Hold The River Banks Up
A boat zine from a writing retreat to Turtle Cove in the Spring of 2018. Designed by Soleil Garneau.
A boat zine from a writing retreat to Turtle Cove in the Spring of 2018. Designed by Soleil Garneau.
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THE MILE-HIGH WOMAN<br />
STALKS THE MISSISSIPPI<br />
WITH HER GOLDEN COUGAR<br />
part I<br />
Kate Kokontis<br />
A yearly pilgrimage to access the healing balm: walking for hours<br />
on the shores of Lake Michigan. In this place, so much remains the<br />
same, so much shifts from minute to minute – it is an inland sea, after<br />
all, with life carrying on in the sky, on the surface, and beneath the<br />
waves. <strong>The</strong> flat horizon, which you can see forever. <strong>The</strong> lake may as<br />
well be the ocean, if sight is to be believed. <strong>The</strong> smell is particular to a<br />
lake, lacking the brine of the ocean, but it is still fresh and fishy which<br />
makes me feel wild and free, frisky and wriggling from my entrails to<br />
my flesh. <strong>The</strong> texture below my feet is distractingly varied, sometimes<br />
sandy and inviting, sometimes too soft with oil so you sink suddenly,<br />
sometimes slicingly hard and sharp on a bed of rocks that stretches<br />
too long. <strong>The</strong> sensory specificity of this place jolts my nervous system<br />
to bring me back to all of the times I have visited in the past, the<br />
textures and worries and feelings and hopes, the unknowns from<br />
those times become suddenly palpable once more. Water is beautiful<br />
and deadly, yes, but it is also soothing, such that a walk on a stormy<br />
beach or a walk on a placid one does to my soul what water does to<br />
rocks: soothes it, softens up its prickly bits, smooths its rough edges.<br />
I go to walk the shore each year to convene my past, present, and<br />
future selves, and there we confer, invisibly arrayed along the beach,<br />
inspecting one another’s cracks and fissures, the soft bruised and<br />
tender bits, the newly hardened ones, the new and old recognitions<br />
and wisdom gained. <strong>The</strong> lake is a temporal container and a memory<br />
machine.<br />
Walking is the force, the propulsion, of movement between space and<br />
time. <strong>The</strong> body of water is the container, and walking is a dredging, a<br />
conjuring process, entreating and inviting the forms to rise up from<br />
the past and the future. Yes, the past, present, and future coexist in<br />
the same spot, and the ritual of walking in these places we have been<br />
many times before, a cyclical return-to-the-source yearly after new<br />
worlds have revealed themselves, this ritual walking-our-return does<br />
the work of unhooking the opaque veils between time that make<br />
this coexistence invisible, and making their mutuality transparently<br />
manifest.<br />
It is the gloaming, those hours between night and day when time is<br />
especially thin, and it is the equinox, the time of leveling and evening.<br />
Tonight, I am a witch; I shapeshift; I time-jump. I will myself to<br />
become invisible, a mile tall, propelled by the wind, by the smoke<br />
that swirls between and amongst these coexistent temporalities, and<br />
by the strength of my own two legs to stalk like a ghost from the<br />
shores of Lake Michigan down the length of the Mississippi <strong>River</strong><br />
to its mouth, which wetly makes love – sometimes withholding,<br />
sometimes overwhelming – to the shore on the other end: the coast<br />
of the Gulf.<br />
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