Lovegraphy

I wrote that
I spelled his name with letters that could be read from the sky.
I tirelessly wrote my true feelings along the yellow sand beach.
just for me, to be stubborn,
even in Garayazi, Jeyran Desert,
I was painted in waterless gray lands.
even invisible steps in the green Hunna valley...
perhaps to live you in retrospect
even on the days I don't want it to end, even in my incomplete dreams
I had carved his name deep into the stone-walled fences.
with maddened dreams in shame,
sometimes I cling to my bare hopes,
and sometimes screaming at 91 decibels
I watched you for hours.
look, now with normal voice and abbreviation
to whom I want to tell my wishes and
if I want to exhaust them line by line
no one can write the meaning.
see that no one can speak to me.
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