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<strong>April</strong> 1, <strong>2018</strong><br />

The Kamloops Self-Advocate<br />

The<br />

Kamloops<br />

Self-<br />

Advocate:<br />

A Newsletter for<br />

People with<br />

Diverse Abilities<br />

<strong>April</strong> Issue# 52<br />

Celebrating Diversity & Inclusion<br />

Let’s celebrate diversity this month and ways to keep our bodies and<br />

minds active. Inclusion is wonderful and celebrating diversity is a great<br />

opportunity to reflect on all of the positive things we have in our lives,<br />

even if we have challenges in some areas.<br />

Let’s encourage people to focus on abilities more so than our challenges.<br />

Put your label in a drawer and only take it out when you need support<br />

and services. Unfortunately, labels get you services, so that’s the only<br />

time labels should be used since we are people first, not a label.<br />

People should get to know everyone whether they have challenges or not.<br />

Many people with diverse abilities are hardworking members of society.<br />

Some people may be unable to work, but still have a lot to offer to<br />

society, including as friends and important family members.<br />

INSIDE THIS ISSUE:<br />

Feature Articles<br />

Jokes<br />

Recipe<br />

Awareness days<br />

Upcoming Events<br />

When we see people as people first, we are more likely to<br />

see what we have in common with each other. We all have<br />

the need to be loved, wanted, and have companionship. So<br />

please include everyone when socializing and having fun.<br />

Please don’t discriminate or stigmatize. You will have a<br />

much more fulfilling life and so will we.<br />

Contact us at:<br />

thekamloopsselfadvocate@yahoo.com<br />

#113-540 Seymour St., Kamloops, BC<br />

V2C 2G9 Office ph. 250-372-5856<br />

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<strong>April</strong> 1, <strong>2018</strong><br />

