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self-indulgently, two if you count the commute.<br />
(She counted the commute. All hours killed are good hours.)<br />
But she couldn’t afford it anymore, and she couldn’t feel alright about asking her<br />
father for $125 a week just so she could externalize and have this woman say Break<br />
the pattern! when she knew to break the pattern anyway. She had long since learned<br />
how to identify patterns and now she broke them without even noticing she’d broken<br />
them. She’d feel new and happy and wonder why and then she identified that it was<br />
because she’d broken a pattern; it was the relief she felt specific to pattern-breaking.<br />
She didn’t feel that relief right now why? Oh it’s because deriving cheap and<br />
momentary happiness from breaking a pattern had, sadly, become a pattern. So she<br />
had broken two patterns. She held her face to the sun to get a tan.<br />
Her summers/winters pattern was that she always used to be sad in the winter<br />
and happy in the summer, but today, in the summer, she was sad.<br />
There are only so many things a person can do on the Internet and at this point it<br />
has become just as boring as the real life it was once meant to help avoid. So this was<br />
her job, and her life, and things. Every night, she’d think back upon her day, and the<br />
morning seemed like it happened a hundred years ago. Every day was like a little life.<br />
Jessica, said Matt Fletcher.<br />
Samantha, Sam corrected.<br />
I’m sorry, said Matt, Samantha.<br />
Sam, actually, she half-smiled, shrugging, Really. Just Sam is fine.<br />
Okay! Matt replied, Sam. Sam. I’ll make a mental note of that.<br />
He tapped his skull with his right index finger to hammer home the point of how<br />
serious he was about making a mental note of the new receptionist Samantha preferring<br />
to go by Sam.<br />
Um, there’s a message for you, said Sam, I understand that what I’m supposed to<br />
do in this situation is email you the message and who it’s from in, um, the template,<br />
you know. I’ve done it before.<br />
Matt Fletcher made no effort to indicate that he had any memory of her having<br />
correctly done it before with the template. He just stood there.<br />
This man called, Sam continued, Keith. He was British. Um, he said you’d know<br />
who he was? I tried to get more, um, information out of him, more, um, specifics, but<br />
he was really like, resistant? To it?<br />
Matt Fletcher looked at Sam. He looked very hard at Sam.<br />
Keith, said Matt, Is Keith Richards.<br />
Oh! From the Rolling Stones?<br />
Matt didn’t answer her question; the answer was too obvious. He cocked one<br />
feathery eyebrow, seeming excited, laughed a little, and trotted off to his office,<br />
where Sam could only assume he would call Keith Richards.<br />
She felt lightheaded and thought of every time she’d ever listened to the Rolling<br />
Stones song Happy, and it meant something about herself to herself, that she had<br />
liked him on her own.<br />
It really was summer now. The air smelt like bee bodies, and white little flowers<br />
fluttered down and off the trees all around her, summer’s snowflakes. It would be<br />
most convenient to cut through the park but it was hard for her. Everybody loved<br />
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