In Stone & Shadow: A Workbook in Recovery
Un-Certainty is as black as black can be. She lives to stop, kill and devour courage - in every form. Star and Stone choose a battle that tests the deepest, very last fibre of resilience. Which side of the battle would you choose? Currently nominated for the National Award: Yuva Sahitya Puraskar 2018 (award unannounced), this volume is a workbook in recovery. All purchases after May 1st 2018 contain writing prompts that support self reflection. For purchases made before this date, please write to us at inquiries@instoneandshadow.com - we look forward to sending the entire selection of writing prompts via email within 3 working days.
Un-Certainty is as black as black can be. She lives to stop, kill and devour courage - in every form. Star and Stone choose a battle that tests the deepest, very last fibre of resilience. Which side of the battle would you choose? Currently nominated for the National Award: Yuva Sahitya Puraskar 2018 (award unannounced), this volume is a workbook in recovery. All purchases after May 1st 2018 contain writing prompts that support self reflection. For purchases made before this date, please write to us at inquiries@instoneandshadow.com - we look forward to sending the entire selection of writing prompts via email within 3 working days.
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IN STONE AND SHADOW DR. SHRADHDHA SHAH
ABOUT<br />
BECAUSE WORDS MEAN POWER...<br />
IN STONE AND SHADOW DR. SHRADHDHA SHAH<br />
BOOK<br />
Story<br />
Fable<br />
To recover<br />
To learn<br />
MOMENTS FROM THE PAGES<br />
“Only once upon an <strong>in</strong>terest<strong>in</strong>g time..”<br />
“ ..his journey was about to change course..”<br />
“ ..the motivation to see opportunities..”<br />
“ ..needs change, consequences change..”<br />
“ ..relationships are bits of life flushed with vivacity..”<br />
“ ..without the glorification of pa<strong>in</strong> or suffer<strong>in</strong>g..”<br />
AUTHOR<br />
Consultant: Chronic Diseases<br />
Researcher: <strong>Recovery</strong> & Health<br />
Person: Portrait-Art, Choreography For The Specially-Abled<br />
Important: Service To Animals<br />
<strong>In</strong>spiration: People<br />
“The book rem<strong>in</strong>ds me of everyth<strong>in</strong>g that is simple<br />
and achievable <strong>in</strong> life. It is a book full of hope and<br />
good faith. The author has been able to identify and<br />
breakdown some of our biggest fears and worries as<br />
well as offer solutions through this engag<strong>in</strong>g fable!”<br />
–<br />
Madhuri Kudva – Fitness Professional, Co-Founder: Elite<br />
Fitness, Mumbai / Writer: Elephant Journal / Super-Mom.<br />
“We love the idea that its important to expect<br />
someth<strong>in</strong>g new from yourself every once <strong>in</strong> a while,<br />
maybe as often as possible!”<br />
–<br />
Fenny Shah (33) – Home-Maker/ Artist/ Evolved Entrepreneur/<br />
Educator/ Chef & Jarv<strong>in</strong>ya Shah (10) Dancer/ Artist/ Student<br />
“If you decide to read this book, you will be left with<br />
no choice but to understand yourself.”<br />
–<br />
Ashraf Sheikh (16) – Student<br />
“Death is easy, end<strong>in</strong>gs are easy, change is easy,<br />
transitions are easy - read the book.”<br />
–<br />
P. Farzi<br />
“I wondered if children really grasp the mean<strong>in</strong>g of<br />
death or pa<strong>in</strong> or suffer<strong>in</strong>g <strong>in</strong> a parent. They do. They<br />
expla<strong>in</strong>ed this book better than I could have.”<br />
–<br />
S. Mehta (40) – Coutre Designer & Home - Fuss<strong>in</strong>g, Pancake -<br />
Toss<strong>in</strong>g Wonder-Mum
Star: “The fundamental question is, do you believe <strong>in</strong> magic ?”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong>: “Where is this magic?”
Dedicated to Dr. Rajul and Dr. Jayesh Shah MD (Hom.)<br />
“The bond that l<strong>in</strong>ks your true family is not one of blood,<br />
but of respect and joy <strong>in</strong> each other’s life.”<br />
Richard Bach
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS<br />
Each one holds the promise of a writer with<strong>in</strong>. We author our triumphs, our<br />
disappo<strong>in</strong>tments, the life we choose to honour and the choices we walk past.<br />
This fable has been an experience <strong>in</strong> synchronicity. I believe the feedback from<br />
children and young adults has been more <strong>in</strong>spir<strong>in</strong>g than the writ<strong>in</strong>g itself.<br />
For this, I’m grateful.<br />
I’d like to thank Sushama Ja<strong>in</strong> for her artwork, editorial wisdom and for her ever<br />
beautifully timed common sense. Thank you for be<strong>in</strong>g a part of this manuscript.<br />
The team at Studio Anugraha are synonymous with <strong>in</strong>sightful design – it is<br />
my good fortune to have worked with them on this project. Thank you for<br />
your time, dedication and <strong>in</strong>volvement. Jezreel Nathan, your <strong>in</strong>tuitive eye for<br />
possibilities is irreplaceable. Thank you for the illustrations! They br<strong>in</strong>g vitality<br />
to the <strong>in</strong>ner life of each character.<br />
Freeyan Netherwala Maloo, I’m grateful for your gifted guidance – you helped<br />
give colour and form to an <strong>in</strong>valuable part of the process.<br />
Lipi Mehta, your gentle editorial guidance is deeply appreciated – the expertise<br />
was <strong>in</strong>imitably helpful.<br />
Bonsy Desai, many thanks for your detailed advice – you’re one of the best<br />
editors <strong>in</strong> children’s literature. I hope your work cont<strong>in</strong>ues to touch people <strong>in</strong><br />
the years to come.<br />
Keisha, you’ve brought w<strong>in</strong>gs to my life.
CONTENTS<br />
Copyright © Shradhdha Shah 2012<br />
The right of Shradhdha Shah to be identified as the Author of the<br />
Work has been asserted by her <strong>in</strong> accordance with the Copyright,<br />
Designs & Patents Act 1988.<br />
ISBN : 978-1-78808-504-5<br />
Apart from any permitted use under the UK copyright law, this<br />
publication may only be reproduced, stored or transmitted <strong>in</strong> any<br />
form, or by any means, with prior permission <strong>in</strong> writ<strong>in</strong>g of the<br />
publishers or, <strong>in</strong> the case of reprographic production, <strong>in</strong> accordance<br />
with the terms of licences issued by the Copyright Licens<strong>in</strong>g Agency.<br />
Pr<strong>in</strong>ted & Bound by Karigari, Mumbai, <strong>In</strong>dia (2017).<br />
Design & Illustration by Studio Anugraha, Mumbai, <strong>In</strong>dia.<br />
Contact: <strong>in</strong>quiries@<strong>in</strong>stoneandshadow.com<br />
The Beg<strong>in</strong>n<strong>in</strong>g 09<br />
Angel or Not? 21<br />
Memories 41<br />
The Blue Marble 53<br />
The Focal Screen 65<br />
Only Calm 71<br />
The Globe 79<br />
A <strong>Shadow</strong> 85
CHAPTER 01
Only once upon an <strong>in</strong>terest<strong>in</strong>g time, there was <strong>Stone</strong>. He lived high<br />
up on a mounta<strong>in</strong>top, where the Sun was fierce and the W<strong>in</strong>d was cold.<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> was decidedly old, but so much younger than the Sun and the<br />
W<strong>in</strong>d. The Beetle-From-The-Tree scratched the tree-bark for every year<br />
that <strong>Stone</strong> strolled, sauntered, stretched and sped past. By this time, he<br />
had lived a hundred years (<strong>Stone</strong> often wondered, do beetles normally<br />
live that long? Or was B-F-T-T just special?). Beatle-F-T-T had quietly<br />
smudged over and away more than a few years to the melody of <strong>Stone</strong>’s
famous snores, s<strong>in</strong>ce he knew that the distress from know<strong>in</strong>g one’s true<br />
age left deep scars <strong>in</strong> m<strong>in</strong>eral lives like those of <strong>Stone</strong>. He also knew<br />
that <strong>Stone</strong> had no regrets save one—he yearned to visit the foothill of<br />
the mounta<strong>in</strong>, where the rest of his family lived (if the whispers of his<br />
memory were to be believed).<br />
Life had never lost its verve before, but <strong>Stone</strong> sensed a wonderment<br />
about death and life <strong>in</strong> the heavens. Somehow, there was no fear;<br />
just quickly pushed away wonderment. Maybe it would be good to<br />
go ‘home’ to the heavens (with his age, it could help to be ‘spiritually<br />
correct’), but before that he wanted very much to meet his family.<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> remembered very little of his journey to the top of the mounta<strong>in</strong>.<br />
<strong>In</strong> the years s<strong>in</strong>ce, he had grown old, wise and almost gymnastically<br />
alert at predict<strong>in</strong>g any change <strong>in</strong> weather. He could tell when the<br />
W<strong>in</strong>d grew temperamental and the Sun moved rather diplomatically<br />
<strong>in</strong>to the solitude of the clouds. He knew when the Ra<strong>in</strong> was ready to<br />
visit (or storm <strong>in</strong> without <strong>in</strong>vitation) and when the Snow grew restless<br />
(impatient, beautiful but demand<strong>in</strong>g). All this m<strong>in</strong>dfulness of the Sun<br />
and the W<strong>in</strong>d, but no memory of his ascent to the top of the mounta<strong>in</strong>.<br />
Today and for the many days that had led to this one, <strong>Stone</strong> grew aware<br />
of the feebleness that he felt with<strong>in</strong>. The w<strong>in</strong>ters felt colder and the heat<br />
harsher with every pass<strong>in</strong>g season. The strength of younger days was<br />
silent, as if time had passed its verdict on him. Hard it was to accept<br />
the changes that came with time and <strong>Stone</strong> saw himself grow quieter<br />
with each year. He avoided the other stones and the visit<strong>in</strong>g eagles. His<br />
pr<strong>in</strong>cipal companions on most days were the worms and the ants that<br />
pestered him by wriggl<strong>in</strong>g below his bottom (and Beatle-F-F-T, of course).<br />
That even<strong>in</strong>g, as the sett<strong>in</strong>g Sun cast its glow over the mounta<strong>in</strong>-top,<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> stared sombrely over the horizon. He sighed deeply. He had<br />
grown weary of life and longed for the solace of Death (or was this<br />
depression, as Beetle-F-F-T frequently rem<strong>in</strong>ded him?). However,<br />
Death showed no signs of visit<strong>in</strong>g. <strong>Stone</strong> had seen so many births and<br />
end<strong>in</strong>gs <strong>in</strong> the course of his life that Death almost felt like a familiar<br />
visitor.<br />
“Death will be an end to the choices of this lifetime,” he once said<br />
to Beatle-F-T-T wearily, “maybe it’s the home I seek. Can’t seem<br />
to f<strong>in</strong>d ‘home’, matters not where I am,” he cont<strong>in</strong>ued mus<strong>in</strong>g.<br />
“Tikyun’s presence always felt like home, but she found another<br />
one, a permanent one. Is there another real home for me? Is there<br />
even a th<strong>in</strong>g such as a permanent home?”<br />
“Maybe you’re look<strong>in</strong>g for family and that’s all the home you<br />
need,” offered Beatle-F-T-T.<br />
“Home is respite, home is freedom, home is love and acceptance.<br />
I’ve lived here forever, well almost, but home still awaits. Home I<br />
shall be, some day not very long from now when fate and perhaps<br />
courage permit.” <strong>Stone</strong> remembered this wishful reply – poignant,<br />
purposeful but still a little helpless.<br />
Now retired from a lifetime of be<strong>in</strong>g the physician equivalent of the<br />
mounta<strong>in</strong>, he often longed for company that would truly understand<br />
him maybe even <strong>in</strong> ways that he didn’t. The young leaves and stones<br />
of the mounta<strong>in</strong>top were energetic and lively. They listened to his tales<br />
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of days past with fasc<strong>in</strong>ation, sometimes disbelief and often nonchalant<br />
enterta<strong>in</strong>ment. <strong>Stone</strong> didn’t m<strong>in</strong>d.<br />
Return<strong>in</strong>g to the moment, <strong>Stone</strong> observed the shadows of the night as<br />
they shifted with the movements of the clouds over the moon. With<br />
more cliché than <strong>Stone</strong> would’ve imag<strong>in</strong>ed for this particular moment,<br />
a brilliant flash of light exploded before him. <strong>Stone</strong> jumped, startled.<br />
