Life In Lyrics 3

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FOREWORD

Welcome to a small glimpse into my life, revealed through my

poetry and lyrics. Just to prove you’re never too old to learn something

new. I am 58, and have been writing for three and a halfyears

now.

I began writing in the summer of 2016, as I discovered that

writing poetry helped me to focus my thoughts and stop them

from running away with me. I developed PTSD after a particularly

difficult time at work, when I suffered a nervous breakdown from

the stress I was under. I tried very hard to hold down my job, but

after a year of feeling like I was wading through treacle and being

totally incapable of making any headway I lost my job, and my

sanity rapidly spiralled downwards from there.

PTSD changed my life completely. I became very introverted, I

developed irrational phobias, some of which which I still fight to

overcome, it wrecked my sleep completely, sent me into panic

attacks over trivial things, and eventually I left my marriage

behind me too, walking away from everything I had in an effort to

find myself again.

My biggest help in overcoming some of my issues, especially

overwhelming thoughts, was to sit at my laptop and write. I

found myself drawn to images, and from these images I was able

to write verses of poetry. Then I decided to push myself further,

and though I’m in no way musical I wanted to learn to write lyrics.

So these are some of my efforts that I put together, and would like

to share with you all. There are so many more, this is my third

collection, I hope you will enjoy and perhaps relate to some.

I also write my own online lyrics magazine which you can find on

my website: www.writeawaymagazine.co.uk

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INDEX

04 Beautiful To Me

06 Feed My Dreams

08 Breathe

10 Dreams Of Happiness

12 Tonight In My Dreams

14 Mirror Mirror

16 Is This Destiny

18 Cry Of The Wolf

20 Fading

22 Paint It By Numbers

24 Close And Tight

26 Colours

28 Nightmare Fairytale

30 Unwanted Memories

32 Reaching For Reasons

34 Saddest Story

36 Golden Moments

38 My Devils Dance

40 Loving You

42 The Child In Me

44 Crumbs Of Nothingness

46 Please, Please

48 My Time

50 Will I Love Again

52 Up Out Of The Ashes

54 Brand New Me

56 I Can’t Forget

58 Miles To Cross Albatross

60 Candles And Teddy Bears

62 Scream At The Mountains

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Beautiful To Me

This was one of the first lyrics of mine that

actually got recorded into a song, which I’m very

proud of. When I wrote it, I was trying to imagine

how an aged couple might express their feelings

to each other.

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Beautiful To Me

Your eyes are beautiful to me

They show me deep into your soul

I see a picture of how you used to be

Long ago when when your life was whole

Your smile is beautiful to me

It lights your face brings tears to flow

Drifting on through the dreams with me

Through the eye of time we both grow

Your hands wove a thousand dreams long ago

They're beautiful to me as we grow old

Your heart's still with mine making our love grow

You're just so beautiful to me you're my gold

Your love is beautiful to me

It runs through my veins feeding me

I see a picture of how you used to be

A memory locked inside me

You are so beautiful to me

We had our love our time together

Hand in hand we found destiny

You're beautiful to me forever

You are beautiful to me to me to me

You are a thousand golden dreams

You are beautiful to me to me to me

You are a thousand golden dreams

Your hands wove a thousand dreams long ago

They're beautiful to me as we grow old

Your heart's still with mine making our love grow

You're just so beautiful to me you're my gold

Jane Shields (C)

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Feed My Dreams

Being plagued with nightmares most nights I guess it’s nice to

fantasise about an angel bringing good thoughts into dreams.

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Feed My Dreams

In the deep of night when the darkness falls

And the sounds of silence surround you

As the air breathes in to whispers and calls

May your sleepy dreams start to weave through

Your mem'ries, they’re waltzing ,and dressed for their role

Whilest your eyelids begin to flicker

Your Guardian Angels will dance with your soul

As the stars in the night sky glimmer

Feed my dreams.....feed them well

Feed my dreams.....melt my mind

Feed my dreams.....fears repel

Feed my dreams.....peace and kind

In the midnight hour lay down all your fears

May your Angels come through to guide you

Let theym watch over you dispelling your tears

Spinning hopes in your dreams to protect you

Hold their hands, dance their dance, feel their strength seep in

May your dreams fill your mind with pure peace

When the darkness recedes and the dawn begins

In creeps the day so your dreams can cease

Fly, fly, Angels feed my dreams

Dream, dream, Angels feed my dreams

Fly, fly, Angels feed my dreams

Spend a little time with me tonight and feed my dreams....

Feed my dreams.....feed them well

Feed my dreams.....melt my mind

Feed my dreams.....fears repel

Feed my dreams.....peace and kind

Jane Shields (C)

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Breathe

I tried to write this in a way which makes you want to slow down,

or speed up as it’s being read.

