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@lemongrassgirl tweeted:
This is not going to be easy, but I know I will get through this. And so will he.
I was at McDonald’s when I read it.
I placed my phone down on the table. I felt cold. I guessed that it was official now. I
looked at the empty seat beside me. It was official.
I couldn’t believe it.
Boy, one of my close friends in college came back to our table with our orders- a double
cheeseburger (mine) and fillet-o-fish (his) medium sets. I looked up at him as he sat down.
He was smiling until he saw my face. “Masalah apa, Adam?” He asked me. What’s the matter,
Adam?
“Have you... seen Amal’s Twitter?” I asked him, pretending that my voice didn’t crack
mid-question.
He looked crestfallen. “What did she say?" He asked in return.
I picked up my phone and showed it to Boy.
“Aiyaiyai,” he muttered under his breath as he read Amal’s tweet. “Did you reply?”
I shook my head. “I don’t even know what to say,” I replied. I felt myself tearing up. “I
thought we’re on a break. I didn’t think we were… over.”
“Come on man, don’t do this to me,” Boy said, self-consciously looking left and right.
“There will be better girls after Amal. She wasn’t that great for you, I always said. Ada
banyak lagi ikan kat laut tu!” There are plenty of fish in the sea.
But Boy didn’t understand. She was a part of me, like an extra arm or something. For the
past one year, she was my everything. And now that she’s gone, I’m…
Nothing.