REALITY CHEQ MAGAZINE (SUMMER 2015)
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Our Greying Society<br />
By: Atika S. Jilani<br />
The aging of America is not a new concept.<br />
We are well aware of the changing<br />
demographics of our society. With each<br />
passing year, the percentage of people over<br />
65 increases and by 2030, the older adult<br />
population will outgrow the number of<br />
people 15 years and younger. That means<br />
we will have about 72-1 million older<br />
adults--more than twice their number in<br />
2000.<br />
So what impact does this aging trend bring<br />
to society on micro as well as macro level?<br />
Researchers, medical scientists, policy<br />
makers and humanitarians have come<br />
together on a common platform to address<br />
the challenges of aging society (Wiener &<br />
Tilly, <strong>2015</strong>). They are trying to equip<br />
themselves to deal with vast range of issues<br />
in coming years. Older adults are the one<br />
great consumers of health care and as the<br />
baby boomers are entering the age of 65,<br />
America’s health care system is not very<br />
prepared to deal with the growing demand<br />
of this age group. The changing distribution<br />
of population growth due to increased<br />
number of older people, also known as<br />
“reverse of pyramid” or “Squaring of<br />
pyramid” (Hobbs & Stoops, 2002), has put a<br />
great strain on public health care programs.<br />
We have relatively fewer people working to<br />
pay taxes necessary to provide services to<br />
older people. The increase in aging<br />
population will require medical<br />
professionals to focus more on chronic<br />
diseases rather than acute. Chronic illnesses<br />
will require more long-term care services<br />
like nursing homes, assisted living facilities,<br />
home health care and adult day care. The<br />
doctors and paraprofessional staff need to<br />
change the intervention strategies from<br />
focusing on one single problem to ongoing<br />
management of multiple diseases and design<br />
ways to help elderly cope with diseases<br />
rather than curing them. There is also a<br />
growing concern of a potential shortage of<br />
medical professionals and other staff as the<br />
number of elderly patients increases (Facts<br />
and Fictions about an Aging America).<br />
Photo Credit and license: By Mabel Lamour<br />
The aging of the population does place a<br />
substantial burden on our country’s<br />
economy and policies, and no doubt we need<br />
to be ready to face the challenges. Aging has<br />
also been viewed from another angle. A<br />
view that needs to be brought into focus<br />
more and to be presented with some<br />
positivity and optimism. Many advocates<br />
and visionaries of aging emphasize that<br />
aging should be viewed not only as a burden<br />
to society and family and consumer of<br />
resources, but an older person should be<br />
considered as a useful and productive<br />
resource for the society, community and<br />
family (Aging in America, General Sessions,<br />
<strong>2015</strong>). Being old doesn't necessarily mean
eing frail and sick. Many older adults are<br />
contributing members, providers, and<br />
preservers of values and culture. They have<br />
so much to offer to the next generation. It is<br />
a time to disrupt aging—to change the<br />
perspectives of what it means to get old. It is<br />
really not about aging, it is more about the<br />
way of living. On a personal level, it is<br />
something to embrace with open arms and<br />
look forward to in order to discover the real<br />
possibilities that life has yet to offer.<br />
The nature and power of maturity has been<br />
re-imagined as a result of increasing<br />
longevity. The horizons of new lifestyle<br />
choices influencing decision making, work,<br />
family, leisure will not only bring a positive<br />
change on a personal level but at a societal<br />
level as well. We need to make our homes<br />
