JIGGY Mag - 1. Through My Eyes
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<strong>JIGGY</strong><br />
society in synthesis<br />
<strong>1.</strong> through my eyes
I‟m not really sure what‟s supposed to go in<br />
an editor‟s letter, but I‟ll give it a go.<br />
Welcome to <strong>JIGGY</strong> <strong>Mag</strong>, the first issue. This<br />
issue is called <strong>Through</strong> <strong>My</strong> <strong>Eyes</strong> and I guess<br />
it‟s really just an introduction to who I am<br />
(me, Dani), what I see, the people that are<br />
around me, my identity and all of that. A<br />
collection of some photos I‟ve taken of my<br />
friends over the past year, thoughts, poems<br />
and conversations, this took quite some time<br />
to create and it‟s no where near perfect, but<br />
I‟m pretty happy with it. Massive thanks to all<br />
my friends for supporting me and<br />
contributing and just being general angels.<br />
Dani
W<br />
WHO AM I?<br />
A GIRL? A FRIEND? A POET?<br />
I AM…<br />
H<br />
O<br />
A LOVER. I AM A SISTER. I AM<br />
DRIFTING THROUGH LIFE AND QUESTIONING IT ALL.<br />
I AM A THINKER;<br />
TRYING TO UNDERSTAND WHAT WE ARE, WHY<br />
WE ARE.<br />
WHAT‟S THE PURPOSE?<br />
IS THERE ANY?<br />
I AM A NIHILIST.<br />
ABSURDIST! ANARCHIST!<br />
LIFE HAS NO MEANING, IS THERE A GOD?<br />
WHY?<br />
BECAUSE<br />
BE.<br />
I AM LIVING, I AM ALIVE,<br />
I AM FEELING<br />
SO MANY THINGS.<br />
I AM DYING.
WE ALL ARE, BUT MORE ME BECAUSE<br />
I AM SPECIAL.<br />
AND NO ONE ELSE FEELS WHAT I FEEL.<br />
I FEEL ALONE.<br />
IN MY HEAD I AM A LONE EXISTENCE.<br />
BUT I MATTER.<br />
I MATTER.<br />
I MATTER.
A poem by<br />
a friend<br />
“Gard'ner was written about a boy with the same<br />
surname (no apostrophe). We were both drunk at a<br />
park party and I was feeling rather dismal and plagued<br />
by a sense of purposelessness. Then I eyed a ginger<br />
boy stumbling about, like a stray comet felled, shouting<br />
out nonsensical philosophies and quotations of his own<br />
poetry. I saw my purpose for the night in him. I spent<br />
the night looking after him and maybe even falling in<br />
love with him a bit. I'm very grateful that this baby bird<br />
fell from its nest into my lap.”
Gard'ner<br />
On frameless days I wonder, How my heart would take<br />
to meeting, An angel, on a magpie‟s night.<br />
Would this heart of mine suffer, Palpitations, as he said<br />
he loved another? Indebted are my eyes, for he is too<br />
bright.<br />
He'd hark of “light through yonder”, And these glass<br />
eardrums would break. Unsealing my watchful window.<br />
Would he unhinge his wings for me? Bestow them at<br />
my feet, an offering? I pray for the felled jackdaw.<br />
Would he kiss the lids of my blinded eyes, If he absorbed<br />
the reflection in the orbs, And saw, Mother Medusa<br />
in his place?<br />
For every serpent head of his he'd sever, I'd grow him<br />
another, at my own demise. And take his place as<br />
Gard‟ner of Eden.<br />
Would he ground himself with spirits, And then spew<br />
his cataplectic soul, To me? It would be a crow‟s caw.<br />
I think, if I should meet this dove-boy, <strong>My</strong> duty is to put<br />
him back, In his tree, he'd sing songs of love to me.<br />
By Owiny Lubangakene<br />
IG: @glowiny
<strong>My</strong> dear, the stars are calling your<br />
name. They want to know when<br />
you’re coming home.
a conversation<br />
with Blake Boatfield.
