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Our Greying Society<br />

By: Atika S. Jilani<br />

The aging of America is not a new concept.<br />

We are well aware of the changing<br />

demographics of our society. With each<br />

passing year, the percentage of people over<br />

65 increases and by 2030, the older adult<br />

population will outgrow the number of<br />

people 15 years and younger. That means<br />

we will have about 72-1 million older<br />

adults--more than twice their number in<br />

2000.<br />

So what impact does this aging trend bring<br />

to society on micro as well as macro level?<br />

Researchers, medical scientists, policy<br />

makers and humanitarians have come<br />

together on a common platform to address<br />

the challenges of aging society (Wiener &<br />

Tilly, <strong>2015</strong>). They are trying to equip<br />

themselves to deal with vast range of issues<br />

in coming years. Older adults are the one<br />

great consumers of health care and as the<br />

baby boomers are entering the age of 65,<br />

America’s health care system is not very<br />

prepared to deal with the growing demand<br />

of this age group. The changing distribution<br />

of population growth due to increased<br />

number of older people, also known as<br />

“reverse of pyramid” or “Squaring of<br />

pyramid” (Hobbs & Stoops, 2002), has put a<br />

great strain on public health care programs.<br />

We have relatively fewer people working to<br />

pay taxes necessary to provide services to<br />

older people. The increase in aging<br />

population will require medical<br />

professionals to focus more on chronic<br />

diseases rather than acute. Chronic illnesses<br />

will require more long-term care services<br />

like nursing homes, assisted living facilities,<br />

home health care and adult day care. The<br />

doctors and paraprofessional staff need to<br />

change the intervention strategies from<br />

focusing on one single problem to ongoing<br />

management of multiple diseases and design<br />

ways to help elderly cope with diseases<br />

rather than curing them. There is also a<br />

growing concern of a potential shortage of<br />

medical professionals and other staff as the<br />

number of elderly patients increases (Facts<br />

and Fictions about an Aging America).<br />

Photo Credit and license: By Mabel Lamour<br />

The aging of the population does place a<br />

substantial burden on our country’s<br />

economy and policies, and no doubt we need<br />

to be ready to face the challenges. Aging has<br />

also been viewed from another angle. A<br />

view that needs to be brought into focus<br />

more and to be presented with some<br />

positivity and optimism. Many advocates<br />

and visionaries of aging emphasize that<br />

aging should be viewed not only as a burden<br />

to society and family and consumer of<br />

resources, but an older person should be<br />

considered as a useful and productive<br />

resource for the society, community and<br />

family (Aging in America, General Sessions,<br />

<strong>2015</strong>). Being old doesn't necessarily mean


eing frail and sick. Many older adults are<br />

contributing members, providers, and<br />

preservers of values and culture. They have<br />

so much to offer to the next generation. It is<br />

a time to disrupt aging—to change the<br />

perspectives of what it means to get old. It is<br />

really not about aging, it is more about the<br />

way of living. On a personal level, it is<br />

something to embrace with open arms and<br />

look forward to in order to discover the real<br />

possibilities that life has yet to offer.<br />

The nature and power of maturity has been<br />

re-imagined as a result of increasing<br />

longevity. The horizons of new lifestyle<br />

choices influencing decision making, work,<br />

family, leisure will not only bring a positive<br />

change on a personal level but at a societal<br />

level as well. We need to make our homes<br />

and communities more ‘aging friendly’ and<br />