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Breathe

I get the feeling that the air has upped and gone

Nothing else explains it, when everything goes wrong

Sometimes I try too hard then make a mess of it

I just can't help myself, I can't hold back one bit

I get the notion then it runs away with me

I overdo it and, it happens naturally

I overtake myself I'm running at such speed

Nothing can hold me down, it's such a burning need

Gotta slow right down and breathe

Breathe............................real slow

Gotta sit right back and breathe

Breathe..........................let it go

Feels like the air has been knocked out of my sails

Life makes me breathless and, my self control fails

I want to shout and scream when things don't go my way

I rant and rave so much, my temper goes astray

My pulse starts racing hard announcing every beat

Then my own temperature, is filling me with heat

I feel so helpless like there's no way left to turn

My mind is killing me, so burn baby burn


Breathe............................real slow


Breathe..........................let it go

Give me some air and let me breathe....breathe....breathe

Give me patience my fears relieve.....breathe....breathe

Give me wisdom so I'll succeed....breathe....breathe

Give me hope.... then I.... can.... believe....


Breathe............real slow


Breathe..........let it go

Jane Shields (C)

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Dreams Of Happiness

I guess we all daydream at times. These are some of my own

daydreams in verse.

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Dreams Of Happiness

Have you ever closed your eyes, let imagination run

Taking you to places that are impossible but fun

Like floating on the air waves and reaching for the sun

Drifting ever upwards once your journey has begun

Soaring through the clouds and singing like a lark

Looking down below at the people in the park

Turning round the corners in in spiral like an arc

Hearing things below you like noisy dogs that bark

Catching hold of sunbeams, deflecting them below

Or holding on real tightly and feeling them grow

Reaching for the sunlight as you journey to and fro

Floating onwards drifting forwards never going slow

Standing in mid air now and looking all around

Listening real hard for any tiny sound

Looking far below at the ants upon the ground

Spinning ever upwards turning round and round and round

Flying like you're swimming using arms to do the crawl

Kicking with your feet to steer giving it your all

Winning your own race and feeling ten feet tall

Enjoying your sensations knowing you’ll never fall

Imagination can take you to happy times you see

Flying with the birds, being wild and free

All it takes is close your eyes and look and you will be

Transported on a journey to your fantasy like me

Jane Shields (C)

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Tonight In My Dreams

If only....

I found it easy to write this as I

guess it was missing in my life.

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Tonight In My Dreams

Tonight in my dreams your sweet love will wake me

My eyes open wide just to see you there

My lips will feel the brush of yours against mine

My senses will feel your presence everywhere

Tonight in my dreams your sweet love will hold me

Keeping me safe and warm in your strong embrace

Tenderly we'll chase the stars in our passion

Your eyes holding mine as I gaze at your face

Tonight in my dreams your sweet love will move me

Raising me up to the moon and back again

Shooting stars will fill my heart and vision

Until we both land and find ourselves again

Tonight in my dreams your sweet love will soothe me

Stroking me softly to show that you care

Touching me tenderly with your soft kisses

Breathing against me so I know you're there

Tonight in my dreams your sweet love will fill me

Showing me how things could be from now on

Easing me back to dreams of a new future

But for me when I wake up it.s all gone......

Jane Shields (C)

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Mirror Mirror

For this I tried to imagine noticing for the first time the signs of

aging on myself. As if I hadn’t looked in a mirror for a long time.

The disbelief that I could have changed so much externally when

inside I still felt the same.

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Mirror Mirror

Mirror mirror truth and no lies

Show me me

through my own two eyes

True reflection's

what I'm seeking

Not the image

that you're leaking

Who's this stranger's face

that I see

Why must my own eyes

deceive me

Suddenly my blood it runs cold

Is this me have I grown so old

Mirror mirror show me me

Not whom I will someday be

Mirror mirror where am I

Mirror mirror truth is lies




Mirror mirror truth is lies

Mirror mirror you trouble me

Show me me

that's not whom I see

Why is this face

unfamiliar

All this hair

shot through with silver

Tired eyes my mouth frowning

Fighting hard

now my minds drowning

Cruel reflection these are no lies

You've shown me me

through my own eyes

Mirror mirror be true to me

Show me me in reality

Not this stranger

whom I don't know

Of an age that I don't yet show

Why has all her

hair turned to white

That doesn't happen overnight

Realisation is growing

Whom to me

my mirror's showing




Mirror mirror truth can’t lie

Mirror mirror show me me....

Mirror mirror show me me....

Jane Shields (C)

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Is This Destiny

A lot of questions I have asked myself over the past few years. I

don’t know what lies around the corner, but for now I’m very

happy with life. I hope that the future will be good for me, but

what will be will be I guess.

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Is This Destiny

How much pain does it take

For a heart to break

Will I recover

To love another

Will I see the day

Heartache goes away

Will.. real.. love.. find.. me..