Stand<strong>in</strong>g before him was a small sparkle, maybe a star? Lean<strong>in</strong>g closer,<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> was surprised to see that the sparkle-slash-star had a little mouth<br />
and a pair of eyes that bl<strong>in</strong>ked as he drew closer. The two strangers<br />
stared at each other <strong>in</strong> silence.<br />
Star laughed.<br />
“Well, were you eager for a shoot<strong>in</strong>g star, then? Especially the k<strong>in</strong>d<br />
that grant wishes?”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> held back a small laugh.<br />
“No, no. I was on no look-out for stars or comets or any other<br />
heavenly bodies! I was look<strong>in</strong>g for answers and maybe the right<br />
questions. I know my life will be end<strong>in</strong>g soon and I feel like it has<br />
passed me by when I wasn’t look<strong>in</strong>g.”<br />
“Are you ill? Why must your life end soon?” asked Star.<br />
“Def<strong>in</strong>itely a star,” thought <strong>Stone</strong>. He swallowed nervously.<br />
“Maybe the heavens have sent this star to take me to them,” he<br />
thought with slight trepidation.<br />
“Hello?” a soft voice spoke from the star’s lips. “Did you call?”<br />
The <strong>Stone</strong> stared at the t<strong>in</strong>y figure before him. “Who are you?” he asked.<br />
“I’m Star. The heavens sent me. Didn’t you ask for a friend? A home?”<br />
“I feel old. I feel weak. I’m look<strong>in</strong>g for ‘home’ whatever that<br />
means, and wherever that is. I’ve seen Death come <strong>in</strong> here and<br />
take his share, or maybe it’s a ‘her’. So many of the irreversibly<br />
ill feel peaceful, like they’re go<strong>in</strong>g home <strong>in</strong> the hours before they<br />
meet Death. While I never believed it before, may be Death<br />
really is home. Perhaps it takes us back to our beg<strong>in</strong>n<strong>in</strong>g.<br />
Perhaps. A friend, Beatle-F-T-T, says that f<strong>in</strong>d<strong>in</strong>g home here,<br />
now, <strong>in</strong> this moment is more important. F<strong>in</strong>d<strong>in</strong>g home here is<br />
feel<strong>in</strong>g like home everywhere. Home is with<strong>in</strong>, that k<strong>in</strong>da th<strong>in</strong>g.<br />
But I don’t feel it.”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> fumbled for the right words.<br />
“I… I did. But I don’t know you! Were you <strong>in</strong> a celestial accident?<br />
Or a rare species of shoot<strong>in</strong>g stars maybe? One that lands on<br />
mounta<strong>in</strong> tops rather than zipp<strong>in</strong>g past above them?” he asked<br />
with doubt.<br />
“Tell me, if you could do anyth<strong>in</strong>g <strong>in</strong> the world before and if you<br />
go, what would it be?” Star asked.<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> sighed quietly. The ache <strong>in</strong> his heart grew deeper.<br />
“It’s too late now.”<br />
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“I’d like to know anyway.”<br />
“When I was very young, I had a purpose, a wish for myself,”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> said softly. “It wasn’t even really m<strong>in</strong>e. It was a wish for me.<br />
Years have passed and I haven’t even begun. Some dreams never<br />
descend to the real world.” <strong>Stone</strong>’s shoulders slumped.<br />
Star grew quiet.<br />
“Maybe, but do dreams die?”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> turned to face Star. He smiled sadly.<br />
“I have no strength. I’m weak, I’m old, I’ve grown forgetful. It’s<br />
too late.”<br />
A solitary tear threatened to roll down his face. He looked at Star, so young,<br />
so energetic <strong>in</strong> her youthfulness.<br />
“A hundred years have passed and I haven’t even begun,” said<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> morosely.<br />
”Well, I would still like to know what it was, your dream,” Star said<br />
gently.<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> turned around, walked to a small mound of earth beh<strong>in</strong>d him and<br />
seated himself wearily.<br />
“Well, when I was a child, a young gypsy-girl found me by the<br />
riverside. She took a lik<strong>in</strong>g to me. She placed me <strong>in</strong>side a soft<br />
maroon box and that was my home for the few uncommon years<br />
that followed. I will never forget her – deep brown eyes, with the<br />
smallest h<strong>in</strong>t of mischief <strong>in</strong> them. Recurr<strong>in</strong>g mischief, not the k<strong>in</strong>d<br />
that appears only once <strong>in</strong> a long while. She talked to me often,<br />
like she would to another human. She thought I was lucky for her<br />
and vowed never to lose me,” <strong>Stone</strong> smiled nostalgically. “Her<br />
name Tikyun. I often heard her mother call<strong>in</strong>g out to her <strong>in</strong> the<br />
morn<strong>in</strong>gs, or when she had forgotten someth<strong>in</strong>g important, which<br />
was all too often.” <strong>Stone</strong> stopped talk<strong>in</strong>g momentarily and raised<br />
his eyes to look at Star. “As many young people are, she was a<br />
dreamer. She… well, she always spoke of stones and pebbles that<br />
conta<strong>in</strong>ed magic – the rare ones. She thought I had magic with<strong>in</strong><br />
me, magic that could change lives. She said that there were ways<br />
of br<strong>in</strong>g<strong>in</strong>g this magic to life.”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> paused to see if Star was still listen<strong>in</strong>g.<br />
“Do you even believe me?” he asked with a small smile.<br />
Star nodded slowly.<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> turned and walked away from Star, sigh<strong>in</strong>g deeply.<br />
“Tikyun was very wise. She was an old soul <strong>in</strong> a young body. She<br />
often spoke of wisdoms beyond her age. She would write <strong>in</strong>to the<br />
night until her eyes ached from the dimness of the starlight.”<br />
Star stood beside <strong>Stone</strong>, watch<strong>in</strong>g the shadows of the night play softly<br />
with strands of moonlight on the slope before them. It was a while before<br />
one of them spoke.<br />
“Go on,” Star urged quietly.<br />
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“She got sick. She was taken away, maybe to get better, and well,<br />
I was with her mother for a while, with her other valuables. One<br />
day, her parents brought me here and buried me, right here, on<br />
this hillock, though not very deep. I managed to wriggle out soon<br />
after. I’ve been here ever s<strong>in</strong>ce. I’m now almost like a grandfather<br />
to the young pebbles here! They come to me with problems,<br />
when they need someone to talk to. I like it here. I’m happy that<br />
I spent my life help<strong>in</strong>g people be happier. But I just… I just can’t<br />
forget Tikyun’s quest. She was so conv<strong>in</strong>ced that if someone,<br />
anyone, found the right way to ‘activate’ the magic, it would lead to<br />
someth<strong>in</strong>g crucial. I barely believe it myself.”<br />
was old, older than <strong>Stone</strong> could or would imag<strong>in</strong>e. She was a spark from<br />
the Great Perfection, someth<strong>in</strong>g greater than her, and yet an equal. She<br />
had chosen, so many galaxies ago, to help sentient be<strong>in</strong>gs uncover the<br />
perfections with<strong>in</strong>. Star was accustomed to look<strong>in</strong>g with<strong>in</strong> souls and<br />
help<strong>in</strong>g them sh<strong>in</strong>e when darkness threatened to engulf their goodness.<br />
But <strong>Stone</strong> did not know this. He needn’t know. It would be good if he<br />
discovered this himself, with all but gentle facilitation from Star. <strong>Stone</strong><br />
didn’t know it, but his journey was about to change course forever .<br />
Star looked at the old figure before her. She could see beyond the ageravaged<br />
scars and the withered body. <strong>Stone</strong>’s soul shone with brilliance<br />
with<strong>in</strong> its hard, l<strong>in</strong>ed shell. She could see l<strong>in</strong>es of choices made and choices<br />
left untouched <strong>in</strong>tertw<strong>in</strong>e his soul <strong>in</strong> a rich mesh of pulsat<strong>in</strong>g orbits. She<br />
could see the value of past <strong>in</strong>tentions, the trials he had chosen to bear and<br />
the wisdom that lay concealed with<strong>in</strong> the mortal body. She knew that if she<br />
spoke of this, he may not believe her. No one believes <strong>in</strong> the perfections of<br />
the soul. There always is a certa<strong>in</strong> relativity to events that throws a shadow<br />
aga<strong>in</strong>st the perfection with<strong>in</strong>. See<strong>in</strong>g perfection consistently becomes a<br />
forbidden luxury, or maybe a practical flaw. Someth<strong>in</strong>g must always be<br />
better than someth<strong>in</strong>g else; the past, the present and the future will<br />
appear to be chang<strong>in</strong>g even when the one see<strong>in</strong>g them chooses to rema<strong>in</strong><br />
unchanged. It takes a devoted seeker to perceive the absolutes through<br />
the relative. Liv<strong>in</strong>g with both successfully is a matter of art.<br />
Star knew that she looked young and smiled at the presumption. She<br />
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CHAPTER 02
S tone was puzzled by Star’s silence. He was most conv<strong>in</strong>ced that Star<br />
was a fantasy, a wishful <strong>in</strong>vention of his m<strong>in</strong>d. She was not real. <strong>Stone</strong><br />
knew more about Death than most. He knew of delusions that could<br />
plague the soul at such a time. It was a time of transition, consciousness<br />
shifted dimensions and delusions were common. He knew of the<br />
nature of reality, the impermanence of perception, and he was not<br />
perturbed, at least not completely. This delusion was sweet and<br />
genu<strong>in</strong>e and urged him to follow his soul’s purpose. It could only be
a messenger from heaven or maybe one from the heaven <strong>in</strong> his subconscious.<br />
He was consumed only by remorse - he sought an answer to<br />
a quest that had belonged to Tikyun, but now felt like his own.<br />
He looked at Star and wondered what she was th<strong>in</strong>k<strong>in</strong>g. Even if for<br />
a moment, he assumed that Star really was magical, wish-grant<strong>in</strong>g<br />
celestial help and not a hopeful projection of his m<strong>in</strong>d… maybe he<br />
could ask this apparition how much longer he had. Was he really dy<strong>in</strong>g?<br />
Maybe he could get started on Tikyun’s quest even now, even with little<br />
time. He knew his body was old and weak, but will could surely outspeed<br />
time when purpose came call<strong>in</strong>g? Especially with celestial help<br />
And so, <strong>Stone</strong> turned to Star with resolve, as one does to mean<strong>in</strong>gful<br />
apparitions that flit through the cracks of reality.<br />
“I have a favor to ask,” he said, “If you are, as you say, from the<br />
heavens, I need your help. I need to f<strong>in</strong>d the code – the magical<br />
code that will lead me to Tikyun’s wish before I die. This needs<br />
to be done.” <strong>Stone</strong> felt his voice gett<strong>in</strong>g stronger. “I’ve seen several<br />
deaths <strong>in</strong> my lifetime. I’m not afraid. I know that consciousness must<br />
eventually return to its source. All I ask is this—will you help me?”<br />
Star looked at him penetrat<strong>in</strong>gly.<br />
“You said that you feel old and weak and forgetful. Maybe it’s too<br />
large a task! How do you know Tikyun was be<strong>in</strong>g rational when<br />
she spoke of this ‘code’? Maybe it was just a romantic notion of<br />
a young gypsy girl.”<br />
“I don’t know, but I must f<strong>in</strong>d a way... to f<strong>in</strong>d the way?”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> replied thickly.<br />
“These doubts have been old friends to you, <strong>Stone</strong>. An honest<br />
quest can be marred by the darkness of distrust,” said Star, “For<br />
<strong>in</strong>stance, I could argue that many rational scholars of your time<br />
agree that ‘magic’ <strong>in</strong> itself is a cultural phenomenon. What if this<br />
hunch or even the magic you speak of is simply a projection of<br />
cultural condition<strong>in</strong>g?” Star watched the emotions shift across<br />
<strong>Stone</strong>’s face, ‘Strength will release itself from doubt when you<br />