develop a system that assimilates our elderly<br />

with intergenerational work force,<br />

educational models and as keepers of<br />

society. We also need to change our attitudes<br />

and move beyond the stereotypes of decline<br />

and dependency to explore vast potential of<br />

longer lives.<br />

America is growing old. By 2030, one out of<br />

five people will be 65 or over (Wiener &<br />

Tilly, <strong>2015</strong>). We are hardly prepared to<br />

address the needs of our aging society.<br />

Transforming our society to be more<br />

suitable and livable for older adults is the<br />

only way to meet the healthcare, financial<br />

and personal challenges that older people are<br />

currently facing. Only if the society provides<br />

opportunities to the aging generation, then<br />

they will have more potential to give back to<br />

society by optimizing their productivity,<br />

wisdom and manpower which is mutually<br />

beneficial for both society and older adults.<br />

References:<br />

Wiener, J,M. & Tilly, J. (<strong>2015</strong>). Population<br />

aging in the United States of America:<br />

implications for public programs.<br />

International Journal of Epidemiology,31<br />

(4), 776-781.<br />

Facts and fictions about an Aging America.<br />

Macarthur Foundation Research Network on<br />

an Aging Society. Retrieved from<br />

http://www.macfound.org/media/files/AGIN<br />

G-CONTEXTS-FACTFICTION.PDF<br />

Hobbs, F., & Stoops, N. (2002).<br />

Demographic Trends in the 20 th Century.<br />

Retrieved from<br />

https://www.census.gov/prod/2002pubs/cens<br />

r-4.pdf<br />

Photo Credit and license: By Mabel Lamour<br />

<strong>2015</strong> Aging in America General Sessions.<br />

Retrieved from<br />

http://www.asaging.org/2014-agingamerica-general-sessions<br />

https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-ncnd/2.0/


MSG: The Culprit<br />

By: Donald Daniel<br />

Do you enjoy eating foods that really<br />

taste good, but realize that it should<br />

not have MSG included in the<br />

ingredients? You still want to consume<br />

foods like processed meats, salty and<br />

sweet snacks, and the like, but learn if<br />

it has MSG included, it is not healthy. If<br />

you read the label to see that MSG in<br />

not included, you may think it’s okay<br />

to eat.<br />

Is it really okay?<br />

In time you realize there is not any<br />

difference in flavor and content of your<br />

food. It is still delicious, but has just as<br />

much salt, sugar (maybe more) than<br />

before. What is worse is that you still<br />

have the same reactions as before (i.e.<br />

drowsiness, dizziness, headaches) if<br />

you eat too much without drinking<br />

enough water. Reasoning with<br />

yourself, the label says that it contains<br />

no MSG. Why am I still having the<br />

same reactions with what I eat even if<br />

it does not contain MSG?<br />

The answer is simple. Your food still<br />

has MSG within it.<br />

Before you find out why MSG is still<br />

included in your food, let us find out<br />

some background about MSG.MSG or<br />

monosodium glutamate is a food<br />

preservative used to make food taste<br />

better. It was invented in 1908 by<br />

Kikunae Ikeda, a Japanese man who<br />

identified the natural flavor enhancing<br />

substance of seaweed. He and a helper<br />

realized the potential of this, therefore,<br />

creating MSG. It did not come into use<br />

in the western world until after World<br />

War II when it was discovered that<br />

Japanese rations were tastier than<br />

American rations. MSG was considered<br />

safe by the Food and Drug<br />

Administration (FDA) in 1959<br />

(Mercola, 2009).<br />

Ten years later, since Japanese meals<br />

usually are highly concentrated with<br />

MSG, is when trouble began in the<br />

United States. “Chinese Restaurant<br />

Syndrome” or “MSG Syndrome”<br />

describes the numerous side effects<br />

experienced after eating MSG<br />

(Mercola, 2009).