and communities more ‘aging friendly’ and<br />
develop a system that assimilates our elderly<br />
with intergenerational work force,<br />
educational models and as keepers of<br />
society. We also need to change our attitudes<br />
and move beyond the stereotypes of decline<br />
and dependency to explore vast potential of<br />
longer lives.<br />
America is growing old. By 2030, one out of<br />
five people will be 65 or over (Wiener &<br />
Tilly, <strong>2015</strong>). We are hardly prepared to<br />
address the needs of our aging society.<br />
Transforming our society to be more<br />
suitable and livable for older adults is the<br />
only way to meet the healthcare, financial<br />
and personal challenges that older people are<br />
currently facing. Only if the society provides<br />
opportunities to the aging generation, then<br />
they will have more potential to give back to<br />
society by optimizing their productivity,<br />
wisdom and manpower which is mutually<br />
beneficial for both society and older adults.<br />
References:<br />
Wiener, J,M. & Tilly, J. (<strong>2015</strong>). Population<br />
aging in the United States of America:<br />
implications for public programs.<br />
International Journal of Epidemiology,31<br />
(4), 776-781.<br />
Facts and fictions about an Aging America.<br />
Macarthur Foundation Research Network on<br />
an Aging Society. Retrieved from<br />
http://www.macfound.org/media/files/AGIN<br />
G-CONTEXTS-FACTFICTION.PDF<br />
Hobbs, F., & Stoops, N. (2002).<br />
Demographic Trends in the 20 th Century.<br />
Retrieved from<br />
https://www.census.gov/prod/2002pubs/cens<br />
r-4.pdf<br />
Photo Credit and license: By Mabel Lamour<br />
<strong>2015</strong> Aging in America General Sessions.<br />
Retrieved from<br />
http://www.asaging.org/2014-agingamerica-general-sessions<br />
https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-ncnd/2.0/
MSG: The Culprit<br />
By: Donald Daniel<br />
Do you enjoy eating foods that really<br />
taste good, but realize that it should<br />
not have MSG included in the<br />
ingredients? You still want to consume<br />
foods like processed meats, salty and<br />
sweet snacks, and the like, but learn if<br />
it has MSG included, it is not healthy. If<br />
you read the label to see that MSG in<br />
not included, you may think it’s okay<br />
to eat.<br />
Is it really okay?<br />
In time you realize there is not any<br />
difference in flavor and content of your<br />
food. It is still delicious, but has just as<br />
much salt, sugar (maybe more) than<br />
before. What is worse is that you still<br />
have the same reactions as before (i.e.<br />
drowsiness, dizziness, headaches) if<br />
you eat too much without drinking<br />
enough water. Reasoning with<br />
yourself, the label says that it contains<br />
no MSG. Why am I still having the<br />
same reactions with what I eat even if<br />
it does not contain MSG?<br />
The answer is simple. Your food still<br />
has MSG within it.<br />
Before you find out why MSG is still<br />
included in your food, let us find out<br />
some background about MSG.MSG or<br />
monosodium glutamate is a food<br />
preservative used to make food taste<br />
better. It was invented in 1908 by<br />
Kikunae Ikeda, a Japanese man who<br />
identified the natural flavor enhancing<br />
substance of seaweed. He and a helper<br />
realized the potential of this, therefore,<br />
creating MSG. It did not come into use<br />
in the western world until after World<br />
War II when it was discovered that<br />
Japanese rations were tastier than<br />
American rations. MSG was considered<br />
safe by the Food and Drug<br />
Administration (FDA) in 1959<br />
(Mercola, 2009).<br />
Ten years later, since Japanese meals<br />
usually are highly concentrated with<br />
MSG, is when trouble began in the<br />
United States. “Chinese Restaurant<br />
Syndrome” or “MSG Syndrome”<br />
describes the numerous side effects<br />
experienced after eating MSG<br />
(Mercola, 2009).