wish, <strong>Stone</strong>. The answers will walk <strong>in</strong>to your outstretched arms.’<br />
“A conversation with a talk<strong>in</strong>g star, is this magic or mental illness?<br />
Whoever you be, the danger of abandonment amid a quest is<br />
an important doubt to consider,” said <strong>Stone</strong>, “I don’t doubt my<br />
doubts. They are here for a purpose.”<br />
“Sometimes temporary <strong>in</strong>sanity br<strong>in</strong>gs perspective to the sane.<br />
Abandonment looks unlikely,” said Star, “But to answer your question,<br />
magic is of many k<strong>in</strong>ds. Magic for one could be logic to another. Let it<br />
work for you. More importantly, this is a quest that your heart longs<br />
for – it no longer belongs to Tikyun. Her memories are a treasuretrove<br />
for your own dreams. Any magic that could arise is yours, even<br />
though Tikyun’s faith renewed more mean<strong>in</strong>g than yours could.<br />
Doubt and <strong>in</strong>spiration are both difficult to forget, let each one do<br />
what it must, but neither are more important than the quest itself.”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> was silent for a long while. F<strong>in</strong>ally he nodded,<br />
“Shall we proceed?”<br />
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Star turned to look at the skies.<br />
“You have several steps to ford before we undo the code. I gather<br />
these are tasks that were artfully avoided <strong>in</strong> the past? Important<br />
circumstances that you prevented unknow<strong>in</strong>gly? They must be<br />
completed now, before the magic is unraveled. If the magic from<br />
the code m<strong>in</strong>gles with the traces of deeds unf<strong>in</strong>ished, one can get<br />
trapped with<strong>in</strong> the code, with no no purpose or identity – only the<br />
horrors of an unf<strong>in</strong>ished life to gnaw at the <strong>in</strong>sides of your existence.”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> looked down at the ground beneath him. He suddenly felt old and<br />
young at the same time, like he about to be born just before dy<strong>in</strong>g.<br />
“Are they tasks I can do? Or am I too decrepit for them? Too<br />
creaky? Too dodder<strong>in</strong>g?”<br />
Star smiled at the question.<br />
“They are tasks that will br<strong>in</strong>g you closer to your m<strong>in</strong>d’s harbor,<br />
but they will not be easy.”<br />
to know if you are truly ready for these tasks.”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> swallowed nervously,<br />
“What k<strong>in</strong>d of test?”<br />
Star suppressed a smile. She held up her right hand. Her fist was closed.<br />
“Do you know what lies <strong>in</strong> my hand?”<br />
“No! What is it?” asked <strong>Stone</strong>.<br />
Star opened her fist very slowly. Right there <strong>in</strong> her palm was a th<strong>in</strong> layer<br />
of <strong>Stone</strong>’s sk<strong>in</strong>.<br />
“Where did you get that?” said <strong>Stone</strong> <strong>in</strong> surprise.<br />
“You scraped yourself while walk<strong>in</strong>g some time ago and I simply<br />
collected… this.” said Star emphatically. “Now, I’m go<strong>in</strong>g to pass<br />
it through this,” she said as she pulled out a t<strong>in</strong>y circular clock-like<br />
apparatus from beh<strong>in</strong>d her.<br />
“I may not have much time—will I be able to complete these<br />
before I…” asked <strong>Stone</strong> quietly.<br />
“What is that?” asked <strong>Stone</strong> peer<strong>in</strong>g cautiously over Star’s shoulder<br />
<strong>in</strong>to the contraption as Star slid the layer of sk<strong>in</strong> <strong>in</strong>to it.<br />
“I believe so,” replied Star.<br />
“All right, what are they? I shall certa<strong>in</strong>ly try,” said <strong>Stone</strong>, feel<strong>in</strong>g<br />
rather excited, although he didn’t show it.<br />
The clock whirred for a few m<strong>in</strong>utes and then hiccupped to a halt. A<br />
series of dots and slashes appeared on the screen, bl<strong>in</strong>k<strong>in</strong>g furiously.<br />
“Ah ha…” murmured Star, star<strong>in</strong>g at the screen fixedly.<br />
“As old-fashioned as this may sound, I need to test your faculties<br />
“What? What is it?” asked <strong>Stone</strong> impatiently.<br />
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“Hmmm…not bad at all! Rather good, I would say,” said Star,<br />
nodd<strong>in</strong>g to herself.<br />
“WHAT is it? Tell me!” exclaimed <strong>Stone</strong>.<br />
“Well… this mach<strong>in</strong>e measures the Heart-Energy Quotient of<br />
subjects… and yours, I’m happy to say, is quite high…” said Star<br />
thoughtfully.<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> swallowed his irritation with difficulty.<br />
“What is a Heart-Energy Quotient?” he asked.<br />
Star looked up at him with a smile.<br />
“Oh, I apologize for not expla<strong>in</strong><strong>in</strong>g! The Heart-Energy Quotient<br />
is one’s <strong>in</strong>ternal potential for compassion, magic and genu<strong>in</strong>e<br />
empathy.”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> slowly digested her words before respond<strong>in</strong>g.<br />
“What k<strong>in</strong>d of magic? How does one measure magic? Is each ones’<br />
magic different?”<br />
as well, but only one k<strong>in</strong>d that will work for you. You need to<br />
f<strong>in</strong>d your k<strong>in</strong>d. Magic is the motivation to see opportunities for<br />
a happier potential. The motivation itself creates the potential.<br />
Measur<strong>in</strong>g these is a lifetimes’ work or simply put, the work of<br />
celestial helpers like me. We don’t like to judge the measurement,<br />
but we like to share it with the soul-on-quest.”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> considered this carefully.<br />
“But I’ve not always attached positive mean<strong>in</strong>gs to so many<br />
important events, when I know I could have…”<br />
“Yes, I know, but that only happened when you didn’t know how.<br />
That will change. You didn’t know you could, because you always<br />
viewed the world through your experiences and conclusions, not<br />
as it really is. This meter here shows a rough percentile of your<br />
growth <strong>in</strong> this direction so far. I have to say I’m quite impressed.<br />
You are very close to the Next Level,” said Star, look<strong>in</strong>g at him<br />
mean<strong>in</strong>gfully.<br />
“The Next Level?” repeated a perplexed <strong>Stone</strong>.<br />
Star nodded.<br />
“Good question. Magic is the ability to attach a positive mean<strong>in</strong>g<br />
to events, tak<strong>in</strong>g responsibility for their outcome whole-heartedly.<br />
It is the potential for realiz<strong>in</strong>g the creative force with<strong>in</strong> you and<br />
us<strong>in</strong>g this to create affirmative events around you, <strong>in</strong> all k<strong>in</strong>ds of<br />
circumstances… it’s simple, but not always easy. This is one k<strong>in</strong>d<br />
of magic that is accessible to almost all. There are several others<br />
“Yes! When you go to the Next Level, you can teach some aspects<br />
of This Premise to younger souls!” said Star proudly.<br />
“How about a translation? I can’t understand a word!” wondered<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> <strong>in</strong> exasperation.<br />
Star gr<strong>in</strong>ned.<br />
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“The Next Level, my friend is the next stage of potential.”<br />
“Of potential? What if we fail? Wait, can one fail at hav<strong>in</strong>g<br />
potential”<br />
“No one can fail <strong>in</strong> hav<strong>in</strong>g potential. <strong>In</strong> failure lie opportunities for<br />
creation. You are so close, <strong>Stone</strong>, to the next stage of creat<strong>in</strong>g your<br />
potential. Failure, however will always be close,” said Star, “it’s not<br />
the enemy.”<br />
“I do not like to fail, Star. Why would I even proceed if I were to be<br />
assured of failure?” asked <strong>Stone</strong>.<br />
“You want to create, <strong>Stone</strong> and you want to create miracles. The<br />
short way is succeed<strong>in</strong>g and creation may cease. Failure, on the<br />
other hand will guide you until noth<strong>in</strong>g more perfect is possible. That<br />
is the miracle of failure,” said Star, “succeed<strong>in</strong>g <strong>in</strong> some challenges<br />
and fail<strong>in</strong>g miserably <strong>in</strong> others and still create – this is the Next<br />
Level. The codes that you are work<strong>in</strong>g to change is This Premise. At<br />
any proposed time, if you choose, you can share nuances of This<br />
Premise with new groups of be<strong>in</strong>gs learn<strong>in</strong>g the codes at the time,<br />
or you could choose to start ga<strong>in</strong><strong>in</strong>g prowess toward the Next Level.<br />
Be<strong>in</strong>g the general-physician of the mounta<strong>in</strong>top was also one form<br />
of code, it was This Premise, but it’s over now. It’s time for the Next<br />
Level. Seek<strong>in</strong>g the magical code with<strong>in</strong> you, as proposed by Tikyun<br />
is the Next Level. Your biggest failures from This Premise will follow<br />
you <strong>in</strong>to the Next Level <strong>in</strong> a way that you will have no choice but to<br />
create perfection. Do you follow?”<br />
“I do… yes.” <strong>Stone</strong> squared his frame decisively, “I want these<br />
moments of progress.”<br />
“Well, let’s not delay any further,” she said, briskly walk<strong>in</strong>g ahead.<br />
“Let us get to the first task. Are you ready?”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> replied with concentration.<br />
“Yes.”<br />
“Close your eyes,” said Star, “and th<strong>in</strong>k of your first irreversible<br />
disappo<strong>in</strong>tment.”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> frowned at the question.<br />
“I’m def<strong>in</strong>itely halluc<strong>in</strong>at<strong>in</strong>g,” he thought.<br />
But even as he completed the thought, a familiar scene floated before<br />
his eyes. His knees began to buckle and he felt as if all the air had been<br />
knocked out of him.<br />
He saw himself - a young pebble by the side of a river, with his brother<br />
only a shade lighter than him. The peb-l<strong>in</strong>gs were clearly enjoy<strong>in</strong>g the cool<br />
of the river <strong>in</strong> the crisp sun. The wavelets gently crashed aga<strong>in</strong>st them.<br />
Their giggles and gigglets permeated the air around them. <strong>Stone</strong> felt<br />
almost tangibly, the deep comfort of their companionship as the scene<br />
grew clearer <strong>in</strong> his m<strong>in</strong>d’s eye. He smiled as they pushed each other further<br />
<strong>in</strong>to the water, laugh<strong>in</strong>g hysterically as one of them stumbled over a twig.<br />
Suddenly, a large shadow loomed above them. Both brothers looked up<br />
<strong>in</strong> surprise. A huge, brown shape further loomed and then dove towards<br />
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them. Before either could respond, a cold, black clamp enveloped them…<br />
snatch<strong>in</strong>g them and the surround<strong>in</strong>g twigs <strong>in</strong>to its clutches. As the shape<br />
rose above the ground, <strong>Stone</strong> saw his brother tumble out of the grasp of<br />
the vice. Fear gripped him as he helplessly saw his brother below, cry<strong>in</strong>g<br />
out his name. He found himself ris<strong>in</strong>g higher. The w<strong>in</strong>d rushed past him as<br />
two great, feathered w<strong>in</strong>gs swept up and down about him rhythmically<br />
on either side. Gusts of w<strong>in</strong>d flew and blew aga<strong>in</strong>st <strong>Stone</strong>, chill<strong>in</strong>g him to<br />
his very core. Suddenly, he felt the feathered flier wobble <strong>in</strong> its course,<br />
los<strong>in</strong>g its momentum aga<strong>in</strong>st the gust. The vice around him loosened and<br />
much before he knew it, he found his dis<strong>in</strong>tegrated self hurtl<strong>in</strong>g toward<br />
the ground. <strong>Stone</strong> had never experienced terror such as this before. His<br />
heart was explod<strong>in</strong>g with the horror of the moment and some part of his<br />
confused m<strong>in</strong>d knew that death was close. His downward tumble ended<br />
abruptly. The shock of hitt<strong>in</strong>g a hard surface completely knocked every<br />
last fear from him. He vaguely experienced a wetness on his cheeks and<br />