People have always believed that<br />

MSG helped make food taste better, but<br />

in reality, it has another hidden<br />

substance in the glutamate called<br />

umami. It tricks the tongue into<br />

thinking foods with MSG are more<br />

delicious and taste heartier than those<br />

meals without it (Mercola, 2009).<br />

Many doctors have concluded that<br />

MSG is dangerous because it is<br />

considered to be an excitotoxin, which<br />

means it is an overstimulation of your<br />

cells to the point of damage or death.<br />

This can explain what can cause<br />

anyone who consumes MSG<br />

continually to eventually have<br />

conditions like Alzheimer’s disease,<br />

Lou Gehrig’s disease, and more. It<br />

could even explain why young athletes<br />

have sudden death.<br />

One of the best overviews of the<br />

very real dangers of MSG comes from<br />

Dr. Russell Blaylock, a board-certified<br />

neurosurgeon. According to Dr.<br />

Blaylock, numerous glutamate<br />

receptors have been found both within<br />

your heart’s electrical conduction<br />

system and the heart muscle itself. He<br />

said “When magnesium stores are low,<br />

as we see in athletes, the glutamate<br />

receptors are so sensitive that even<br />

low levels of these excitotoxins can<br />

result in cardiac arrhythmias and<br />

death.” (Blaylock, 2005).<br />

FDA tells food manufacturers they<br />

must put ingredients on product<br />

labels. Now the labels read “contain<br />

no MSG” as many of you have seen on<br />

labels before. To confuse the<br />

consumer, they place it under another<br />

name. Beware of products containing<br />

hydrolyzed soy protein, hydrolyzed<br />

wheat protein, anything that contains<br />

the words “hydrolyzed”, “amino acids”,<br />

and/or “protein”. Also, E54, contained<br />

in Saccharin, is in soft drinks, candies,<br />

and cookies (Zellar, 2013).<br />

Food manufacturers are aware the<br />

public does not want MSG in their<br />

foods. Unfortunately, they continue to<br />

use these and many other names in<br />

their list of ingredients. Making the<br />

list so long will discourage the<br />

consumer from reading it. Their<br />

intention is for consumers to settle for<br />

labeling which says “no MSG or MSG<br />

free”, and continue to buy their<br />

product (Truth in Labeling, 2006).<br />

If you care about your health and that<br />

of your family, continue to say NO to<br />

“MSG, The Culprit”.


References:<br />

Blaylock, Dr. Russell (2005, April 25 th ) Athlete Alert: Renowned Neurosurgeon Identifies Aspartame & MSG in Sudden<br />

Cardiac Death. PR Web. Retrieved from http://www.prweb.com/releases/2005/04/prweb225071.htm<br />

Mercola, Dr. Joseph (2009, April 21 st ) MSG: Is This Silent Killer Lurking in Your Kitchen Cabinets. Mercola.com. Retrieved<br />

from http://www.prweb.com/releases/2005/04/prweb225071.htm<br />

www.TruthinLabeling.org (2006) Misleading and deceptive use of “No MSG” to hide MSG. Retrieved from<br />

http://www.truthinlabeling.org/nomsg.html<br />

Zellar, Sassafras (2013) Ingredients to Avoid Besides Monosodium Glutamate. Say NO to MSG. Retrieved from<br />

http://saynotomsg.com/basics_list.php<br />

Photo credit: Health Freedom Alliance (www.healthfreedom.org) article" Warning­MSG­in­American­Foods­<br />

Disguised­Under­40­New­Names­You­Havent­Heard­Of Hidden in Foods."<br />

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The Healing Power of Laughter<br />

by Mike Moore<br />

Laughter isn't just fun and enjoyable; it's good for our health. Each month modern medicine is discovering more<br />

about the therapeutic dimension of humor and laughter and is encouraging us to add them to our wellness program.<br />

The Health Benefits of Laughter<br />

When we laugh we...<br />

* lower our blood pressure.<br />

* promote relaxation and reduce stress.<br />

* increase the oxygen level in our blood giving us more energy.<br />

* increase the endorphin activity in our body resulting in a sense of well­being.<br />

* are able to keep things in perspective<br />

* banish boredom<br />

* are more socially attractive. People enjoy being with those who laugh easily and often.<br />

* increase our enjoyment of life.<br />

Laughter has been called social glue because it bonds us to the people we laugh with.<br />

The message is clear: To live better....Laugh more.<br />

If it feels good to laugh, then laugh to feel good.<br />

This is an excerpt from Mike Moore's latest book Light Up With Laughter<br />

available at www.motivationalplus.com/store.html<br />

Subscribe to Mike's FREE newsletter Lifeline at<br />

mailto:sendlifeline@sendfree.com Committed to the enjoyment of life<br />

Mike Moore is an international speaker and writer on human potential,<br />

motivation and humor. He can be reached at http://www.motivationalplus.com


7 Reasons Why attractive men marry less than attractive women<br />

By: Mika (Ann) Frank @ datingann.com<br />

1. He wants depth: A real man will not marry a woman solely based on looks. When he decides to marry<br />

someone he considers the entire package. Physical attractiveness, mental stimulation,<br />

emotional compatibility, spiritual connection, etc.<br />

2. She got her own: Men don't like being used. With that being said, ambition is a<br />

desirable trait for many. If a woman has a successful career, her own money, and she<br />

motivates him in his career and life goals...why wouldn't he lock her down?<br />

