u b¤Jt ylu yburhft<br />
Vh Jtl u c ntlu rMb ;t ytJe n ;e . mta wk fthK ;tu ftuE Atufhtu b ¤u ;tu<br />
vhKe sJtlwk n;wk . Ct Jld hle brnjt ftujusbtk yu dwsht;e<br />
C KtJe lu fkxt¤e n;e. ybtÁ k rfTjf :g wk. vK rMb;tlt vÃvt-bBbe,<br />
C tE Jd uhu ybtht mkc k":e lth ts n;tk, fthK bthe WBb h ; U;t¤em<br />
Jhm le n;e. òpc vK ln tu;e. ybu Ctde sElu vh½gtk. ybthtk<br />
jøllu cu Jhm :gtk A u vK vnujtk suJwk l:e.<br />
bt he vtm u òpc l:e. fthK rNftdtu gwr lJrm oxeyu b thtu ftpLx[p fT x rhLg²<br />
l fgtu o. bU ltu bol buEjh vh vwM; f NY fhujwk. ath apÃxh jFtgtk. l u<br />
vAe vude, lelt Jdu hult a¬htubtk yxJtg tu. bth e mt:ult zurJz u xtule<br />
bt prhm l vh vwM;f jÏg wk. Avt Ôgwk , mhm rhÔg² :gt. yu nJu rzvtxob uLx<br />
ap hbu l :E dgtu l u b lu b égwk vtKeawk.<br />
rMb ;t fnu Au, ªl CK tJJwk n tug ;tu d pm vkv fht u, d{tumhe Mxtuh bt k<br />
c tmb ;e atuFt Jua tu, fpL ze Mxtuhb tk fTjfo :tJ. ytb Duh cumel u ¥mt uv¥<br />
l t òug t f ht u.ª rMb; t btht:e f kxt¤elu ytgtuJtle ht Exmo JfoNtpv bt k<br />
r¢ yurxJ htE®xdlt ftumo fhJt dE Au. blu yufjw k jtdu Au. nwk htus<br />
Vtul fÁ k Aw k yu yul u db;w k l:e. bl u xt¤Jt ytLm®hd bNel atjw<br />
ht Fu<br />
Au,<br />
bU sgtur ;r »tytul e mjt n je"e A u.nwk Nrl le bnt’Ntb t k:e vm th :E<br />
hÌtt u Awk. cm , yt rzm uBch v²htu :Jtlu nJu vtka yXJtrz g tk ctfe Au.<br />
vAe<br />
Ctøgtu ’g.<br />
jtJ vudel u V tul fÁk.<br />
ªn tE , vude . npve :pLfTmr d®Jd ! zw g² ltu n² r"m RÍ ª<br />
ªltu, jux be ®:f.ª vude fnu Au .<br />
ªh tsw, gtph htsw vkzTgtª<br />
ªh tsw, ftpj be mb y"h xtEb. ytE ub Rl " rbz j tuJT Mx®Vd btE<br />
xfeo.ª vude Vtul b ²fe ’u Au.<br />
vtka yXJtzegtk vAe òL gwythele vnuje:e ht suNfwbth vk zTgtltu<br />
C tøg tu’g :tg Au. vk’h be òL gwythe mw "eb tk òpc nN u, nNu l u nN u.<br />
vAe ct fnuNu, ªCEjt, cn w ’e¥:e btuk l: òugwkª rMb ;t fnuNu,<br />
ªzt®jO d, at jlu ltg dht VtpÕ m sEyu .ª vude fnuNu, ªjuxTm npJ y<br />
f pLzjjtE x rz lh Vtp h " ytuÕz xtEBm muEfª ylu nwk zt ufxh<br />
htsuL ÷fw bth vkz Tgt vtuÍ jElu fneN , ªjux be ®:f R x ytuJh .ª<br />
’ h dwÁJthu cts wJt¤t nrhCtE vxujltk Jnw Ct lwc nul ;vuje Ch elu<br />
’t¤ btufj u Au. nrh CtE ytJu yuxju yufltu yuf mJtj v²Au, ªòpclwk<br />
f kE r:g wkª n wk ctujwk yu vnujtk s òpc a´"J t btk z u ªl r:gwk ntug ;tu<br />
ytJe òJ ytvKe ¥ytuml £L x¥ bt uxj vh. h t;vt¤el e Ftje<br />
s øgt ;bth e. ctujtu, Au rJath n wk lf thb tk bt :wk "wKtJwk yuxju J¤e<br />
f nu fu ª;bu ;tu CKumhe . ybtht bt ux urjgtle ntu zbt k n tlt cu ntu! ª<br />
fum ² zt k ykf 31 mÃx uB ch 2004 10
yts u ’t¤ ytJe l:e. mtÁ k :gwk. yts u mvhb u r’Jmu nrhCtElt<br />
mJtjbt k:e cae dgtu.<br />
ªvp l MxpE xbt k yprLsrlg®h dbtk yLz h- d{psgwyux fÁk A wk.ª Mftpx sJt c<br />
ytvu<br />
Au.<br />
cÍh Jtdu Au.<br />
ªn² RÍ Rxª RLxhftu b vh v²Awk Awk.<br />
ªleltª<br />
nw k cÍh ’ctJw k Awk. lea ul wk cthKwk F²jJtltu lu vAe ck " :Jtlt u yJts<br />
ytJu A u. nw k yvtxob uLxl w k c thKwk Ftu jelu QCtu hnwk A wk. l elt ’t’h<br />
azelu Wvh ytJu Au. mt:u ft¤tu Atufhtu Au .<br />
l elt bl u J¤de vzu Au. yult dtj Xk zt Au. yuKu J²jl ftux vnugtuo Au,<br />
nt :btk b tuòk Au. F Cu vmo Au. fuxju c"u JF;u b U òuE leltlu.<br />
ªvÃvt, yt Mftpx rd çÍ. rx[rlzt zl tu A u. Je rjJ xwdp"h.ª lel t fnu<br />
Au.<br />
ªnjtu, Mftpx,ª n wk nt: rbjtJw k Awk.<br />
ªvÃvt, bthu ct:Yb sJwk vzNu .ª l el t ’tu zel u ct:Ybb tk òg Au ,<br />
cthKwk ck" fh u Au. r mLfbt k l¤ F tujJt ltu yJts ytJu Au.<br />
xtuEjux VTjN :Jtltu yJts ytJu Au. l¤ ck" :tg Au. ct hK wk F²ju<br />
Au. lelt cnth ytJel u b the yl u Mf tpxle Jåau QCe hnu Au.<br />
ªcum , lelt. ft ux f tZ.ª nwk f nwk A wk.<br />
ªvÃvt, ybu ; bl u rz lh vh jE sJt ytÔ g tk Aeyu ,ª l el t f nu Au.<br />
nw k ;igth :Jtk òWk Awk. ’tZe fh e, rfTJf Nt Jh jWk Awk. ltnel u<br />
f TjtuÍ ux bt k:e RMºte fh ujwk Nxo, d{u m²x, xt E vn uÁk Awk. Ftltbt k:e btuòk,<br />
Yb tj ftZwk Awk. apMxh z[p uyh vh vzujw k Jtpjpx F tujwk Awk. yubtk vatmuf<br />
z tujh A u. s ;t k s;tk bpf bNelbt k:e ceò juJt vzNu.<br />
nw k cuzY bbt k: e cnth ytJwk Awk. l el t V he:e ct:Yb btk òg Au. Vh e<br />
F wHt l¤l tu yJts. mt:u Qjxe ltu yJts.<br />
bt ht ftl atukfu Au. c el tlu ytb s Qjxeytu :; e.<br />
l elt cnth ytJu Au.<br />
ªyp Jhe®:d ytu.fu.ª nw k v²Aw k Awk.<br />
nw k Mftpxlu cumJt fnwk Awk. yu Qkatu Au. yult Jt¤ C²kd¤eJt¤t Au.<br />
ytkFtu ;usMJe Au. chAxzt ft¤t Jt¤Jt¤e ’tZe btk :e yult òzt<br />
vnt u¤t nt uX ztuftg Au. MJåA Nxo, spfpx, xtE vnugtO Au . Mftux np Lz m b<br />
Au.<br />
ªleltyu ;bthe F²c Jt;tu f he Au. ; bl u b¤elu ytlk ’ :gtu.ª Mftpx<br />
fnu A u.<br />
ªNwk C Kt u Atu ; buª nwk v²Aw k Awk.<br />
ªV tE l,VtEl, juxTm dtu.ª le lt fn u Au.<br />
ybu Mft pxle dtzebt k sb Jt sEyu Aeyu. n wk vtA¤ cum wk Awk. hM;tb tk<br />
bp f b Nel ytJu A u. nwk zt pj m o jE jWk Awk. Mftpx ylu leltyu<br />
hu Mxtuhk x bt k r hÍJu oNl fhtÔgwk Au. huMxt uhL xbtk l el t bt he ylu Mftpxle<br />
Jåa u cum u A u. yuKu f tux vnuhe h tÏg tu Au. ybu rz [Lf T m yt uzo h fheyu<br />
Aeyu . bpLg² òuEyu Aeyu . :pLfTmrd®Jdlwk x[pr z Nl j rzlh ytuz oh<br />
f heyu Aeyu. r z[Lf Tm ytJu A u.øjtm nt:b tk jE ¥aeym oª fne<br />
xfhtJe yu<br />
Aeyu.<br />
ªd wz jf xw ytpj ytpJT ym.ª - nwk fnwk Awk. Qjxe lt yJtsl u bt ht ftl<br />
F kFu he Nf; t l:e.<br />
fum ² zt k ykf 31 mÃx uB ch 2004 11
ybu vpl Mxp Exl t ypsgwfuNlle Jt;tu fheyu Aeyu. l elt swrlghbtk<br />
Au. yuKu ctgt pjtuS bush je"wk Au. bub tk rm rlgh btk ytJNu. b prz fj<br />
Mf ²jl tu rJath nbKtk bt kze Jtégtu Au. Mftpx b ubt k d{psgwyux :Nu.<br />
nw k ’t’h a ze Wvh ytJwk Awk. yvtxob uLx Ftuje lu yu f vdu "¬tu bthe<br />
c thKwk c k" fÁ k Awk , fvztk c’jtJwk Awk , c{N fÁ k Awk. xeJe ytpl fhe<br />
v:th ebtk vzwk Awk.<br />
ªyt E jJ lelt Jphe ba, ª Mftux fnu Au.<br />
cÒt u sKt yufbufl e yt kFb tk ytkF vh tuJe yuble ytkd¤eytu d²k:u Au.<br />
nw k ylu vude vK ytb s fh;tk .<br />
ybt Ák rzlh ytJu Au. yðgth u rzlh fh; tk bl u leltbtk, lel tltk<br />
C rJ»g btk J"thu h m Au.<br />
ªvÃvt, ;blu dwz Lg²Í ytvJtlt Au,ª f nelu lelt Mftux mtb u swyu Au.<br />
ªctu j, cuxt.ª blu Fch Au vK bthu yul u btu Zu m tkC¤Jwk Au.<br />
rMb ;t lu Fch ytvJt Vtu l òu zwk Awk. yu lwk ytLm® hd b Nel sJtc<br />
ytvu<br />
Au.<br />
l elt lu cuce yt JJtlwk Au yul e celtlu Fch nNu ytE Jk zh . le lt<br />
l tb Nwk vtz Nu ’uNe fu yburhf l<br />
htsuN fw bth vkz Tgtlu nS vudelt rJath ytJu Au, lu A<br />
br nl tbtk ;t u yu ’t’tS :Nu. d{tLzvt.<br />
sgt ur;»teyt uy u lJtJhmb tk Ctøgtu’g C tÏg tu Au. n² ltuÍ<br />
bu ce r"m Lg² cuce rJj rc{Ld be jf. Rl "<br />
f ®bd gh, h tsu Nf wbt h vkz Tgt rJj npJ y òpc<br />
ypL z ytpÕmtu y d{tLzatEÕz xw Ãju rJ:.<br />
he yj Ctø gt u’g !<br />
ª;b u d{t LzVt"h :Jtl t Atu. ytE yp b mtu ypf TmtExu z.ª lelt fnu Au .<br />
C tb K ltu<br />
Ftk at u<br />
ªftp Ld{ pågwj uNL m. cuce ¾gthu zTg² Auª nwk v²Awk Aw k.<br />
sd ’e N<br />
vhbth<br />