realized he was cry<strong>in</strong>g. For a moment, wondered whether the pa<strong>in</strong> he felt<br />
was on the other side of life. It was a long time before he rega<strong>in</strong>ed his<br />
breath. Nearly every part of his body was bruised and battered. As he<br />
looked straight above him, he could see several patches of green. There<br />
were so many shades of green, more than he ever remembered see<strong>in</strong>g<br />
before. Once aga<strong>in</strong> he wondered if he had died and gone to a certa<strong>in</strong> k<strong>in</strong>d<br />
of heaven. Slowly and pa<strong>in</strong>fully, he propped himself up aga<strong>in</strong>st a stray<br />
but sturdy twig. He could feel the parts with<strong>in</strong> his body rattle aga<strong>in</strong>st<br />
their stony shell.<br />
As he looked around, he was startled to see that the fall had attracted<br />
a great deal of attention from the local <strong>in</strong>habitants. A number of young<br />
pebbles and even a snail peeked curiously at him through the moss.<br />
A vaguely familiar human face loomed over him. Tikyun! Her hands<br />
reached out to retrieve him from the wet bank.<br />
“The Blue Marble!” she cried. “I’ve found the Blue Marble! It’s<br />
cracked, at least there is one half? I’ve found you at last! The crusts<br />
from your sk<strong>in</strong> will cure so many illnesses. The grey crust must be<br />
separated from the marble… but we need to f<strong>in</strong>d the rest of you…”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> awoke from his reverie. He felt his heart beat faster as he bl<strong>in</strong>ked<br />
foggily at his surround<strong>in</strong>gs. Star was peer<strong>in</strong>g cautiously at him, pok<strong>in</strong>g<br />
him gently <strong>in</strong> his side. Star was gentle, but poke she did. At the right time,<br />
<strong>in</strong> the right way.<br />
“Are you alright? For a moment there, I thought you had slipped<br />
off to sleep… you didn’t respond to my calls!” Star said.<br />
“I’m alright. What was that? I felt as if I was reliv<strong>in</strong>g my life! It was<br />
so real!” exclaimed <strong>Stone</strong> as he sat up slowly.<br />
“What did you see?”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> gulped.<br />
“I saw… I saw myself as a young pebble… with my brother, my<br />
family. I was happy. And then… a bird of some k<strong>in</strong>d caught hold of<br />
me and I was fall<strong>in</strong>g,” <strong>Stone</strong> found himself trembl<strong>in</strong>g uncontrollably.<br />
“I was fall<strong>in</strong>g… I was fall<strong>in</strong>g so fast, I was so scared,” <strong>Stone</strong> looked<br />
up at Star. “I know that this has happened, but I… I had forgotten.<br />
How did it come back? Why was it so real? I saw Tikyun! She said<br />
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I was a marble, a blue marble with a grey crust.” <strong>Stone</strong> looked<br />
down at his body. Still grey. “What did she mean?”<br />
Star suppressed a gr<strong>in</strong>, then gr<strong>in</strong>ned openly.<br />
“Do you want to see someth<strong>in</strong>g?”<br />
“Wha...”<br />
“Do you still th<strong>in</strong>k the event belongs to the past?” asked Star.<br />
“Of course it’s an event from the past although I don’t know how you<br />
made it appear on that screen,” stone frowned slightly, “just so you<br />
know, I’ve already accepted that I’m halluc<strong>in</strong>at<strong>in</strong>g and my awareness<br />
of makes this a little easier for me. So go ahead… I’m ready for any<br />
strange explanation that you may have for this little screen.”<br />
Before <strong>Stone</strong> could say anyth<strong>in</strong>g, Star <strong>in</strong>dicated to a spot beside them<br />
and soundlessly, a screen of blue appeared. It flickered and slowly an<br />
image began to appear on the surface of the screen. <strong>Stone</strong> bl<strong>in</strong>ked. On<br />
the screen before him was the very same memory that he had relived<br />
only a few moments ago! He felt that he was emotionally connected<br />
to the scene play<strong>in</strong>g before him. He could experience every emotion<br />
aga<strong>in</strong>. The scene replayed itself over aga<strong>in</strong> and aga<strong>in</strong>, while <strong>Stone</strong> and<br />
Star watched <strong>in</strong> silence. F<strong>in</strong>ally, it flickered and silently died out. <strong>Stone</strong><br />
felt dra<strong>in</strong>ed. <strong>In</strong> the lifelike but blurry repetitions he caught glimpses of<br />
Tikyun as she held him. Her scarf was sequ<strong>in</strong>ed with little mirrors and<br />
<strong>in</strong> the mirrors he saw someth<strong>in</strong>g that froze his heart. <strong>In</strong> the mirrors of<br />
the scarf, he saw a reflection of himself – not grey, but a beautiful deep<br />
blue, a marble peek<strong>in</strong>g from crusts of dull grey <strong>in</strong> places. Once more, he<br />
looked down at his body <strong>in</strong> a jolt of panic – still grey. He turned to Star.<br />
“What was that?” he asked, irritated.<br />
“Grounds for vantage?” she asked.<br />
“I th<strong>in</strong>k I’m dizzy,” replied <strong>Stone</strong>, rubb<strong>in</strong>g his head.<br />
Star chuckled.<br />
“You seem less logical than when I first met you.”<br />
“I th<strong>in</strong>k I’ve surrendered to these places you are tak<strong>in</strong>g me on,”<br />
replied <strong>Stone</strong>.<br />
“The logic is important, but it needs to be <strong>in</strong>tegrated <strong>in</strong>to a larger<br />
perspective.”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> nodded, contemplat<strong>in</strong>g Star’s words.<br />
“I didn’t want to learn from you when I first met you. I was<br />
skeptical. I was scared. Now, I’ve surrendered to the peculiarity<br />
of this situation. Go on, tell me about the screen, I’m listen<strong>in</strong>g.”<br />
The repetition of the scene had somehow produced an alacrity that<br />
was still was still look<strong>in</strong>g for words even if <strong>in</strong> thoughts. The memory no<br />
longer hurt as it had once.<br />
Star looked at the spot where the screen had flickered out of sight a<br />
few m<strong>in</strong>utes ago.<br />
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“This was a field. It was an energy field, a terra firma of experience<br />
that conta<strong>in</strong>ed the memory and <strong>in</strong>formation from that moment; it<br />
conta<strong>in</strong>ed the emotional charge, the thoughts, the fears and the<br />
images of that <strong>in</strong>cident. Every time you th<strong>in</strong>k of this moment or<br />
speak of it, you enter this terra firma. It does not belong to any<br />
po<strong>in</strong>t <strong>in</strong> time, it just is. You feel it is <strong>in</strong> the past because you are<br />
used to view<strong>in</strong>g it through the present, through the here and the<br />
now. When the ‘here and now’ change, the past and the future<br />
are altered. Right now, you’re a storehouse of <strong>in</strong>sights for that<br />
past self - it communicated with you through this screen. You will<br />
notice that your anxieties are reduced and I don’t doubt that this<br />
past self will now make different choices as well. You will meet<br />
him sooner rather than later, but will you know if the stranger<br />
before you is a fragmented self from the past? That rema<strong>in</strong>s to be<br />
seen, doesn’t it? You have evolved so strik<strong>in</strong>gly that you are only<br />
now beg<strong>in</strong>n<strong>in</strong>g to see yourself through Tikyun’s perspective. For<br />
problems of the present though, you rema<strong>in</strong> grey.”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> tried to absorb Star’s words.<br />
“What does that mean for me? I mean… right now?”<br />
“It means that you are creat<strong>in</strong>g every bit of perspective <strong>in</strong> your life. The<br />
more you validate your beliefs, the more real they become. Also, don’t<br />
be surprised if you meet your old self on the way to the code. That’s<br />
the only way Nature can boast and bluster of your personal progress.”<br />
“What about circumstances, situations? Don’t they play a part?”<br />
asked <strong>Stone</strong>.<br />
“They will, but not without your participation. The more <strong>in</strong>spired<br />
you are with<strong>in</strong>, the less the circumstance is likely to traumatize or<br />
fragment you. It’s your participation that makes it real.” replied Star.<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> frowned.<br />
“The bird that caught me was accidental, circumstantial even, I was<br />
a child, the fear it brought to me was unavoidable. How is it possible<br />
for me to not respond <strong>in</strong> a situation when it is truly a fearful one?”<br />
“Yes, but you could re-imag<strong>in</strong>e your response <strong>in</strong> retrospect and<br />
re-understand it for a changed impact. That is true heal<strong>in</strong>g, when<br />
the grey sparkles its way <strong>in</strong>to a brilliant blue. This will allow you<br />
to experience <strong>in</strong>spiration more fully. Fears are stored at a deeply<br />
unconscious plane. They must f<strong>in</strong>d release. They are the prison<br />
of the marble and the guardian of the grey. There is no end to<br />
learn<strong>in</strong>g, no one moment of enlightenment; rather, there are a<br />
series of enlightenments, each tak<strong>in</strong>g you closer to your soul, to<br />
wholeness, to grace.” replied Star.<br />
“What you say needs time to fathom. I can th<strong>in</strong>k of a million<br />
arguments. But I need to know – how is this related to my purpose,<br />
to the magic and its code?”<br />
Star gr<strong>in</strong>ned.<br />
“Well, why did you allow so many years to pass you by before you<br />
considered the quest?”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> breathed deeply.<br />
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“Well, it seemed too difficult and there was never the right time.<br />
I didn’t want to fail and… why are you laugh<strong>in</strong>g?”<br />
“That’s the grey speak<strong>in</strong>g. Get the greys and reframe them, the<br />
traumas, big and small - extract the positives and discard the<br />
rest. These fears impact your life directly through fortified belief<br />
systems. Your present, your future and ironically, even your<br />
past, are impacted by these fears s<strong>in</strong>ce one always views one’s<br />
past through the gaze of the present. The purpose if blue, the<br />
process is grey.”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> paused for a moment before answer<strong>in</strong>g. Memories of his wife<br />
floated before him without warn<strong>in</strong>g. His heart lurched. If Death could be<br />
considered home, he wished his wife had found that sanctuary.<br />
“I th<strong>in</strong>k I’d like to meet my wife, Coral. She died a few years ago.<br />
Could we meet her <strong>in</strong> the past or will she meet us <strong>in</strong> the present?”<br />
Star nodded thoughtfully.<br />
“Let’s go . ”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> had grown sombre. He was beg<strong>in</strong>n<strong>in</strong>g to realize that he wanted<br />
more of that brilliant blue. Grey out, blue <strong>in</strong>.<br />
“Where next?”<br />
“You could choose.”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> looked at Star <strong>in</strong>quir<strong>in</strong>gly.<br />
“What is the choice?”<br />
“Choos<strong>in</strong>g to live with fear or die to the old fears. Go back to your<br />
old life at the mounta<strong>in</strong>-top or the next task?”<br />
“The next task,” replied <strong>Stone</strong>.<br />
“This time, you choose the ‘self’ that you wish to visit. Any moment<br />
that you would like revised? It’s nearly like re-writ<strong>in</strong>g that part of<br />
your story.”<br />
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CHAPTER 03
S tar had thought long and deep of her stakes <strong>in</strong> this quest. <strong>Stone</strong>’s<br />
grey crust, and chunks of it perhaps would cure her daughter.<br />
“Nevé was born with an aberration, adopted and nurtured, but<br />
cured she will be. If only <strong>Stone</strong> was <strong>in</strong> the know.”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> wobbled through the weeds and the moss, grumbl<strong>in</strong>g under his<br />
breath. Star strode ahead gracefully, lead<strong>in</strong>g the way. She delicately<br />
pushed the weeds out of the way, while <strong>Stone</strong> panted to keep up with her.