3. She can cook: Some women are so independent and hard at work that they fail at being domestic.<br />

Most men want to come home to a clean house and home-cooked meal. Looks aren't as important as<br />

someone who can throw down in the kitchen. You know what they say: The way to a man's heart is<br />

through his stomach.<br />

4. The sex is bomb.com: A priority for just about all men. This usually puts a woman in the running<br />

towards becoming wifey.<br />

5. She takes care of him: Just as women like to be pampered, men like it too. Massages, gifts,<br />

compliments, affection...it's all love! But not every woman does these things for their man. The other<br />

woman may have mastered this and it has him hooked!<br />

6. She's honest: Everyone hates being lied to and there's nothing like having someone that will tell you<br />

the truth...even when it hurts.<br />

7. Her life doesn't revolve around him: She isn't the needy, nagging chick. She doesn't bother him when<br />

he's out with the guys or unable to cater to her. She knows how to give him space, because she has her<br />

own life to tend to.<br />

Mika’s blog can be accessed at datingann.com and her Twitter @DrAnn721, Facebook @DatingAnn,<br />

Instagram @DatingAnn


Metabolism for the Fit Individual<br />

By Andrew Mills<br />

The dictionary defines metabolism as the sum of all biochemical processes involved in life, or the sustaining of life.<br />

In application concerning our health, metabolism is related to the intake and use of food. In reference to the case in<br />

point it is our ability to utilize our food to the fullest extent.<br />

Right now, the greatest results in raising our metabolism come from exercise and building our muscle mass, while<br />

reducing our body fat. Adding more muscle to the body, in turn causes us to burn more calories, and this helps to<br />

elevate our metabolic rate.<br />

Our metabolism functions also depend on how well we have taken care of our nutritional needs. Some people have<br />

really high rates of metabolism. In other words, when they consume food, their bodies burn it up almost as fast as<br />

they consume it. Then there are those of us who use our food intake so slowly, as to not even notice that we’re<br />

burning calories. These people who burn quickly are often slim and trim, the people who burn more slowly are the<br />

people with a tendency toward obesity.<br />

The body’s metabolism is a unique process for each individual person. No two people metabolize food at the same<br />

rate therefore no two people have the metabolism. We all use our calories at different rates, with different results.<br />

Our metabolism, like our fingerprints is unique to each of us. But the need to understand and accommodate this<br />

metabolism is an issue that we all face.<br />

All of this metabolic process is related to our calorie intake, our vitamin and nutrition needs, our thyroid and<br />

endocrine production, and how well all of these processes come together. For years, people have sought ways to<br />

raise the metabolic rate. If you can raise someone’s metabolic rate, you are then better able to control the burn of<br />

calories, especially for overweight or obese people. This would make the goal of better or improved health a much<br />

easier reality for those people. Efforts to date have produced very little results. There are foods that we can<br />

consume that naturally raise our metabolic rate, but not to a great extent. What we need is a way to directly alter<br />

the rate. We need to be able to raise our metabolism to a point where we can actually see a benefit.<br />

This is where the effort to stay physically fit and active provides tremendous payoff. Over the course of your life, if<br />

you stay active, exercise, and maintain optimal health for your muscles, you will see a tremendous difference in the<br />

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My New York Story: Jeffery Albert<br />