ªbu bt k. d{psgwyuNl rdVTx Vtph Mf tpx.ª Mftpxle mt bu òuE lel t sJt c<br />
ytvu A u.<br />
ªvA e CKJtlwk cucel u huEÍ fh Jtlwkª nwk v²A wk Awk .<br />
ª:E sNu.ª lelt rJµtm:e ctuju Au.<br />
Mf tpxl wk JM;th e fwxwkc rx[r lz tz bt k Au. yu jtu ft ult k fu¤tkl tk b tuxtk ÃjtL xuNl<br />
Au. cuce lu jE Mftpx rx[rlztz sNu. lelt yn´ hne r mrl ghlw k Jhm<br />
v²Ák fhNu. vAe yu vK rx[ rlz tz sNu.<br />
l elt vhKJtle Jt; l:e fh ;e . nwk yk’h:e m bmb e hnwk Awk.<br />
¥C tbKl tu Ftkat u lt bl tu s CtbKltu hÌttu n;tu. nJu ;tu ðgtk<br />
raºtrJraºt «fthl tk jtu ft u hn u Au, CtuE , Ftxfe, ythc -rmvtne,<br />
f tu¤e- Ch Jtz, ylu Jt Dhe. Ctb Klt Ftkat btk s²lwk f kE hÌtwk ntug ; tu<br />
yu jtk ct Yxle mhfthe cmlt z[tEJh- fkzf Txh lt k bftltu ylu sxtNkfh<br />
bt M;h lw k<br />
Dh.<br />
--lu yuf r’Jm sxtN kfh btM; hu yufw:e ’tKl t drzgtlt jgcØ<br />
Dtu Dht yJts le ’wrlgt cnth òugwk ;tu ytswctswl t ;btb jtuf tu<br />
c ’jtR dgtk n ;t k. «t:rbf rNû tKle yÎgtvl vØr;le sub. hne<br />
dgtk btº t J]Ø sxtNkf h btM;h yl u yubltk vðle Jtm k;ec ul.<br />
c tht ûthe lt MJhtule sub...<br />
l elt ylu Mf tpx blu W;thel u Mf tpxl t vÃvtlu ðg tk òg A u.<br />
fum ² zt k ykf 31 mÃx uB ch 2004 12
nJu CtbKlt F tka tbtk yufbtºt Ct bK n;t- -sxtNkfh btM;h . ctfe<br />
c"tk mt umtgxeb tk at Õgtk dgtk n ;t k. nJu Jnuje mJthu m²golu ynTÌto<br />
ytv;e JF;u sxtNkfh b tM;hl u Ctlw«mt ’le f tuBve xeNl lt u Cg<br />
l ntu;tu . yubl u :;w k fu m²golu yægo yt vlth vtu; u m]rÐlt yuf btº t c<br />
{tñK Au! n t, cts wJt¤t b nkb ’ lt f²fzt f²fzu fwf...sYh f h;t.<br />
yub lt Dhu:e ºteò Dh Jt¤t l t:wjtjl e cfh e cU yuk yuk ...sYh<br />
fh;e, vK Ctlw«mt’l t m²gob kºt ltu yCtJ n ;tu. A;tk btM; hl u :;wk fu<br />
C tlw «mt ’lt u «K Jlt’ nSg nJtbtk d ²kS hÌttu Au òKu! vAe ;uyt u<br />
«t;&r¢gt fhJtbtk jt de s;t yu JF;u CeFtu ftu¤e, hbtu JtDh e, ft¤w<br />
C tuE ztjzt Del t Ftje zçct Qvtze mhfthe mkztm ;hV s;t<br />
’uFt;t. mtilt btuZ tb t k FtFe ce ze m¤d;e hnu;e. sxtNkfh btM;hlu<br />
yt jtu ft u çjufctu z o vh ra; htgujt yûth tu s uJt jtd ;tk. b tM;h zMxh<br />
Nt u"; t, nt:btk ju;t k, vK zMxhle Ntu" yl u ytrJ» ft h mw"e lt<br />
mb gbtk vujt jtuftu Ítzu sE ytJujt n tug .b tM;h z Mxhl tu Dt fh;t,<br />
vK vujt jtuftu le cezel e ytd mt:of Xhe ntug , sgthu btM;hlu<br />
nbKt k:e yvat le ;fjeV NY :g uje. yu JF;u Jtmk ;ec ul yubl tk<br />
ctuFtk btuky u:e fN tuf cc ztx fh ;t k ylu vAe btM;h CtbKlt<br />
F tkat le ’w’oNtl t yÎg tg NY fh;t...<br />
sxtNkfh btM;h r lJ]•t :R dgujt. mk;tl n;wk ln´. fwxw kc c tc ;u<br />
ftl t btºt Jdhlt n;t. J¤e vk ;w S yu xju b² ze ctc;u vK mhJt¤u<br />
N² l ytJ;e n;e. ytJe vr hrM:r;b tk ; uyt u yLg c{ tñKt u m t:u<br />
M:¤tk;h fhe Nfujt ln´. yLg ¥C²’ uJt u¥ yts wc tswlt rJM;thbt k<br />
Bjuå Atu yl u ût w÷t ul t J";tk s;tk "mthtlt f thKu MJ"bole h ûtt mtÁ<br />
W fT; M:¤tk;h s fh ujwk. sxtN kf h btM;h nS CtbK lt Ft katb tk s<br />
vz ujt. yLg c{t ñK tu CtbKlt Ft katl u ¥m tkrZg tJtz ¥ fnu;t. ¥swJtl<br />
Atu fheytuJt ¤t vrhJt hlu hnuJt jtgf rJM;th l:e¥, ¥btk m bå Ae ;tu<br />
atj;t k vdu azu¥ ylu ¥"bo:e ft um ftum ’² h yt n jfx «ò Jåa u SJJwk<br />
’w»fh Au.¥- -ytJtk « ft hltk rJ"tltu :g tk ylu C tb Kl tu Ftkatu CtbK<br />
Jdh lt u :;tu dgtu...<br />
sxtNkfh btM;hl u yt r JM;t h Atuze l N¾gtl tu yVmtum :;tu. ;<br />
tjebe rN ûtf ln ´ cle Nfujt yubtk s. Ftm fhel u vnujtk ;tu cvtuhlt<br />
mb gu huJt ctle ’t¤le mwdk" ytJ;e yu lt c’ju nJu ; eF t<br />
bhebm tj t btk cVt;t xtgh suJt bxlle ;e J{ dk" yu bl t ltflu n uhtl<br />
fh;e. f ²f zt, f²;ht k, cfhtk, rcjtztk ylu Ct;Ct;lt jtuftu. yu blu<br />
ytFtu Ftkatu ra¬th jtd ;tu, Jtmk; ec ull t r’Jmle sub ...<br />
sxtNkfh btM;hlu :;wk fu vtu;u ; tjebe rNûtf n tu; ;tu sYh vdth<br />
J"th u b¤; tu n tu; . ; tu sYh vuLN l vK J"thu b¤; wk n tu;. ;tu sYh yt<br />
¥d k’tu¥ yu rhgt Atu ze lu ftuE mthe søgtyu Dh jE N ftgw k ntu ;. yublt k<br />
SJlbtk Ntkr; nt u;...ytJt rJath tubt k dwsht;elt u vujtu vtX :gt u ntug<br />
yub r’Jm v²htu :E s;tu.<br />
sxtNkfh btM; hl u vuLNl ytuAw k vzJt jtdujw k. ûtw ÷ ylu BjuåAt ult<br />
MvNo :e ’²h hnu;tk btM;hlu l tA²xfu CeFt f tu¤e, bnk b’, ChJtz,<br />
C tuE , Jduhult k xtu¤t ck" Atufhtkl wk xTg²Nl NY fh Jwk vz ujwk, vtu;tl t s<br />
Dhb tk. Jt mk;ec ul lu lnt u;wk dbujwk, vK drK;lt ’tFjt suJtk<br />
rJ¼ t:eoyt u brnlu btmu fb tKelw k mt"l cl;t ðgthu Jt ¥jt jtd ;t .<br />
sxtNkfh btM; hl u Ctl w«m t ’ yl u bnuNak÷le gt’ ytJe dE.<br />
ytb ;t u cÒtu c{ tñK, vtztuN e yl u ¿tt r;ck " w n;t. J¤e ¿ttl bt k c Òtu<br />
sxtNkfh lt rN»g ntug yuJt s n;t, vK yu cÒt u ;tjebe rNût f<br />
nt uJt:e ;ub Ku xTg²Nl fTjtm Ftujujt ylu htsJe lt m v²;tul u<br />
C KtJ;t. yu JF;u Ctl w«mt ’ ylu b nuN ak÷u EåATgwk n tu; ; tu<br />
sxtNkfh lu vK J"thtlt Jdtuo b¤e Nf;, vK ...<br />
yl u nJu sgthu brn lu ’t zu CeFtu, b nkb ’, lt:w vimt ’uJt ytJ;t<br />
ð gt hu yub le òK cnth yt jt uftule vujt c{tñK tu mt:u ;w jlt :E<br />
s ;e . vAe b tM;h jDw; b mt"thK yJgJ f tZ;t n tug yu he;u ytFt<br />
br nl tlt u rnmtc fh Jt cume s ;t.<br />
yl u yuf r’Jm Jtm k;ec ulu dtu:w k Ft "wk. sxtNkfh btM;h jtfze Ntu"e<br />
Dxl t mbgu M:¤u vntukau yu vnujtk s CeFt u ftu¤e yul e bs²h e fhJtle<br />
jth ebtk Jtmk;ec ul lu cumt ze mhfth e ’JtF tl u jE dgtu. FwH t hn e<br />
dgujt btM; hl t Dh vh lt:w ChJtzltu atu fe vnuh tu n;tu ylu<br />
bt M;h lu ’JtFt lt mw"e jE sJt btxu bnkb ’ heût t jElu n tsh :E<br />
dgtu.<br />
Jtmk ;e cul mh fthe ’JtFtltb tk yÇgtm¢b c’jtE dguje at uvze le<br />
s ub vz Tg tk n ;t k. sxtNkfh btM;hu yubl tk lS fltk m dtytu ltu mBvfo<br />
f hJtle rl»V¤ fturN N fhuje... yl u nJu mhfthe ’JtF tlt le<br />
C tus ll e :t¤e m tbu b ²Z br ; rJ¼t:eol e sub cuXu jt n;tk. yubK u :t¤e<br />
’²h fh e. C eFtu ftu¤e Fzu vdu n;tu. ft¤w CtuE vK ftbftslwk v²Ae<br />
dgujt u.<br />
htºtu btM;h Nt¤tbtk RLMvufTNl ytJJtlwk n tug yu he;u c uXujt. yu blu<br />
"bo v ðlel t fvt¤u nt : Vuh JJtle EåAt :E . Jtmk ;e cu ll u mtÁk yuJwk<br />
jtd ujwk. btM;hlu Jtmk r; c ulle ’gt ytJe. Jtmk;ec ul u SJll tk fvht<br />
mb gu vK sxtNkfh btM;h ltu mt: l n´ At uzu jtu. VfT; bt;t l cle<br />
N¾g tl tu JmJm tu f tuh e Ft;tu.<br />
yð gt hu Jtmk;ec u l yCtl yJM:tbtk n;tk. yublt ;us MJe an uht vh<br />
Nt kr; n;e. btM;hlu Jtmk ;e cu ll e vze sJt le yu f ytdje ’wDo xlt<br />
gt’ ytJe dE...<br />
fum ² zt k ykf 31 mÃx uB ch 2004 13
DK tk J»to ydtW vK Jt mk;ec ul vze dgujtk, vK yu JF; u ;uytu<br />
md Cto n;tk. Ctlw«mt ’ltk vðle fb¤tcullt ftuE ftbu yub lt k Dhu<br />
dgujt k. Ctlw«mt ’lt Dhltu yu me"tu ’t ’htu. ..Jt mk ;e cu ll u ;Bbh az e<br />
yl u...<br />
Jtmk ;ecu ll wk yu ct¤f ;tu dgwk s, vK CrJ»gb tk ceswk ct¤f :Jtle<br />
N¾g; t vh atuf ze jtde dE. yu JF;u Jtmk r;c ul lu ;tðftrjf<br />
’JtFtl u jE sJtb tk ytÔgtk ntu; ;tu ytsu vtu; u vK c tv nt u;, vK<br />
¥mdCt olu l yzJw k¥ yuJt NtMºteg b; :e Ctlw«mt’ u Jtmk; ec ul le<br />
mthJth l fhe ylu Jtmk; ec ull e :tu zeJt hbt k ðgtk lu ðgtk s.... Ftuxtu<br />