“How does she walk so quickly?” he thought.<br />
“I exercise regularly. Do you?” called Star, without turn<strong>in</strong>g.<br />
body seemed to be covered with millions of t<strong>in</strong>y crystall<strong>in</strong>e particles that<br />
shone lum<strong>in</strong>ously. <strong>Stone</strong> realized how grateful he was to be with her <strong>in</strong><br />
this moment <strong>in</strong> his life.<br />
“Where are we go<strong>in</strong>g? Aren’t you go<strong>in</strong>g to say someth<strong>in</strong>g about<br />
this task?” asked <strong>Stone</strong> grumpily. He didn’t particularly enjoy<br />
be<strong>in</strong>g ordered about.<br />
Star turned to gesture toward the right.<br />
“Keep an eye out for a circular mark to your right. It will be like an<br />
engrav<strong>in</strong>g. And <strong>Stone</strong>?”<br />
Star said noth<strong>in</strong>g. <strong>Stone</strong> looked up to repeat the question with a greater<br />
degree of irritation, but to his astonishment, Star had disappeared.<br />
“Wha… Star?” he squeaked nervously. “I hate this magic stuff.<br />
It always catches you unaware.”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> looked <strong>in</strong> all directions. There was no sign of Star anywhere.<br />
“Pssst… down here…”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> searched for the voice, but failed to f<strong>in</strong>d its source. For a few<br />
moments, he just stood there <strong>in</strong> bewilderment.<br />
“Down here, you grey moron! Hey!”<br />
“Yes?”<br />
“This is your second task, and you will be choos<strong>in</strong>g the next one as<br />
well. The tasks will have to be those that release the veil over your<br />
code, your key to magic, so choose well.”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> turned his attention to his right as they shuffled forward <strong>in</strong>to the<br />
tunnel. The light from Star’s body illum<strong>in</strong>ated the tunnel so brilliantly,<br />
that <strong>Stone</strong> almost forgot that they were a few feet underground.<br />
A few moments later Star stopped abruptly.<br />
“Here it is,” she said with a note of satisfaction <strong>in</strong> her voice.<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> crouched low above the ground.<br />
“Where are you? I can’t see you!” he shouted.<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> could see a circle with a dot at its center carved <strong>in</strong>to the wall.<br />
“What is this?”<br />
Suddenly his eye caught sight of an open<strong>in</strong>g amid the bushes. He could<br />
see Star peep<strong>in</strong>g out through a hole. She gestured for him to enter it<br />
before disappear<strong>in</strong>g <strong>in</strong>to the darkness. Cautiously, he crawled <strong>in</strong>side.<br />
He could see Star slightly ahead of him. <strong>In</strong> the dark, the surface of her<br />
Star soundlessly blew on the circle. Before he could even bl<strong>in</strong>k, <strong>Stone</strong><br />
felt as if he was shr<strong>in</strong>k<strong>in</strong>g—he was be<strong>in</strong>g sucked forward <strong>in</strong>to a violent<br />
tornado. The humidity of the tornado was overpower<strong>in</strong>g and moved<br />
upward with great force before zig-zagg<strong>in</strong>g <strong>in</strong> a million different directions<br />
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efore shudder<strong>in</strong>g to a halt. It was a few m<strong>in</strong>utes before <strong>Stone</strong> opened his<br />
eyes. His vision was fogged by the whirl<strong>in</strong>g cloud that surrounded him.<br />
“I’d really like my vision back,” he thought to himself.<br />
Immediately, the whirl<strong>in</strong>g envelope opened and he was thrust out of the<br />
tornado. He found himself sprawled on the ground, his body twisted<br />
awkwardly with the impact of the push.<br />
Propp<strong>in</strong>g himself up with some difficulty, he looked for Star.<br />
“Where is that twerpy know-it-all… crystall<strong>in</strong>e… angel?” he<br />
muttered to himself.<br />
He pulled himself <strong>in</strong>to an upright position and to his great surprise, he<br />
found Star sitt<strong>in</strong>g close, next to him.<br />
“Whyyy do you have to do that? You are almost always appear<strong>in</strong>g<br />
and disappear<strong>in</strong>g with no prior warn<strong>in</strong>g. Where are we? What is<br />
happen<strong>in</strong>g?”<br />
“This is the Plane of Del<strong>in</strong>quent Conclusions—an energetic field<br />
where thoughts become reality almost <strong>in</strong>stantaneously. Old and<br />
unwanted conclusions can be discarded forever. So one should be<br />
careful about what one th<strong>in</strong>ks here,” Star said with a w<strong>in</strong>k.<br />
strangers will be separated from the authentic bits of your dest<strong>in</strong>y.<br />
It is easier to do this here than <strong>in</strong> other planes. Once out of this<br />
field, your life will be exactly as it used to be, except…” Star paused,<br />
“except the experience of it. You take back the learn<strong>in</strong>g, that is all.”<br />
There was a small silence between them as <strong>Stone</strong> weighed the mean<strong>in</strong>g<br />
of her words. He was beg<strong>in</strong>n<strong>in</strong>g to have a very om<strong>in</strong>ous feel<strong>in</strong>g about the<br />
experience. This felt strange, unreal. His m<strong>in</strong>d was draw<strong>in</strong>g a complete<br />
blank. He felt a little fa<strong>in</strong>t, but shook his head to clear his m<strong>in</strong>d. <strong>Stone</strong><br />
straightened himself and walked to the center of the room. He could feel<br />
Star’s eyes on him. He took a deep breath and allowed his m<strong>in</strong>d to relax.<br />
<strong>In</strong>voluntarily, an image of his wife drifted <strong>in</strong>to his consciousness. His breath<br />
shook slightly. He could almost feel her presence beside him. His body<br />
slumped, as if deflated of all life. How he longed for their days together. The<br />
air grew warmer and very very still. Out of nowhere, Coral appeared before<br />
him, as real as can be imag<strong>in</strong>ed. He touched her face lightly and smiled.<br />
“Come back,” he said softly, “Life misses you.” His heart ached as<br />
he realized that this moment would be gone <strong>in</strong> a few m<strong>in</strong>utes.<br />
“You can enjoy them here, but you can’t take them back…” Star’s<br />
words echoed <strong>in</strong> his ears, but resounded closer to his heart.<br />
“Soooo, why are we here aga<strong>in</strong>?”<br />
“Well, <strong>in</strong> this plane, the deepest unresolved hurts surface very<br />
quickly. Every hurt has a stranger hidden <strong>in</strong>side. A stranger that<br />
does not belong to your dest<strong>in</strong>y. <strong>In</strong> this plane, one or even more<br />
Coral simply smiled back at him. She leaned toward him and<br />
whispered, “There could be someone else wait<strong>in</strong>g for you… let me<br />
go. I’m among loved ones and you should be too.”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> stepped back slowly. The ache <strong>in</strong> his heart was gett<strong>in</strong>g stronger.<br />
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She looked happy.<br />
“Did she ask me to let go? Let go of what we had? I f<strong>in</strong>d this hard<br />
to believe! She D-O-E-S-N’T need me anymore!”<br />
Coral smiled, as if she could read his thoughts.<br />
“There are many good th<strong>in</strong>gs wait<strong>in</strong>g for you. You must walk<br />
toward them, don’t push them away… I love you,” her voice faded,<br />
as did she. The spaces between them grew rare and th<strong>in</strong><br />
He looked <strong>in</strong>to the fad<strong>in</strong>g eyes of his wife. <strong>In</strong> the ephemeral gl<strong>in</strong>t of his<br />
former half-soul he saw a mirage. A dark shape. Charred. Black as fail<strong>in</strong>g<br />
hope. Pierc<strong>in</strong>g as the st<strong>in</strong>g of dy<strong>in</strong>g love. Even as he watched, the vaguely<br />
raven shaped darkness separated from Coral. <strong>Stone</strong> looked down at his<br />
form to see a dark swirl leav<strong>in</strong>g his body. An underly<strong>in</strong>g sheen of a lighter<br />
grey appeared <strong>in</strong> patches, though not completely. Ragged scratch-like<br />
marks of blue had begun to appear on the rest of the body.<br />
“Wait! Where are you goi…” he reached out <strong>in</strong>to the empty space,<br />
but she was gone.<br />
wish to, we can leave and you can go back to the mounta<strong>in</strong>top. I will<br />
be happy to support you either way,” said Star.<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> took a few deep breaths before answer<strong>in</strong>g.<br />
“You know I will not turn back. But I need to understand what<br />
just happened,” his words escaped through gritted teeth, though<br />
only barely.<br />
Star nodded.<br />
“When one enters an altered plane of any k<strong>in</strong>d, especially one<br />
designed to heal, one can access <strong>in</strong>formation with an alternate truth.<br />
The transaction no longer takes place at a material or sequential<br />
level, but purely at the level of conception. Potential is conceived,<br />
while form follows. <strong>In</strong> this plane, time and space verve with vitality,<br />
they are flexible, motile, malleable to the sensitive f<strong>in</strong>gers of<br />
possibility and perfection. Consequences are the skilled sequences<br />
of possibility, wait<strong>in</strong>g only for a flicker of permission to manifest <strong>in</strong><br />
the physical reality of the world. Coral was a consequence of your<br />
need and needs chang. Consequences change.”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> turned angrily to face Star. When anger is sudden, it strikes harder.<br />
“Make her come back!” he demanded <strong>in</strong> anguish, “I know you have<br />
everyth<strong>in</strong>g to do with this, so make her come back this <strong>in</strong>stant.”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> nodded before reply<strong>in</strong>g.<br />
“Is this true only of this plane or… or is the natural order of the<br />
world built similarly?”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong>’s voice now resounded as a roar. Star calmly stared back at him.<br />
“You knew that this was temporary, we both knew this would end.<br />
You have chosen this journey, you asked for clarity, now you must<br />
have the grit to face the truths you demanded to know. If you still<br />
Star raised an eyebrow playfully.<br />
“That is an <strong>in</strong>ference… your <strong>in</strong>tuitive capacities have led to this<br />
<strong>in</strong>ference. If your logical abilities were contemplat<strong>in</strong>g this question,<br />
the answers would have been very different.”<br />
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“But how can there be two truths? While I know that every person<br />
has their relative set of beliefs that constitutes their truth, there<br />
must be objective truths too!” exclaimed <strong>Stone</strong>, later surprised<br />
that his voice rang through the air so loudly.<br />
“If a relative truth is <strong>in</strong>vestigated carefully, it will lead to an<br />
objective truth. The participants of the event may take different<br />
routes to that same truth. The path and perspective, my dear<br />
friend, is relative—that truth is relative,” answered Star.<br />
truth was coloured by the pa<strong>in</strong>ful regrets from the past and you<br />
were unable to accept her truth, which, I may add, was as rational<br />
as your truth. Relationships are the heart of the soul, they keep<br />
the other bits of life flushed with vivacity. Even the relationship<br />
with a past”<br />
“So, what are you try<strong>in</strong>g to say? We should be accept<strong>in</strong>g of all<br />
relative truths float<strong>in</strong>g about? How is that even possible?” <strong>Stone</strong>’s<br />
voice shook with exasperation.<br />
“What if your relative truth is harmful to another or even to your<br />
own self?” questioned <strong>Stone</strong>.<br />
“It is tempt<strong>in</strong>g for me to answer this, but it won’t be conv<strong>in</strong>c<strong>in</strong>g if<br />
it comes from anyone other than you. This is a question that you<br />
need to answer for yourself,” replied Star.<br />
“Well, I know that I would accept someone’s relative truth if it<br />
was that important to them! I know I would! And what if others<br />
don’t respond <strong>in</strong> the same way towards me?” exclaimed <strong>Stone</strong>.<br />
“Well, well, look at all the hot air stuffed up your head! What of Coral<br />
and her message? You were completely un-accept<strong>in</strong>g of her truth!”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> opened his mouth to speak, but closed it quickly without say<strong>in</strong>g<br />
anyth<strong>in</strong>g. Star cont<strong>in</strong>ued,<br />
“You acted differently because someth<strong>in</strong>g with<strong>in</strong> you had not<br />
resolved completely. The trauma had not healed entirely. Your<br />
“A relative truth is not unlike watch<strong>in</strong>g the sky through a tunnel.<br />
The immenseness of the sky turns <strong>in</strong>to a fragmented oval of<br />
experience. Its openness is empty of depth and its <strong>in</strong>f<strong>in</strong>ity<br />
surrenders to the unconscious boundaries of darkness,” said Star.<br />
“How can I experience joy or love or <strong>in</strong>f<strong>in</strong>ity when the closest<br />
person <strong>in</strong> my life has died? I will be pretend<strong>in</strong>g if I say I’m<br />
experienc<strong>in</strong>g completeness! I’m not! I…”<br />
Star gently placed her hand on his shoulder.<br />
“The worth of a relationship is <strong>in</strong> the richness of its compatibility.<br />
A period of griev<strong>in</strong>g is natural, it must happen.”<br />
“Why should I believe you?”<br />
“Because my beliefs are based on an assumption that you are<br />
progress<strong>in</strong>g beautifully, even <strong>in</strong> the apparent failures and losses.<br />
Your reality is based on an assumption that there is not enough of<br />
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anyth<strong>in</strong>g that you want. Both could be true. You could choose.”<br />
“So what do you want me to do now?”<br />
“I want noth<strong>in</strong>g. This was an experience. The <strong>in</strong>terpretation of this<br />
experience and the impact it has on your life is yours to design.”<br />
“I want to leave. Was this my second task?”<br />
“Yes”<br />
“Alright, let’s beg<strong>in</strong> with the third.” Unnoticed by <strong>Stone</strong> and his<br />
mentor, the dark raven-shaped blackness followed them, quiet,<br />
stealthy, angry .<br />
CHAPTER 04
T hey were now stand<strong>in</strong>g before a large mounta<strong>in</strong> with widely-spread<br />
bouldered limbs that gave an impression of a magnanimous monarch<br />
rul<strong>in</strong>g over his k<strong>in</strong>gdom. The top of the mounta<strong>in</strong> disappeared <strong>in</strong>to the<br />
sky, while the sides curved round the horizon on either side. The air was<br />
crisp and carried fa<strong>in</strong>t whiffs of freshly cut p<strong>in</strong>es.<br />
The student and mentor stood there look<strong>in</strong>g at the mounta<strong>in</strong> <strong>in</strong> silence<br />
for a while before Star spoke.