Is this destiny

Can we shape our lives

if we really try

....I want to live again

Must we live in hope

yet question why

....I want to love again

Is our life foretold

what will be will be

....I want to be happy

Can you answer me, is this destiny

....Oh is this destiny

Can I make it alone

Now our love has flown

Am I strong enough

Life can be so tough

Who will hold me near

When I'm feeling fear

How.. will.. my.. life.. be..

Is this destiny


iI we really try



yet question why





Can you answer me is this destiny


Will the loneliness go

Will tears always flow

Is there any hope

That I will still cope

Will I find someone

Not just anyone

Some.. one.. to.. love.. me..

Is this destiny

Can we shape our livesi

If we really try



yet question why







I want to live again

I want to love again

I want to be happy

Oh is this destiny


if we really try



yet question why







(C) Jane Shields

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Cry Of The Wolf

This was an early attempt of

mine at poetry. I think wild

life lends itself well to a topic

to write about. And I found it

fun researching too.

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Cry Of The Wolf

In a deep desolate forest

In the darkness of the night

A fabulous lone wolf

Is hunting for his life

His coat is soft and thick

And mixed with dark and light

His senses keen and sharp

As the blade of a knife

He stalks his prey alone now

As he lost his pack in fight

The stillness of the night air

Pricks his senses keen

He tastes the air and stealthily

He moves through the night

Silently he stalks

Carefully he goes unseen

His prey is small and wily

An injured lonesome hare

He knows that he can have him

iI he's wise

He approaches it from down wind

So the hare is unaware

And strikes and makes a kill

Then howls up to the skies

The howl is one of victory

Of prowess and of gain

He sounds his howl out

Long and clear precise

He eats his meal so gracefully

Sated once again

Conscious that the nourishment

Retains him in his life

Now his appetite is repleted

And he can afford a break

He looks up to the moon

To give a howl

His existence is precarious

Friendships he must make

He resumes his lonesome vigilance

And walks on with a prowl

In a lonely empty clearing

Atop a snow drenched hill

He points his nose

Into the air and howls

He's listening for return calls

But there's only silence still

Nothing but the shuffling

And hooting of the owls

He journeys onwards through the cold

And darkness of the night

Never ceasing

Always seeking his own kind

He'd never back away

Should a wolf pack want a fight

Self preservation is

The only thought in his mind

As the dawn draws closer still

And daylight starts to creep

He offers one last howl

Up to the moon

Still there's no return call

And he looks around for sleep

His weary body needs

Some rest real soon

He lays upon a bed of snow

With protection at his back

Gives in to the tiredness

And is asleep real soon

And in his dreams his howls

aAe answered by a running pack

And they all stand and howl

Up to the moon

Jane Shields (C)

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Fading

This portrays an aging woman looking back on her life. The one

time she found love it didn’t last, so now she holds on to the

memories of how it was, and what might have been.

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Fading

Making dinner for one again

Searched my whole life

for my best friend

And as the sun brings up

another day

I know deep inside

it'll end the same way

In the night I still reach out for you

But wake alone

Sometimes life is so cruel

Had my chances but I chose to leave

Lost my chance at love

With the only soul who believed

Searching back

through moments in time

At memories

and long forgotten dreams

My chances came

very close sometimes

But reality's not always all it seems

Through the years life

was sometimes great

Bittersweetness though

as nothing would last

Now into life's fading years

I've sealed my fate

But no regrets now

for my broken down past

Sitting waiting for the phone to ring

Or the post to come

Or the door to knock

As the day passes

cl;ose to noon it brings

Realization

That I'm watching the clock

Time goes slowly

When you're all alone

Seconds feel more like minutes

as they pass

No one visits you or calls your phone

Had my chances

but it didn't work for me, alas

Searching back

through moments in time

At memories

and long forgotten dreams

My chances came

very close sometimes

But reality's not always all it seems

Through the years life

was sometimes great

Bittersweetness though

as nothing would last

Now into life's fading years

I've sealed my fate

But no regrets now

for my broken down past

Time passes

and things are still the same

Fond memories

of how things could have been

Often catch myself

Calling out your name

I smile briefly as I realize I dream

Carry on with my journey

through life

Choosing to be alone

Through my years

Could have been very different

as a wife

I move through life silently

Always drying my own tears

Jane Shields (C)

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Paint It By Numbers

This was an easy write, finding colours to represent things. I like

to try to move away from the conventional love/sadness/

occasionally, and I found this a good exercise in lyrics.

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Paint It By Numbers

Moving through life

always in black and white

Nothing in between

to put all the things right

Sick of staring down

into my coffee cup

Gonna paint it by numbers

brighten all my world up

Firstly I need

sombody to love me

Colour my heart

and watch as it runs free

Paint my heart red

eee my firelight glow


make my true colours show

Paint it by numbers

Let colours shine through

Paint it by numbers

Make the colours run true

Now I just need to find

my own rays of sunshine

Colour the sun

so it shines real fine

Paint it yellow

to make my sun shine bright


find my own sunlight

Paint it by numbers


Paint it by numbers

Make the colours run true

Lastly I need

to sail on an ocean

Colour it right

and follow its motion

Paint it all blue

watch the tide to and fro


watch the water flow

Paint it by numbers


Paint it by numbers

Let the colours run true

Paint it by numbers

Red white and blue

Paint it by numbers

Let the colour shine through

Paint it by numbers


Paint it by numbers

Let the colours run true

Jane Shields ©

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Close And Tight

This was one of my early attempts at writing lyrics. I may work

on it again at some point as it really isn’t clear why they can’t be

together at night. I need to re write the bridge to accomodate this

reason.