By: Merlyndi Prosper<br />

“Oh darling, you are no ordinary genius. You are a<br />

Jeffery and we Jefferys are far more genius than the<br />

other geniuses out there. How do you think we<br />

Coils the color of midnight: that's what stood out<br />

about her. Big puffy coils that hugged her head. She<br />

strutted into the spa last week wearing the bluest<br />

dress he had ever seen. It clung to her bosom and<br />

waist and, as if knowing that she could only be held<br />

in momentarily, released its grip and hung loosely<br />

down her legs. “Saphire,” she said, “My name is<br />

Saphire, like my dress!”<br />

“Albert,” he replied. “My name is Albert.”<br />

“Oh, you're Mrs. Jeffery's son. Pleased to meet you!”<br />

she responded pleasantly, stretching out her hand. His<br />

hand sank into her sponge of a hand. Her fingers<br />

curled around his. Her perfume wafted over to him<br />

and hugged him gently. He remembered every detail<br />

after all this time.<br />

“Albert?” interrupted his mother. “Albert darling,<br />

what are you doing? Isn't there something important<br />

you could be attending to? A piece you could be<br />

working on for the show tomorrow?”<br />

“I am just taking a break before I head to the gallery.<br />

Even geniuses need to decompress Mother.”<br />

managed to work our way to where we are today<br />

Darling?"<br />

It was always the same with her. Somehow, the<br />

conversation always worked its way back to the<br />

greatness of the family, the superiority of the Jeffery<br />

gene. A gene that his parents had exploited to the<br />

fullest. His father had amassed a fortune, always<br />

giving credit to the Jeffery gene for his success. In<br />

reality, however, Mr. Jeffery had embraced<br />

underhand business practices and tax evasion on a<br />

massive scale. His latest enterprise was this spa,<br />

Banya, which he has created to keep his wife<br />

occupied, and more importantly, to write off as a tax<br />

loss.<br />

Although Albert loathed his mother's intrusion into<br />

his thoughts of The Saphire, he knew she was right.<br />

His entire artistic career depended on this show. He<br />

had spent hours locked in his studio, fussing over<br />

every minuscule detail on each piece. As much as he<br />

desired to reminisce about that encounter with her, he<br />

had to prepare for tomorrow.….<br />

Albert glided up the steps into Banya the day after<br />

the show. He planted his long, tan legs firmly on the


marble floors. His head stood erect on his perfectly<br />

browned neck. He looked everyone he met dead in<br />

the eye, daring them to speak to him. No one did. The<br />

show has been a success, in his opinion. Although he<br />

hadn't sold any pieces, he was confident that his<br />

vision had been communicated and appreciated.<br />

Soon, the offers would come pouring in. He just had<br />

to be patient.<br />

As he approached the front desk, he saw her: the coils<br />

were held back from her face by a black, thin hair<br />

band, her dark eyes glistened like the jewel she was.<br />

She looked up from her computer and smiled at him<br />

warmly.<br />

“Mr. Jeffery how are you Sir?”<br />

“Please, call me Albert.”<br />

“Okay, Albert.”<br />

“How do you get your hair like that? I noticed those<br />

curls the first time I saw you.”<br />

“What else have you noticed?”<br />

He smiled. Before he could respond, an article on the<br />

computer screen on the front desk captured his<br />

attention. From the distance, he made out his name in<br />

the headline. “Excuse me” he mumbled to Saphire<br />

and ran to the computer.<br />

The headline ran, “Art but no Artist.” Albert's legs<br />

wobbled like that of a calf taking its first steps. He<br />

continued reading:<br />

Last night's showing by Albert Jeffery at Canada Art<br />

Gallery on the Lower East Side was a profoundly<br />

disappointing affair. Mr. Jeffery's work showed no<br />

distinction between that of my 3 year old doodling on<br />

a wall and that of an “accomplished” graduate of the<br />

finest art school in the country. His pieces gave not<br />

the slightest indication of either artistic depth or of an<br />

understanding of the artistic process. There was art, if<br />

I dare call it that, but the artist was absent. It was<br />

simply paint on a canvas.<br />

“I braid it at night with coconut oil.”<br />

“Ah, I was wondering how you got it so shiny.”<br />

“You noticed that?”<br />

“Yes. I'm an artist. I notice everything.”<br />

Defeated, Albert fell helplessly to the ground. Saphire<br />

noticed his despair from across the room and ran to<br />

him. “Are you okay?” she asked, grabbing his arm<br />

gently to help him up.<br />

“I am fine!” he shouted in an angry daze. “I don't<br />

need your help.”