The Kamloops Self-Advocate<br />

Professionals Who<br />

Bring Light into<br />

Workplaces<br />

By Lisa Coriale<br />

Kathryn Fields has lived in<br />

Kamloops for 12 years<br />

with her husband and her<br />

two little boys. She has a<br />

Master of Science Degree<br />

in Occupational Therapy<br />

(MScOT) and works part<br />

time at Royal Inland<br />

Hospital as an<br />

Occupational Therapist<br />

(OT). Kathryn became<br />

interested in occupational<br />

therapy when she was<br />

searching for<br />

opportunities for overseas<br />

missions. She loved how<br />

occupational therapy was<br />

focused on the client and<br />

their goals. Kathryn enjoys<br />

the variety of aspects that<br />

occupational therapy<br />

offers, “I love the variety<br />

in my job and how we<br />

don’t focus on just one<br />

aspect, but assess and<br />

treat the whole person.<br />

Physical, cognitive,<br />

emotional, social, and the<br />

person’s environment.”<br />

Kathryn works on the<br />

rehab unit with clients<br />

who have had strokes or<br />

traumatic brain injuries.<br />

Many people who have<br />

had a stroke may lose<br />

function on one side of<br />

their body. Strokes can<br />

occur in different parts of<br />

a person’s brain. Because<br />

of this, clients may also<br />

experience issues with<br />

memory, problem solving,<br />

balance, vision or speech.<br />

Because each stroke and<br />

its effects are different, it<br />

can be challenging for<br />

Occupational Therapists<br />

like Kathryn and their<br />

clients to foresee their<br />

future improvements.<br />

Occupational therapy is<br />

based on different<br />

individuals and how they<br />

function and participate in<br />

daily activities. During<br />

recovery, Kathryn works<br />

with the clients to help<br />

them achieve these<br />

activities including getting<br />

dressed, feeding<br />

themselves, grocery<br />

shopping, cooking meals<br />

and housework. Another<br />

aspect that Kathryn has to<br />

consider is when clients<br />

may have to care for<br />

family members at home.<br />

A part of her job is also to<br />

assess clients’ needs for<br />

equipment such as<br />

wheelchairs, shower seats<br />

and grab bars. Kathryn<br />

works alongside her clients<br />

to make decisions to help<br />

them get stronger and<br />

learn new ways of<br />

accomplishing tasks. She<br />

works with clients in<br />

different stages of their<br />

rehabilitation process.<br />

The clients' needs depend<br />

on who is new, who is<br />

going home, and who<br />

needs further assessment.<br />

Kathryn has the privilege<br />

and honor to work very<br />

closely with the medical<br />

team that consists of<br />

physiotherapists, rehab<br />

assistants, and speech<br />

therapists.<br />

There are times where<br />

Kathryn has to come up<br />

with creative techniques<br />

to assist her clients. While<br />

working with new mothers<br />

on the rehab unit, she<br />

comes up with creative<br />

ways to practice diapering<br />

and swaddling. They use<br />

items such as dolls and<br />

bags of rice to represent<br />

babies.<br />

A rewarding aspect of<br />

Kathryn’s job is being able<br />

to see clients improve, “It<br />

is amazing how the brain<br />

can heal itself and use<br />

other pathways after parts<br />

have been damaged.”<br />

Kathryn loves to interact<br />

one-on-one with her<br />

clients and their families.<br />

We are grateful to<br />

professionals like Kathryn<br />

who take care of us when<br />

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we need them the most.<br />

Their compassionate love<br />

and support allows us to<br />

share our light with<br />

everyone in the<br />

community.<br />

Krystian’s Corner<br />

I have a workout buddy<br />

named Nikki. I feel very<br />

lucky that Nikki wanted to<br />

be my friend and my<br />

companion for exercising.<br />

I knew of her at Board<br />

Game socials. She<br />

answered my request for a<br />

workout buddy on<br />

Facebook. I am very<br />

grateful that Nikki wanted<br />

to become my friend and<br />

be my exercise<br />

supporter. I like her and<br />

will keep my commitment<br />

with her because she is a<br />

nice friend and peer. We<br />

will help each other to stay<br />

healthy and fit. She will<br />

also drive me home<br />

sometimes instead of me<br />

taking handy dart, or if<br />

handy dart can’t do it. I am<br />

lucky to have her in my<br />

life and will support her as<br />

a friend and she will<br />

support me too. She is a<br />

great friend to have.<br />

The first time she and I<br />

met me at planet fitness, I<br />

was so worried about her<br />

working me too hard that<br />

my anxiety gave me a<br />

nosebleed. She calmed me<br />

down and told me we will<br />

work together and have<br />

fun. She encourages me to<br />

work hard enough to break<br />

out with a little sweat but<br />

we need to have fun too.<br />

She helped relax me and<br />

was very understanding.<br />

After breaking the ice with<br />

her, when we exercised for<br />

the first time, we both<br />

exercised enough to break<br />

a sweat but we also had<br />

fun together too. It makes<br />

me look forward to<br />

exercising. I really want to<br />

lose weight and get<br />

healthier both mentally and<br />

physically. Thanks Nikki<br />

for helping me in my<br />

journey.<br />

Healthy Living<br />

Column<br />

By Krystian<br />

Have you ever felt<br />

exercising alone to be<br />

boring? If so, how about<br />

trying out a workout buddy<br />

or a fitness partner to make<br />

exercise more fun. Fitness<br />

is good for your mind and<br />

body and overall<br />

wellbeing. It is a great<br />

stress reliever too. Having<br />

a workout buddy is great to<br />

prevent you from losing<br />

your motivation. You can<br />

both push each other to<br />

work harder.<br />

Bringing a Walkman or<br />

having music on your cell<br />

phone or an MP 3 player<br />

helps to make time go<br />

faster also. Everyone needs<br />

an exercise program that is<br />

right for them. Planet<br />

fitness is very inexpensive,<br />

you can do Zumba at the<br />

Y, or even just go for a<br />

walk. All of these will<br />

help to get your heart rate<br />

up, which is great for<br />

keeping your heart and<br />

mind healthy. It also<br />

reduces stress.<br />

The important thing is to<br />

find something you enjoy<br />

so that you are more likely<br />

to stay motivated and keep<br />

doing it.<br />

Jokes<br />

When do monkeys fall from<br />

the sky? During Ape-ril<br />

showers!<br />

Can February March? No, but<br />

<strong>April</strong> May!<br />

Why is everyone so tired on<br />

<strong>April</strong> 1? Because they've just<br />

finished a long, 31 day<br />

March! What season is it<br />

when you are on a<br />

trampoline? Spring-time!<br />

Why are trees very forgiving?<br />

Because in the Fall they "Let<br />

It Go" and in the Spring they<br />

"turn over a new leaf".<br />

Source: http://jokes4us.com/<br />

miscellaneousjokes/weatherj<br />

okes/springjokes.html<br />

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<strong>April</strong> 1, <strong>2018</strong><br />