’tFjtu dKtE dgtu ntug yub sxtNkfh b tM;hl u mtuxe Jtde .<br />
yub lu òug wk f u CeFt u ftu¤e mJt hl tu Dhu l:e dgtu. b s²h eyu vK l:e<br />
dgtu . htuslwk fbt Elu ht usl wk F t;tu CeFtu yl u yultu vrhJth b tM;hlu<br />
’uFtgt fh;tu n; tu.<br />
C eFt le vð le, Nuhelt ºt Kuf cihtkytu m t:u ’JtF tlu ytJe.<br />
Jtmk ;ecu ll u vuNtc- vtKe fhtJJt cih tkl e sYh vzu yuxju. CeF tu<br />
bt M;hlu mbòJe Dhu jE dgtu.<br />
sxtNkfh lu QkD lntu;e ytJ;e. ;u cnth le fégt. òugwk ò;ò;lt<br />
jtuftu m²;tk n ;t k. yub lt anuht vh ytlk’ ò uE Nft;tu n;tu. ftuE lu<br />
C rJ»g le ®a;t l n;e. ftuElu C ²; ft ¤ltu yskvt u ln tu; tu. htus<br />
SJ; tk ylu htu s b h;tk yt jtuftu ylu Ct bK ltu Ftkatu Atuze dgujt<br />
C tbKtu yuJe cu «ò Jåa u hnujtk bftltu, dje , J¤tkf òK u vtu; tl e<br />
mt:u Jt;tu fhe hÌttk ntug yub b tM;hlu :g wk.<br />
bt M;hu vK vnujeJt h Ftxje cnth jtJe, v:t he fhe , m²Jtlt u «gðl<br />
fgtuo, vK QkD lntu;e ytJ;e. yatlf yubl u òugwk fu m²gtuo ’g :E<br />
hÌtt u Au. r fh Kt u yubl tbt k ht ubtk a sdtz e hÌ ttk n;tk. cnth m²;ujt k<br />
jtuftu lt r l’tu o»t, Ntk; an uht «KJlt’ f he hÌtt n tug yub jt øgwk.<br />
Jt’¤ D u gt o ytC b tk<br />
lJ e l<br />
rJC t f h<br />
Jt’¤Dugto<br />
ytCbtk<br />
; wk s btÁ k ;usrfhK<br />
;w k s btÁk ; us rfhK<br />
ªyh u! sg, ytvK lu b tuz wk ; tu ln ´ :tg luª<br />
ªb tpl t,f uxje y"e he :E dE Au ;w k mt; Jtøgtl e VTjtExbtk sJt ;u<br />
blu l u lejelu at h Jtøgtltk WXtze ;igth fhe ’e"tk Au. nS vtka<br />
Jtøgt A u. ytvKu xtE b vh jøJtrzg t yphvt pxo vnt ukae sNwk. sht<br />
Nt kr; htF!ª sgu N tkr; :e ;igth :;t k cpøÍ Jd uhu dtuXJ;tk fÌ twk.<br />
ªLg²gtpfo:e jtpm yuLs rjm cn w jtkce VTjtEx! fub u fh ;tk mbg vm th<br />
l n´ :tg. ;U b tht k JtkaJtlt k bpdprÍLm jE je"tk l uª bU d¤tbtk<br />
au El vnuh ;t k fÌtwk. sg bthe yr"h tE vh blbtk nMgtu, vK c nw<br />
mb sw n ;tu l u bthe y"eh tElwk f thK vK mb s;t u n ;tu.<br />
sg ylu nwk ytsu vtka Jhm vAe, jøl vAe vnuje Jth, jtpm<br />
ypL srjm btht rv;tl u b¤Jt lu l ejel u c;tJJt jE s;tk n ;tk.<br />
l eje nS ºtK s br nltle :E n ;e . ÃjuEl bt k cuXt vAe nwk rJath u<br />
aze dE. b tht blbt k rï"t n;e fu rv;t ;hV:e fuJt u ytJfth b¤Nu.<br />
bt ;t yu ;tu ybthtk jø l MJefthe je"tk n;tk. vK rv;tS...! su mbg<br />
n» ttuoHtmlt u n tug ;ulu c’ju...bt ht rv; t mt:u vtka J»t obtk bU Ctøgu s<br />
Jt; f he n Nu! Lg²gtpf o:e sgthu Vtul fh; e,rv;tS Wvtz ; t lu bthtu<br />
yJts mtkC¤e ; h; s bt; tS l u ytve ’u ;t . bth t rv;tS F ²c s<br />
f zf MJCtJlt. rNM;b tk, m kMf]r; b t k, he;Ct; btk cn w s btl ;t. yuf<br />
C th;eg rv;tbt k ntuJt òuE yu ;u c"t s dwK tu ;ub lt btk n ;t. ’efhe<br />
bt uxe :tg yuxju ;ul u C th;eg mkMft h «btKu hmtuE cltJ;tk ytJz Je<br />
s òuE yu, ytAf jtk fvzt k vn uhJt k l òuEyu , ybwf he;u s cumtg,<br />
Jz ejtul tu b tl- bh;ct u s¤ JtJtu òuEyu Jduh u F²c s fz ft E:e<br />
Ne FJ;t. n wk yufle yuf ’efhe yuxju fzftE htFu vK Jnt j vK<br />
yuxjwk s f h;t. ltr¤gu h s uJt n;t. cn th:e F²c mF; vK yk’h:e<br />
F ²c s lhb lu n wk vK ;uble s ’efhe n ;e --yuJe s mF; lu yu Je s<br />
MJtrC bt le!<br />
Vtulbtk ;uytu Jt; l f h;t ;t u nwk Nule fÁk yuJt ynbT btk vtka Jhm<br />
l ef¤e dgtk. yufceò:e ybu F²c s ’²h vze dgt k n;tk- Cju lsh:e,<br />
blbu ¤:e ’²h vK rJa thb tk yuf r’Jm vK nw k ;u bl u C²je l ntu;e.<br />
nw k cth Jhmle :E. b tht rv;tlu bl bth e bt;t C th;e g mkMf]r; le<br />
S J;eòd;e b²r; o n ;e . blu vK yu s Z tka tbt k Zt¤Jt ;uytu «gðl<br />
f h;t. vK ;uyt u C²je s;t fu nwk yburhft btk sLbe Awk. yb urhftbt k<br />
c t¤ftul tu J"w mbg Mf²jbtk s;tu, sgtk btuxt Ctd lt yburhfl ÔntEx<br />
c t¤ftu s CK;tk. ;ub lt k mkMfth bthtbtk rÍjt;t. Cth ;btk ;bu ;<br />
bt ht rbºtt u mt:u h b;db ; hbJt fu ®"dtb M;e fhJt Cth;l e sub<br />
bt uxtk b tuxtk b u’tl tu fu bft l ytmvtmle Nuh eytub t k vn tuka e òytu. yuJwk<br />
yn´ ln´. yburhftlt u btntuj yuJtu fu Mf²ju:e Dhu ytJt u yxju<br />
nt ubJf o fhtu fu xeJe swytu.lu yn ´ sLbelu b tuxe :E nt uJt:e xeJe vh<br />
ybu rhfl «tud {tBm òuJt F ²c db;t. bthe bt;t Dh ftb W vhtk ;<br />
mtb trs f ft gtuo bt k Ctd ju;e. r nL’w ;n uJth tu bt k vK m r¢g Ctd ju;e.<br />
yl u yu mti bt k blu vK vhtKu Ctd juJz tJ; e. l tle n;e ð gt hu c"tbtk<br />
hm vz;tu yl u btK; e. vK ntEMf²j v²he fhe ft ujusbtk sJt JF;u<br />
rv;tS bl u jtu fj g²r lJrm oxebt k ’tFj fhJt bt d; t n;t yl u btht<br />
rJa thtu MJ;k ºt :;tk s;tk n ;t k ylu yulu vtkF ytJe. b lu g ²rlJrmoxe<br />
ytpJ f pr jVtpleoytbtk fu MxplVz ob tk sJtlwk b l n;wk. ªbtult, atj<br />
ytvK u yuf Jtpf jE ytJeyu.ª rv;tSyu yuf r’Jm fÌtw k. nw k mbS<br />
dE fu blu yu mbòJJt btd;t n;t. nw k Dh:e ’²h s Wk yu yubl u<br />
vmk ’ l nt u; wk. yu rJath fh; tk bt he ytk Ftu Cel e :E s;e.<br />
fum ² zt k ykf 31 mÃx uB ch 2004 14
l tle n; e ð gt hu ;ub le ytkd¤e vfze ’rhgtrflthu VhJt s;e. bt ht<br />
rv;tSl u ;hJtltu F²c NtuF, h tus mJthu QXe ’rhgu ;hJt s;t. b lu<br />
vK jE s; t lu WA¤;t mbw÷ bt k ;h; tk. ¾g th uf mtdhrflthu hu;ebt k<br />
atj;t k l VtJ;wk ;tu ;h; blu Fk "tuju ; uz e ju;t l u atj;t k atj;tk yuf<br />
ftÔg vkrfT; d²ks;tk. ¥Jt’¤Dugto yt Cb tk, ;wk s btÁk ;us rf hK , ;w k s<br />
bt Ák ; us rfhK ª<br />
ªcuxt btul t, FhuFh ;t hu c eS g²rlJrmoxe bt k sJwk A uª Jtpf ju;t k ;ubK u<br />
v²AT gwk. nwk ; tu bt ht MJ¡t ule ’wrlgtbt k rJnh;e n;e. vtkFtu VVztJe<br />
Q ze sJtlwk b l :;wk. sgthu bU nt fne ðg thu yu b²k dt :E dgt. yl u n wk<br />
MxplVzo g²rlJrmoxe btk ’tFj :E.<br />
g²rlJrmoxe bt k blu su b égtu . vrh ag :;t k nwk ;ul u sg fnuJt jtde.<br />
vrha g «Kgbtk VuhJtE dgt u lu rJathtule ytvju jøllt rl Ko g m w"e<br />
vnt ukae dE . sg ÔntEx ylu nwk Cth;eg! v¤C h rv;tSl u fub<br />
sKtJJw k ;u rJat hu s nwk "{²S QX e. bt;t ;tu «ubt ¤ n;e. btht b txu<br />
c"wk f he A²xJt ;igth n;e. vK rv;tS nwk ;u ble ’efhe ; tu n;e s<br />
vK rv;tS sht cwjnuz uz - s¬e- n;t. ylu n wk vK ;uJe s!<br />
ybu mtl btprlftbt k mt’tE:e jøl dtuXJJtl wk rJatgwO. btht u rlKog<br />
òK ;tk rv;tSlu Nwk :gwk ;u bt;t vtmu:e ò½gwk ðgthu r’j W ’tm :E<br />
dgwk . yuf Ct h; eg rv; t vwº tel u ybur hf l vwÁ»t òuz u jøl fhJtle<br />
mkb r ; fkE yt mtle:e ytve N fu vK rJhtu" fhJtle ;u ble he; vK<br />
yl tuFe n;e l u! jøl lt cu r’Jm vnujtk b t;trv;t ytÔ g tk. rv;t<br />
vnu je Jth sglu bégt . mkMfthe ntuJt:e ¥ntE!¥ yub yb urh fl<br />
he ;:e ;u bl u sgl u mkctuÎgtu. cm , vAe vtk a J»to lef¤e dgtk. ;uytu<br />
blu fuxjwk atn;t n;t ;u nw k òK ;e n;e. nwk fprjVtuleoytb t k hneN ;t u<br />
lsh mtbu ntuJtk A; tk ybu yctujt je"t n;t ;u:e ; uytu fuxjt<br />
’w &Fe :Nu ;u òK;e ntuJt:e sglu bU Lg²gtpfo ;ule mtpV TxJuh fkvle bt k<br />
c’je fhtJJt m²al fgwO. ylu yu mbsw n; tu yuxju c’je ;t u btd e<br />
je"e. Cth ;btk vr ; ybwf s f tb fhu lu vðle ybwf s ftb fhu ;uJe<br />
ckr’N tu ybu rhfl SJlbtk l ntug. yn´ ;tu sgt hu vðlele r zrjJh e<br />
ytJJtle n tug ðgth u vwÁ »tl u juchY bbt k ntsh hnuJtle Awèe.<br />