People have always believed that<br />
MSG helped make food taste better, but<br />
in reality, it has another hidden<br />
substance in the glutamate called<br />
umami. It tricks the tongue into<br />
thinking foods with MSG are more<br />
delicious and taste heartier than those<br />
meals without it (Mercola, 2009).<br />
Many doctors have concluded that<br />
MSG is dangerous because it is<br />
considered to be an excitotoxin, which<br />
means it is an overstimulation of your<br />
cells to the point of damage or death.<br />
This can explain what can cause<br />
anyone who consumes MSG<br />
continually to eventually have<br />
conditions like Alzheimer’s disease,<br />
Lou Gehrig’s disease, and more. It<br />
could even explain why young athletes<br />
have sudden death.<br />
One of the best overviews of the<br />
very real dangers of MSG comes from<br />
Dr. Russell Blaylock, a board-certified<br />
neurosurgeon. According to Dr.<br />
Blaylock, numerous glutamate<br />
receptors have been found both within<br />
your heart’s electrical conduction<br />
system and the heart muscle itself. He<br />
said “When magnesium stores are low,<br />
as we see in athletes, the glutamate<br />
receptors are so sensitive that even<br />
low levels of these excitotoxins can<br />
result in cardiac arrhythmias and<br />
death.” (Blaylock, 2005).<br />
FDA tells food manufacturers they<br />
must put ingredients on product<br />
labels. Now the labels read “contain<br />
no MSG” as many of you have seen on<br />
labels before. To confuse the<br />
consumer, they place it under another<br />
name. Beware of products containing<br />
hydrolyzed soy protein, hydrolyzed<br />
wheat protein, anything that contains<br />
the words “hydrolyzed”, “amino acids”,<br />
and/or “protein”. Also, E54, contained<br />
in Saccharin, is in soft drinks, candies,<br />
and cookies (Zellar, 2013).<br />
Food manufacturers are aware the<br />
public does not want MSG in their<br />
foods. Unfortunately, they continue to<br />
use these and many other names in<br />
their list of ingredients. Making the<br />
list so long will discourage the<br />
consumer from reading it. Their<br />
intention is for consumers to settle for<br />
labeling which says “no MSG or MSG<br />
free”, and continue to buy their<br />
product (Truth in Labeling, 2006).<br />
If you care about your health and that<br />
of your family, continue to say NO to<br />
“MSG, The Culprit”.
References:<br />
Blaylock, Dr. Russell (2005, April 25 th ) Athlete Alert: Renowned Neurosurgeon Identifies Aspartame & MSG in Sudden<br />
Cardiac Death. PR Web. Retrieved from http://www.prweb.com/releases/2005/04/prweb225071.htm<br />
Mercola, Dr. Joseph (2009, April 21 st ) MSG: Is This Silent Killer Lurking in Your Kitchen Cabinets. Mercola.com. Retrieved<br />
from http://www.prweb.com/releases/2005/04/prweb225071.htm<br />
www.TruthinLabeling.org (2006) Misleading and deceptive use of “No MSG” to hide MSG. Retrieved from<br />
http://www.truthinlabeling.org/nomsg.html<br />
Zellar, Sassafras (2013) Ingredients to Avoid Besides Monosodium Glutamate. Say NO to MSG. Retrieved from<br />
http://saynotomsg.com/basics_list.php<br />
Photo credit: Health Freedom Alliance (www.healthfreedom.org) article" WarningMSGinAmericanFoods<br />
DisguisedUnder40NewNamesYouHaventHeardOf Hidden in Foods."<br />
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The Healing Power of Laughter<br />
by Mike Moore<br />
Laughter isn't just fun and enjoyable; it's good for our health. Each month modern medicine is discovering more<br />
about the therapeutic dimension of humor and laughter and is encouraging us to add them to our wellness program.<br />
The Health Benefits of Laughter<br />
When we laugh we...<br />
* lower our blood pressure.<br />
* promote relaxation and reduce stress.<br />
* increase the oxygen level in our blood giving us more energy.<br />
* increase the endorphin activity in our body resulting in a sense of wellbeing.<br />
* are able to keep things in perspective<br />
* banish boredom<br />
* are more socially attractive. People enjoy being with those who laugh easily and often.<br />
* increase our enjoyment of life.<br />
Laughter has been called social glue because it bonds us to the people we laugh with.<br />
The message is clear: To live better....Laugh more.<br />
If it feels good to laugh, then laugh to feel good.<br />
This is an excerpt from Mike Moore's latest book Light Up With Laughter<br />
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7 Reasons Why attractive men marry less than attractive women<br />
By: Mika (Ann) Frank @ datingann.com<br />
1. He wants depth: A real man will not marry a woman solely based on looks. When he decides to marry<br />