“You chose to witness magic. It’s not an easy task. Be ready for<br />
miracles and tragedies. I believe an important part of you is with<strong>in</strong><br />
this mounta<strong>in</strong>, a fragment that you know little about.” She looked<br />
at him with a smile. “With<strong>in</strong> this mounta<strong>in</strong> lies the last stairway to<br />
your quest. Tikyun had the foresight to know that one could learn<br />
and retrieve the magic of the Blue Marble – then she discovered you<br />
and saw her vision fulfilled. She saw the beauty of the blue when all<br />
you saw was the greyness of non-recognition. She caught sight of the<br />
most perfect, unblemished version of you. It may be time, dear <strong>Stone</strong><br />
to discover if the wholeness of the Blue Marble must be restored. It<br />
is only the strength of your Heart-Energy Quotient that br<strong>in</strong>gs you<br />
to such proximity to this threshold. You may realize that it is similar<br />
to you, but <strong>in</strong> a way that you will recognize as deeply magical. <strong>In</strong><br />
moments of doubt, consider it a partial mould, a template of the<br />
most flawless version of yourself. It conta<strong>in</strong>s the answers that you<br />
have sought all your life. The moment you unite with this marble the<br />
code that we seek will be unlocked. May the best choices await you.”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> nodded. Somehow he felt more determ<strong>in</strong>ed than ever to accomplish<br />
this task. His commitment had shifted gears. He could now see that all his<br />
realities were a fiction of his mak<strong>in</strong>g. If this marble brought through a reality<br />
flooded with restored choices, his quest was complete. Star looked at his<br />
posture with unexpressed pride. If time were to be measured <strong>in</strong> milestones<br />
of mean<strong>in</strong>g, <strong>Stone</strong> may have crossed centuries very quickly. She gave him<br />
his next set of <strong>in</strong>structions with the quiet pride of a confident teacher.<br />
Where lies your <strong>in</strong>tent, there<strong>in</strong> lies your path,<br />
Where lies your path, there<strong>in</strong> lies your peace.”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> walked toward the base of the mounta<strong>in</strong>. He crouched low and<br />
entered the mounta<strong>in</strong> through a small open<strong>in</strong>g a little above the base. He<br />
had to stretch considerably <strong>in</strong> order to haul his body <strong>in</strong>to the open<strong>in</strong>g, but<br />
he felt lighter than he had <strong>in</strong> years. The <strong>in</strong>sides of the mounta<strong>in</strong> were dark,<br />
old and gnarled. Cautiously, he looked for any h<strong>in</strong>t of the Blue Marble.<br />
Straight ahead, amid the dimness, he saw a fa<strong>in</strong>t glow. He walked toward<br />
the glow slowly and squ<strong>in</strong>ted to see clearly. The blaze then grew larger until<br />
it towered above him overwhelm<strong>in</strong>gly. It seemed to orig<strong>in</strong>ate from beh<strong>in</strong>d<br />
a gnarled brown root, shaped like a thick, rough talon not far from him.<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> tried to get closer to the root, but couldn’t. He could feel an <strong>in</strong>visible<br />
shield keep<strong>in</strong>g him from go<strong>in</strong>g further. He looked about him for any sign of<br />
life. There was none. The aloneness of his situation began to s<strong>in</strong>k <strong>in</strong>. There<br />
was no Star to lead him through this. He swallowed nervously.<br />
“I won’t be afraid, I won’t be afraid, I won’t be afraid,” he chanted<br />
to himself under his breath.<br />
<strong>In</strong> a burst of force, a dark raven swooped down toward him, tackl<strong>in</strong>g<br />
him top first onto the ground. He was p<strong>in</strong>ned to the hard floor, star<strong>in</strong>g <strong>in</strong><br />
astonishment at his marauder. The sharp-edged threat of attack gl<strong>in</strong>ted<br />
off the raven’s beak, which was dangerously close to <strong>Stone</strong>’s eye block<strong>in</strong>g<br />
out all vision from that eye.<br />
“You will receive help once you are <strong>in</strong>side the mounta<strong>in</strong>, but at<br />
times you will be on your own. The only advice I can give you is this:<br />
The raven shifted its weight slightly, ga<strong>in</strong><strong>in</strong>g a firmer hold of <strong>Stone</strong>’s<br />
torso with one spiky talon. The movement revealed a sight that would<br />
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have frozen Death herself. From the chest cavity protruded half a heart,<br />
with puls<strong>in</strong>g black ve<strong>in</strong>s throbb<strong>in</strong>g erratically. <strong>Stone</strong> felt the thud of<br />
the thump<strong>in</strong>g close to his face. The stench it emitted was profoundly<br />
putrid, like the burn<strong>in</strong>g of fresh flesh. <strong>Stone</strong> found himself overwhelmed<br />
by the force of the talons and the decadent black heart. He was los<strong>in</strong>g<br />
consciousness. He forced himself to th<strong>in</strong>k of Star, of her advice at a time<br />
like this. The raven lifted one w<strong>in</strong>g slightly before br<strong>in</strong>g<strong>in</strong>g her beak<br />
perilously close to <strong>Stone</strong>’s eye <strong>in</strong> a quick jerk. <strong>Stone</strong> forced his eyes shut.<br />
<strong>In</strong> the brief flash of a moment before his eyes closed, his m<strong>in</strong>d registered<br />
someth<strong>in</strong>g that his vision may have missed - a circular mark under the left<br />
w<strong>in</strong>g of the raven, with a t<strong>in</strong>y dot at its center. The familiarity of the mark<br />
was not lost on <strong>Stone</strong>. It was the mark that Star had activated before<br />
enter<strong>in</strong>g the Plane of Del<strong>in</strong>quent Conclusions. His m<strong>in</strong>d was beg<strong>in</strong>n<strong>in</strong>g to<br />
f<strong>in</strong>d resort <strong>in</strong> blankness, all thoughts dribbl<strong>in</strong>g away under the crush<strong>in</strong>g<br />
force of the talons of the black-hearted raven.<br />
Even as <strong>Stone</strong> vaguely felt his neck snap lifelessly to the side, the<br />
pressure on his body released itself partially. <strong>Stone</strong>’s form shifted, his<br />
body arrang<strong>in</strong>g itself almost automatically to a more natural position.<br />
He sighed <strong>in</strong> deep relief as the weight lifted completely off of him. Still<br />
limp, he forced his eyes open, only half conscious. A green tra<strong>in</strong> of<br />
muscular wedges half-slithered, half crawled over the blackened heart<br />
of his attacker. This raven was <strong>in</strong>censed. It cawed <strong>in</strong> agony, fight<strong>in</strong>g off<br />
the green creature with one w<strong>in</strong>g. Still ly<strong>in</strong>g limply on his back, <strong>Stone</strong><br />
noticed that the raven had only w<strong>in</strong>g. A gap<strong>in</strong>g hole of dried purple<br />
flesh flashed past <strong>Stone</strong> as the struggled cont<strong>in</strong>ued. No w<strong>in</strong>g. <strong>Stone</strong><br />
hurled his shoulder <strong>in</strong>to the purple cavity as it loomed close to him.<br />
The raven squawked pa<strong>in</strong>fully. The green slither<strong>in</strong>g tra<strong>in</strong> of muscle<br />
slipped off of the chest of the raven, as the bird flew jerkily away and<br />
upward with its solitary w<strong>in</strong>g.<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> sat up, look<strong>in</strong>g beside him at the green stranger. Clearly, it was a<br />
caterpillar, but an extraord<strong>in</strong>ary one. The wounds on its body were now<br />
ooz<strong>in</strong>g with droplets of dense fluid. Each wound grew smaller and eventually<br />
disappeared as the fluid slid over them. <strong>Stone</strong> couldn’t help but stare.<br />
“I’m Nima. That was a difficult battle you were fight<strong>in</strong>g there. Un-<br />
Certa<strong>in</strong>ty almost had you done for. Be warned, she will return. She<br />
has a keen sense for qualities like vitality and purpose – those that<br />
thrive on these elements threaten her very existence.”<br />
“Why so? Who is she?” asked <strong>Stone</strong> weakly.<br />
“Un-Certa<strong>in</strong>ty was a beautiful young woman, almost a child really,<br />
but one that wanted more than she could accomplish. Her quest has<br />
been, for a long time, to seek freedom. Complete and utter freedom<br />
from pa<strong>in</strong> and suffer<strong>in</strong>g. <strong>In</strong> her mission, however, she misused the<br />
Plane of Del<strong>in</strong>quent Conclusions. She was poisoned, ironically by<br />
her own past self… <strong>in</strong> the Plane of Del<strong>in</strong>quent Conclusions– it is…”<br />
“I know what it is,” said <strong>Stone</strong>, “How was she poisoned?”<br />
“She was unable to release the traumatic fragments of her past. She<br />
tried to capture and control her past selves, so that they would work<br />
for her. Each self is a fragment of her past. She refused to release them<br />
completely. She only allowed the pa<strong>in</strong> to be dismembered from her<br />
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memory, but the wounds rema<strong>in</strong> unhealed. She denied herself the<br />
acceptance of be<strong>in</strong>g whole aga<strong>in</strong>, to be really and deeply healed.<br />
She uses these past selves to armour herself from the negativity of<br />
the future. She believes she can evade pa<strong>in</strong> and suffer<strong>in</strong>g forever,<br />
hav<strong>in</strong>g formed an armed panoply of past personalities. There was<br />
a terrible struggle, as these past selves rightfully sought liberty<br />
once released. One got away, but ten selves still rema<strong>in</strong> with<strong>in</strong> her<br />
horrify<strong>in</strong>g soul. Her physical appearance was transformed <strong>in</strong>to the<br />
blackness of a schem<strong>in</strong>g raven by the wounds <strong>in</strong>flicted by the past<br />
self that escaped. An <strong>in</strong>jury from a past dismembered is far more<br />
poisonous than the collective st<strong>in</strong>g of the snakes of the world.”<br />
promotes a complete release of the sickness with<strong>in</strong> her past<br />
selves. And you seem to be one of them,” replied the green friend.<br />
“What was that mark under her w<strong>in</strong>g? I’ve seen it before!”<br />
asked <strong>Stone</strong>.<br />
“It’s a mark from the Plane of Del<strong>in</strong>quent Conclusions, where<br />
she lived for a long time. The world was safe from her wrath and<br />
dismembered hatred while she lived there. However, someth<strong>in</strong>g<br />
seems to have set her free…for now.” There was a grim note <strong>in</strong><br />
Nima’s voice.<br />
“How do they function? These past selves?” asked <strong>Stone</strong>.<br />
“They’re disjo<strong>in</strong>ted entities but still liv<strong>in</strong>g with<strong>in</strong> her, identical <strong>in</strong><br />
appearance except for m<strong>in</strong>or marks that set them apart. They<br />
carry the strength and memory of parts of her life, but they lack<br />
the wisdom. Life br<strong>in</strong>gs with it suffer<strong>in</strong>g – when the wisdom of life<br />
is overwhelmed by a glorification of pa<strong>in</strong> or suffer<strong>in</strong>g, growth loses<br />
its momentum. Pa<strong>in</strong> had a deeper impact on her than wisdom<br />
ever could,” said the caterpillar.<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> realized he was immersed <strong>in</strong> conversation with a stranger, one<br />
that may have saved his life, but a stranger nevertheless.<br />
“I’m <strong>Stone</strong>, I’m here <strong>in</strong> the pursuit of a personal matter. Thank<br />
you, for help<strong>in</strong>g me! I haven’t even thanked you yet!” he said,<br />
embarrassed at his own relentless question<strong>in</strong>g.<br />
“This may surprise you, but Star and I were at the same school.<br />
She majored <strong>in</strong> Compassion Studies, while I was a researcher <strong>in</strong><br />
Transformation and Metamorphosis,” she said.<br />
“Why, then should I be attacked?” asked <strong>Stone</strong>, still a little sore<br />
from his scuffle.<br />
“Are you a celestial be<strong>in</strong>g as well?” asked <strong>Stone</strong>, wonder<strong>in</strong>g at the<br />
irony of Nima’s research goals.<br />
“You br<strong>in</strong>g with you an impetus for growth, for authentic purpose.<br />
You have allowed heal<strong>in</strong>g to reach your heart <strong>in</strong>spite of yourself.<br />
The raven will f<strong>in</strong>d her defenses weakened by any force that<br />
“No, I was one of the very few anthropods that even applied to<br />
the school,” Nima expla<strong>in</strong>ed. “But that can make for a great story<br />
on a later day,” she added, see<strong>in</strong>g <strong>Stone</strong>’s furrow crease with<br />