She walked away without saying a word.….<br />

As far back as he could remember, heat had always<br />

soothed him. Albert was a summer fellow. But in the<br />

middle of December, the sauna at Banya was the only<br />

place he could be embraced by cleansing, soothing,<br />

detoxifying warmth. After that review, he needed to<br />

be cleansed, soothed, and detoxified. He had<br />

considered every angle of the critic's argument, yet,<br />

he could see no plausible justification for such a<br />

thorough dismissal of his work. He had spent hours<br />

working on those pieces; exploring every emotion he<br />

had ever felt and laying them bare on canvas to be<br />

appraised by people who knew nothing about him.<br />

He felt used, vulnerable.<br />

At that moment Saphire walked in. It was the first<br />

time he had seen her since the morning after.<br />

“Oh, I didn't know anyone was in here. I heard a<br />

noise and came to see if anything was wrong. Sorry<br />

to bother you, ” Saphire stated nonchalantly and<br />

started walking out of the sauna.<br />

“You're not bothering me,” he responded. “I am<br />

actually glad that you're here. I wanted to apologize<br />

for the way I acted the other day...the things I said. It<br />

seemed like you have been avoiding me.”<br />

“Yes, I have been,” she shot back, raising her voice<br />

slightly. “I understand that you were upset. You had<br />

reason to be. But that gave you no right to yell at me.<br />

I did nothing but try to help. What you did was unfair<br />

and I didn't deserve it!”<br />

“You're right. I'm sorry. It won't happen again.”<br />

“Ok. You're forgiven,” she replied, fixing her<br />

chocolate eyes on him. “What's that?” she asked<br />

suddenly.<br />

“What?”<br />

“That thing on your chest. I never noticed it before!”<br />

“Oh that,” he stated somberly. “Well, this is a scar. It's<br />

a constant reminder of the worse day of my life and<br />

the most pain I have ever felt. It's quite sad.”<br />

“Really? Were you shot?”<br />

No.”<br />

“Stabbed?”<br />

“No.”<br />

“So what is it then?” Saphire asked impatiently.<br />

“Well, for my 18th birthday, my parents rented out<br />

the biggest yacht they could find to throw me a party.<br />

They invited all my friends, including this girl, Lyot,<br />

I was in love with. Before the party, we were all on<br />

the lower deck fishing. I'm not sure how this<br />

happened, but when I tried to throw my line out, the<br />

hook got caught right here,” he said, pointing to the


scar on his chest. “It was so painful! I yanked it, like<br />

an idiot, and it ran up my chest! There was blood<br />

everywhere! I was terrified! I thought I was about to<br />

die! And what made it worse was that Lyot laughed<br />

hysterically at me and said that I was an imbecile.”<br />

She never looked at me after that! I was so hurt. To<br />

make this worse, I asked her to dance at my party and<br />

she said no. She laughed at me and said, “I don't<br />

associate with stupid.” I went to the bathroom and<br />

cried for a few minutes at my party!”<br />

Saphire couldn't stop herself. It started as an innocent<br />

giggle in her tummy and by the time it made it 's way<br />

to her lips it was full-blown, uncontrollable laughter.<br />

Tears ran down her checks. That story was possibly<br />

the funniest thing she had ever heard. “Please tell me<br />

that you're kidding. That was a horrible birthday. I'm<br />

sorry.” she said, as more tears streamed down her<br />

cheeks.<br />

Jeffery looked at her with cold, dead eyes. He<br />

couldn't believe that she had found his tragic story so<br />

amusing. “Wait,” he exclaimed, “You find humor in<br />

my misery?”<br />

“Ornery? Absolutely not! I open myself to you, I tell<br />

you about the most tragic, hurtful experience of my<br />

life and you laugh at me?”<br />

“You're serious? That was the most tragic experience<br />

of your life?” she asked perplexed.<br />

“Yes it was,” he responded definitively.<br />

“Please tell me you're joking.”<br />

“No I'm not.”<br />

“Wow! I'm not sure what kind of bubble you've lived<br />

in, but the world is bigger than your crush not<br />

wanting to dance with you. People in this city have<br />

real problems.”<br />

“And I don't?”<br />

“No you don't, if that is the worst thing you've ever<br />

experienced.”<br />

“Please tell me about you're tragedies!” Jeffery<br />

demanded. “Tell me what you have been through that<br />

was oh so terrible!'<br />

“That story was hilarious. Please tell me that you're<br />

just being ornery.”<br />

“You wouldn't begin to understand.”<br />

“Try me.”