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I know I love you,

You haunt my mind

I know I need you,

But life's unkind

I want to hold you,

Close and tight

But I can't be with you tonight

I love your kisses,

They feed my love

And your caresses,

Take me above

I want to hold you,

Close and tight


I want to hold you

Close and tight

But I can't

Be with you tonight

Your touch excites me,

Gives me the chills

Your lips invite me,

To feel the thrills

I want to hold you,

Close and tight


You feed my senses,

To overspill

Your body sends me,

To feel the thrills

I want to hold you,

Close and tight


Close And Tight

You are everything

I ever dreamed you'd be

You light my senses up

With a flame so bright

You mean the world to me

You satisfy me

Hold me tight 'cos

I can't be with you tonight

I want to hold you

Close and tight

But I can't

Be with you tonight

Your arms surround me,

They keep me safe

You lift my senses,

To another place

I want to hold you,

Close and tight


Each waking moment,

I think of you

My love is honest,

My love is true

I want to hold you,

Close and tight


Jane Shields (C)

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Colours

This is another lyric where I use colour to represent things. I tried

to be a little more descriptive in this one to ‘paint’ the picture.

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Colours

I looked up to the sky,

then at the world

I saw it painted yellow

The sun shone brightly,

as the clouds sped past

My mind began to mellow

I could feel warm heat,

shining on my brow

And my mind felt fuller,

than it did just now

Then I smiled and felt good,

'cause I'm alive

I'm such a lucky fellow

Painting rainbows.....

In my colourful new world

Painting rainbows in my mind




I looked at the stream,

as it flowed on by

And I saw it painted blue

The cool tones rippled,

like the morning dew

Then in my mind I saw you

You looked so pretty,

as you stood and smiled

And I hoped real hard,

that you'd stay a while

Then the water flowed on,

and you were gone

I was alone with the view

Colours..... (colours).....

Mixing in my mind.....


Helping life unwind....


Painting all my dreams....


Shaping all life's themes.....







I looked at the ground,

underneath my feet

And I saw it painted green

The grass was moving,

in the gentle breeze

Then my mind saw the unseen

The flow of your hair,

as you tossed your head

The feel of your body,

laid on our bed

Then the wind blew hard,

and the grass moved more

I felt sad it was a dream







Jane Shields (C)

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Nightmare Fairytale

This is one I deliberated over including, I don’t expect anyone

would ever want to sing it or hear it as a song, but I wrote it so

people can see what child abuse can lead to later in life.

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Nightmare Fairytale

Once upon a time,

there was a little girl

She was such a happy child,

and she felt loved

She played with her dolls,

like every young girl would

Until he loved her wrong,

once upon a time

This is not a fairy tale,

with laughter

There's no end,

with happy ever after

Nightmares replay,

through her mind

There's no peace,

that she can find

He took far more,

than he could ever know

Once upon a time, so long ago


with laughter

There's no end,


Nightmares replay,

through her mind

There's no peace,

that she can find

He took far more,



Far far away,

the little girl had gone

So far inside herself,

that she was lost

What happened to her,

she couldn't understand

And so she kept her mind,

far far away

Long long ago,

She still remembers

The pain and hurt she felt.

she can't forget

So now she finds she's trapped,

reliving all those times

Her nightmares still replay,

long long ago


with laughter

There's no end,


Nightmares replay,

through her mind

There's no peace,

that she can find

He took far more,



Jane Shields (C)

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Unwanted Memories

This is also a long term effects of child abuse. Since I developed

PTSD I now live with this often. I’ve found my own ways to cope,

and thankfully these days it is only my sleep that I struggle with.

I’m lucky if I get 3 - 4 hours sleep a night.