The Kamloops Self-Advocate<br />

Ways to De-Stress<br />

By Shandi Pace<br />

Stress is a part of our daily<br />

lives. Worrying about so<br />

many daily activities at<br />

once can lead to severe<br />

physical effects in the<br />

future. Ranging from<br />

health issues to irritability,<br />

it’s important to be aware<br />

to what may be causing<br />

your stress. For the most<br />

part, you can’t change the<br />

source of your stress,<br />

however you can change<br />

how you deal with it.<br />

There’s truly no way to<br />

live a completely stressfree<br />

life, but these are a<br />

few tips on how to stay<br />

relaxed.<br />

Exercise is a simple way<br />

to relieve your body’s pent<br />

up energy. Even by doing<br />

just 30 minutes of activity<br />

a day your overall mood<br />

will change dramatically.<br />

Self-paced exercises tend<br />

to get the best results.<br />

Best exercises to<br />

try: Yoga, High-Energy<br />

Activities (running,<br />

dancing), Tai Chi.<br />

Healthy eating ensures<br />

that the body has energy<br />

and nutrients it needs to<br />

maintain concentration and<br />

for the brain to function<br />

properly. Although junk<br />

food might taste better,<br />

superfoods are packed with<br />

vitamins and minerals that<br />

will leave you feeling less<br />

bloated.<br />

Best foods to<br />

try: Asparagus, avocado,<br />

blueberries, salmon,<br />

almonds.<br />

Get some sleep! Make<br />

sure your body isn’t<br />

getting in the way of your<br />

ability to reciprocate in<br />

stressful situations by<br />

heading to bed earlier.<br />

Your mood can also be<br />

altered depending on how<br />

much sleep you’ve had.<br />

Getting at least 8 hours of<br />

sleep a night is what’s<br />

recommended most.<br />

Tips to try:<br />

Unplug all electronics 10-<br />

15 minutes before bed.<br />

Read a book or magazine<br />

to tire yourself out.<br />

Try heading to bed earlier.<br />

Make sure your room is as<br />

dark as possible.<br />

Talk it out. Opening<br />

discussing what’s on your<br />

mind with a trusted family<br />

member or friend helps<br />

introduce a new point of<br />

view. If more attention is<br />

needed, seek out support<br />

groups or check out Ability<br />

Online’s forums with<br />

multiple mentors always<br />

available. Keeping a<br />

journal is another way to<br />

also “talk it out” if the<br />

problem is more personal.<br />

Do something you<br />

love. Always take time out<br />

of your day to do the<br />

things you love the most. If<br />

something is causing an<br />

issue, take short breaks and<br />

step back from what’s<br />

causing you stress. Most<br />

like to listen to music, take<br />

a nap, colour in an adult<br />

colouring book, take a bath<br />

or play video games.<br />

Regularly make time for<br />

whatever it is you enjoy<br />

most.<br />

Schedule your time<br />

accordingly. Make a list of<br />

priorities you want to<br />

accomplish over the span<br />

of a week. Organizing your<br />

time and not taking on too<br />

many responsibilities will<br />

lower your stress. Also,<br />

allow for time to do your<br />

favourite hobbies and<br />

interests.<br />

Stay Positive. Living life<br />

to the fullest is the most<br />

straightforward way to cut<br />

stress out of your life.<br />

Studies show that laughter<br />

lowers the levels of stress<br />

hormones and reduces<br />

inflammation in the<br />

arteries. Overall, having a<br />

positive attitude will not<br />

only reflect how you feel,<br />

but the people around you<br />

as well.<br />

Taken from:<br />

http://abilityonlineblog.blo<br />

gspot.ca/<strong>2018</strong>/01/ways-tode-stress-by-shandipace.html<br />

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<strong>April</strong> 1, <strong>2018</strong><br />

