Help! I've fallen again and I can't get up - MS Australia
Help! I've fallen again and I can't get up - MS Australia
Help! I've fallen again and I can't get up - MS Australia
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4<br />
MY JOURNEY<br />
I was 10 years old when I had my<br />
first sign of <strong>MS</strong>, in my legs, exactly<br />
like they are now. I wasn’t one to tell<br />
mum when something was wrong.<br />
Mum was always working so she<br />
wouldn’t have noticed <strong>and</strong> it only<br />
lasted a week. When I was 20 years<br />
old I had a lot of back pains which have always persisted.<br />
I thought it was from sitting all day in the office. After I<br />
had my second child at 30 years of age, I started to <strong>get</strong><br />
pins <strong>and</strong> needles in my h<strong>and</strong>s with numbness. My Uncle<br />
told me I must have cholesterol because that’s what<br />
happens to him. A test showed a negative result. Then I<br />
found it difficult walking so I thought I was putting on a<br />
lot of weight <strong>and</strong> that my scales were wrong. I had<br />
double vision, but I thought it’s because I tilted my head.<br />
With blurred vision I thought something was in my eye. I<br />
would fall over walking on footpaths, I blamed the<br />
council for not repairing the footpaths <strong>and</strong> proceeded to<br />
blast them. I also had bladder <strong>and</strong> bowel problems <strong>and</strong><br />
thought it was side effects from my skin medication. My<br />
poor memory <strong>and</strong> my inability to absorb anything <strong>and</strong><br />
also defective hearing added to my problems.<br />
Then one day I went totally numb from the waist down<br />
with millions of pins <strong>and</strong> needles going through my body.<br />
I felt it came from my back pains; maybe it was a pinched<br />
nerve. I was X-rayed but that showed nothing, so off to<br />
the Neurologist <strong>and</strong> was diagnosed with <strong>MS</strong> in 1993.<br />
I really never thought I had a health problem. I always<br />
said how lucky I was to be so healthy. I was devastated, I<br />
cried buckets for months because I felt I didn’t deserve<br />
this <strong>and</strong> that I was on death row. .My best friend Belinda<br />
Toumazis, a very caring person, phoned the Society to<br />
seek help for me. After a long time I had the courage to<br />
phone the <strong>MS</strong> Society to register.<br />
I went off to my first meeting for the Newly Diagnosed<br />
people <strong>and</strong> <strong>again</strong> I broke down crying buckets, but by<br />
the end of the evening I started to calm down. It must of<br />
been the jam <strong>and</strong> cream scone that did it during coffee<br />
break) I have been going to the monthly s<strong>up</strong>port gro<strong>up</strong>s<br />
ever since. I feel it has helped me so much. I don’t think<br />
about my <strong>MS</strong>, it’s only my injections of Betaferon that<br />
reminds me. I just <strong>get</strong> frustrated when I’m unable to do<br />
things. I really miss going for walks the most. With each<br />
attack I’ve been able to fight it. I won’t let <strong>MS</strong> stop me<br />
from living <strong>and</strong> so far I’ve won. Hopefully, I will stay at<br />
this level.<br />
Last year I made my husb<strong>and</strong> take me overseas for a<br />
seven week holiday. He didn’t want to take me, he felt I<br />
was going to drop dead on the plane, let alone seven<br />
weeks in hospital. I told him I’m going to live my life as<br />
normal. I won’t be trapped in the house which I am<br />
most of the time. So off we went <strong>and</strong> of course he had<br />
me fully insured, just in case. He was worried about the<br />
heat as it was 45 degrees in Europe. But I had it all<br />
worked out, if I went to the beach everyday it would<br />
help <strong>and</strong> it did. While holidaying I discovered I found a<br />
cure for <strong>MS</strong>. For me I went to the beach daily, no<br />
housework, cooking, etc. <strong>and</strong> partying until 2 am<br />
everyday cured me. Sadly I’m back home <strong>and</strong> back to<br />
normal with my <strong>MS</strong> problems. But I’m not worried as<br />
I’ve learned to cope with this horrible disease <strong>and</strong> I<br />
have another plan. When my son <strong>and</strong> daughter are<br />
hopefully married <strong>and</strong> live their own lives, I’ll be free to<br />
do nothing <strong>and</strong> party, party, party.<br />
They have been told about future gr<strong>and</strong>children,<br />
gr<strong>and</strong>ma won’t be home to baby sit. Raising a family is<br />
so difficult with <strong>MS</strong>. I can only take one day at a time<br />
<strong>and</strong> hope for the best. So everyone, there can be some<br />
light at the end of the tunnel, <strong>and</strong> I’m living proof.<br />
If you can’t run, walk, If you can’t walk, crawl, If you<br />
can’t crawl, just relax.<br />
Nicki Theodosiou, Hurlstone Park<br />
What <strong>MS</strong> Cannot Do:<br />
<strong>MS</strong> is so limited . . .<br />
It cannot cripple love,<br />
It cannot shatter hope,<br />
It cannot corrode faith,<br />
It cannot destroy peace,<br />
It cannot kill friendship,<br />
It cannot s<strong>up</strong>press memories,<br />
It cannot silence courage,<br />
It cannot invade the soul,<br />
It cannot steal eternal life,<br />
It cannot conquer the spirit.<br />
CELEBRATING CARERS WEEK<br />
22 – 28 OCTOBER.<br />
Families, partners, friends, neighbours <strong>and</strong> carers all<br />
play an invaluable role in s<strong>up</strong>porting people with <strong>MS</strong>.<br />
The theme of Carers Week this year is “Listen to<br />
Carers”, acknowledging the wonderful stories that<br />
carers have to share. If you would like more<br />
information on events during Carers Week, please<br />
contact your local outreach worker or the Carers<br />
Resource Centre on 1800 242 636.<br />
MAGSCENE – INTERCOMMUNICATION FOR PEOPLE WITH <strong>MS</strong> – NEW SOUTH WALES