rzrjJhe fu b fhtg ;u vK NeF JtzJtbt k ytJu! leje JF; u sg bthe<br />
vz Fu s QCtu n;tu. sg yuf Wb ’t vr; vwh Jth :gtu n ;tu.<br />
l ejel tu sLb :;tk yuf ò;lwk jtune lwk FUatK bth tbtk òøg wk. btht k<br />
bt ;t rv; tlu leje c;tJJt sJtlwk bl :g wk. ªsg, lejelu jE jtp m<br />
ypL srjm sENwkª fnu;tk bth e ytkF tub t k vtK e ytJe dgtk. b lu<br />
ctnw vtNb tk jE ju;t k sgu Mlun:e fÌtwk, ª nwk mbsw k Awk, bt plt ! rv;tSlu<br />
b¤Jt lwk bl :gwk Aulu bl u cu yXJtr zgtle hò b¤Nu. yuf<br />
yXJtrzgwk ;th tk bt ;t rv; tlu lu yuf yXJt rzgwk bthtk bt;trv;t vtmu<br />
dt¤eNwk. fub jtd u Au b tht u ytE zeyt ª ªytun, sg. nt Q ytE jJ<br />
g²!ª fne bU ;ulu a ²be je"tu.<br />
l u nJu c¤JtFtuh ’efhe ytsu leje ylu sglu jEl u bt; tr v ;t lu<br />
b¤Jt sE hne n;e. VTjtEx yphvtpx o vn tuka ;t k rv;tl wk JjK fuJwk<br />
nNu yblu MJefth Nu leje « ðgu fuJtu CtJ c;tJNu òu ln´ ctu ju fu<br />
l ejel u ln´ ;uz u ;tu yt vAe f’trv nwk ;u bl u b¤eN ln ´ ;uJtu b lt ubl<br />
rlKo g vK bU fhe je"tu.<br />
V TjtE x jpLz :;tk l ejel u bU b the bt; tl t nt:btk yt ve ’e"e vK bU<br />
òuE je"wk fu rv;tS ytkFlt F²K u:e òuE hÌt t n;t. ;ub lu n; wk fu leje<br />
sg s uJe dtuhe nN u vK leje DWkJKe o fh;tk Qs¤ e ylu dtu ht fh;tk<br />
ytuA e dtu he n ;e .; ult WA¤;t n t:vd f’ta rv;tSlu bthtk<br />
c t¤vKle gt’ yvtJ;t nNu. le jele ytkFtu rv; tS suJe ab f’th<br />
n;e, òKu ;u btk :e ;usrfhKlt V ²Jtht Qz; t l n tug ! l eje ltl ebtlt<br />
nt :btk Mlun :e mbt E dE, vK rv;tS f Nwk ct uÕgt ln´. sgu Mlun :e<br />
bt htu Jt kmt u :v:vt Ôgtu, lu fÌtwk, ªz tuL x ce yvmux! lua h rJj xuE f<br />
R xTm ftumo.ª vK btht blbt k yJZJ n;e ªrJj R xª<br />
mtk sl t C tus l vAe bt;tSy u yb lu culu b tht vn ujtklt cuzY bb tk<br />
bt ufje ’e"t. ª le jele ®a;t fh;tk ln´. yn´ Au ðgt k mw"e yu btheª.<br />
bt htu Y b s uJtu n;tu ;uJtu s ò¤Je htFujtu n;tu . ’tFj :;t k sg<br />
F wNe:e ct uje QXTg tu,ªntN ! yts htº tu bt hu l ejel u ’²" veJztJJt ln<br />
´ WXJw k vz u!ª<br />
blu gt’ ytJe dgwk. btht rv;tS nwk l tle n;e ðgthu blu lJztJ;t,<br />
f vzt k vnuh tJ; t bt ;t S ctuj;tk fu jtJtu nwk fhe ltFeN , vK rv;tS<br />
l btl; t. fuxjwk Jntj ;uytu fh;t!<br />
ªb tul t, N wk rJa thu A uª sgu v²ATgwk. rv;tSyu lejelu ;u ze vK ln´<br />
ytxjtu dwMmtu ’w&Flu je "u fu DJtguje jtd Ke ytulu je"u nwk "{w mfu<br />
"wmfu h ze vze.<br />
b"h t; u bt ;h efule MJgkMV²hKt:e nw k òde dE. lejele ct uxjlt u<br />
xtE b :gtu n;tu. vK bt; tr v ;t lt Ybbtk:e l ejel t hz Jtl tu yJts<br />
l tu¥;tu ytJ;tu. yul u c’ju ’eJtlF kzbt k :e "e btu "ebtu l ejel tu<br />
rF jrF jtx nmJt ltu yJts m kC¤t gt u.<br />
aw vfe :e nwk ’t’h vh ytJe lu leaul wk ^ ~g òuE M; ç" :E dE. leje<br />
’eJtlF kzlt dtjeat vh m²;e n ;e, bt :wk ytuN efu n;w k, nt:vd<br />
W jt¤;e n;e. ;ule vh ͤ²kc e h nujt lJt anuhtl u ytu¤FJtle ftuE<br />
vhJt lntu;e. rv;tS lejelu ctuxj veJz tJe hÌtt n;t. yuf<br />
ytkd¤e:e lejelt vzFtbt k d’dr’gtk fh ;t k n;t ylu cÒt u<br />
F wNF wNt j<br />
n;tk.<br />
nw k cuzY b bt k sE sglu yt ò uJt ctujtJe jtJe. sg òuElu yt Ctu :E<br />
dgtu. ’²" ve rv;tSyu lejelu ; uz e ylu ytuz fth FJztÔgtu. yul u FCu<br />
l tFe :tcz;t k :t cz ;t k Ybbtk Vh;t k dtJt jtøg t, ª Jt’¤ Dug to<br />
ytC btk , ;w k s btÁk ;usrfhK....ª<br />
rv;tSl u bltJe juJt nwk s uxje yt;wh ;uxjts rv;tS vK y t ;wh<br />
n;t. vK yu ;²xu jt Mlu nl t mu;wl u Vh e fub ctk"Jtu yule ftuE m²Í<br />
l ntu;e. leje yu mu ; w cle dE . cu v¤ yulu òu;tk QCtk. b tht anuht<br />
vhle «m Òt ;t ò uE sgu ntNfthtu ’e"tu. yu ;tKelu b lu cuzYb CK e<br />
jE<br />
dgtu.<br />
m t b d { e y t u<br />
dtu Ce- d cto LÍtu<br />
f l f ht J¤<br />
fum ² zt k ykf 31 mÃx uB ch 2004 15
u<br />
o u<br />
u u<br />
w w wk<br />
k w k<br />
«b t K b t v mt b d {e<br />
1 vt Wk z ft c e<br />
15 yt WL m zc t l t aKt( dc t L Ít ce L m )<br />
1 b Îg b ÍeKtu m b t h uj t ft k’ t<br />
1 b Îg b xb ux k, lt l t x fz t fhu j<br />
1 je jw b haw k, ÍeKw ft v uj<br />
2 yt WL m<br />
© u z u z aeÍ( bt uÍ t h uH t , au z th , btu Lx he<br />
su f )<br />
u w<br />
w k<br />
1/2 fv vt Mx t m tu m<br />
1/2 fv ; t S c uÍ j<br />
1/2 fv rv l t uj e y t lx f fts<br />
1 aba e b e X<br />
1 . ztk zje ft Zelu f tucel t b tuxt k b tuxtk vtk’ zt lu 8-10 rbrl x vtKebtk<br />
ctV e vtua tk fhe l tFJt.<br />
2 . zctlt aKtb tk:e vt Ke rl;the vtKebtk yuf Jth "tu E juJt.<br />
3 . vtM;t mtum,c uÍj ylu f tswlu çju Lz fh e Jtxe ltFJt. sYh<br />
vz Tg u :tuz wk vtK e l tFe Nftg.<br />
4 . yuf btE ¢tuJuJ rzNbtk vnujtk ftu ce lt vt k’ zt athu c tsw jxfu yuJe<br />
he ;u dtuXJJt . ;ule Wvh rl;th ujt aKt vt:hJt ylu ;ul t Wvh f tk’t,<br />
bhatk , xbuxtk vt:hJt. Wvh aeÍ lwk yuf :h cltJJwk.<br />
5 . sb;tk vnu jtk cu ºt K rb rl x btE¢tuJuJb t k dhb fhe jtu. Wvh<br />
ftu:b eh At kxe ’uFtJ fhe Nftg. MJt’ yl u mwdk" vK òbNu. mujuz ;<br />
he fu fu mtEz rz N ;h efu c{u z mt:u F tE Nftg . sYh jtd u ;tu n tux mtu m<br />
vK Atkxe Nftg.<br />
gwØth k C u<br />
r fN tu h htJ ¤<br />
(bt fo xTJuEllt ¥A war prayer¥ Wvh:e)<br />
nJt btk yu f yluh tu ;hJhtx n;tu.<br />
’uN lt gwgwðm wyt u ytgw"tu a zt Je<br />
gwØle ;ugthe fh ;t n;t.<br />
’hu flu nigu ’uNt rCb tl Ajft;w k n; wk<br />
’wk ’wrCyt u ; ze ctu jtJ;e n;e<br />
;jJtht u,chAe yt u FFz;tk n;tk,<br />
ylu Zt j vh yul t Dt ’uJt ;t k n;t,<br />
ylu ÍÁFu, Atvh u, ytuxju cu Xujtyt ule<br />
ytkFtul u yt ͤftx rJMVtrh; fh; tu n;tu.<br />
jztEl t JtDtytu, f bh ck"tu, m tVtytu aztJe<br />
Yz t sJtrlgt ytu b² Au ; tJ ’u;t n;t.<br />
yl u ;u blt bt ;t rv;t, cnultu, Jnwytu<br />
nh Ft ;t k bhf b hf :;tk QCt n; tk<br />
¥sg ntu¥ ¥sg n tu¥l tu lt’ yuf v¤ vK<br />
Nb ;t u l n;tu ylu nh Fl t ytk mwytule mh JtK e<br />
yrJh ;<br />
n;e.<br />
Dht u, bkr’h tu vh "ò, v; tf t jn uht ;t k n;tk.<br />
gwØlu btu hau jzJ ig tyt ulu btufj ;t k vnujtk<br />
dt blt btu xt bkr ’h u jtuft u Cu dtk :gtk.<br />
"bodwÁ lt ytNeJo al tu ylu<br />
;uble Eµhlu «t:o lt mtkC¤Jt btxu.<br />
ªn u mJoNrf T ; btl,<br />
rJfht¤tult Ó’g btk cef QCe fh u yuJt ’u J!<br />
Jdt z ;th tu Nk F, ͤftJ ;the ;jJth<br />
yl u yblu rJsglu vk : btufje yt v.ª<br />
c wjk’ yJts u,<br />
MvÐ N wØ WåathK mt:u<br />
Jt; ytd¤ ajtJe.<br />
ªn u mJoNrf T ; btl!<br />
nu<br />
mJo^Ðt!<br />
ybt ht mirlftule mjtb;e rJ» tu<br />
mòd hn e ; ubl u gwØ ûtu ºtu<br />
nh uf he;u m wrJ"t fhe ytvsu ylu b’’ f hs u,<br />
W ðmt n ylu c¤ mt:u ytN eJto’ JhmtJsu<br />
yl u ’w~ bl mt bu Z tjl e sub ytu: yt ve<br />
z dju zdju x¬h Íejt Jsu...ª<br />
yuJu xtKu xt u¤tl e vtA¤:e yuf J]Ø ytd ¤ ytÔgtu.<br />
bt uxwk fvt¤, jt kce ’tZe, ; us MJe Qk ze ytkFtu...<br />
"eb tk vdr:gt k aze<br />
"bo dwÁ le ctswyu ytJe QCtu<br />
bt uk vh r ’Ôg ;us n;w k<br />
ytkFtub t k Duh e dbdele n;e .<br />
mti ;ul u òuE hÌttk.<br />
"bo dwÁ lt Nç’tu d¤t btk s yxfe dgt.<br />
ytJl thu dwÁlt FCu nt : b²fe<br />
; ubl u h tu¾ gt.<br />
jtuftu ;hV Vh e ;u ctuÕgt,<br />
ªn wk Eµhltu mk ’ uN jE lu ytJwk Aw k.<br />