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Unwanted Memories

As my head hits my pillow

and I try to sleep

My mind starts to dwell

on past secrets I keep

Of the hurt and the pain

through all of my years

And my eyes start to cry

my own salty tears

Though I really do try

not to dwell on my past

Deep in my mind thoughts

come back thick and fast

And whatever I do

to distract my brain

Still those unwanted memories

are with me again

Unwanted memories of you

Haunt my days and my

night times too

The hurt and the pain from my past

Will be with me 'till I breathe my last

As my eyes close to try

to stop thoughts getting through

I then get assaulted

by pictures of you

And try as I might

you will not go away

I'm worn out from fighting

this day after day


Haunt my days and night times too



Now I'm living my life

always haunted by you

You invade my day times

whatever I do

I need to find out

the best way for me

To keep unwanted memories

under lock and key

Though I'm living my life

I feel it passing by

Endlessly fighting

and wondering why

I feel bound by your chains

always drawing me back

Always wary and frightened

of your next attack

My confidence left lme so long ago

The pain thatI feel

it’s always on show

My life’s but a shell of

what it should be

Release your chains,

Set my life free

When I finally give in

and fall off to sleep

At the point where the sleeping

begins to get deep

So the terrors begin

and I relive again

All the hurt and the fear

mingled in pain


Haunt my days and night times too



Jane Shields (C)

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Reaching For Reasons

There’s little doubt in my mind that this is loosely based on a past

relationship breakdown of mine. It was a tough time, but I got

through it.

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Reaching For Reasons

Reaching for reasons to go on

Living my life as I do

Nothing I say

makes a difference

Need to break away from you

Searching my heart

for some guidance

Nothing is holding my fears

I meet a wall of resistance

Drowning behind my own tears

Running around in big circles

Over the same ground again

Trying so hard to do what's right

Feeling my own hurt and pain

So sad that love

doesn't live here

Shouting is breaking me down

Killing me slowly from inside

Changing my smile to a frown

this end’s soon

Really can't go on this way

Closing my mind to the future

Taking deep breaths

to stay calm

Feeling my heart beating loudly

Wanting an end to this harm

Locking down all my emotions

Clearing the pain from my heart

Shaking from all

the frustrations

Knowing for sure we must part

Closing my eyes

really tight now

Wondering where

we went wrong

Wishing it had

been so different

Sadly we can't get along

Tears are my only solution

To drown my pain

when in starts

Falling in tracks

down my face now

Burning deep holes in my heart

My mind is always in turmoil

Staying is all I can do

There is no place I can run to

To take me away from you

Trying to look to the future

Hoping this will end some day

Wishing and praying

How'd we lose track

of the magic

All the good things

that we shared

All we have left

is the heartache

So long since I felt you cared

Reaching for reasons to go on

Living my life as I do

Nothing I say

makes a difference

Need to break away from you

Jane Shields (C)

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Saddest Story

I think I’ve struggled all my life to find friends. I have very little

trust, which you need to have to develop any relationship. Even

today I struggle to find anyone to be close to.

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Saddest Story

She writes her story

but can't find an end

It's the saddest tale she's told

About a journey

to locate a friend

But no words fit

for the friendship to hold

She's been alone now

for so very long

That her words

can't find the end

Her life's been tragic

carried her along

All she's ever yearned for

was a best friend

She's cried the tears,

she's felt the pain

She's suffering again

She's so unsure,

she's tried before

Alone for many years

She's felt the pain,

she's cried the tears


She's tried before,

she's so unsure


This is the saddest story

you will hear

All her loneliness unfolds

She has no friends

she often cries her tears

And in her world

there is no one to hold

She liveswithout love

she's always alone

She's tried but words

can't find an end

Let down again

by the hurt she was shown

All she's ever yearned for

was a best friend

This is the saddest story ever

She needs a friend forever

This is the saddest story ever

Needing a friend forever

She's cried the tears,

she's felt the pain


She's so unsure,

she's tried before


She's felt the pain,

she's cried the tears


She's tried before,

she's so unsure


Jane Shields (C)

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Golden Moments

I remember writing this one. It took a lot of determined

concentration to keep the rhythm flowing. One of my favourites.

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Golden Moments

Mem'ries drift forever like small raindrops in a stream

Chasing through my mind, just like trees caught in a breeze

Moving ever onwards until melting into dreams

Yesterdays good thoughts all now littered with the leaves

In my mind I’m feeling the echo's of the good times

Racing round like rivers before flowing free as tears

Time moves along so fast sometimes things all get forgotten

Before you know it all you’re left with are cold and empty years

Golden memories..... locked in my mind

Golden moments..... I need to keep

They're the moments..... I want to find

And hold onto for dreams when I sleep

Thoughts come thick and fast just like the mist on the mountains

Covering my memories and choking them away

So now all my fears start to spring up like a fountian

Chasing all the goodness out and threatening to stay

I call upon the winds of change to blow my fears away

Thunder claps and lightening strikes mix with some heavy rain

Then a rainbow shining brings the good thoughts back to stay

And sunshine leads the way back to my happiness again

Golden memories..... locked in my mind

Golden moments..... I need to keep

They're the moments..... I want to find

And hold onto for dreams when I sleep

Jane Shields (C)

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My Devils Dance

My Devil’s Dance.... I had a lot of fun writing this, it took quite a

time to get it to flow properly, and ended up far longer than it

ought to be, but I think it works equally well as a poem.

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My Devils Dance

I'll fight you in the daylight hours,

it's easier

All you throw,

i'll break into small pieces

For I am strong and

know how to survive now

Come on now, come at me,

fight me, I can take it

I'm shattered though

because I know tonight...