The Kamloops Self-Advocate<br />

Banana-Chocolate<br />

Chip Sheet-Pan<br />

Pancake<br />

Ingredients<br />

Pancake<br />

2 cups all-purpose flour<br />

½ cup sugar<br />

4 teaspoons baking powder<br />

¼ teaspoon salt<br />

2 eggs, slightly beaten<br />

2 cups milk<br />

½ cup butter, melted<br />

1 teaspoon vanilla<br />

½ cup mashed ripe banana (1<br />

medium)<br />

½ cup miniature chocolate<br />

chips<br />

Toppings<br />

3 firm medium bananas, cut<br />

into 1/4-inch slices (about 3<br />

cups)<br />

½ cup chopped walnuts<br />

¼ cup real maple syrup<br />

Steps<br />

1. Heat oven to 400°F. Line<br />

15x10x1-inch pan with foil;<br />

spray with cooking spray.<br />

2. In large bowl, mix flour,<br />

sugar, baking powder and<br />

salt until blended; set aside.<br />

3. In medium bowl, beat<br />

eggs, milk, melted butter,<br />

vanilla and 1/2 cup mashed<br />

banana with whisk until<br />

blended. Stir egg mixture<br />

into flour mixture until just<br />

blended (batter will be<br />

lumpy). Pour into pan.<br />

Sprinkle chips on top.<br />

4. Bake 20 to 24 minutes or<br />

until golden brown, center is<br />

set and toothpick inserted in<br />

center comes out clean. Cool<br />

on cooling rack 10 minutes.<br />

Top with Toppings. If desired,<br />

serve with additional maple<br />

syrup.<br />

For success in this recipe,<br />

different stages of ripeness in<br />

bananas works best—firm<br />

bananas for slicing, and ripe<br />

bananas for mashing.<br />

Taken from:<br />

https://www.bettycrocker.co<br />

m/recipes/bananachocolate-chip-sheet-panpancake/<br />

What Inclusion and<br />

Diverse Abilities<br />

Mean to Me<br />

By Krystian<br />

Inclusion means being<br />

friends with people of all<br />

walks of life. No one<br />

should be excluded<br />

because of their color,<br />

nationality, religion or<br />

challenges in life.<br />

Diverse Abilities is a term<br />

that means to focus on<br />

abilities rather than<br />

disabilities. Although you<br />

might have a challenge in<br />

one area, you still have<br />

many abilities. Always<br />

keep in mind, your abilities<br />

outweigh your<br />

challenges. That's why I’m<br />

grateful that the Best<br />

Buddies international<br />

program exists, because<br />

they encourage everyone to<br />

make longer lasting<br />

friendships for people with<br />

developmental<br />

disabilities.<br />

Best Buddies is an<br />

example of a program that<br />

is a non-profit and matches<br />

people up to make<br />

friendships. People need<br />

friendships with a mixture<br />

of people. If people would<br />

let their guard down and<br />

talk to someone who is<br />

different from themselves,<br />

they would be surprised<br />

about how much you have<br />

in common. For example,<br />

if you meet someone who<br />

is in a wheelchair but you<br />

are fortunate enough to<br />

walk, talk to them. They<br />

may have many of the<br />

same likes as you do. What<br />

sports do they enjoy or<br />

what music do they like?<br />

If you meet someone who<br />

has learning disabilities,<br />

don’t assume you have<br />

nothing in common with<br />

them. They might not be<br />

book smart, but might be<br />

street smart, even more<br />

than you are. Those who<br />

can’t see have a lot to offer<br />

to those of us who can<br />

see. We have no idea of<br />

the tricks they find to make<br />

life easier for themselves.<br />

We can all learn from<br />

everyone. Making<br />

friendships with people<br />

who have different abilities<br />

than we do will enlighten<br />