; ubKu ytvKe «t :olt mtkC¤e Au<br />
yl u ytvKe yu yrC jt»tt ytu v²he vtzJt ; ðvh Au.<br />
vK --<br />
ªvK ;uK u bl u yuf f tb mtukÃgw k Au.<br />
ytvK e «t:o ltltu v² htu y:o mòJJt fÌtwk Au.<br />
ytvK e «t:o lt yu f « t:ol t l:e vK c u Au .<br />
yl u yu cÒt u Rµhlt ftlu v² he vntukae Au.<br />
ªyu f «t:olt gwØbtk rJsge :El u<br />
fum ² zt k ykf 31 mÃx uB ch 2004 16
fNe ntrl Jdh vtAt Vheyu ;u rJ»tu A u.<br />
ytvKt sJtlt u, ytvKt jtz fJtgtytu<br />
yl u ;u ble mt:u ytvKu mti vK ; uble mt:u<br />
Dh ytkdKle n²kV , h tn; Atuze<br />
bt uha t vh ytd¤ J"eyu...<br />
ªylu ceS «t:o lt A u fu<br />
’w~bltu lt u mknth fhe ltFeyu.<br />
ªyt vKt mirlftu, ytvKt ’tYdtu¤t:e ’w~ bl tul t Cw¬t fhe ltFu,<br />
’w~bltu lt nm;tk, Ͳb ;t k, atmrxgu jnu ht;tk<br />
F u; ht u, Dkxze ytu hKf ;wk vNw "l<br />
yl u DBbh JjtuKt mt:u dJt;tk de;ztklu<br />
c’ju b] ;’u nt ult Zd fheyu.<br />
ª’t Ád tu¤tl t yJtòu ck" fh e<br />
fKm tx ylu Jjtuvt; lt yt¢k’t u:e<br />
ytftN Che ’Eyu.<br />
nu Eµh, ’w~b ltu lt Dh tu Czfu ’E<br />
m¤d tJe ’uJtbt k mntg fh.<br />
fÕ vtk; fh;e rJ"Jtyt ulu<br />
ftg b btxu dbdel eb tk z²ct zJt<br />
yl u yublt ylt: ct¤ftulu<br />
bÁC ²rb clujt ;ub lt ’u Nbt k<br />
l tuk"tht, hͤ;tk b ²fJtbtk<br />
ae:hu ZkftE, C² Fu b h;tk fu<br />
Xkze bt k Xh;tk b ²fJt btxu<br />
b’ ’ fh !<br />
ªyt vKe «t:oltbtk yt c"wk A²vt gw k Au<br />
;bth u yu s òuE;w k nt ug ;tu yuf e yJtsu ntukftht u ytvtu...ª<br />
m²k Z b ² kZ :gu jtk jtuftul u Jtat ytJ;tk<br />
yu vtA¤:e fnu;t k n;tk,<br />
ªyt ;tu ftuE dtkr zgtu b tKm jtdu Au ytvK u<br />
fkE yuJe Jtrngt; btd Keyt u ytuAe fh eyu Aeyuª<br />
ftd s l e f~;e ..<br />
a L ÷u N Xt ft u h (l t u: o r J j, rb r Nd l )<br />
¥ftdsle f~;e ytuh c theN ft vtl e¥l udtJt ltu Eòhtu Cju<br />
sdS;ltu ntug . yulu MbhKtult vtK ebt k Jnu;e b ²fJtltu ylu ;h;e<br />
ht FJtltu n¬ ;tu bt htu, ;b tht u, ytvKt c Î"t ltu ! atjtu, yu ;h;e<br />
nt uze bt k ;bu vK bthe mt:u ytJt u.<br />
yuf b¥ Bb’ chVJt¤tu , ceòu b ¥Bb’ Dt uztdtzeJt¤tu. ylu nwk, cm yu<br />
s culu vgdkch dKJtJt¤t u! yu c hV Jt¤t b ¥Bb ’atat bthe<br />
®s ’deb tk ytÔgt ðgthu ¥bntuBb ’¥ ct uj;t ltu¥;t u N eÏg tu. vK, yu bl t<br />
l tbl t NwØ Wå ath ltu yCtJ yu blu vthF Jtle ytzu l tu¥;tu yt Ôgtu !<br />
yts u vtka -A ’tgftytu Je; e dgt, yu cÒtu vgdkchlt anuht yl u<br />
nt JCtJ yuJt s gt’ A u.<br />
C Yal tu ybthtu awlthJt zltu j•tt u DKtu òKe;tu ylu «r;»Xtvtºt.<br />
vK , yult hM;t ¾gtkf ftucjMxtulJt¤t, ¾g tkf vÚ:rhg t¤t, "²¤Jt¤t,<br />
yl u me"tm vtx ;tu ln´ s! vK, yuJt hM;t ytubt k, yub le F tuz kd t;e,<br />
Xa² fXa ²f atj;e jt fz tle jth e jEl u b¥Bb’atat ytJ;t. J»to bt k<br />
mt;- ytX brnlt htus ytJ;t. ¾gthu f, yublt ytJJtle òn uht ;<br />
f h;e Dkxze Jd tz;t. vK, yb lu ¾gtk n;e yu Dkxzele sÁh chV l tu<br />
dt u¤tu ¾gthug òKu ®s’d ebtk Ft"tu lt ntug yub yuJt ybu yt;wh,<br />
ht us s yub le htn ò u;t! vtur Kg tu vt gòbtu, Wvh yh"e ctkgl wk mVu’<br />
vnu hK , bt:u cu Ùt Dtxl e bwmjbt le xt uve, l tl e mhF e ¥dtuxe¥,<br />
c fht s uJe ztZ e, ylu ¾gthuf nJt btk mnus vK Xkzf nt ug ;t u yuble<br />
yuf ssor h; ckze . vK, yubl wk jdCd ct uFw k rMb; ; tu n kbu Nl wk<br />
l Jle;! yu bl t aulat¤t:e, ylu ct¤C t»te N ç’t u:e ybl u ct¤ftul u<br />
yu nkbuN Fw N htF;t. ¾g thuf, ybthtbt k:e f tuE CtøgNt¤elt<br />
Jt¤b tk yu J¤e n t: vK VuhJ; t!<br />
jth elt lea ult Ctdbtk chVle mnus btuxt f’le yu f jt ’e htu s<br />
nt ug. chV ytud¤u ln´ yuxju f k; tl lt yuf xwfztb t k J´xt¤uje yu<br />
jt’e vh jtfzt ltu Jnuh vt:helu. yu le htusle btb wje ytb’tle lw k<br />
yub yu s;l f h;t nNu lt, yts u J»tt uo vAe vK bt ht rJµt mbtk<br />
jde hu ;z l:e vze fu yu yublt C²jftkyt ubt k:e ftuE vK yublt<br />
c hV lt dtu¤t Jdh h ne lt òg yu ®a;tlwk s yub yu s;l fh;t!<br />
yu b tuxe jt’ebtk:e , nt:b tk vfze Nftg yuJz tuf xwfz tu f hu. yu xwfztle<br />
l eaje ctsw rm Jtgle ºtK ctswlu fvzt:e ®Jxt¤u . jtfzt lt ltlfzt<br />
¥Dtu zt¥ bt k ftu hujt ftvbtk Jåau Mxejlwk "th’th vtlwk b²f el u Ae Ke<br />
c lt Juje yubt k yuf nt::e chVlt yu xwf ztl u Ae Ku. ceò nt:btk<br />
c hV lt AeKlu Íej;t òg. dtu¤tu fh Jt btxu fu xjwk AeK òuR yu yul e<br />
yub lu v²huv²h e dKºt e. òuE ;wk AeK nt:btk Cud wk :tg yuxju yult u, v²h e<br />
bt Js;:e, dtu¤tu Jt¤u. Jtk mle ftvuje m¤eyt ubtk :e yuf vmk’ f he<br />
yul t vh yu dtu¤t lu J¤dtz u. vAe, yu Fh uFht h kdu azu! jthebtk<br />
dt uXJtgujt hkdcuhkde Nhc;lt ct xjtytub tk:e, ltlfzt yu f m r¤gt<br />
Jz u, òKu sj;h kd Jd tzu! hkdle vmk ’de yblu mtu kvu, yb the<br />
vmk ’del u A²x:e dtu¤t vh Atkxu, hkd el dtu¤t lu ybtht nt:btk b²f u,<br />
ytkFtu:e :tuz wk nm e ju, ylu J¤e vtA t vujt chVl t xwfzt lu AeKJt<br />
jtd e òg! ftu¥f Jth J¤e, vtu ;t lt ;h V:e yu f dtu¤tu ytvu ylu btlu<br />
f nu CtElu ceòu dt u¤tu FtJt ’uòu< yu ;tu b tht ;hV:e Au! yub<br />
ybt he ylu ybt ht b ntuHt mt :ule yuble r’Hde h tus hujt J;t òg.<br />
fum ² zt k ykf 31 mÃx uB ch 2004 17
yub lt n t:lu Xkz e:e f¤ ln ´ J¤e n tug yublt u ztctu nt: Xkz e:e m²S<br />
l n´ dgt u ntug C ²htu l n´ :R dgtu ntug ht us h tus , yl u htuslt<br />
ºt K-ath fHtf , chVlt AeKlu nt:bt k ÍeÕgt f hJt ltu, dtu¤t Jtégt<br />
fhJtlt ... vK, bl u Ftºte A u, chVJt¤t yu b ¥Bb ’ata tlu yuJtu<br />
rJa th ¾gthu g ln´ ytÔgt u ntu g. ybu c"t vtka-mt ;- lJl e WBbhltk.<br />
atat vatm- vkatJllt. yb C ²jftkyt ult u ytlk’ yu s òKu yub lt u<br />
"bo ! yub s J»ttuo Jeðgtk. chVdt u¤tlt hrm gt ybu ct¤f tu c’jt;t<br />
hnu;t, b¥Bb’atat ;t u yuf s ylu yublt u "bo yu s. culb² l! ylu<br />
yuxju ; tu yu vgdkc h. Fw’ SJ;tkSJ ; yu ;tu h tus sn Òt ;b tk hta;t<br />
n;t. yubl e yu yt’;lu y’c fhe yub lt u Fw ’t, b] ðgw ct’ vK , yu<br />
yt’;l u vtu»t Jtbtk s F wN nNu!<br />
ceò ¥vgd kch¥ yu dtz eJt¤t b¥Bb’atat . Dtu ztdt zeJt ¤t. mt;-<br />
ytX J»tole WBb h:e jd Cd Jem J»tole WBb hu CÁa ftg b btxu<br />
Atu zgw k ðgtk mw"ele dtzeJt¤t b ¥Bb’ ata tle Mb]r;ytu ytsu ath<br />
’tgft:e vK J"w mb g Je;e dgtu ; tugu yuxje s ;tS Au !<br />
ytuxt uheû tt ytJe ;u vnujt b ¥Bb’atat suJt Dtu ztdtz eJt¤t ytult u<br />
s btltu n ;t u. yu sbtltl e yt Jt;tu Au. CÁa Nn uhb tk ytkd¤elu JuZ u<br />
dKtg yuxje btuxhtu ct’ fh; tk, Dtuztdt ze s bwÏ g Jtnl . V ubeje<br />
z tuf Txhle sub b ¥Bb’atat ybthtu V ube jelt u dtzeJt¤t u. Dtuz td tze le<br />
sgt hu vK sÁh vz u ðgthu atat ntsh s ntug. ylu yu Je sÁhl e<br />
F ch ytd¤:e vzu ;uJe atatlu ;t fe ’ fh e s ’uJtle. ylu sÁh<br />
Jdh vK ¾gthuf cò hbt k yubl e Dtuztdtze CxftE òg ;tu yu WBb hu<br />
vK yblu Ct Eytu lu b ¥Bb’atat mjtb fgto Jdh h nu ln ´ . yuJt yu<br />
b¥ Bb’a tat.<br />
yu sbtltbtk, ’h J»tuo, Dtuz tdt zeytu l wk ¥çg²xe fL xuMx¥ :tG x. yu<br />
E LMvufTN lb tk dt zele b sc ²; tE , dt zel t hkdle ab f ylu r zÍ tEll e<br />
f¤t, dtze ltu NKdth, dt’eytulw k dt ’evKw k, at uÏFtE , ylu Dtuztlt u<br />
’bt b & yuJt Dxftulwk vheût K fhelu ’h uf dtz el u l kc h yvtg. ybthe<br />
l tle WBb hu ’h uf J»tolt vn ujt yuf- cu yXJtr zg t ;tu b¥Bb’atat<br />