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<strong>in</strong>terest. “You should know that Un-Certa<strong>in</strong>ty will stop at noth<strong>in</strong>g<br />
to destroy your quest. Her heart is as bl<strong>in</strong>d as her vision is keen.<br />
She seeks to obliterate any wisp of purpose, joy or <strong>in</strong>sight. I see<br />
her as a force that stands aga<strong>in</strong>st everyth<strong>in</strong>g that Star wants<br />
to see renewed. The raven does not discrim<strong>in</strong>ate <strong>in</strong> her wake<br />
of destruction - only weakness and loath<strong>in</strong>g survive. She can<br />
transform you <strong>in</strong>to an ore that can do little but spread loath<strong>in</strong>g<br />
to any be<strong>in</strong>g and situation – a loath<strong>in</strong>g that will destroy you more<br />
quickly than if all the compassion of this world were on your side.”<br />
“Or someone?” asked <strong>Stone</strong> sharply, “Was it Un-Certa<strong>in</strong>ty? The<br />
Blue Marble would have helped retrieve heal<strong>in</strong>g secrets for<br />
certa<strong>in</strong> disorders. Maybe our bitter friend wanted to destroy any<br />
possibility of this.”<br />
“I greatly doubt that. The Blue Marble has been here for decades<br />
and our bitter friend, as you call her has never attempted to<br />
damage it <strong>in</strong> the past,” Nima replied, “I don’t know what caused it,<br />
<strong>Stone</strong>. I’m sorry.”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> could feel a tension mount<strong>in</strong>g <strong>in</strong> the muscles of his now recovered torso.<br />
“Do you recommend a mode of operation? I’m here to seek what<br />
has been known as the Blue Marble, or at least one half of it,” he<br />
said rubb<strong>in</strong>g his now freez<strong>in</strong>g shoulders.<br />
<strong>Stone</strong>’s thoughts whirled like a tornado unable to settle on a direction .<br />
Nima looked grave.<br />
“I’ve seen the Blue Marble. I believe it was here for several decades.”<br />
“Was?” asked <strong>Stone</strong> with grow<strong>in</strong>g trepidation.<br />
Nima sighed wearily and walked to a small mound of earth. She sat down<br />
and reached for a berry from a small pile that lay fallen on the ground.<br />
She gestured to <strong>Stone</strong> to jo<strong>in</strong> her on the mound beside her.<br />
“The Blue Marble was destroyed a few days ago. We don’t<br />
know what caused it, maybe a change <strong>in</strong> the temperature of<br />
the mounta<strong>in</strong> or someth<strong>in</strong>g else may have…” she was cut off <strong>in</strong><br />
mid-sentence by <strong>Stone</strong>.<br />
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CHAPTER 05
N ima looked carefully at the partly-blue-partly-grey figure before<br />
her. A m<strong>in</strong>iscule sliver of light bounced off a spot on <strong>Stone</strong>’s wrist.<br />
“Uh, <strong>Stone</strong>? May I take a look at your wrist? There is someth<strong>in</strong>g<br />
glisten<strong>in</strong>g off your sk<strong>in</strong>,” said Nima, squ<strong>in</strong>t<strong>in</strong>g at the sh<strong>in</strong>y spot.<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> raised his wrist to exam<strong>in</strong>e it closely. There was, <strong>in</strong> fact a m<strong>in</strong>iscule<br />
patch that was gleam<strong>in</strong>g. It was on that part of his sk<strong>in</strong> that was a deep
lue. Rubb<strong>in</strong>g his f<strong>in</strong>gers aga<strong>in</strong>st it, <strong>Stone</strong> realized it was hardened and<br />
smooth compared to the surround<strong>in</strong>g sk<strong>in</strong>.<br />
of blue lay now unconcealed on the surface of his body. He looked up to<br />
see Nima beam<strong>in</strong>g, surprised but beam<strong>in</strong>g.<br />
“What could this be?” he muttered to himself.<br />
Nima held his wrist with her frontal arms.<br />
“This is a focal screen, <strong>Stone</strong>. I’ve seen this only too often.<br />
This means that your body, your psyche and your ancestrally<br />
programmed make-up have changed dramatically. Your system is<br />
stronger, more resilient and more immune to dangers that could<br />
have destroyed you completely before now. It …”<br />
Nima cried out <strong>in</strong> pa<strong>in</strong> as Un-Certa<strong>in</strong>ty swooped down over them and<br />
clawed at her body wrathfully. <strong>Stone</strong> threw himself between Nima<br />
and the raven, but not quite <strong>in</strong> time. Un-Certa<strong>in</strong>ty’s talons dug fiercely<br />
<strong>in</strong>to Nima’s beautiful body, creat<strong>in</strong>g deep ooz<strong>in</strong>g wounds. Even as the<br />
wounds began to close under the <strong>in</strong>fluence of Nima’s body fluids, Un-<br />
Certa<strong>in</strong>ty jabbed angry p<strong>in</strong>cer like claws <strong>in</strong>to the tears. <strong>Stone</strong>’s wrist<br />
accidentally crashed <strong>in</strong>to Un-Certa<strong>in</strong>ty’s protrud<strong>in</strong>g heart. The focal<br />
screen connected with the black flesh and the heart erupted forcefully,<br />
throw<strong>in</strong>g Nima and <strong>Stone</strong> backwards. Un-Certa<strong>in</strong>ty cried <strong>in</strong> anguish, her<br />
mangled groans grow<strong>in</strong>g softer as her body collapsed onto the floor.<br />
Dark pulp oozed out mixed with particles of bone and tissue.<br />
Her eyes conveyed terror and disbelief just before they closed lifelessly<br />
<strong>in</strong> their sockets. <strong>Stone</strong> looked down at the focal screen. It was still there,<br />
unharmed, unblemished. He stared down at his body <strong>in</strong> amazement –<br />
flecks peeled off this body. Fall<strong>in</strong>g, grey, unneeded. Resplendent patches<br />
With<strong>in</strong> a few moments, <strong>Stone</strong>’s entire body was a brilliant blue.<br />
“Wha... what is happen<strong>in</strong>g, Nima? I wish Star was here!”<br />
exclaimed <strong>Stone</strong>.<br />
“You always were a part of the Blue Marble, <strong>Stone</strong>. Now you see<br />
it too!” said Nima with a smile.<br />
<strong>Stone</strong>’s expression changed suddenly.<br />
“Is there any possibility that even a shard of the rest of the marble<br />
rema<strong>in</strong>s beh<strong>in</strong>d? Maybe even a small piece could unlock the<br />
code,” he asked Nima, “I saw a dist<strong>in</strong>ct glow when I entered the<br />
mounta<strong>in</strong>. It was beh<strong>in</strong>d a large root. When I tried to get closer,<br />
it was as if I was held back by an <strong>in</strong>visible force, a shield of some<br />
k<strong>in</strong>d. What was that? Was that the orig<strong>in</strong>al location of the rest of<br />
the Blue Marble?” he asked excitedly.<br />
“This mounta<strong>in</strong> has held many important secrets, each defended<br />
and protected <strong>in</strong> its own unique way. If we want to f<strong>in</strong>d rema<strong>in</strong>s<br />
of the Blue Marble, we must f<strong>in</strong>d that glow. At the very least, it’s<br />
a good place to start. If that truly is the seat of the destroyed<br />
crystal, we may f<strong>in</strong>d remnants and your quest, my friend, shall be<br />
complete . ”<br />
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CHAPTER 06
S tone and Nima now stood before the glow. There was, <strong>in</strong> fact, a<br />
dist<strong>in</strong>ct shield that stopped them from proceed<strong>in</strong>g toward the glow<strong>in</strong>g<br />
root, or whatever was beh<strong>in</strong>d it. As he forced his body to move aga<strong>in</strong>st<br />
the force of the <strong>in</strong>visible shield and toward the glimmer<strong>in</strong>g light, <strong>Stone</strong><br />
collapsed <strong>in</strong>to a lifeless sleep. His body began to throb with pa<strong>in</strong> and<br />
his sk<strong>in</strong> felt like hot coals. He could feel his limbs shudder with anxiety.<br />
Images swirled before his eyes. There was a vision of his brother, look<strong>in</strong>g<br />
terrified and small, stand<strong>in</strong>g by the river-bed look<strong>in</strong>g up at him. <strong>Stone</strong>
felt himself ris<strong>in</strong>g higher and higher, as if he was be<strong>in</strong>g pulled upward by<br />
an <strong>in</strong>visible force. His m<strong>in</strong>d felt confused and he found himself star<strong>in</strong>g at<br />
a dark abyss below him.<br />
“I’m go<strong>in</strong>g to die!” his terrified m<strong>in</strong>d cried. “I want to live!” he<br />
thought <strong>in</strong> panic. “Please! Whoever it is that is listen<strong>in</strong>g to me…<br />
I WANT TO LIVE!’<br />
The weakness began to leave his body. His breath became deeper and<br />
steadier with every pass<strong>in</strong>g moment. His fists began to tighten and<br />
strength returned to his limbs. He kicked his feet <strong>in</strong>to the air, struggl<strong>in</strong>g<br />
with<strong>in</strong> the tightness he was feel<strong>in</strong>g. After a while, his felt the tightness<br />
loosen and suddenly he was fall<strong>in</strong>g. It felt as if it was happen<strong>in</strong>g very<br />
very slowly, as if time had slowed down. After what felt like an eternity,<br />
he tumbled onto a soft surface. His eyes opened with a jerk. There was<br />
a dark silence around him. The surround<strong>in</strong>gs had dimmed <strong>in</strong>to a series<br />
of overlapp<strong>in</strong>g shadows.<br />
“<strong>Stone</strong>? Can you hear me?” Nima sounded a little anxious.<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> swallowed slowly. His mouth was too dry to speak. Nima wondered<br />
silently if stone was so addicted to his quest that it was beyond his<br />
conscious control.<br />
“Yes… I’m f<strong>in</strong>e,” he croaked. “What happened? Why did I see that<br />
vision aga<strong>in</strong>?” wondered <strong>Stone</strong> <strong>in</strong> his m<strong>in</strong>d.<br />
memory. I was watch<strong>in</strong>g the entire scene with you. You were so<br />
frightened and scared that all you wanted to do was end your<br />
own life. Fright, fear, anger, grief, disappo<strong>in</strong>tment or any extreme<br />
emotion can do that to a soul. It can make them wish they were<br />
dy<strong>in</strong>g or dead and their body beg<strong>in</strong>s to respect the commands<br />
of the anguished m<strong>in</strong>d. It beg<strong>in</strong>s to ail, become weak or frail,<br />
produce symptoms of illness and the will to live deteriorates.<br />
When you chose to live, your energetics were altered <strong>in</strong>to a will<br />
to live. Your body obeyed your m<strong>in</strong>d and reality shifted.”<br />
They sat together <strong>in</strong> silence. Quietly, they watched as the shield changed<br />
colours. It’s former colourlessness had changed to light shades of p<strong>in</strong>k<br />
and purple. It was, however, still resistant to <strong>in</strong>cursion of any k<strong>in</strong>d.<br />
“Maybe I’m simply not ready to know my own magic,” said <strong>Stone</strong>.<br />
Nima shook her head before she spoke,<br />
“I have spoken to millions of souls at this juncture of their journey<br />
to wholeness. You are one of the very few who knows when he is<br />
ready for the next step. What is your doubt?”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> laughed with embarrassment.<br />
“It’s silly, really. I know <strong>in</strong> the pit of my stomach if a particular<br />
event is right for me. Right now, I just don’t feel that. I feel like<br />
there is one more step before I can get there… and I don’t know<br />
what that step is, do you know how that feels?”<br />
“There must have been some residual emotional charge to that<br />
Nima nodded,<br />
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“Yes, I do.”<br />
They lapsed once more <strong>in</strong>to silence. It was <strong>Stone</strong> who spoke first this time.<br />
“What has your life been like? How old are you? Do you even age?”<br />
Nima smiled slightly,<br />
“We are as old as Creation itself. Star, myself and the others who<br />
help be<strong>in</strong>gs further their journey – we are all very old, we come<br />
from another time. No one really completes their journey <strong>in</strong> the<br />
truest sense, as the next journey commences as soon as the<br />
preced<strong>in</strong>g one concludes… and one moves on.”<br />
lives of those whom they loved rema<strong>in</strong>s; their impr<strong>in</strong>ts rema<strong>in</strong> <strong>in</strong><br />
the hearts of their loved ones, <strong>in</strong> their energy fields. The good<br />
always rema<strong>in</strong>s.”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> cleared his throat.<br />
“Can I ask you a question?”<br />
Nima nodded,<br />
“Sure.”<br />
“Why am I so afraid to f<strong>in</strong>d the Blue Marble?”<br />
“<strong>In</strong> that case, is Death real? Does one not die at some po<strong>in</strong>t?”<br />
asked <strong>Stone</strong>.<br />
“A part of you dies. Your body is the most visible, most tangible part<br />
of you. Yes, that may ‘die’ as you call it… but the soul never does. It<br />
moves on to the next leg of its voyage. Sometimes, this movement<br />
