Anuario Curso 2010-2011 - Doña Blanca de Navarra
Anuario Curso 2010-2011 - Doña Blanca de Navarra
Anuario Curso 2010-2011 - Doña Blanca de Navarra
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1 MAY 2009: Your love hurts me. You just think of<br />
yourself. You can’t be with me because I have no<br />
strength. Each discussion and confrontation contradicts<br />
the word love. I’m sick and tired. Only you, only<br />
your evil ways ... and what do I do with all this? Digest<br />
every night alone with my sorrow and broken dreams.<br />
I tried to smile, like most people who have trouble accepting<br />
unwanted solitu<strong>de</strong>.<br />
And you act as if nothing had happened. You say you<br />
love me, miss me, need me, you want to be with me. It’s<br />
over. Even if hurts.<br />
2 JULY 2009: I don’t un<strong>de</strong>rstand what I said or did, or<br />
why you went into the kitchen with the knife in your<br />
hands, asking me to kill you. I tried to stay calm for<br />
the kids, but you shouted and shouted while not stopping<br />
asking me to kill the monster that lives insi<strong>de</strong><br />
you.<br />
7 JULY 2009: The night promised to be i<strong>de</strong>al, with<br />
children playing and laughing. I felt nothing but panic,<br />
but tried not to show fear, because what you always<br />
accuse me of is the fear that wakes up your monsters.<br />
The children began to get tired and I tried to convince<br />
you that they’d better get to bed. “No, do not spoil everything,”<br />
you said. The journey en<strong>de</strong>d with shouting, crying,<br />
violent games.... One thing is that you are treating me badly but<br />
you must leave my children alone.<br />
4 AUGUST 2009: It’s over. I’ve <strong>de</strong>ci<strong>de</strong>d you’re not longer sleeping<br />
at home. Children can’t witness this, but how can I tell you?<br />
20 AUGUST 2009: When I told you, we engaged in a conversation<br />
without meaning: “I’m exhausted,” “do not be evil”, “I can‘t<br />
drive”... I didn’t realize that the only thing you wanted was to<br />
extend the stay and you stayed. Eventually I accepted but you<br />
had to go before the children woke up.<br />
What a mistake! The alarm soun<strong>de</strong>d and you did not want to<br />
move. I insisted and insisted, and like a crazy man you started<br />
shouting, waking up the kids, and we all ran from si<strong>de</strong> to si<strong>de</strong>. I<br />
heard those little voices ... “Do not hit mommy.”<br />
7 APRIL <strong>2010</strong>: Today, doctors have told me they’re going to operate<br />
on me because of one of the injuries that you have caused<br />
me. I can’t live with this stress and this panic.<br />
4 MAY <strong>2010</strong>: You’ve found me. I have fear, but you’ve reassured<br />
me your love. We walked and talked. When it seemed that everything<br />
was quiet, you started shouting at me that I always<br />
spoil everything, if I want to tease you, you are very harmful<br />
... You began pushing me, beating, and when I sat, crying, once<br />
again I was not able to i<strong>de</strong>ntify what I had said or what I had<br />
done to live that horror. You took an impressive size stone and<br />
Alumnado premiado en el Concurso Literario <strong>de</strong><br />
inglés con profesorado <strong>de</strong>l Departamento<br />
threw it over my head. I stood there for a long time. While you<br />
relieve, I start crying, until you saw my immobility, then you<br />
started crying and asking for forgiveness.<br />
18 JUNE <strong>2010</strong>: You’ve finally accepted that you need professional<br />
help and I want to be with you. Today we went to that<br />
meeting. I ma<strong>de</strong> another mistake, It was the wrong street. “You<br />
are clumsy ‘,’why do you not shut up ‘,’ and I’ve missed” ... we entered<br />
a car park, as it was crow<strong>de</strong>d, I thought you wouldn’t do<br />
anything to me. -But you were hitting me, shouting at me, and<br />
I… crying. More hitting, more shouting, more weeping... In a<br />
known garage, but nobody helped me. Why? I went out, hitting,<br />
screaming and crying again, but nobody helped me.<br />
2 AUGUST <strong>2010</strong>: Today, I stopped suffering for love. I admit I<br />
was wrong and thanks to my children, my friends, my family<br />
and psychologists, I discovered that I’m alive. I wish and <strong>de</strong>sire<br />
that our ways find inner peace. This search of myself has<br />
become a priority, I will not go on <strong>de</strong>luding. This relationship is<br />
finished. It’s become an addiction very painful for both of us. I<br />
have reached my limit. I can no longer carry the weight of making<br />
you suffer and causing you pain. I’m sorry in soul.<br />
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