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physical appearance
What does it feel like to be an
unattractive woman?
Anne K. Halsall, extraordinaire
I'd like to answer this, not because I feel I am unattractive,
but because at various points in my life, I have been treated
as such and I want to share honestly and openly what that
experience was like.
To provide some background, I have struggled with my
weight since I was a young child, and was more or less always
the heaviest girl in my peer groups at school. My family did
not have a lot of money, meaning that I didn't get nice haircuts
or highlights, makeup, or fashionable clothing and accessories.
And finally, I was a nerdy tomboy who actively shunned
the idea that appearance matters. I preferred sweatpants to
jeans and didn't have the first clue about how to dress myself
or do my hair (which was always tangled and frizzy).
Later on in my life, some of these issues got straightened
out, but I remained awkward and extremely overweight until
my mid-20s. Therefore, I've experienced both the "ugly girl at
school" and the "unattractive woman" sides of things.
childhood and youth
This was honestly the hardest. Children can be cruel and overt
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