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Maybe this would be the last session with the toilet bowl, she thought as she wobbled to her feet after<br />
vomiting for a good ten minutes. Without treatment, she should at least feel better. That’s what Dr. Leigh has<br />
intimated.<br />
But how could she feel better when she knew – okay she admitted that she did know – that Matt was getting<br />
something more out of that client that her money? She tried to look at their life from his point of view. She had<br />
been extremely hard to live with since her cancer was diagnosed. One treatment option after another had not<br />
panned out and now the last resort had been declared a failure. She was given a few months at the most.<br />
Matt would be home in a couple of hours. Unless he called again and said he would be late.<br />
How could you abandon me when I’ve never needed you more?<br />
She called him some choice names out loud. That felt good. Maybe she would let him have it when he came<br />
through the door. She paced, energized by her bitter hatred, rehearsing the <strong>com</strong>ing scene.<br />
Then she stopped. Wait. If she told him she was dying, what would he do then? Would he just leave her<br />
<strong>com</strong>pletely? God knows things had been rocky since her diagnosis. Matt had never dealt well with illness, his<br />
own or others, and hadn’t displayed many moments of graciousness lately. Mostly just impatience and<br />
exasperation.<br />
No, she wouldn’t tell him. But she would have to do something.<br />
*****<br />
Five hundred people got into cars, onto buses and bicycles, or just started walking toward the antique<br />
district.<br />
*****<br />
She called in the next day, Friday, and quit her job. Her boss said she had five days of vacation pay <strong>com</strong>ing,<br />
and he’d see if they could keep her on the payroll for two more weeks.<br />
After she hung up she thought how odd it was that she had told her boss she was terminal, and not her<br />
husband.<br />
The weekend was pleasant. She could tell Matt sensed that something was drastically different, some line<br />
had been crossed, but he had no way of knowing what it was. Maybe he suspected she knew of his affair. She<br />
didn’t tell him she had quit her job, but pondered how she was going to keep him from knowing. And why she<br />
wanted to.<br />
As she watched him flip the burgers on the stove Sunday night she wondered if she had been too hasty.<br />
Maybe he wasn’t having an affair. Her overwrought state could be making her imagine things. Maybe the client<br />
had merely been in the shop and that overpowering smell stayed with Matt after she left.<br />
She seemed to have more energy than she’d had in a long time and jumped up to get the salads as he pushed<br />
the patties onto the plates she had set on the dining room table. The meal was restful and they watched out the<br />
window in a <strong>com</strong>panionable silence as the winter sun sparked its radiance into the sky just before it died for the<br />
day.<br />
*****<br />
Some people arrived a little too soon and found ways to loiter until the appointed time. Others circled the<br />
block looking for parking spaces. The four-tiered garage at the corner filled up and cars started entering the one<br />
two blocks away.<br />
*****<br />
It was a relief to quit her job, but she missed the people after just two days. Two busy days, though. There<br />
was an urgency to her life, now, since she knew if was finite. The first thing she did was clean the house from<br />
top to bottom. Amazing how much better she felt without the deadly treatments. Dr. Leigh’s prescribed pain<br />
relievers gave her a sense of floating above the world, but didn’t seem to prevent her energy from flowing.<br />
By the time Matt got home she made sure she was dressed in her regular working clothes so he would think<br />
she went to work. She tried to act tired from work, but he noticed how bubbly she was and attributed it, rightly,<br />
to her condition. Wrong condition, though.