vnu jtu lkch jtJJt Nwk fhN u yule DtK e ;tjtJuje hnu;e . yuble<br />
dt zeltu lkch vn ujtu ytJu ;tu ybu c"t ’tuM;t u F wN :E s ;t . ¾gthuf<br />
vnu jtu lkch lt ytJu ;tu rlhtN vK yuxjt s :; t. b¥ Bb’a tatltu<br />
rJsg yu ybthtu ytlk’!<br />
b¥ Bb’a tatle F he gt’d ehe ytu ;tu yb tht ftujuslt J»t tuole. yu<br />
s btltbt k CÁabtk yuf vK ftujus lt u¥; e. nwk yl u btht btuxtCtE<br />
yb’t Jt’ ftujus btxu dgujt. vK, ’h A-ytX yXJtr zgu yb u CÁa<br />
ytJeyu . ylu ’h JF;u , ftujuslt u r’Jm v²htu :tg vAe lef¤Jtlwk<br />
yuxju b "ht; u CÁalt MxuNl vh W ;heyu . at atl u ybth u Dhu:e Jh’e<br />
b¤e s ntug yuxju yb lu F tºte s fu yu MxuNl vh yb lu juJt ytÔgt<br />
s nNu. ylu ;u vK MxuNlle cnt h ln´, vK Ã juxV tub o vh s WCt<br />
nt ug! hF ul u blu yub lu Ntu"Jtbt k fkE ;fjeV vzu! yb u ytJJtlt<br />
nt uEyu yu ht ºtu ces wk ftuE Ctzw ju vK l n´. ¾gt huf yubl u fÌ twk ntug<br />
yul t vAel e x[ulbtk ybu ytJeyu ;tu yu Ãju xVtu bo vh WCt s ntug .<br />
yl u fnu vK Fh t fu CtE ;b u ceS dtzebt k ytJNtu yule blu Ftºte<br />
n;e s.<br />
’ hu f x[evbtk Dhu vntukaeyu ðgt k mw"ebtk yb tht ò;ò ;lt, ybtht<br />
mkc k"e ytult ylu dtblt m btath ytvu s ytvu. ctcwCtE NuXlu ðgtk<br />
jøl btk cnw s htulf hn e ... cût emtn uc lu E Õftc bégtu ...<br />
blnh ata tlu ntu Mvexjbtk jE sJt vzgt ... ºgkcf Ctrxgtl u ðgt k<br />
vtuje mu ’ht u zt u vtzgtu ... ;b the ntEMfw jbt k l Jt r«Lmevtj<br />
ytÔgt ... hujlt vtKeyu ftul u fuxjwk lwfNtl vntukatzgwk ... l Je<br />
nt urMvxjl wk ftb fuxju ytÔgw k ... rJ. rJ. .. . ybl u jtdJt lt ’u f u<br />
ybu A yXJtrz gt:e CÁa le cn th n ;t ! yblu ytJt c"t m bta th<br />
ytvJt vt A¤lt u yublt u yt Ng dtb dvtxt bth Jtlt u ln ´, vK Ct E<br />
DK t r’Jmu vtAt ytÔ gt Au ;tu yulu yKòK ln´ jtd Jwk òuRyu yu s<br />
n;tu yu rJ»tu blu mnus vK mkNg ltu¥;tu. Jt; fh;tk yu bl t yJtsle<br />
mn s;t yl u yub lt yJtsltu hKftu ftuE Ftuxtu mkNg WCtu :Jt s lt<br />
’u!<br />
b¥ Bb’a tatle yb CtEytu « ðgul e jtd Kele gt’ ytsu f uxf uxjt<br />
J»tt uo vAe vK btht blbtk Dh fhe cuXe Au yu yubl e Ftm c u-ºtK<br />
l efx;t :e le ;h ;e Ft rmg ;tul u fthKu& ybthe Jt;tub t k, JåauJåau,<br />
ybt htu yÇgtm fub atju Au yu v²Ae ju. J¤e, ¾g thu f xftuh vK fh u f u<br />
C tE, yÇg tm ftatu ln´ h tFJt ltu ylu CKJtbtk vtAt ln´<br />
vz Jtlw k. (yn´ btuxe :guje ytvKe lJe vuZe lu f ub mbò Je Nfeyu fu<br />
ybt ht b t ylu ct v ;t u Xef, vK ytJtu Dtu ztd tzeJt¤tu vK ytb<br />
xtuf;tu f u rNûtK fuxjw k yd ðglwk Au !) ... ceswk, ¾gthug vK yb<br />
C tEyt u vtmu yu dtzelw k C tzw k lt ju. NÁ NÁbtk, yublu vi mt ytvJt<br />
dsJtbtk nt: ltkFeyu fu ;h ; fn u& ftju N uX (yuxju ybtht vÃvt)<br />
mt:u rnmtc m bS jEN < ;btht vimt ;b u mta Jtu, ftb jtdN u. yu<br />
òK ;t¥;t f u ybt ht vim t yu vÃvtlt ytvujt s Au. vK, yu bl e<br />
ytdJe he;u yblu yuf vtX NeFJtz;t. ... ºtes wk, ybu nkbuNt<br />
ht ;le x[ulbtk CÁa ytJegu. yub , htº tu ybu MxuNl:e Dh u vnt ukae yu<br />
ð gt hu Dh lwk ct hK wk F²ju ln´ ðgtk mw"e atat Fmu ln´. yb lu yufjt<br />
Atu zel u òg l n´. ylu, J"wbtk , bt fu vÃvt cthKwk Ftuju yub lu atat<br />
f nu fu CtE mnemjt b; ytJe dgt Au. òKu vtu;tl e sJtc’the v²h e<br />
fgtolwk hK ®Ndw V ²kf ;t lt ntug!<br />
DK e Jth, :tuze btu xe WBbhu, rJath ytJe dgtu f u mtJ s²s<br />
J»tt uol tu,ylu ;u vK òKu «mkd tuvt ; s, vrhag ;t u g u yu ÔgrfT; fuJw k<br />
dscl wk M:tl sbtJe cuXe Au! ’tgftytu vAe vK Mb]r;vxbtk yub s<br />
yf ck" cuXt Au! sJtc sj’e b¤e dgtu. yu f yC K ylu b tbw je<br />
ytb ’tle Jt¤tu btKm& vK yublw k beÙ wk btlm, yubl e rclytz kc h<br />
mä l;t, nm; wk Ôg rfT;ðJ. ¾gt huf yub lu cò h btk ftuE Ctz tl e htn<br />
fum ² zt k ykf 31 mÃx uB ch 2004 18
òu;tk lJht òugtlwk vK gt’ Au. ðgthu Dtu ztlu «ub:e vkvt¤;t nt ug,<br />
Dtmatht u fu aKt FJztJ; t ntug, òlJh ln ´ vK yuf mt:ele<br />
’uFe;e bwjtgb ’hfth fh; t nt ug, ylu ¾gth ug vK Dtu zt lu atc ²f<br />
bt h;t òuyu jt ln ´! ytb mtjmvK w k yublt mbd{SJll u ytJhe<br />
ju; w k.<br />
ytJt n;t ybth t yu b¥Bb’atat. bth e ^rÐyu yu ft uE<br />
Dtu ztdtzeJt¤tu dhec bwmj b tl ltu¥;tu. vK, yu f jtdK eJt¤t,<br />
W b’t r’jlt yt’be n;t! nJu ; tu, J»ttuo:e, c hVJt¤t b ¥Bb’a tat le<br />
mt:u Fw’t le hnb btK;t Wvh yu cuXt nNu. yu ble dtzeltu lkch<br />
vnu jtu ytJu yu hfÍf :e ;tu n Ju yu vh nNu vK, yu blt Dtuz t vh yu b<br />
s yuf mt:elt Mlun:e nt: VuhJ; t n Nu yul e blu F tºte Au. ylu,<br />
yule vK blu Ftºte A u fu f tuE òu yubl u ytd¤:e Fch ytvN u ;tu<br />
blu ; uz Jt ÃjuxVtubo vh QCt s hnuNu! btht lJt Dhlw k cthKwk F²ju ðgtk<br />
mw"e bl u yufjtu vK ln´ s bwf u. yl u J¤e yt ’;lt òu hu b t ylu<br />
vÃvtl u fnuNu vK Fht fu CtE mn emjtb ; yt Je dgt Au !<br />
’ u Nle aeêe<br />
bjg Cè<br />
f thK ’tu Z J»to vnujtk cw N mtnuc u R htf mtb ule jzt E ònuh fhe<br />
ð gt hu gwØ rJhtu" ytk ’tujl bt k N tkr;v²Jo f Ctd juJt c’j.<br />
mÃxuBch 11, 2001ltu r ’Jm lsh m tbu ytJe QCu Au . ; u ;theF<br />
C ²jtg ln´ ;uJe l ef¤e. yb u ;u r’Jm u $øjU zbt k n;tk. s²l e d<br />
{tb tuVtulle hufz o vh vel yuf s J;w o¤btk D²Bgt fhu ylu yuf s m²h<br />
yrJh ; Jdtz Tg t fhu ;ub cvt uhu JthkJth, vtka -vtka rbr lxu rxTJl<br />
xtJh btk D²me s;wk ÃjuEl òu;tk yJtaf :E dgtk n ;t k, ztatk Jft me<br />
c uXtk n ;tk. b ds ft b l fh u ;uJe yt yh uht xe vbtz ;e Dxl tle ftuE<br />
Dz cum ;e lntu;e.<br />
yk; u JtM; rJf ;tltu rm¬tu f tuE l- bNe lb tk vz Tgtu ðgthu ftuVe-N tuv<br />
juJuju vK ftuE btdo m² Í;tu lntu;t u.<br />
sgt hu yb urhftyu ytk;fJt ’eyt u m tbu ¥jztE¥ òn uh fh e ;u JF;u<br />
xeJe Wvh Q kze m²Í Jt¤t yuf rc {r xNhu (sulw k l tb ytsu C²jtE dgwk<br />
Au) vtu;tl wk F²c s y:ov²K o v]:w¬hK ytvujw k. ytsu vK yu yu xjwk s<br />
ma tux ylu MJeftgo jtdu Au.<br />
; ubKu fÌtwk, ªnh htu s fNt fthK rJlt fu lSJt fthK ykd u Lg² gtufole<br />
dje ytu bt k ftuElu ftuElt vuxbtk chAe Ctukftg Au fu ftuE c u-vtka ztujh<br />
bt xu ftuElu dtu¤eyu ’u Au ;uJwk s yt f ]ð g Au. b]; btlJeytu le yl u<br />
DJtgujtle mkÏgt ylu ms toguje ;thtSle fût t F²c s J"w vK ¥¢<br />
tE b¥ rmJtg ceS ft uE fûtt fu lt b ytlu ytve l Nftg!<br />
bw kc E yb ’tJt’ fh; tk «dr;Ne j hÌtwk A u vK ytsu yb wf JM; wbtk<br />
rcnt h bw kcEl u ytkx b thu Au. s wytu yt mt:ul w k raºt! ct¤ft u btxu vK<br />
ceyh cltJtg Au yl u rlrù; sdtyu Juatg Au..Beerlt Mvu®jdbtk<br />
jtuat, ykd{uS ytvK e bt ;]Ct»tt ytuA e Au atju!<br />
lJ p B c h l e<br />
;igt h e y t u<br />
ª;ultu sJtcb t k c m cu s vd jtk sYhe Au. yuf , yt ntulth ;bt k:e Vhe<br />
vtAt k hͤtE dguje, a ²kXtE dguje ®s’delt ;tKtkJtKt k bu¤Je<br />
v²JoJ ; T SJJtlwk NÁ fhJwk< cu, ytbtk su su dwltu fh lt htytu<br />
mk zt uJtgujtk nt ug ;ule vt A¤ Ft E velu vtA¤ vze N tu"Jt, vfzJt<br />
yl u b¤u ð gthu ;ubl u f tg’t «btKu vd jtk jE mò fhJe..<br />
ªylu òu yu mt:u f tuElt ytJz tk btuxt d wMmt vtA¤ltk fthKtu<br />
mb Syu ;t u f’ta yu Vhe l :tg ;ult u ftuE mr¢g btdo ytvKlu<br />
mtk v zu...ª<br />
rfNtu h htJ¤<br />
yts u vk’h be mÃxuB ch :E. dE ft ju mJth u bth e ’efhe sujbtk dE.<br />