What is your sexual orientation?<br />
Gay, however I do also identify as queer.<br />
When did you first identify your sexuality?<br />
I first fully identified as Gay around the age of fourteen, however<br />
for the years prior to that I considered myself to be<br />
somewhere on the bisexual spectrum.<br />
At what age did it occur to you that you liked a certain gender<br />
and how did you know?<br />
For a long time I was romantically interested in girls, especially<br />
for the first couple of years of Secondary School, but I had<br />
always been sexually interested in males. Increasingly though<br />
I became exclusively romantically and sexually interested in<br />
boys.<br />
Were you comfortable with your sexuality from the start or<br />
was it a process - and how do you feel now?<br />
While I personally have always been personally very comfortable<br />
with my sexuality, many people around me were not. The<br />
challenges I faced in being comfortable with my sexuality<br />
came from my peers at school - whether through hypernormalised<br />
heteronormativity, offensive stereotypes or even<br />
outright homophobia - I felt as if I shouldn‟t be gay because<br />
of the idea that this was a negative thing. However, through
What's it like being a young LGBTQ+ person and has it<br />
shaped your experience as a teenager?<br />
In many ways, isolating. Growing up I was never considered to be<br />
„one of the boys‟ and would never participate in the traditional rites<br />
of passage that young boys went through. As a result of this, I found<br />
that I held closer friendships with girls, however they didn‟t fully<br />
accept me into their groups either. I felt like I didn‟t belong with<br />
anyone. <strong>My</strong> sexuality and how people have perceived me has shaped<br />
how I think, act and respond in my everyday life.<br />
Despite this, being a young LGBTQ+ person has given me a view on<br />
the world that I would have never had a straight person. It has<br />
allowed me to understand and emphasise with the struggle that so<br />
many people have to endure everyday; it has allowed me to be<br />
different, expressive and individual.
In your eyes, how do you think people our age, youths,<br />
feel about LGBTQ+ people and everything queer?<br />
I think that we as LGBTQ+ people have been incredible<br />
fortunate to be the first generation to enjoy full equality in<br />
the eyes of this nation‟s law and that this has been<br />
reflected on the psyche of our generation. Our generation<br />
is the most accepting to LGBTQ+ people and queer<br />
media ever but there still is a lot of prejudice among<br />
many social groups and demographics that needs to be<br />
resolved.<br />
Being LGBTQ+ in London and in our generation seems to<br />
easier than anywhere else and in the past. Do you think<br />
that there's still cause to be guarded and mindful?<br />
I have participated in the Pride in London parade for<br />
three years now and I agree that London is a<br />
considerably more friendly place for LGBTQ+ people than<br />
many other places in the country. However, often I find<br />
myself afraid to walk down the street holding hands with<br />
someone of the same sex, not because I am ashamed or<br />
embarrassed but because I am afraid that something will<br />
happen - which it has before. Because of that I think<br />
there is still cause to be guarded and mindful in London.<br />
Finally, who are your queer role models?<br />
I would have to say that my biggest LGBTQ+ role models<br />
at the moment are: left-wing columnist and author Owen<br />
Jones; actress and television producer Laverne Cox; drag-
THE MORNING HUES?<br />
ARE YOU INSPIRED BY...
OR DO YOU LIKE<br />
THE NEAR-NIGHTTIME BLUES?
THE G
IRLS
Back in March this year, I did an on-the-spot interview,<br />
well it was more of a conversation, and a mini shoot with<br />
three of my friends; Rafiat, Shanay and Shervinia (left to<br />
right), here‟s a little preview of it. We talked about identity,<br />
issues relating to race, what it‟s like being black in<br />
modern society, and intersectionality, what it‟s like being<br />
a black female in modern society. Like I said, this was a<br />
spontaneous thing so the questions and answers are<br />
pretty casual and on-the-spot thoughts.