someone he considers the entire package. Physical attractiveness, mental stimulation,<br />
emotional compatibility, spiritual connection, etc.<br />
2. She got her own: Men don't like being used. With that being said, ambition is a<br />
desirable trait for many. If a woman has a successful career, her own money, and she<br />
motivates him in his career and life goals...why wouldn't he lock her down?<br />
3. She can cook: Some women are so independent and hard at work that they fail at being domestic.<br />
Most men want to come home to a clean house and home-cooked meal. Looks aren't as important as<br />
someone who can throw down in the kitchen. You know what they say: The way to a man's heart is<br />
through his stomach.<br />
4. The sex is bomb.com: A priority for just about all men. This usually puts a woman in the running<br />
towards becoming wifey.<br />
5. She takes care of him: Just as women like to be pampered, men like it too. Massages, gifts,<br />
compliments, affection...it's all love! But not every woman does these things for their man. The other<br />
woman may have mastered this and it has him hooked!<br />
6. She's honest: Everyone hates being lied to and there's nothing like having someone that will tell you<br />
the truth...even when it hurts.<br />
7. Her life doesn't revolve around him: She isn't the needy, nagging chick. She doesn't bother him when<br />
he's out with the guys or unable to cater to her. She knows how to give him space, because she has her<br />
own life to tend to.<br />
Mika’s blog can be accessed at datingann.com and her Twitter @DrAnn721, Facebook @DatingAnn,<br />
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Metabolism for the Fit Individual<br />
By Andrew Mills<br />
The dictionary defines metabolism as the sum of all biochemical processes involved in life, or the sustaining of life.<br />
In application concerning our health, metabolism is related to the intake and use of food. In reference to the case in<br />
point it is our ability to utilize our food to the fullest extent.<br />
Right now, the greatest results in raising our metabolism come from exercise and building our muscle mass, while<br />
reducing our body fat. Adding more muscle to the body, in turn causes us to burn more calories, and this helps to<br />
elevate our metabolic rate.<br />
Our metabolism functions also depend on how well we have taken care of our nutritional needs. Some people have<br />
really high rates of metabolism. In other words, when they consume food, their bodies burn it up almost as fast as<br />
they consume it. Then there are those of us who use our food intake so slowly, as to not even notice that we’re<br />
burning calories. These people who burn quickly are often slim and trim, the people who burn more slowly are the<br />
people with a tendency toward obesity.<br />
The body’s metabolism is a unique process for each individual person. No two people metabolize food at the same<br />
rate therefore no two people have the metabolism. We all use our calories at different rates, with different results.<br />
Our metabolism, like our fingerprints is unique to each of us. But the need to understand and accommodate this<br />
metabolism is an issue that we all face.<br />
All of this metabolic process is related to our calorie intake, our vitamin and nutrition needs, our thyroid and<br />
endocrine production, and how well all of these processes come together. For years, people have sought ways to<br />
raise the metabolic rate. If you can raise someone’s metabolic rate, you are then better able to control the burn of<br />
calories, especially for overweight or obese people. This would make the goal of better or improved health a much<br />
easier reality for those people. Efforts to date have produced very little results. There are foods that we can<br />
consume that naturally raise our metabolic rate, but not to a great extent. What we need is a way to directly alter<br />
the rate. We need to be able to raise our metabolism to a point where we can actually see a benefit.<br />
This is where the effort to stay physically fit and active provides tremendous payoff. Over the course of your life, if<br />
you stay active, exercise, and maintain optimal health for your muscles, you will see a tremendous difference in the<br />
rate that your body metabolizes food. As people age, their metabolism quite naturally slows down. The greatest<br />
way to prevent this from happening is through exercise and staying fit.<br />
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My New York Story: Jeffery Albert<br />
By: Merlyndi Prosper<br />
“Oh darling, you are no ordinary genius. You are a<br />