9 /11 vAe ’wrlgt ytF e, yufu yvJt’ Jdh, ytvKe mt:u n ;e ;u<br />
JF ;le dwz- rJj Rh tf mtb ulw k g wØ ònu h fhe v¤btk JuzV e ltFe.<br />
f thKtub tk yuf vAe yuf s²Xt Ktk, Aj ylu «vka!<br />
fum ² zt k ykf 31 mÃx uB ch 2004 19
ftg ’tl tu yuf bk ºtb wø " rmØt k; Au f u mtu dwl udt htu Cju Axfe òg vK<br />
yuf rl’tuo»t l ’kztJt u òuEyu. d wMmu :Elu, yf¤tElu fu bh’tlde<br />
’uFtz Jt nt:b tk ytJu ;u ltu rNhåAu’ fheyu yuJwk l :Jwk òuEyu. ytvKu<br />
l u; t a²kxeyu Aeyu Nt b txu ytJe fvhe vrhrM:r; ytJe vzu ðgth u<br />
W ~f htx Jdh, c"e r’N tbt k:e ftugztu rlhFe, rl»Kt;tu mt :u<br />
aatorJa thK t fhe ’uNl u ytvr•t btk:e ftZe Nfu. z tul rfntuxele sub su<br />
s u ytu¤t ’uFtg ;ul e mtb u ctÍJt ’tuz u ;uJt ; tu l s n tuJt ò uEyu !<br />
’uN le sJtc’the bt:u ntug ðgthu A kAuz tEl u dl- nuve ftQctug clJt<br />
bt xu ytvKu f tuE lu l :e a ²kx;t.<br />
cmtu J»to vnu jtk :tub m suVhmlu "bo ylu h tsl er; Jåau vz’t u<br />
ht FJtltu ysc mk ’uN tu ytÃgtu ;u c tswbtk b² ft E dgtu. ylu ¥bt htu<br />
E µh Qkae ytujt’lt u¥ yuJt lthtytu:e btl Je btlJe Jå au Vtah<br />
vtzJtbt k ytJe Au .<br />
mÃxuBch 11 vAe yt « § nj f hJt btk su vdjtk juJtgtk ;ubt k<br />
må atE, rl»Xt, ’²hk’ uN e fu rlFt jm; t lshu ytJu yuJwk fNwk l:e<br />
s z;w k. Qjxtl wk ZtkfrvAtu zt u, Aj s òuJt k b¤u A u - csu xlt ytkfzt bt k,<br />
JuvL m ytuJ b tm rzMx[fTNl bt k, xuf Tm f xlt ytkfz tytub tk , luN lj<br />
dt zole mr Jom bt k, vtJh fk vleyt ule mt:ule A²ve JtxtDtxtu btk f u fth lt<br />
yurbNlle ytuÍt ulvx vhle ymhbt k...sgtk swytu ðgtk!<br />
¥V tuh " vevj, ctE " vevj ylu ytuJT " vevj¥ C²jtE dgw k Au.<br />
sgt k sw ytu ðgtk s² XtKt k. rcl sYhe jztEbt k fuxjtkg sJtrlgtytu<br />
nt ubtE dgtk, fuxje ;tht S R htfbtk :E ylu ’uNb t k jtuftu lu sYhe fkE<br />
fkE «J]r•tytu vimtlt yCtJu ck" fhJe vze, JtKe MJt;kºg vh yluf<br />
he ;u nwbjt u fhtg Au ylu su ftuE mh ft h mtb u ctuju ;u ’uN÷tune....<br />
ytJwk :tg ðgthu yn´ btlJelt n¬tule Jt;tu ylu yk d; MJ; kºt;tle<br />
Jt;tu<br />
fheyu!<br />
bt ht rJatht u bU yn´ XtjÔgt. yuf c u rJlr; fhJe A u, fÁk <br />
l JuBc hb tk b; ytvJt btxu h rsMx[uNl l fhtÔg wk nt ug ;t u fhtJe jt u. ;<br />
ul e AuHe ;theF fE Au yu ;vtm fhe ;btÁ k ltb l tuk "tJe ’tu ylu<br />
rb ºttu lu vK mòd fhtu fu yu C²ju ln´. ’hu f MxuExbtk yt ;th ef Ts<br />
s w’e ntug Au. vur LmÕJ urlgtbt k ytufTxtu ch 4 A u.<br />
b; ytvJt òytu ;u vnujtk sElu btEfj b ²hl wk ¥V unhlntEx 9/1 1¥<br />
b² Je òuE ytJtu. cm ceS ftu E vK Nh; l :e b ²f ;t u. sEl u yu swytu<br />
yl u vAe gtuøg jt du ;ub b; ytvòu. ÃjeÍ!<br />
Here is a site that gives all you need to get yourself<br />
registered to vote.<br />
http://www/michaelmoore.com/takaction/vote/regist<br />
er.php<br />
"80% of people who went to see 'Fahrenheight 9/11'<br />
were Democrats, and of those who came out of<br />
theaters, 100% were."<br />
F htu yb urhfl ftuK Fhtu ’uN «ub e ftuK blu n;w k fu r Jyuxlt b vAe<br />
ys ²d;e ler;ytult u m tblt u fhu ;u vK ’uN« ub eyt ul wk jût K dKt;wk .<br />
yts u ytxytxjtk yu s ²XtK tkytu vA e, C rJ»gbtk yt ;kºt yt vujtk ftuE<br />
vK Jal vt¤Nu yu Je ©Øt cum ;e l:e. yu lt vh b’th ctk"e s fub<br />
Nftg yubKu fh ujt ntu¤tbtk:e ’uN lu ft ZJtl e sJtc ’the ceò ftuElu<br />
s mtu kvJe hne . rl »Xt:e, måa tE:e f tb fhlthl u s xuftu ytvJtu<br />
hÌtt u.<br />
bt he ’ef he mt:u c eòk vK b tK mtu n ;t k ylu yt vdju Jég tk n;tk.<br />
ytvKu òugwk fu nbKtk Lg²gtufobt k :gujtk rhvrç jf fLJuLNl JF;u<br />
Nt kr;:e rJhtu" fh;tk b tKmtul u ylu c tsw yu QCujtk btK mtul u vK<br />
s ujbtk ltF e ’e"t k. yburhft ¾g thu vturjmhts :R dgwk c eò ’uN tu btk<br />
;bthtk V² jtu<br />
b n u L÷ Nt n, rvxT m cd o<br />
s wjtE lwk fum ²zt k òug wk. ; bth t juFtu, Cth; «Jt m fgt o vAelt ;bth t<br />
yJjtufl tu, vthme ctu je vh jFtguj Jt; to JtkaJtle bò ytJe.<br />
òud tlwòud btÁ k yuf ftxqol yMmj ;bt he òu f ¥ytCth’Nol¥le s<br />
Jt; hs² fhu Au. yt m t:u, b tufj w k Aw k. CrJ»gbtk Jtvhe NfNtu. ’huf<br />
juF fu frJ;t mt:u yu f ltltu Mfua b²ft u Atu ;u mhm jtdu Au.<br />
Rita Avashiya<br />
I read the article "Rudhi o nu Bandhan" by Ashok<br />
Vidwans with such great interest. Our daughter got<br />
married three years ago and when the couple went<br />
to Joshiji for all ceremony explanation, the groom<br />
fum ² zt k ykf 31 mÃx uB ch 2004 20
flatly denied the ritual of washing feet, our daughter<br />
flatly denied the word kanyadan saying, she was<br />
born as an individual and not as someone's property<br />
and so can not be donated and she denied vidai<br />
vidhi because she said she will be always our<br />
daughter and is happy to be part of her in-law family<br />
too. The point I am making is that our second<br />
generation is much more sensible and refuses to<br />
follow rituals blindly and searches for explanation<br />
every step of the way.<br />
(My uncle, Ravibhai Raval once surprised me by an<br />
observation.<br />
"Each of the rituals and traditions have evolved for<br />
a reason at a given time. When the reason no longer<br />
exists we have to abandon the rituals; we may then<br />
start a new one. There was a time to wear a janoi,<br />
time to wear a pitambar and draw a tripundra on the<br />
forehead, time to feast when someone died and a<br />
time to don a white cap, -- and time to abandon all<br />
that.<br />
"There will always be time to fly kites and time for<br />
men women to throw colors at each other and play"'<br />
Thank heavens, we were left with some wonderful<br />
heritage, but what is happening to our psyche that<br />
we twist things out of shape; we forgets things<br />
worth remembering and remember the<br />
drivel...Kishor Raval)<br />
Rekha Shukla (Chicago)<br />
"ULFAT NA RASTA NIRALA" (issue 29) and<br />
"ULFAT NA RASTA NAKSHO-2" (issue 30) are<br />
very nicely narrated.... two thumbs up... all young<br />
people would love this story very much. Please keep<br />
writing good stories. Thanks,<br />
nhr l N òle (g tz or J j, Lg ² sm eo )<br />
s wjtE ltu ykf FtuÕgtu ylu vt ltk ytu VuhÔ gtk. cwyt Nux ul t raºtt uyu sfze<br />
je"tu . Vh e Vhe yu ò uJt ð gt k vtAtu Jégtu. Cth u hk d ht Fe ’e "tu. ftuElu<br />
b¤Jt sElu vtAtk yt Jeyu ðgt hlt vnujtk W’T dth tu x²kfbtk bw jtf t; ltu<br />
mth ytve ’u Au. ytbtk vK yuJw k :gwk. yuxju bt htu yt ûtK ltu vnujtu<br />
«r;C tJ Ízv:e btufje ’W k Awk.<br />
Dr. Ramesh Kumar<br />
I happened to see your website Kesuda.com and was<br />
very impressed by your effort to uplift the Indian<br />
language and bring to reach of everyone, globally. I<br />
was quite taken in by the story 'paho^ch' (July issue)<br />
by Harish Mahuvakar. This is a situation we all<br />
have faced in life at least once and is quite thoughtprovoking.<br />
Though me and my wife are non -<br />
gujaratis, we enjoyed this issue and would like to<br />
