NZPhotographer Issue 17, March 2019

BABY, LOVE REALLY HURTS
WITHOUT YOU
Like Billy Ocean sang in the year 1976, we all know that feeling of a
broken heart.
Nothing makes sense any more, the bed and the chocolate are our
best friends and somehow the knife sticks in our chest causing a
horrible pain. Everything around you reminds you of this one person
who isn't a part of your life any more. All this because of this little rude
thing named ""love"". In these times your brain is working 24/7. At first
there are all the sad thoughts. I can't live without you. What should I
do now? I need you! I love you! Damn, I love you! How will I ever be
able to move on? Will I ever be happy again? Can I ever love again?
And then the thoughts which make you accepting. Probably you will
forget me. And all our beautiful moments. Every kiss. Everything we
laughed about. I know you're moving on. So I should do it too. I need
to find myself again. Without you. Can I do that? And then... But I'll
never fall in love again. That's over. This damn love is only hurting me.
I don't need love. I'm happy like this. Without you or anyone else. I'm
fine. And during all this struggle there is a little moment when you're
sitting somewhere and your brain is just empty. It has thought every
little possibility over and over again. Maybe you're tired. Maybe just
balanced. You're breathing in and out and you're just accepting that
what happened and suddenly you're open for everything which will
happen.
Paula Schlager
60 NZPhotographer
March 2019
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