The worst has happened. A flag near <strong>the</strong> remainsof a camp: The Norwegians are first at <strong>the</strong> Pole.Great God! this is an awful place. Well, we have turnedour back on ambition and must face 800 miles of solid dragging.Evans shows signs of being played out; his woundssuppurate, broken down in brain, frostbitten,a wild look in his eyes. He died quietly.Beautiful day--too beautiful. We talk of little but food;Amongst ourselves we are unendingly cheerful, butwhat each man feels in his heart I can only guess.Oates lame this morning. We cannot help each o<strong>the</strong>r,can only say 'God help us!' and plod on our weary way.Should this be found I want <strong>the</strong>se facts recorded.Oates proposed we leave him. That we could not do.He said, 'I am just going outside and may be some time.'Every day we have been ready tostart <strong>for</strong> our depot 11 miles away,but outside <strong>the</strong> tent it remainsa scene of whirling drift.My thoughts are <strong>for</strong> my wife and boy.Had we lived, I should have had a taleto tell of <strong>the</strong> hardihood, endurance,and courage of my companionswhich would have stirred <strong>the</strong> heart....I do not think I can write more.For God's sake look after our people.Send this diary to my wife.Send this diary to my widow.What lots I could tell you of this journey.
THE COMPOSERSPerry Goldstein (born 1952 in New York City, New York) studied at <strong>the</strong> University of Illinois,UCLA, and Columbia University, from which he received a doctorate in music composition in 1986.His principal composition teachers at Illinois were Herbert Brün, Ben Johnston, and Paul Zonn; atColumbia, Chou Wen-Chung and Mario Davidovsky.A composer of vivid, high-intensity music, Goldstein’s various works have been called “an I-dareyou-contraption”(Total Absorption by Fanfare Magazine), “kinetic, percussive [and] pummeling” (OfPoints Fixed and Fluid by The New York Times), “a raw-boned tour-de-<strong>for</strong>ce” (Blow! by <strong>the</strong> BuffaloNews), and demonstrating “consummate structural artistry” (Mo<strong>the</strong>rless Child Variations by MusicVision CD Spotlight).He has written works <strong>for</strong> such notable per<strong>for</strong>mers as Juilliard Quartet cellist Joel Krosnick andpianist Gilbert Kalish, Emerson String Quartet violinist Phillip Setzer, pianist Eliza Garth, <strong>the</strong>Aurelia, Prism, and Capitol Saxophone Quartets, bass clarinetist Michael Lowenstern, saxophonistsCory Barnfield, Arno Bornkamp, Joseph Lulloff, and Kenneth Tse, <strong>the</strong> Escher String Quartet, and <strong>the</strong>United States Military Academy Band. His works appear on 17 compact discs, on <strong>the</strong> Albany,Bridge, Centaur, Challenge, Crystal, Innova, Mark Masters, New Dynamic, New World, UnitedStates Military, and Vanguard labels. He is published by Reed Music and Global Music FacilitiesPublications.Since 1992, he has been a member of <strong>the</strong> music faculty of <strong>the</strong> Stony Brook where he was <strong>the</strong>inaugural Director of <strong>the</strong> College of <strong>Arts</strong>, Culture, and Humanities and serves as Chairman of <strong>the</strong>Department of Music. He teaches music <strong>the</strong>ory, analysis, musicianship, and composition.Stephen Andrew Taylor is currently Associate Professor of Composition at <strong>the</strong> University of Illinois.His music often explores boundaries between art and science. His first orchestra commission,Unapproachable Light, inspired by images from <strong>the</strong> Hubble Space Telescope and <strong>the</strong> New Testament,was premiered by <strong>the</strong> American Composers Orchestra in 1996 in Carnegie Hall. O<strong>the</strong>r worksinclude <strong>the</strong> chamber quartet Quark Shadows, commissioned by <strong>the</strong> Chicago Symphony andpremiered in 2001; and Seven Memorials, a 32-minute cycle <strong>for</strong> piano inspired by <strong>the</strong> work of MayaLin and premiered by Gloria Cheng in Los Angeles, 2004; she also per<strong>for</strong>med <strong>the</strong> work atTanglewood in 2006. The Machine Awakes, a CD of his orchestra, chamber and electronic music wasreleased in 2010 on Albany Records; and Paradises Lost, a new opera based on a novella by Ursula K.Le Guin, was premiered in Portland, Oregon and at <strong>the</strong> University of Illinois in 2012.Besides composing <strong>for</strong> traditional instruments, Taylor also works with live electronics in pieces suchas Agoraphobia <strong>for</strong> flute, harp and electronics, premiered by Jonathan Keeble and Ann Yeung inMontreal in 2009. He is also active as a conductor with <strong>the</strong> Illinois Modern Ensemble, and as a