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actual happiness. Eleven years ago, her mother and her grandmother had both been brutally murdered. Stefani<br />
saw her mother die. It was the only lasting memory she had of her childhood.<br />
She remembered the neighbors yelling on the doorstep, asking if everything was ok. She still remembered<br />
holding her mother’s head as the lady from upstairs screamed when she saw Stefani sitting on the kitchen floor,<br />
staring vacantly at her mother’s lifeless corpse. Ashes to ashes, dust to dust. What the heck did that mean,<br />
anyway? Was it supposed to be a consoling thought, understanding her mother was now nothing more than<br />
decaying flesh and bones?<br />
Her life took a bizarre twist that evening. It was only a few hours after she watched her mother die that she<br />
learned her grandmother had been murdered, as well. She had been sitting in the police station, draped in an<br />
oversized man’s coat, clutching her Raggedy Ann doll. She didn’t even shed a tear when the officer told her<br />
about her last living relative’s death. Her insides were used up at that point. Even at her present age, she was<br />
nothing more than a hollow shell of a human being.<br />
With no place to go and nobody to take care of her, she fell into the California system for homeless children.<br />
Luckily, she was quickly placed with a foster family, and somehow, she was forced to start using their last name.<br />
She never really understood this, but once they adopted her, the name stuck. Now and forever more, she was<br />
Stefani Hernandez. She laughed out loud at that. Blonde hair, blue eyes, and she was legally Hispanic. In some<br />
ways the oddity fit her life perfectly.<br />
“Bbbbbbbbbbbbbblllllllllllllllllaaaaaaaaaaagggggggggghhhhhhhhhh,” she heard the gurgling noise <strong>com</strong>e out<br />
of her mouth as she threw up again for the third time that day. Had she not been getting progressively sicker for<br />
the past few months, she might have thought the nausea was in response to her violent memories. At some<br />
point, she knew she really should go to the doctor, but she also knew she never would. She didn’t trust doctors.<br />
She didn’t trust anyone, really.<br />
Her foster family had been fine for the most part. They provided her a bed and food to eat. She had never<br />
warmed up to them, though, and in some ways, they had not to her, either. They treated her like part of their<br />
family, but she knew she would never fit. She was a freak of nature. The kid whose mother was butchered, and<br />
nobody ever discovered why or by whom. What did it matter, anyway?<br />
On the day of her graduation, her entire foster family had been gunned down in a drive-by shooting. They<br />
were on their way to see her ceremony. The police said it was some kind of gang-related initiation. But they<br />
never found out who pulled the trigger.<br />
Everyone Stefani had ever known or been associated with had died. She resigned herself long ago to<br />
believing she would always be alone.<br />
When her foster family was killed, Stefani made the decision to forego college. She moved to the city and<br />
settled in a small apartment in San Francisco. She held down a job waitressing during the day and occupied<br />
herself as a dancer at night. The pay was good, and unlike most of the girls, she didn’t participate in any of the<br />
extracurricular activities with the male clientele. A guy tried something with her once, and he left with his arm<br />
bent back like a pretzel. She could still hear him scream as she snapped his forearm as if it were a mere twig.<br />
Her strength was freaky.<br />
She didn’t have any friends. She barely even knew the three girls with whom she shared an apartment. She<br />
waved hello to them or said goodbye on her way out, but they never spent any real time together. How many<br />
people wander through their fleeting existences with no hope, no dreams, and no real ambition? She considered<br />
killing herself on several occasions. But she knew that wasn’t an option, at least not before her task was<br />
<strong>com</strong>plete.<br />
The only time she came close to death was when she fell three stories from an open window. She’d been<br />
leaning on the ledge, sitting on the window sill, trying to catch a glimpse of the night sky. She loved the night<br />
air. It was odd how she felt more peaceful during a full moon, when the stars shone and everyone else was fast<br />
asleep. She fell headfirst out the window and somehow landed on her feet. She hadn’t even felt a jar in her<br />
shins. Sometimes she wondered if she were Super-Girl and the yellow sun gave her indestructible, supernatural<br />
powers.<br />
In the end, nothing had been able to save her mother, though. Her family was all dead, gone, and buried.<br />
The only thing she had from her voided past was the Raggedy Ann doll propped on her bed pillows. That doll