I'll stand up tall, never fall,

I will beat you

I'll take the pain,

take the fear, send it back again

I'll overcome, my Will shall be strong



I know that when

the day is gone tonight...

My devils dance with me.....


I'll dance my dance with devils


I've suffered all your spears,

and shed all of my tears

I'll be strong, stand up to you

you won't beat me

I know the past is gone,

and you can't hurt me

Come on now, come at me


I am shattered from the fight,

yet still tonight...

As darkness of the evening

closes round me

And your assault continues unabated

I will stand up to you, I will defeat you



Nothing you throw,

will make me sway tonight...

As the midnight hour approaches,

i’ll hold no fear

I'll breathe deep, and draw

my strength, to face you

There's no hurt left,

that you can throw at me



I'll never give in

i'll win though tonight...

My devils dance with me.....




Now we play the game,

of fear who is the stronger

I won't give in, visit my dreams,

i'll conquer

Throw your blazing spears

i'll quench them with my tears



And no matter what

you do to me tonight...





Jane Shields (C)

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Loving You

Day dreaming of love.... this took some time to get the right

rhythm into it, but I think it was worth the effort.

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Loving You

I can feel my passion's burning

Running like a river

through my mind

'Till I'm aching with a yearning

Longing for a loving

of some kind

Passion's turning on my senses

By the way you're smiling

as I wait

I feel all my senses moving

Matching your sweet rhythm,

guess it's fate

Loving you is blissful baby

Something that I'll

always need to do

Lying in your arms tonight

Is such a special part

of loving you

When I wake up to the feeling

Of your fingers

touching on my skin

There's a smiling on our faces,

At passions enjoyed

for our sins

Takes me back to reminiscing

'Bout the day when we first met

How my heart sings

while we're speaking

'Bout tomorrows lovin’

my heart spins


Something that I'll

always need to do



of loving you

As we're laying here together

I've a feeling

this will happen more

Ain't ashamed to be my lover

Friend or partner

ain't had this before

Now I'm looking

for some answers

How the devil you

climbed in my head

All this day dreaming is easy

Praying now you'll stay

here in my bed


Something that I'll

always need to do



of loving you

Yeah, loving you is easy baby

Something that I'll

always need to do



of loving you

Jane Shields (C)

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The Child In Me

Another PTSD lyric. I use writing as therapy, it helps to get the

thoughts down on paper, somehow it relieves the pain. The

emotions are released into the lyric.

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The Child In Me

I see the eyes

of a small lost child

Living within my mind

Been there so long

she's now living wild

Hiding from all

that's cruel or unkind

She looks out

from behind my eyes

Searching for her happy years

But they're all gone

flown to the skies

All that's left's

heartache and tears

I hear the voice


Echoing round me now

There's no way out

she's far too wild

Hush now child

find sleep somehow

Chasing good thoughts

too far away

For a glimpse to show her fun

But the moments are brief

they won't stay

Leaving her

the lonely one

Tonight will she cry

Tonight will she scream

Tonight, tonight

Come to life in my dreams

There's little hope

for my small lost child

Memories won't go back there

She can't be tamed

will always be wild

So I must keep her

in my care

I see the eyes


Living deep within my mind

Been there so long

she's now living wild

Hiding from

cruel and unkind



Tonight, tonight

Come to me in my dreams

She's the child in me

who should have been

But she never was

nor could ever have been

Now she's deep inside

and will never be seen

For she saw what no small child

should ever have seen



Tonight, tonight

Come to me in my dreams

Jane Shields (C)

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Crumbs Of Nothingness

I read the phrase ‘crumbs of nothingness’ and this was born from

it. My imagination surprises me at times.

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Crumbs Of Nothingness

Standing alone

isolated from humanity

Heart cold as stone

touching the edge of insanity

Feeling despair

inside emotions churn

Causing pain

everywhere

Crushing defeat

engulfs once again

Wake from restless sleep

To crumbs of nothingness

Reality puts paid

to hopes and dreams

All's left is the face

of empty loneliness

As the good times crumble

Ripped apart at the seams

Crumbs of nothingness

Lost reality.....


Engulfing me.....

In a dark trench

of bitter desperation

Spiralling fast

towards self degradation


bite deep into your mind

They mask reality

to leave it far behind


Lost reality.....


Engulfing me.....

Dark thoughts now flow

festooned with anger

Still unbroken

as madness grows

Filling thoughts up

with screams unspoken

The only sounds

shallow gutterul breaths

Are rasping

heartbeat pounds

Wringing hands

clenching fingers clasping

Wake from restless sleep

To crumbs of nothingness

Reality puts paid

to hopes and dreams

All's left is the face

of empty loneliness

As the good times crumble

Ripped apart at the seams


Lost reality.....


Engulfing me.....