our lives and teach us more<br />

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things than we would<br />

know if we don’t include<br />

everyone in our world.<br />

Enhance your life by<br />

including all in your<br />

everyday life. When you<br />

see someone on the street,<br />

say hi even if their life<br />

seems to look more<br />

challenging than your own.<br />

Who knows, a meaningful<br />

friendship might develop<br />

as a result.<br />

“Don’t walk in front of me…<br />

I may not follow<br />

Don’t walk behind me… I<br />

may not lead<br />

Walk beside me… just be my<br />

friend”<br />

― Albert Camus<br />

“The truth is, everyone is<br />

going to hurt you. You just<br />

got to find the ones worth<br />

suffering for.”<br />

― Bob Marley<br />

TCS<br />

Krystian wanted the <strong>KSA</strong><br />

readers to know more<br />

about some of his<br />

advertisers. This month,<br />

he is featuring TCS and<br />

some of the people who<br />

work there….<br />

Meet Jhenna Owen<br />

What is TCS?<br />

TCS is an agency that<br />

provides services to adults<br />

with diversabilities. We<br />

are committed to<br />

enhancing each day for<br />

every individual and<br />

support many people, and<br />

their families, throughout<br />

the province.<br />

What do you do?<br />

I am a Residential Services<br />

Manager at the Alexis<br />

Home<br />

Why do you guys believe<br />

in my newsletter?<br />

We believe in supporting<br />

people with diversabilities<br />

in their employment and it<br />

makes sense for TCS to<br />

advertise with the people<br />

we serve.<br />

Why did you want to<br />

advertise with the<br />

Kamloops Self Advocate<br />

newsletter?<br />

We wanted to advertise<br />

with the Kamloops Self<br />

Advocate newsletter<br />

because we believe that all<br />

individuals have a choice<br />

in who they want service<br />

from. We wanted to make<br />

sure that the community is<br />

aware of who we are and<br />

what services we provide.<br />

What makes TCS a<br />

special agency for people<br />

with developmental<br />

disabilities?<br />

What makes TCS special is<br />

the relationships we build<br />

with the community and<br />

the people we serve. We<br />

believe that we offer great<br />

options and services to<br />

people with diverse needs.<br />

Why do you believe in<br />

giving back to social<br />

services and to disability<br />

related things such as the<br />

newsletter?<br />

TCS believes that<br />

supporting social services<br />

and the newsletter helps<br />

people with diversabilities<br />

have a voice in our<br />

community.<br />

What makes TCS stand<br />

out from other social<br />

services?<br />

TCS stands out because we<br />

have worked hard to create<br />

an agency that truly<br />

believes that everyone<br />

should have an opportunity<br />

to live a great life that is<br />

rich with opportunities and<br />

growth. We strive to<br />

support people in their<br />

homes, in their<br />

communities and in the<br />

workplace.<br />

Wrenn Weston from TCS<br />

had this to share:<br />

TCS (Thompson Community<br />

Services) is a social services<br />

agency with a proud history<br />

of serving individuals with<br />

diversabilities and their<br />

families for almost 34 years.<br />

We began in Kamloops in<br />

1984 and since then have<br />

grown to now providing<br />

residential and non -<br />

residential services to mostly<br />

adults, in more than 25<br />

communities across BC.<br />

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I am the Chief Operating<br />

