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Photo: Karin Hamilton<br />
Lisa and Mark Kutolowski at Table Rock Farm, named after a glacial rock formation on their property.<br />
“What is so interesting is that I almost come<br />
to that place as a comfort to grab onto.<br />
Something painful is dislodging [in prayer]<br />
and it would feel good to my ego, like I<br />
am actually doing something good in the<br />
world. That’s an unhealthy savior complex.<br />
It doesn’t mean we don’t act, but this path<br />
we’re talking about is about seeking God for<br />
God’s own sake. If God is leading you to that<br />
kind of ministry, it’s not going to be about<br />
you, and it’s going to be a lot more sacrificial.<br />
It requires a conversion of the heart.”<br />
She also reminds herself that “we don't<br />
each have to be the whole body of Christ. …<br />
The work that we're doing here on this land,<br />
our prayer, is supportive to the whole body<br />
of Christ,” she said.<br />
Mark also underscored that intensity and<br />
importance for the whole world of the work<br />
of prayer:<br />
“I think it’s a grave mistake to associate<br />
going off to silence and solitude as a retreat<br />
from the problems of the world. It’s precisely<br />
in coming away from the exterior clamor<br />
that you can face the problems of the world<br />
spiritually. Our engagement with the pain of<br />
the world is much more intense in our prayer<br />
than it would be if we were on phones all<br />
the time and if we were distracted and<br />
rushing around and concerned with our<br />
personal survival.<br />
“[These contemplative practices] give you<br />
a space to feel the world suffering. In fact,<br />
to feel that at a much deeper level because<br />
we are not just connected to God, we're<br />
connected to every other human being<br />
on the planet, and to the planet as well.<br />
When you are still enough that you feel that<br />
experientially, your prayer is a sharing both in<br />
the fullness of God but also in the weakness<br />
and brokenness of the human condition,<br />
and in your own heart there's an interplay<br />
between those two.”<br />
When the time is right, they will be open to<br />
more retreatants on the land. It will be open<br />
We need to consciously<br />
share in God’s life, to<br />
open the depths of our<br />
being — or we might say<br />
— to open our heart to<br />
the presence of God in<br />
and through everything.<br />
That is to enter into the<br />
Kingdom of God.<br />
Mark Kutolowski<br />
to all, though they realize the contemplative<br />
path won't be attractive to everyone. Their<br />
dream for you, and all who share the earth,<br />
and for earth herself, will still be the same:<br />
“… union with God as healer of our wounds,<br />
sustainer of the physical world, and lover of<br />
our souls….”<br />
“Wherever you are, if you fall deeply in love<br />
with God, it will change you,” said Mark,<br />
adding that "and it just might change what<br />
you do.” ◊<br />
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