What do you love most about being black?<br />
R: The fact that my hair grows towards heaven and not down towards<br />
satan. (She‟s a devout Christian). I also, my skin, sometimes...<br />
Why sometimes?<br />
R: Because sometimes I have pigmentation and other issues like that,<br />
it‟s just a bit jarring (that means annoying, for the non-South<br />
Londoners).<br />
What‟s your least favourite thing about being black?<br />
R: The abuse that we get sometimes. I was called blik numerous times<br />
in secondary school. And a boy called me a chocolate malteaser once. I<br />
know it links to chocolate and everybody wants to be called chocolate<br />
these days, BUT… you know. Whatever, it didn‟t really hurt my feelings<br />
that much.<br />
That was a while ago, how do you think you would react to that sort of<br />
thing now that you‟re older?<br />
R: Now I would just cuss him, I would say something rude about his<br />
appearance... but not related to his skin tone, because that‟s mean,
What do you think needs to be done in order for society to be more progressive,<br />
in regards to race?<br />
R: I think there needs to be more social change, such as giving black people<br />
more chance to elevate themselves in society because, and I know it‟s a stereotype,<br />
but most black people, when they get money, they spend it recklessly<br />
on lavish things… like yeah, opportunities for social mobility for the black population<br />
need to increase.<br />
What do you think about the BLM movement in America, do you think we<br />
need it over here in the UK as well?<br />
R: I feel like American activists only focus on the injustices against black people<br />
in America and when it comes to the issues in Britain, such as the institutional<br />
racism and like imperialism here they sort of shut it off, ignore it. And I<br />
feel like they only reference Britain when they want to make really brash com-
"I think part of it is accepting that it's so much beauty in<br />
being Black. And that's the thing that I guess I get<br />
emotional about, because, I've always known that. I've<br />
always been proud to be Black. Never wanted to be<br />
nothing else. Loved everything about it, just...<br />
It's such beauty in Black people, and it really saddens me<br />
when we're not allow to express that pride in being Black;<br />
and that if you do then it's considered anti-white. No! You<br />
just pro-Black. And that's okay. The two don't go together.<br />
Because you celebrate Black culture does not mean that<br />
you don't like white culture; or that you putting it down.<br />
It's just taking pride<br />
What's irritating is when somebody says, you know,<br />
'They're racist!' 'That's reverse racism!' or 'They have a<br />
Black History Month, but we<br />
don't have a White History<br />
Month!'<br />
Well, all we've ever been taught<br />
is white history: so why are you<br />
mad at that? Why does that<br />
makes you angry? That is to<br />
suppress me and to make me<br />
not be proud."
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Let‟s imagine my hypothetical, alternate world:<br />
I want a Black police officer or any POC to shoot a good<br />
man, a family man, an honest man, a WHITE man. I want<br />
this to happen a lot. I want to hear about this every<br />
week. I want to read retweets on Twitter and see angry<br />
posts on Facebook. I want the newspapers to print<br />
screenshots of CCTV footage. I want the media to corrupt<br />
an innocent man. I want social media to share the<br />
footage of these shootings; I want it to trend<br />
worldwide. I want there to be a #WHITELIVESMATTER and<br />
campaigns and protests across the globe. I want to see<br />
white families reduced to tears in press conferences. I want<br />
white people to come to resent the blindness and<br />
INJUSTICE that exists in their world. I want those who<br />
support this movement to feel as powerless and<br />
defenceless as the MILLIONS of POCs who feel unsafe in<br />
their own neighbourhoods, who are seemingly hunted<br />
as prey to a predatory and unjust system, who are<br />
picked off as carelessly as rats, who don‟t get the<br />
justice they deserve, who don‟t get the representation<br />
they need, who don't get the opportunity to impact<br />
change, who don‟t get listened to because people are<br />
now so desensitized to the killing of Black people.<br />
I want nothing more but for the tables to be turned and<br />
see how quickly things change.<br />
EMPATHY IS EFFECUTAL
THANKS THANKS THANKS<br />
Thanks to all my friends for letting me photograph<br />
them constantly, it probably gets annoying but<br />
thanks for putting up with me anyway, massive<br />
thank you to Owiny, Blake, Shervinia, Shanay,<br />
Rafiat, Iman and Ishy for their contributions to this<br />
issue, and thanks for reading this. I‟ll end it with a<br />
really cute photo of my friends Hiab and Ishy.