is not visible to our perception and so it feels as if that <strong>in</strong>dividual<br />
had ‘died’. Your deeds, your aspirations rema<strong>in</strong> as energy-bodies <strong>in</strong><br />
the Universe, ready to help those who are <strong>in</strong> need of them. <strong>In</strong> that<br />
sense, no one ever ‘dies’.” Nima’s voice had grown softer.<br />
Nima broke <strong>in</strong>to a gr<strong>in</strong>.<br />
“Because there is noth<strong>in</strong>g else you want more. Hence, it’s safer<br />
to shun rather than embrace the process. Also, know<strong>in</strong>g yourself<br />
so completely has been unknown to you and one sometimes<br />
avoids the unknown.”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> glanced at Nima with irritation. That was hardly what he<br />
wanted to hear.<br />
“I don’t agree with you,” he replied quietly.<br />
“Then why is everyone so afraid of Death?”<br />
“I th<strong>in</strong>k it’s because the <strong>in</strong>dividual disappears from the physical<br />
world; he or she is no longer accessible <strong>in</strong> the ‘usual’ way. However,<br />
their contribution to the world rema<strong>in</strong>s; their contribution to the<br />
Nima nodded <strong>in</strong> agreement.<br />
“I know that. There are two more stops we need to make before<br />
you beg<strong>in</strong> to agree with me.”<br />
Nima was worried for star. If Star chose to use any chunk of <strong>Stone</strong>’s<br />
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crust, the goodness of her past, every s<strong>in</strong>gle virtue (and so many of<br />
them) would be erased from time and collective memory. <strong>Stone</strong> was<br />
well on his way to success but what about his mentor? .<br />
CHAPTER 07
S tone felt a familiar sense of forebod<strong>in</strong>g as he walked beside Nima to their<br />
next dest<strong>in</strong>ation. It rem<strong>in</strong>ded him of the walk to the Plane of Del<strong>in</strong>quent<br />
Conclusions with Star. They were walk<strong>in</strong>g along a narrow corridor, with<br />
dark walls on both sides. Nima turned toward him and motioned to her<br />
right. There was a narrow open<strong>in</strong>g <strong>in</strong> the wall, almost imperceptible. <strong>Stone</strong><br />
may never have noticed it had Nima not po<strong>in</strong>ted toward it.<br />
The two companions entered the open<strong>in</strong>g with measured steps. The
passageway was dark and the stony walls rubbed brazenly aga<strong>in</strong>st<br />
<strong>Stone</strong>’s shoulders. The walk was exhaust<strong>in</strong>g and long. After several<br />
moments of walk<strong>in</strong>g, Nima motioned for them to stop. She then<br />
contorted herself so that her body was oriented towards the sky. It<br />
was a graceful, un<strong>in</strong>tereupted movement, almost as if fashioned by a<br />
force larger than her will. <strong>Stone</strong> stared at this strange movement; even<br />
as he watched, Nima muttered a strange <strong>in</strong>cantation under her breath<br />
and swayed slightly. <strong>Stone</strong> turned to look upward. To his greatest shock,<br />
he found himself look<strong>in</strong>g at a magnificent mirror of great dimensions.<br />
It sparkled splendidly, giv<strong>in</strong>g an impression of stretch<strong>in</strong>g to all the<br />
parts of the Universe. <strong>Stone</strong> was speechless. The walls on both sides<br />
collapsed <strong>in</strong>stantaneously and the mirror enveloped them on all sides.<br />
As he looked <strong>in</strong> wonder at his feet, he could see the surface of the mirror<br />
close beneath him. The two ends of the semicircular mirrors clicked <strong>in</strong>to<br />
unison, complet<strong>in</strong>g the sphere around him.<br />
For a few moments, there was complete silence. <strong>Stone</strong>’s heart thumped<br />
wildly <strong>in</strong>side him. The silence was unnerv<strong>in</strong>g. Suddenly there was a loud<br />
bang and the mirror around him erupted <strong>in</strong>to a million images. Each image<br />
was of a moment of his life. <strong>Stone</strong> recognized most scenes, but there<br />
were many that looked unfamiliar even though he was <strong>in</strong> all of them. He<br />
wondered if they were scenes he had forgotten, but as moments passed,<br />
he realized that some were moments and images of his thoughts, his<br />
life as he had fantasized on occasion. Every moment, every thought,<br />
every emotion he had ever experienced flashed on the screen, bl<strong>in</strong>k<strong>in</strong>g<br />
on the gigantic mirror before him. His m<strong>in</strong>d was completely befuddled,<br />
images and emotions overwhelm<strong>in</strong>g his very soul. Although he couldn’t<br />
believe that it could happen, his m<strong>in</strong>d was rac<strong>in</strong>g through the memories,<br />
process<strong>in</strong>g each one all over aga<strong>in</strong>, all at the same time! He could almost<br />
feel his head beep<strong>in</strong>g and blurp<strong>in</strong>g with charge as it whizzed through<br />
the myriad of experiences from his life. He tried to observe everyth<strong>in</strong>g<br />
that was happen<strong>in</strong>g to him, but it was impossible. Slowly, the images<br />
began to blur and condense <strong>in</strong>to a swirl<strong>in</strong>g mass. The mass disappeared<br />
fuzzily <strong>in</strong>to the darkness. As it faded, <strong>Stone</strong> felt a grow<strong>in</strong>g pa<strong>in</strong> <strong>in</strong> his<br />
chest. The pa<strong>in</strong> <strong>in</strong>tensified with every second. He cried out <strong>in</strong> anguish.<br />
It seemed as if all the pa<strong>in</strong> he had ever experienced <strong>in</strong> his lifetime had<br />
been compressed <strong>in</strong>to a t<strong>in</strong>y speck <strong>in</strong> his heart. It was no bigger than<br />
a p<strong>in</strong>-prick, but the pa<strong>in</strong> was unbearable. Tears rolled down his cheeks<br />
and he cried like never before. His wails grew louder and louder, cutt<strong>in</strong>g<br />
through the mirrored globe <strong>in</strong>to the skies and the w<strong>in</strong>d. His entire body<br />
throbbed with anxiety, fear, emotional pa<strong>in</strong> and hatred. Every pa<strong>in</strong>ful<br />
emotion he ever experienced tormented his <strong>in</strong>sides until he could<br />
breathe no more. The pa<strong>in</strong> escalated threaten<strong>in</strong>gly and then suddenly<br />
ceased. <strong>Stone</strong> collapsed limply on the floor. A gentle calm settled over<br />
him. His heartbeat grew strong and robust. He could feel fresh blood<br />
pump<strong>in</strong>g through his body. There was a renewed vigour <strong>in</strong> his muscles<br />
and his breath grew deeper. A deep sleep enveloped his senses.<br />
“So many choices… there is much to do…” he smiled to himself as<br />
he slipped <strong>in</strong>to a bottomless slumber.<br />
Even as his m<strong>in</strong>d slipped and slid through awareness, he remembered<br />
Star. A fraction of a moment between their tasks, his tasks, a nanomovement<br />
of sadness flashed through her eyes. If he could recognise<br />
misguided anguish after so many years on the mounta<strong>in</strong> top with B-F-T-T,<br />
he could well admit to see<strong>in</strong>g (and ignor<strong>in</strong>g) the signs of this <strong>in</strong> Star.<br />
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Anguish for a loved one – the most pure of earthly motivation.<br />
“She is on a quest as well,” he realized <strong>in</strong> dizz<strong>in</strong>ess, “and I will help<br />
her when she asks for it . ”<br />
CHAPTER 08
S tone stirred slightly <strong>in</strong> his sleep. His eyelids flickered momentarily. He<br />
was amid a confus<strong>in</strong>g dream. He found himself stand<strong>in</strong>g <strong>in</strong> a plane of blue.<br />
What was strange was that he was surrounded by <strong>in</strong>terweav<strong>in</strong>g orbits of<br />
blue lights. The mesh of bl<strong>in</strong>k<strong>in</strong>g orbits encircled his body <strong>in</strong> a way that the<br />
pulsat<strong>in</strong>g l<strong>in</strong>es of blue were <strong>in</strong>tertw<strong>in</strong>ed around each other as well as with<strong>in</strong><br />
his physical form. He raised a f<strong>in</strong>ger to touch an orbit. His f<strong>in</strong>ger went right<br />
through the energy l<strong>in</strong>es. <strong>Stone</strong> felt his f<strong>in</strong>ger pulsate as it passed through<br />
the orbit. As he withdrew, his f<strong>in</strong>ger shone momentarily. A ripple of power
surged through his body briefly and settled <strong>in</strong>to a sense of mild pressure<br />
between his eyebrows. A moment later, the orbits began to revolve slowly<br />
about him. The momentum grew and the revolutions ga<strong>in</strong>ed <strong>in</strong>tensity. The<br />
mesh of orbits turned at a faster pace, <strong>in</strong>tersect<strong>in</strong>g one another, exchang<strong>in</strong>g<br />
charges, merg<strong>in</strong>g <strong>in</strong>to each other and then separat<strong>in</strong>g. A soft, bright light<br />
enveloped the entire scene. <strong>Stone</strong> began to feel a deep calm with<strong>in</strong> himself.<br />
The soft voice of Star resounded <strong>in</strong> his m<strong>in</strong>d.<br />
“These energy l<strong>in</strong>es represent your Higher Will. They represent<br />
every s<strong>in</strong>gle time that you have chosen to act from your highest<br />
consciousness. You can see the power with<strong>in</strong> them – these will rema<strong>in</strong><br />
with you forever and protect you from the effects of actions from<br />
others, especially those that are act<strong>in</strong>g from a lesser consciousness.<br />
Respect these energy l<strong>in</strong>es and hold them close. They are yours.”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> smiled. It was good to hear from Star after all this while. When he<br />
started to reply to Star, strangely it felt as if someone else was speak<strong>in</strong>g<br />
through him.<br />
“Why need I face these hardships? There have been difficulties<br />
beyond my capacity and will... that hardly feels fair. Life has just<br />
been so difficult. Why?”<br />
Star’s voice came through with complete clarity.<br />
“Why do you ask this question now? Especially when you had so<br />
many opportunities to do so before?”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> spoke with dry irony,<br />
“Well, you clearly speak of all the ‘right’ or ‘good’ decisions and<br />
choices I’ve made <strong>in</strong> my life. These l<strong>in</strong>es of energy are so pure<br />
and powerful, I can see I’ve acted from a higher consciousness<br />
for most of my life, but… at that moment, it often felt wrong. The<br />
consequences often felt like a punishment, even if the action was<br />
appropriate. And so… I must ask.”<br />
“One often needs an opportunity to meet the best or highest part<br />
of his consciousness with<strong>in</strong> him. When trials come along, this<br />
opportunity appears. Trials are opportunities, no more, no less.<br />
They help you embody your f<strong>in</strong>est self.”<br />
“So why am I here? Why have you brought me to this juncture?<br />
Where do we go now?” asked <strong>Stone</strong>.<br />
The ground below <strong>Stone</strong> began to vibrate violently. <strong>Stone</strong> found himself<br />
fall<strong>in</strong>g downward... fall<strong>in</strong>g... but there was no fear, only calm. <strong>Stone</strong> awoke<br />
with a start. He propped himself groggily on his mossy bed. <strong>Stone</strong> hastily<br />
looked down at his body. He was still seven and of a crystall<strong>in</strong>e blue!<br />
He yawned widely and stepped out of his soft green bed <strong>in</strong>to the moonlight.<br />
There was a full moon, lum<strong>in</strong>ously sh<strong>in</strong><strong>in</strong>g over the valley-side. He playfully<br />
kicked a ball of mud out of the way. The ball rolled forward a few <strong>in</strong>ches and<br />
then began to roll towards him and then past him on the downhill slope.<br />
<strong>Stone</strong> turned to watch it roll away. He was just turn<strong>in</strong>g back to walk to his<br />
bed when the strangest th<strong>in</strong>g caught his eye. He bl<strong>in</strong>ked and turned aga<strong>in</strong>.<br />
There, <strong>in</strong> the bright moonlight on the grassy slope was his shadow. The<br />
shadow was elongated and dark. Near the head of the shadow, where its<br />
head should have ended, was noth<strong>in</strong>g but the shadow of a small star .<br />
88 THE STONE AND THE SHADOW A SHADOW<br />
89
Star: “The fundamental question is, ‘Do you believe <strong>in</strong> magic?’ ”<br />
<strong>Stone</strong>: “Where is this magic?”<br />
Star: “<strong>In</strong> you.”
OUTSIDE THE PAGES<br />
GLIMPSES FROM THE<br />
ART BOARD<br />
Where process meets outcome,<br />
Where purpose meets joy,<br />
Where beg<strong>in</strong>n<strong>in</strong>gs meet potential,<br />
With choices we toy.<br />
April, May 2015<br />
September, October,<br />
November 2014
“..because alter-egos are wonderful th<strong>in</strong>gs.”