Jeffery and we Jefferys are far more genius than the<br />
other geniuses out there. How do you think we<br />
Coils the color of midnight: that's what stood out<br />
about her. Big puffy coils that hugged her head. She<br />
strutted into the spa last week wearing the bluest<br />
dress he had ever seen. It clung to her bosom and<br />
waist and, as if knowing that she could only be held<br />
in momentarily, released its grip and hung loosely<br />
down her legs. “Saphire,” she said, “My name is<br />
Saphire, like my dress!”<br />
“Albert,” he replied. “My name is Albert.”<br />
“Oh, you're Mrs. Jeffery's son. Pleased to meet you!”<br />
she responded pleasantly, stretching out her hand. His<br />
hand sank into her sponge of a hand. Her fingers<br />
curled around his. Her perfume wafted over to him<br />
and hugged him gently. He remembered every detail<br />
after all this time.<br />
“Albert?” interrupted his mother. “Albert darling,<br />
what are you doing? Isn't there something important<br />
you could be attending to? A piece you could be<br />
working on for the show tomorrow?”<br />
“I am just taking a break before I head to the gallery.<br />
Even geniuses need to decompress Mother.”<br />
managed to work our way to where we are today<br />
Darling?"<br />
It was always the same with her. Somehow, the<br />
conversation always worked its way back to the<br />
greatness of the family, the superiority of the Jeffery<br />
gene. A gene that his parents had exploited to the<br />
fullest. His father had amassed a fortune, always<br />
giving credit to the Jeffery gene for his success. In<br />
reality, however, Mr. Jeffery had embraced<br />
underhand business practices and tax evasion on a<br />
massive scale. His latest enterprise was this spa,<br />
Banya, which he has created to keep his wife<br />
occupied, and more importantly, to write off as a tax<br />
loss.<br />
Although Albert loathed his mother's intrusion into<br />
his thoughts of The Saphire, he knew she was right.<br />
His entire artistic career depended on this show. He<br />
had spent hours locked in his studio, fussing over<br />
every minuscule detail on each piece. As much as he<br />
desired to reminisce about that encounter with her, he<br />
had to prepare for tomorrow.….<br />
Albert glided up the steps into Banya the day after<br />
the show. He planted his long, tan legs firmly on the
marble floors. His head stood erect on his perfectly<br />
browned neck. He looked everyone he met dead in<br />
the eye, daring them to speak to him. No one did. The<br />
show has been a success, in his opinion. Although he<br />
hadn't sold any pieces, he was confident that his<br />
vision had been communicated and appreciated.<br />
Soon, the offers would come pouring in. He just had<br />
to be patient.<br />
As he approached the front desk, he saw her: the coils<br />
were held back from her face by a black, thin hair<br />
band, her dark eyes glistened like the jewel she was.<br />
She looked up from her computer and smiled at him<br />
warmly.<br />
“Mr. Jeffery how are you Sir?”<br />
“Please, call me Albert.”<br />
“Okay, Albert.”<br />
“How do you get your hair like that? I noticed those<br />
curls the first time I saw you.”<br />
“What else have you noticed?”<br />
He smiled. Before he could respond, an article on the<br />
computer screen on the front desk captured his<br />
attention. From the distance, he made out his name in<br />
the headline. “Excuse me” he mumbled to Saphire<br />
and ran to the computer.<br />
The headline ran, “Art but no Artist.” Albert's legs<br />
wobbled like that of a calf taking its first steps. He<br />
continued reading:<br />
Last night's showing by Albert Jeffery at Canada Art<br />
Gallery on the Lower East Side was a profoundly<br />
disappointing affair. Mr. Jeffery's work showed no<br />
distinction between that of my 3 year old doodling on<br />
a wall and that of an “accomplished” graduate of the<br />
finest art school in the country. His pieces gave not<br />
the slightest indication of either artistic depth or of an<br />
understanding of the artistic process. There was art, if<br />
I dare call it that, but the artist was absent. It was<br />
simply paint on a canvas.<br />
“I braid it at night with coconut oil.”<br />
“Ah, I was wondering how you got it so shiny.”<br />
“You noticed that?”<br />
“Yes. I'm an artist. I notice everything.”<br />
Defeated, Albert fell helplessly to the ground. Saphire<br />
noticed his despair from across the room and ran to<br />
him. “Are you okay?” she asked, grabbing his arm<br />
gently to help him up.<br />
“I am fine!” he shouted in an angry daze. “I don't<br />
need your help.”
