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X-TRIC STUDIOS
Volum e 1: Becca Sm it h
EXCLUSIVE
Amateur
Teen
Modeling
JANUARY 2017
Palm er Phot ography

Love & Hat e
To say that I loved you would be an
understatement. You were everything to
me, but I was merely a piece of your
puzzle; a pawn in your sick game. You;
however, Oh God, you were my puzzle,
my game, my happiness. I hated that I
loved you, I even still do. I hated that I
was there for you whenever you wanted
me, and that you could replace me so
easily. I saw you with her, holding her
how you once held me, and I felt my
heart shatter, and you laughed because
you knew. Still, I took you back, time and
time again, lie after lie. I don't know how
or why you do this; much less why I let
you. Probably because anything with you
is better than nothing. They say there's a
thin line between love and hate,
and I never understood that until I was
crying over what you did to me, but
smiled when you texted me. You broke
my heart more than once, but still I
answered your calls. You have a hold on
me I never knew anyone could. Now you
say you're sorry and you love me, and
could never bear to tell the truth. I love
you more than I've ever loved anyone.
And I hate it.
-By: Becca Smith

To t he boy w ho
w ill alw ays have
m y heart , even
t hough I never
had yours.
When I met you I never
imagined that you would be the
one on my mind at 2 in the
morning ever time I can't sleep. I
never imaged that you would kiss
me in a way that I had never been
kissed, but you had kissed
countless others the same way. I
never pictured my life being wasted
on a boy that never thought of me
twice, but made it seem like he did
all the time. You've played me more
times than any other person, and
people have warned me about you
more times than i can count. Even
still, you are all I want. How could
you do this to me? Telling me you
love me and you care about me,
but causing me so much pain. Why
did you have to kiss me with the
same mouth that told girls you
missed them.
Excuse after excuse, that's
all I ever got from you. You would
ignore me and I would make up
my mind not to deal with
anymore of your crap, but you
would sense this, and pull me
back in, even more than before. I
want you to know just how much
you've hurt me and how much
you've held me back. And as
much as I say 'I don't need you
and I know I deserve better", but
deep down I know, I'll always be
here when you want me, and you
won't give me a second thought
when you don't.
- By: Becca Smith