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i text tiny a minute later.<br />
MADE NEW GAY FRIEND.<br />
and he texts back<br />
then<br />
PROGRESS!!!<br />
YOU SHOULD FORM A GSA!<br />
to which i reply<br />
ONE STEP AT A TIME, BIG BOY<br />
and he replies<br />
BIG BOY - I LUV THAT!<br />
the texting goes on for the rest of the day and into the night. it’s pretty incredible, really, how<br />
frequently you can write someone when you’re keeping the character count low. it’s so stupid,<br />
because it feels like tiny’s sharing the day with me. like he’s there when i’m ignoring maura or talking<br />
to gideon or finding out that nobody’s going to axe-murder me in gym class because i’m sending out a<br />
homosexual vibe.<br />
still, it’s not enough. because i felt that way sometimes with isaac. and i won’t let this relationship<br />
be all in my head.<br />
so that night i call tiny on the phone and talk to him. i tell him i want him to come visit. and he<br />
doesn’t make excuses. he doesn’t say it’s not possible. instead, he says<br />
tiny: how soon<br />
i <strong>will</strong> admit there’s a certain degree of giving a fuck that goes into not giving a fuck. by saying you<br />
don’t care if the world falls apart, in some small way you’re saying you want it to stay together, on<br />
your terms.<br />
when i hang up with tiny, mom comes into my room.<br />
mom: how’s it going<br />
me: fine.<br />
and it’s true, for once.