read more of such literature. Please do keep up the<br />
good work.<br />
Jitt Bhatt<br />
I am from Bhavnagar and I have read your last issue<br />
of Kesuda and I am very happy to read Harish<br />
Bhai's story "paho^ch'. Very nice to read. I also read<br />
other stories and gazals. Graphics is good.Members<br />
of our small group 'Preet Creation'have visited your<br />
site and we all feel it is very beutiful site for<br />
Gujarati. Next Tuesday I will read the story of<br />
Harnish Jani's "InternetVali Shakila" very funny<br />
story. How can you find time to make such a niced<br />
production<br />
Darshita Rajaguru<br />
I have read Harish Mahuivakar's "pahoch" in<br />
Kesuda with great pleasure. His views about<br />
admission system of our educational instituitions are<br />
well depicted. A good example of in laghukatha<br />
field.<br />
Harish Mahuvakar (Bhavnagar)<br />
fum ² zt k ykf 31 mÃx uB ch 2004 21
I am thankful to you for introducing me to the<br />
Gujarati readers across the world.<br />
I went through the July issue,as well as some of<br />
back issues. Let me admit frankly I haven't ever<br />
come across such a wonderful magazine. Colourfull<br />
pictures suitable to the contents of a story or a<br />
poem, paintings by well known artists, photographs,<br />
sketches, colourful titles,variety in the content and<br />
the layout of the magazine would not only impress<br />
but also fascinate any reader.I would quote<br />
Wordsworth with only a one-word change.<br />
Kesuda has not anything<br />
to show more fair:<br />
Dull would he be of soul<br />
who could pass by<br />
It's my favourite season - monsoon here. We<br />
devoted last session of our group 'Preet Creation' to<br />
it.I liked Preetam Lakhlani's three short poems<br />
which I read to my students.Your fine translation of<br />
Sonia Sones' poem made me reflective but seeing<br />
Bua Shinde's pictuers, the mood was restored.<br />
Could you give the e-mail and regular addresses of<br />
the writers<br />
hm ej t fz e g t (h t s ft ux )<br />
ybu rhft ytJe ¥fum²z t k¥ A uHt ºtK ykftu Jtk åg t. F²c dBgt. yn´ su su<br />
dwsh t;e fwxw kcl u b¤Jtlwk :t g ;ub tk :e :t uzt u vK m trnðg lt k hm n tug ;<br />
uJtk lu fum ²zt kle Jt; sKtJwk A wk. btht vr hra;t u btk mtrnðgltu hm n;tu<br />
vK yn´ ytJe yuble yu r’N t ck" :E dguje ; ub lu fum ²zt kle Jt;<br />
F ²c dbe Au ytJe «J]r•t fhJe ylu ajtJJe yu F ²c s fr Xl Au , yu<br />
mb òg Au. f um² ztk lt 28- 29 ykftu «d x :gt Au yu yrClk’leg<br />
Au. ;btht ¥bthtu b bht u¥ dbu Au.<br />
Like the Article "rUdhInA bamDhan"(July 2004<br />
Issue in Kesuda) and at the same time I resepect<br />
nuances of our culture. But sometimes, due to our<br />
lack of knowledge, we feel some rituals are useless,<br />
like the umbrella in a hotel room over groom's<br />
head.)<br />
But washing Vararaja's feet has logical reason<br />
behind it. Our Culture has always put a lady before<br />
a man when on question of respect. The reason is<br />
that the parents of a kanya, are worried about her<br />
future after marriage, so by washing, they think they<br />
are giving their daugheter to God Vishnu, who will<br />
take care of her very well. and becomes worry free!<br />
()<br />
"Kanyadaan" is really surprising ritual, B'cz when<br />
we give DAAN, the thing which is been given as<br />
DAAn doesn't change the form of it's own. Here<br />
KANYA is BHARYA after that DAAN, Then How<br />
it is KANYADAAN She is no more KANYA. We<br />
all should pay very close attention to rituals rather<br />
than blindly following it!<br />
Jayant Jhaveri (LOndon UK)<br />
I have read your "nAnA gokhalAnA^ DevalA^" that<br />
appeared in Navaneet+Samarpan issue Sept 04.(and<br />
also in Kesuda issue 30) . Your selection of each<br />
subject, its observation is so perfectly described in<br />
Gujarati langugauge that it's like a picture with a<br />
camera and rings true. It is such a vivid picture of<br />
lives as lived by our people. But politicians and<br />
multi-national companies drum up a mood that 'Our<br />
country is making great progress.' This is first time a<br />
respected magazine like this published such<br />
criticism.<br />
Darshana Gajjar<br />
Bhanu & Sudhakar Shah (Mumbai)<br />
fum ² zt k ykf 31 mÃx uB ch 2004 22
We were finally able to download and print all the<br />
four 2004 issues Jan- Jul.<br />
And they excel in quality of contributions and<br />
presentation. In July issue 'Pratiksha' by Preety<br />
Sengupta and 'Jem Pavanni Sangathe' by<br />
Madhumati are highly readable poems that<br />
communicate and touch emotions.<br />
You have become an interesting essayist. You were<br />
already a born story teller. All your Essays - 'Nana<br />
Gokhalana Devla', 'Sapana Ughadi Ankhana', your<br />
stories and anecdotes 'Pancham George', and<br />
Harnish Jani's 'Shakila Internetwali' - all make very<br />
interesting reading and have a high calibre.<br />
i<br />
k k u ]<br />
w k u u<br />
k k<br />
u w k w<br />
u<br />
u u<br />
u o k<br />
u o u<br />
w k u<br />
u<br />
u<br />
k ² u<br />
v´ A e rd h e N J ¼ 5<br />
ltl t ltl t ftÔ g t f »K t r ’ ð g 6<br />
n l z t N e le h J vx j 6<br />
¾ g t Au s g ; v t Xf 7<br />
dÍ j hE N b l e y th 7<br />
rl h t jk c t m hM J ; e rf N t uh h t J ¤ 7<br />
m kD h j m F rf N t uh h t J ¤ 8<br />
h e y j C t ø gt ’ g vÒ t t lt g f 10<br />
C tb Kl t F t ka t sd ’ e N vh b t h 12<br />
Jt ’ ¤ D g t yt C bt l J e l rJ C tf h 14<br />
dt Ce - dct L Í t fl f ht J ¤ 15<br />
g Øt h C rf N t uh h t J ¤ 15<br />
ft d s le f~ ; e . . aL ÷u N Xt f t h 17<br />
’ uN le aeê e b j g C è 18<br />
l J pB ch l e ; ig t he y t rf N t uh h t J ¤ 18<br />
;b t h t V j t 20<br />
Kokila's Shabari brings back memories of all that<br />
we read times ago. Good selection.<br />
We do not like that ‘Jeevan Parbhat ni dialect’. It is<br />
good for a little while but for four issues it is a bit<br />
jarring! (I second the motion! I started with an idea<br />
that fascinated me but I wish I had selected a shorter<br />
of P.G.Wodehouse's stories. Once started, there was<br />
nothing but to do or die...Kishor Raval) But<br />
'Pancham George' kind of writing makes very<br />
interesting reading.<br />
m ²ra<br />
u<br />
u<br />
k u k<br />
k<br />
u u T<br />
u ²<br />
u ² o u<br />
Nwk ftuKu ¾gtk<br />
jF v; lt rf H tu y ks lt ’j tj 1<br />
ft ux µ h , få A y ks lt ’j tj 1<br />
y b ur h f t l t ct ht rf N tu h h tJ ¤ 1<br />
n h eå At b n uL ÷ Nt n 1<br />
Nc h el t ct uh ft ur f j t ht J ¤ 1<br />
M º te Nt h’ t ;h m t r h g t 3<br />
Ct h ;l e mt ks h F t Nw f j 3<br />
’ t’ e l e ’ e f h e h me j t fr z g t 3<br />
. .. y t J N yt r ’ j bL m h e 4<br />
y ct j t v rK b t vx j 4<br />
fum ² zt k ykf 31 mÃx uB ch 2004 23