Jane Shields (C)

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Please, Please

PTSD again. Thoughts sometimes bombard me, going round my

mind constantly. Many at once sometimes, and I have to sit and

write to focus myself. Once I start writing I become absorbed in it

and my thoughts go into my words.

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Please, Please

I try so hard to forgive

and forget

It really isn't easy

I want to move on

and lose these regrets

Find a way to ease me

Every where I look,

I feel reminders

of the part of me you took

When you went away

Still feels like yesterday

Please, please, stop

Stop torturing me

Please stop..... let me move on

Please, please, just set me free

It's all I'm asking....

Now that you've gone

I move on with my life

hoping today

Might be the day I forget

Got to be an answer

to make this go away

I haven't found it yet

Every where I look

There are reminders


When you went away



Stop torturing me



It's all I'm asking


I'm feeling very tired

and so, so sad

I don't need this every day

I want to go on

find a way to feel glad

Please, please

show me the way

I don't need reminders


When you went away



Stop torturing me



It's all I'm asking....


Jane Shields (C)

46

My Time

I find it fairly easy to write as a woman or a man, it didn’t take

long to realize I could do it. It’s the age old tale of man looking

for his soul mate.

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My Time

Been living my life the wrong way

Spreading my love too thin

Giving my heart to just any girl

If I think she might take me in

Been making

all the wrong choices

Wasting my life away

Still searching hard for the one

Who won't take my heart and run

Leaving me here to cry

for another day

Tell me, when’s it gonna be

my time?

Will love ever come here

and stay?

I can't stand all the gloom

Alone in this room

I'm a man without a cause

I know I have my flaws

But I need someone

To help me through my day

I have been happy for short times

But it always seems to end

too fast

I give everything that I can

Not knowing how to make it last

Maybe I expect miracles

Perhaps my needs are too great

But I'm quickly growing old

And I’m still out in the cold

I think I missed my chance

and now it’s too late

Tell me when is it gonna be

my time?


and stay?


Alone in this room



But I need someone

to help me through my day

Never going to stop looking,

I'm not the type to ever give in

I'll always keep on trying

Take my chance

and hope this time I'll win

Maybe you think that I'm foolish

But though I made

a few mistakes

I’ve still got all my love to give

And I still have my life to live

Ì'll get back up

each time my heart breaks

Tell me when is it gonna be

my time?


and stay?


Alone in this room



But I need someone

to help me through my day

Jane Shields (C)

49

Will I Love Again

I love this lyric. It has been recorded, but I think it’s equally as

good as a poem.

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Will I love again

How I miss your warm embrace

Here alone

Longing for a tender kiss

I know, I must be strong

And find a way so I can carry on

Will I love again

So many tears I have cried

An empty space

You were always by my side

I’m scared, my fragile heart

Will just be broken once again

You, left me, with a hole,

Running through my heart

Right through my soul

I’m trying to let go

I’m losing my self-control

I, thought,

You were the one true love for me

But times have changed

Things turned out differently

My heart’s in pain

So now it’s time to set you free

Will I love again

Will I find a new destiny

I think of you

Do you ever think of me

I’ve tried, to right the wrongs

What’s done is done

What’s gone is gone

Will I Love Again





I, thought,



Things have turned out differently


So now it’s time to set you free

Will I love again

Find someone to love

someone to hold

Gradually

The scars of love will fade away

Just give me time

So I can find a brand new me

To be the best that I can be

And know that I will love again

You, left me with a hole,





I, thought



Things have turned out differently


now it’s time to set you free....

You, left me with a hole,

Jane Shields (C)

51

Up Out Of The Ashes

This one was a lot of fun creating. It’s been reworked by me

several times from the poem it began life as. I think the imagery

works well in it.

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Up Out Of The Ashes

Ever felt so low

you lose your way back

Deafened by the shouts

and under attack

Arms over head

to protect from hurt

Need to walk away

feeling like dirt

Life pulls you down

so you can't stand up

Hold on tight

protect yourself buttercup

Take a deep breath

and walk tall again

Deep inside burns fire

to quench the rain

Up out of the ashes

the phoenix awakes

Grabbing hold of your fears

to burn them like snakes

Rising up so fierce

she melts them in her wake

Tossing them aside

with the feathers she shakes

Ever fought with demons

deep in your mind

Lost yourself in all

that's cruel and unkind

Eyes squeezed shut

to close out the sights

Bad in the days

even worse through the nights

Sucks out your life

then charges your fear

Hits you hard with pain

and brings you to tears

Fight for your life

give it all you got

Feel your heart torn

and burned like it's shot

Up out of the ashes

the phoenix awakes



Rising up so fierce


Tossing them aside


Up out of the ashes

the phoenix awakes



Rising up so fierce


Tossing them aside


Ever felt so low

You lose your way back....

Deafened by the shouts

And under attack....

Jane Shields (C)

53

Brand New Me

This was the first of my lyrics to become a song. It’s all about

finding your inner strength and using it to help you get through

when times get tough.