Officer for TCS. This means<br />

that that I work very closely<br />

with Chief Executive Officer,<br />

Bob Cornish, to make sure<br />

that that all of our programs<br />

are being run well and to the<br />

highest standards. As well,<br />

our jobs are to make sure that<br />

we are meeting the needs of<br />

individuals, their families and<br />

CLBC. I have been with TCS<br />

for the last 10 years and this<br />

has been the most rewarding<br />

experience of my long career.<br />

TCS fully supports the goals<br />

of the BC Self Advocacy<br />

Foundation and the<br />

community based Self<br />

Advocacy groups in BC.<br />

Your newsletter is an<br />

excellent way to connect with<br />

your members in the<br />

Kamloops area to make sure<br />

that people know their rights<br />

and what opportunities and<br />

resources are available.<br />

At TCS, we are very proud of<br />

the work that we do, our<br />

membership with Inclusion<br />

BC and our commitment to<br />

individuals, their families and<br />

the community. This is<br />

especially true in Kamloops<br />

given our long history of<br />

community involvement.<br />

Sharing our story in your<br />

newsletter is a wonderful way<br />

to further connect with<br />

individuals and their families<br />

and to make sure that the<br />

community knows who we<br />

are and what we do.<br />

TCS is totally committed to<br />

the individuals whom we<br />

serve. This starts at the very<br />

first meeting and is part of<br />

every step of the relationship<br />

thereafter. Our mission is<br />

simple: to enhance each day<br />

for each individual. Our<br />

promise is to provide the best<br />

support and care possible<br />

using the most innovative<br />

practices. In addition, through<br />

our membership with<br />

Inclusion BC and through our<br />

dedicated staff members,<br />

TCS provides a voice of<br />

advocacy for individuals with<br />

diversabilities to become full<br />

participating citizens in their<br />

own communities.<br />

At TCS we are part of the<br />

communities where we<br />

provide services. We are also<br />

part of the diversabilities<br />

community. We take these<br />

responsibilities very<br />

seriously. This is reflected in<br />

our mission “to enhance each<br />

day for each individual”. In<br />

order to fulfill this promise to<br />

individuals, their families and<br />

their communities, TCS has a<br />

culture of service, advocacy<br />

and innovation. We are very<br />

supportive of increasing<br />

opportunities for individuals<br />

with diversabilities to be<br />

further participate as full<br />

citizens in their communities.<br />

What makes TCS stand out<br />

from other social services?<br />

Commitment. Commitment is<br />

our promise to Individuals,<br />

their families, communities<br />

and our dedicated staff<br />

members.<br />

Dining in the Dark<br />

for CNIB<br />

By Krystian<br />

Thank you for coming to<br />

Dining in the Dark city of<br />

Kamloops. Ben and I enjoyed<br />

spending time with the<br />

community. This was our<br />

first time fundraising for<br />

CNIB. Thank you for helping<br />

us to make it very successful.<br />

We especially thank Frick &<br />

Frack Taphouse for helping<br />

host our event. Thank you,<br />

Les Nolin, for doing a speech<br />

and for coming with many<br />

people from CNIB. Thank<br />

you Cliff and Linda Shaw for<br />

helping with tickets and<br />

performance. Thank you to<br />

Vern & Sharon for<br />

performing and traveling<br />

here. Thank you Kamloops<br />

This Week for covering the<br />

event and interviewing us.<br />

Thanks to both Midday &<br />

Radio NL for helping to<br />

promote this fundraiser.<br />

Special thanks to Ben for<br />

being a great friend and<br />

teammate. We appreciated<br />

everyone’s support to raise<br />

$800.00 for CNIB. We hope<br />

to do this fundraiser again<br />

next year! Please let us know<br />

if you would like to<br />

help. thekamloopsselfadvocat<br />

e@yahoo.com<br />

Awareness Days<br />

<strong>April</strong> 2 nd World Autism<br />

Awareness Day.<br />

<strong>April</strong> 7 th<br />

World Health Day<br />

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<strong>April</strong> 1, <strong>2018</strong><br />

The Kamloops Self-Advocate<br />

Events<br />

<strong>April</strong> 1 st , 9 a.m. – 1 p.m.<br />

Easter Brunch @<br />

Romeo’s, 1250 Rogers<br />

Way. Price: $30 for adults,<br />

$25 for seniors, $15 for<br />

kids 4-12, free for kids<br />

under 3.<br />

<strong>April</strong> 14 th Habitat for<br />

Humanity House Party<br />

<strong>2018</strong> - 6:30 PM<br />

<strong>April</strong> 25 th CLBC Spring<br />

Workshop, 9 a.m. – 3 p.m.<br />

@ Henry Grube. This free<br />

event is open to selfadvocates,<br />

families and<br />

suppports. Call 250-377-4444<br />

for more information or to<br />

preregister.<br />

Community Living BC (CLBC) is a provincial crown agency,<br />

mandated under the Community Living Authority Act, that<br />

funds supports and services through service agencies for adults<br />

with developmental disabilities and their families in British<br />

Columbia. CLBC is working to create communities where<br />

people with developmental disabilities have more choices<br />

about how they live, work and contribute.<br />

#45 – 450 Lansdowne Street,<br />

Kamloops, B.C. V2C 1Y3<br />

Telephone: 250-377-4444<br />

Toll Free: 1-877-377-4433<br />

Book a Tasting Event with me and I'll show you how to go<br />

from raw to ready in 20 minutes or less. Eating clean is super<br />

easy, nutritious and delicious<br />

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