December 2004 Ensign - The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day ...
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Searching for Answers<br />
A few <strong>day</strong>s after our date, I spent my night at a 24-hour<br />
restaurant. I wrote six pages, front and back, <strong>of</strong> theological<br />
and ethical questions I had about the LDS <strong>Church</strong>. I was<br />
vehemently opposed to sitting down with missionaries,<br />
who I felt had been trained to twist the scriptures as a type<br />
<strong>of</strong> brainwashing technique. I had decided, however, that I<br />
would approach my <strong>Latter</strong>-<strong>day</strong> Saint friends with my list<br />
and ask for answers. I told the Lord that if this church was<br />
true, I would devote myself to it wholeheartedly; if I didn’t<br />
find this to be the case, I would walk away from it with no<br />
reservations. This would either be the easiest witnessing<br />
opportunity my friends had ever been given or the greatest<br />
challenge <strong>of</strong> their faith.<br />
In fact, it proved to be both. I was not surprised<br />
when several <strong>of</strong> my LDS acquaintances told me that they<br />
couldn’t answer many <strong>of</strong> my questions. I was told on numerous<br />
occasions, “That’s just the way it is.” Although my<br />
conclusion that all <strong>Latter</strong>-<strong>day</strong> Saints had been brainwashed<br />
was in fact strengthening, I was, nevertheless, impressed<br />
with my friends’ concern for the fact that I needed answers.<br />
Never did anyone belittle me for asking. Never did any <strong>of</strong><br />
them judge me for the fact that I didn’t agree. In reality,<br />
they encouraged me to seek out the answers for myself<br />
in prayer—a step which I found contrary to the notion <strong>of</strong><br />
indoctrination.<br />
Over time, the Lord led several friends<br />
into my life who were able to answer my<br />
questions. <strong>The</strong> Spirit spoke to me,<br />
and I felt that the truth had been<br />
revealed. But I did not want to<br />
accept it. I distanced myself<br />
from the woman who had<br />
piqued my interest, and I<br />
prayed. I begged the Lord<br />
for a sign, an answer. One<br />
particular afternoon, after<br />
driving home from work while<br />
repeating my frequent prayer,<br />
I laughed out loud as I pulled<br />
into my driveway and saw the LDS missionaries helping<br />
a neighbor move out <strong>of</strong> his house! That afternoon I<br />
scheduled my first missionary discussion.<br />
Blessed by His Help<br />
I was baptized into the true <strong>Church</strong> two months later.<br />
I did this knowing that it might mean losing all ties with<br />
many <strong>of</strong> my friends, my parents and extended family, and<br />
maybe even my daughter. Through <strong>Church</strong> members, the<br />
missionaries, the stake presidency, and the bishop, I have<br />
been blessed to recognize that I now have the support <strong>of</strong> a<br />
new family. <strong>The</strong> Lord uses His <strong>Church</strong> to help provide for<br />
my needs both spiritually and temporally. While I still strive<br />
to maintain my family relationships and struggle to retain<br />
the right to see my daughter, I hold to the assurances God<br />
has given me through blessings and personal prayer that<br />
some<strong>day</strong> I will again have a complete family.<br />
Through this experience I have learned two very valuable<br />
lessons. First, all <strong>Latter</strong>-<strong>day</strong> Saints have the responsibility<br />
<strong>of</strong> maintaining their integrity and letting their light shine<br />
for those around them (see 3 Nephi 12:16). After all, the<br />
Lord used one person’s example to change my heart.<br />
Second, we should all make the effort to learn what it is<br />
that we believe. If we live our lives as examples <strong>of</strong> God’s<br />
love, know how to answer difficult questions, and truly<br />
open our hearts to the promptings <strong>of</strong> the Spirit, we<br />
possess an overwhelming power to draw even the<br />
most calloused hearts to God’s throne.<br />
I testify <strong>of</strong> the truthfulness <strong>of</strong> the<br />
<strong>Church</strong>. I testify that I now live a more<br />
complete life because <strong>of</strong> God’s faithfulness<br />
to a rebellious child, and I know<br />
that the Lord’s spirit can overcome<br />
any hardened heart. It is<br />
my blessing and privilege to be<br />
able to say that I am a member<br />
<strong>of</strong> <strong>The</strong> <strong>Church</strong> <strong>of</strong> <strong>Jesus</strong> <strong>Christ</strong> <strong>of</strong><br />
<strong>Latter</strong>-<strong>day</strong> Saints. ■<br />
Robert Marsh is a member <strong>of</strong> the Meridian<br />
Second Ward, Meridian Idaho Stake.<br />
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