She walked away without saying a word.….<br />
As far back as he could remember, heat had always<br />
soothed him. Albert was a summer fellow. But in the<br />
middle of December, the sauna at Banya was the only<br />
place he could be embraced by cleansing, soothing,<br />
detoxifying warmth. After that review, he needed to<br />
be cleansed, soothed, and detoxified. He had<br />
considered every angle of the critic's argument, yet,<br />
he could see no plausible justification for such a<br />
thorough dismissal of his work. He had spent hours<br />
working on those pieces; exploring every emotion he<br />
had ever felt and laying them bare on canvas to be<br />
appraised by people who knew nothing about him.<br />
He felt used, vulnerable.<br />
At that moment Saphire walked in. It was the first<br />
time he had seen her since the morning after.<br />
“Oh, I didn't know anyone was in here. I heard a<br />
noise and came to see if anything was wrong. Sorry<br />
to bother you, ” Saphire stated nonchalantly and<br />
started walking out of the sauna.<br />
“You're not bothering me,” he responded. “I am<br />
actually glad that you're here. I wanted to apologize<br />
for the way I acted the other day...the things I said. It<br />
seemed like you have been avoiding me.”<br />
“Yes, I have been,” she shot back, raising her voice<br />
slightly. “I understand that you were upset. You had<br />
reason to be. But that gave you no right to yell at me.<br />
I did nothing but try to help. What you did was unfair<br />
and I didn't deserve it!”<br />
“You're right. I'm sorry. It won't happen again.”<br />
“Ok. You're forgiven,” she replied, fixing her<br />
chocolate eyes on him. “What's that?” she asked<br />
suddenly.<br />
“What?”<br />
“That thing on your chest. I never noticed it before!”<br />
“Oh that,” he stated somberly. “Well, this is a scar. It's<br />
a constant reminder of the worse day of my life and<br />
the most pain I have ever felt. It's quite sad.”<br />
“Really? Were you shot?”<br />
No.”<br />
“Stabbed?”<br />
“No.”<br />
“So what is it then?” Saphire asked impatiently.<br />
“Well, for my 18th birthday, my parents rented out<br />
the biggest yacht they could find to throw me a party.<br />
They invited all my friends, including this girl, Lyot,<br />
I was in love with. Before the party, we were all on<br />
the lower deck fishing. I'm not sure how this<br />
happened, but when I tried to throw my line out, the<br />
hook got caught right here,” he said, pointing to the
scar on his chest. “It was so painful! I yanked it, like<br />
an idiot, and it ran up my chest! There was blood<br />
everywhere! I was terrified! I thought I was about to<br />
die! And what made it worse was that Lyot laughed<br />
hysterically at me and said that I was an imbecile.”<br />
She never looked at me after that! I was so hurt. To<br />
make this worse, I asked her to dance at my party and<br />
she said no. She laughed at me and said, “I don't<br />
associate with stupid.” I went to the bathroom and<br />
cried for a few minutes at my party!”<br />
Saphire couldn't stop herself. It started as an innocent<br />
giggle in her tummy and by the time it made it 's way<br />
to her lips it was full-blown, uncontrollable laughter.<br />
Tears ran down her checks. That story was possibly<br />
the funniest thing she had ever heard. “Please tell me<br />
that you're kidding. That was a horrible birthday. I'm<br />
sorry.” she said, as more tears streamed down her<br />
cheeks.<br />
Jeffery looked at her with cold, dead eyes. He<br />
couldn't believe that she had found his tragic story so<br />
amusing. “Wait,” he exclaimed, “You find humor in<br />
my misery?”<br />
“Ornery? Absolutely not! I open myself to you, I tell<br />
you about the most tragic, hurtful experience of my<br />
life and you laugh at me?”<br />
“You're serious? That was the most tragic experience<br />
of your life?” she asked perplexed.<br />
“Yes it was,” he responded definitively.<br />
“Please tell me you're joking.”<br />
“No I'm not.”<br />
“Wow! I'm not sure what kind of bubble you've lived<br />
in, but the world is bigger than your crush not<br />
wanting to dance with you. People in this city have<br />
real problems.”<br />
“And I don't?”<br />
“No you don't, if that is the worst thing you've ever<br />
experienced.”<br />
“Please tell me about you're tragedies!” Jeffery<br />
demanded. “Tell me what you have been through that<br />
was oh so terrible!'<br />
“That story was hilarious. Please tell me that you're<br />
just being ornery.”<br />
“You wouldn't begin to understand.”<br />
“Try me.”