“Ok. My parents died when I was 16. They were<br />

coming home from their anniversary dinner and their<br />

car was hit by some idiot. The driver was drunk. He<br />

got off because he had money and could afford a<br />

spectacular lawyer. The state wanted to separate my<br />

brother, sister and I but I fought to keep us together. I<br />

dropped out of school and worked three jobs to take<br />

care of us. I recently finished my GED at night<br />

school. So when you talk about pain Jeffery, yes, I<br />

know what that is.”<br />

'Well, it doesn't matter what caused the pain, pain is<br />

pain. And I know pain!” he retorted. “I have been<br />

through things too! I lost my cat when I was 10, my<br />

mother refused to get me a pair of shoes that I<br />

wanted. I know pain too!”<br />

examined every possible reason as to why he would<br />

allow this “girl” to affect him so much but he could<br />

come up with no plausible explanation. It was<br />

obvious that she understood nothing about him, after<br />

all, she had laughed at his misery. But then, maybe in<br />

contrast to her life, his experience was a joke. Was<br />

that it? Was his life, his work, his entire being a joke?<br />

Was that what the critic had seen in his work?<br />

Nothing? Nothingness? A man whose whole life has<br />

been a series of empty experiences with no depth?<br />

Was that what he was?<br />

The walls seemed to move in on him and the p uppets<br />

crushed his body, squeezing the life juice out of him.<br />

They laughed and jeered at all he was and all he<br />

wasn't. Air left his nostrils and refused to come back.<br />

In the silence that ensued, a divide that never existed<br />

before between Saphire and Jeffery suddenly<br />

appeared and grew exponentially. A transparent<br />

space, yet filled to the point of bursting with<br />

unspoken disappointment, seething anger, unfulfilled<br />

desires. Saphire walked away without saying a word.<br />

….<br />

Sunlight filtered through the lace curtains, creating<br />

odd puppets that danced with abandon on his face<br />

and partially clothed torso. He had gone to bed in his<br />

At that moment, he had an intense desire to paint<br />

something. Anything. He frantically jumped out of<br />

bed, pulled the curtains apart, silencing the puppets,<br />

and ran to his studio. The canvas in front of him was<br />

no longer an ally. It was his nemesis. He attacked it<br />

with hard, intense strokes that seemed to pierce<br />

through it. He had no time to clean the brush and the<br />

colors melded together. Every emotion he had ever<br />

felt came surging through his arm and clamored to be<br />

set free on the canvas.<br />

black silk boxers. Saphire plagued his thoughts. She<br />

was the puppet dancing on his brain. He had


He painted frantically for what seemed like hours,<br />

expending all of himself, the parts he knew and the<br />

parts he was oblivious to on the canvas: anger,<br />

Saphire, responsibility, family, loneliness, Lyot,<br />

disappointment, the critic – everything came through<br />

in frantic, schizophrenic lines and non-lines.<br />

He opened the door and there she was at the front<br />

desk lovelier than he remembered. She noticed him<br />

and smiled shyly. Without saying a word, he walked<br />

up to the desk and placed the painting wrapped in a<br />

white sheet in front of her. There was a note.<br />

“Don't open it until I leave.” he said.<br />

When he was spent, he stood back and examined his<br />

work. He noticed streaks of light coming through the<br />

blinders. They hit the canvas at specific spots and<br />

seemed to lift the strokes off the canvas. His<br />

emotional outburst had produced a masterpiece of<br />

color. Shapes, he didn't know he was capable of<br />

producing were juxtaposed next to and on top of each<br />

other, creating undefinable conflict and palpable<br />

tension. Lines with no beginning and no ending were<br />

scrawled all over the canvas. He stood in front this,<br />

his best work, raw and austere. The streaks of light<br />

caught the tear that ran down his cheek. Staring at the<br />

canvas, brush in hand, he had no idea where he was<br />

heading.….<br />

He walked up the steps to the spa. It would be a while<br />

before he made this trek again. The bag on his back<br />

She obeyed him. Suddenly, it seemed, he could<br />

compel her to obey him. He smiled openly, at her and<br />

walked out.<br />

After he left, she removed the sheet and was<br />

astonished at the colors, the intensity, the raw<br />

emotion that was let loose on the canvas. She could<br />

scarcely believe that Albert had painted this. Had he?<br />

“Why would he have given it to me if he hadn't<br />

painted it?” she thought. The note. She foraged<br />

through the sheet and retrieved the note.<br />

“I'm sorry. Thank you. See you when I find my truth<br />

and become the man that I was supposed to be.”<br />

She smiled and stared at the painting, wondering<br />

where he had gone.<br />

contained everything he would need for an extended<br />

“vacation.” To where? He had not even the slightest<br />

clue. Fate would point him in the right direction.


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