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Brand New Me

I am discovering

The fighter in me

I won't lay down

Or give up

I will find a new me

Finding a new strength

From real deep inside

I will stand up

Give it my all

I've got nothing to hide

I am discovering

The fighter in me

Standing tall now

Won't cower

I'll break out and be free



Gives me hope now

I am so strong

Feeds my purpose and pride

I'm discovering

I'm fighting

I'm a brand new me

I'm discovering

I'm fighting

I'm a brand new me

I am discovering

The fighter in me

I'll embrace it

Nurture it

I will let it run free



It's a new me

It's fiesty

And it's coming alive

I'm discovering

I'm fighting

I'm a brand new me

I am discovering

The fighter in me

I won't lay down

Won't give up

I will fight and find me



I will stand up

Give it my all

I've got nothing to hide

I’m discovering

I’m fighting

I’m a brand new me

Jane Shields (C)

55

I Can’t Forget

PTSD again. I feel compelled to include these so people learn and

understand how much it can affect someone even many years

after the traumatic event.

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I Can’t Forget

In the corners of my mind

I feel you

You haunt my life

and everything I do

You've bled your poison

through my every thought

And broken each rule

my life ever taught

I can't forget you

nor will I forgive

But you won't beat me

for I choose to live

All of my dreams draw me

so close to death

I’ll fight to forget you

'till my dying breath

I can't forget, (forget )

I try, but..... I can't forget

I can't forget, (forget)

I try but..... I can't forget

With eyes closed tight

I can still see your face

Never far from my mind

you're every place

My thoughts turn round

they're never still

It's like you've taken

over my free will

feel so shattered now

I barely sleep

My mind feels broken

you're inside so deep

My fear is real

it feeds from memory

From all the wrongs and hurts

you ever gave to me




I try but..... I can't forget

Tell me did you ever think of me

As you did what you did to me

Did you know I’d never forget

Did you ever feel any regret



I can't forget (forget)


Jane Shields (C)

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Miles To Cross Albatross

I wrote this one for a Norweigan friend. He sent

me a picture of a fjord in Norway, and this is what I

created from the image.

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Miles To Cross Albatross

Tasting the breeze

high in the clouds she glides

Fjords far below

ebbing and flowing on tides

White sanded beaches

skirt azure blue waters

Sheep tread the hillsides

on green rolling pastures

Peaks on mountains

still capped with soft white snow

Though it's late June

icy cold winds still blow

Sailing through silence

so many miles to cross

Beautiful lonely

flight of the Albatross

Oooohhhhhh........fly......

Albatross

Miles to cross.......

Oooohhhhhh.......

So many miles to cross

Albatrosss........

Touching heaven

as whales swim far below

Look to the skies

Northern lights play in full flow

Always she's climbing

so many miles to cross

Gliding on thermals

flight of the Albatross

Oooohhhhh........

I spy the albatross

Miles to cross......

Oooohhhhh.......


Albatross.......

Many miles to cross

to reach the horizon

Hmmmmmmmmmm

far far away

Where sky meets the sea

while morning sun rises

Albatross hmmmmmm

won't you stay

Oooohhhhh........

I see the albatross

Miles to cross......

Oooohhhhh.......


Albatross........

Jane Shields (C)

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Candles And Teddy Bears

I wrote this the day after the terrorist attacks in London.

I still feel the same way.

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Candles And Teddy Bears

Another sad day goes by

Watching distraught fathers cry

Hearing bereft mothers scream

Lovers now robbed of their dream

What became of that small child

The babe in arms meek and mild

Time to ask oh why, oh why

Must innocent loved ones die

Cruel men lurk in shadows where

Rats and snakes befriend them there

The rotten carcasses of life

Who rob the husband of the wife

Politicians sit an stare

At the carnage everywhere

Powerless to stop, the pain

They watch and wait for it again

So we light our candles

Then we lay teddy bears

To show to the world that

Our pain is indeed there

While slime writhe in gutters

To plot their next schemes

Politicians, debate

While the next mother screams

Jane Shields (C)

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Scream At The Mountains

This is a love lyric, searching for love.

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Scream At The Mountains

I've searched far and wide, through flatlands and hills

Braved jungles and highlands for the one to fill

An empty so hollow, it echoes my soul

Who can rebuild my heart 'till again it feels whole

For surely there must be, another who seeks

To fill their own empty until it brims with me

My passion flows over, for the one who needs

A passion just like mine so greedy they'll feed

We'll scream at the mountains

The moon it shall blush

As our passions explode

Changing mountains to dust

There's plenty to share, so I'll never run out

I will fill my own empty of that there's no doubt

We'll share an embrace, but we'll take it too far

Time and time again no matter where we are

Our love will not trickle, but rage like a storm

Compared to you and I the world it will mourn

For pleasures we'll find, the embraces lose count

We'll hold on in pure greed and leave nothing out









Scream at the mountains...



Scream....

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