“Ok. My parents died when I was 16. They were<br />
coming home from their anniversary dinner and their<br />
car was hit by some idiot. The driver was drunk. He<br />
got off because he had money and could afford a<br />
spectacular lawyer. The state wanted to separate my<br />
brother, sister and I but I fought to keep us together. I<br />
dropped out of school and worked three jobs to take<br />
care of us. I recently finished my GED at night<br />
school. So when you talk about pain Jeffery, yes, I<br />
know what that is.”<br />
'Well, it doesn't matter what caused the pain, pain is<br />
pain. And I know pain!” he retorted. “I have been<br />
through things too! I lost my cat when I was 10, my<br />
mother refused to get me a pair of shoes that I<br />
wanted. I know pain too!”<br />
examined every possible reason as to why he would<br />
allow this “girl” to affect him so much but he could<br />
come up with no plausible explanation. It was<br />
obvious that she understood nothing about him, after<br />
all, she had laughed at his misery. But then, maybe in<br />
contrast to her life, his experience was a joke. Was<br />
that it? Was his life, his work, his entire being a joke?<br />
Was that what the critic had seen in his work?<br />
Nothing? Nothingness? A man whose whole life has<br />
been a series of empty experiences with no depth?<br />
Was that what he was?<br />
The walls seemed to move in on him and the p uppets<br />
crushed his body, squeezing the life juice out of him.<br />
They laughed and jeered at all he was and all he<br />
wasn't. Air left his nostrils and refused to come back.<br />
In the silence that ensued, a divide that never existed<br />
before between Saphire and Jeffery suddenly<br />
appeared and grew exponentially. A transparent<br />
space, yet filled to the point of bursting with<br />
unspoken disappointment, seething anger, unfulfilled<br />
desires. Saphire walked away without saying a word.<br />
….<br />
Sunlight filtered through the lace curtains, creating<br />
odd puppets that danced with abandon on his face<br />
and partially clothed torso. He had gone to bed in his<br />
At that moment, he had an intense desire to paint<br />
something. Anything. He frantically jumped out of<br />
bed, pulled the curtains apart, silencing the puppets,<br />
and ran to his studio. The canvas in front of him was<br />
no longer an ally. It was his nemesis. He attacked it<br />
with hard, intense strokes that seemed to pierce<br />
through it. He had no time to clean the brush and the<br />
colors melded together. Every emotion he had ever<br />
felt came surging through his arm and clamored to be<br />
set free on the canvas.<br />
black silk boxers. Saphire plagued his thoughts. She<br />
was the puppet dancing on his brain. He had
He painted frantically for what seemed like hours,<br />
expending all of himself, the parts he knew and the<br />
parts he was oblivious to on the canvas: anger,<br />
Saphire, responsibility, family, loneliness, Lyot,<br />
disappointment, the critic – everything came through<br />
in frantic, schizophrenic lines and non-lines.<br />
He opened the door and there she was at the front<br />
desk lovelier than he remembered. She noticed him<br />
and smiled shyly. Without saying a word, he walked<br />
up to the desk and placed the painting wrapped in a<br />
white sheet in front of her. There was a note.<br />
“Don't open it until I leave.” he said.<br />
When he was spent, he stood back and examined his<br />
work. He noticed streaks of light coming through the<br />
blinders. They hit the canvas at specific spots and<br />
seemed to lift the strokes off the canvas. His<br />
emotional outburst had produced a masterpiece of<br />
color. Shapes, he didn't know he was capable of<br />
producing were juxtaposed next to and on top of each<br />
other, creating undefinable conflict and palpable<br />
tension. Lines with no beginning and no ending were<br />
scrawled all over the canvas. He stood in front this,<br />
his best work, raw and austere. The streaks of light<br />
caught the tear that ran down his cheek. Staring at the<br />
canvas, brush in hand, he had no idea where he was<br />
heading.….<br />
He walked up the steps to the spa. It would be a while<br />
before he made this trek again. The bag on his back<br />
She obeyed him. Suddenly, it seemed, he could<br />
compel her to obey him. He smiled openly, at her and<br />
walked out.<br />
After he left, she removed the sheet and was<br />
astonished at the colors, the intensity, the raw<br />
emotion that was let loose on the canvas. She could<br />
scarcely believe that Albert had painted this. Had he?<br />
“Why would he have given it to me if he hadn't<br />
painted it?” she thought. The note. She foraged<br />
through the sheet and retrieved the note.<br />
“I'm sorry. Thank you. See you when I find my truth<br />
and become the man that I was supposed to be.”<br />
She smiled and stared at the painting, wondering<br />
where he had gone.<br />
contained everything he would need for an extended<br />
“vacation.” To where? He had not even the slightest<br />
clue. Fate would point him in the right direction.
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