Walk Issue - Share Pregnancy & Infant Loss Support, Inc.
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Volume 18, <strong>Issue</strong> 6<br />
November - December 2009<br />
touching lives…<br />
haring...<br />
healing hearts…<br />
giving hope...<br />
Special <strong>Issue</strong>:<br />
2009<br />
<strong>Walk</strong> for<br />
Remembrance<br />
& Hope
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Dear Friends,<br />
I would like to start this walk edition of Sharing by thanking everyone that<br />
had a hand in the St. Louis National <strong>Walk</strong> or held their own <strong>Share</strong> <strong>Walk</strong><br />
around the nation. As I have read the emails and looked at all the photos<br />
that we have received here at the National Office, I am so touched by how<br />
wonderful all of these walks were, regardless of their size. Many of our<br />
<strong>Share</strong> parents and supporters have given so much of their time and talents<br />
to host these walks for families in their area. It is always so great to hear<br />
parents compliment the walk chairpersons in their area. Memorial walks<br />
are so important for our families; it is a day every year they can gather<br />
together to remember their babies and know that they are not alone on<br />
their journey of healing.<br />
Behind The Scenes...<br />
Cathi Lammert<br />
Executive Director<br />
Personally, one of my favorite aspects of my job is presenting the<br />
fundraising seminar at our national Sharing & Caring Training Conference,<br />
held in the spring and fall of every year. Over the time that I have been a<br />
part of this conference, I have worked with several <strong>Share</strong> groups in the<br />
process of planning a walk for their local parents and have supported their<br />
efforts along the way. It is a very rewarding experience to see these walks<br />
take shape and be successful.<br />
Rose Carlson<br />
Program Director<br />
At the National Office, planning our walk is a year-long event. It takes<br />
considerable time, volunteers and resources to coordinate a walk of any<br />
size. I am so grateful for the outpouring of help and support that we have<br />
received each year that we have planned this event. From the venues to the<br />
shirts and programs, every detail is important and we do our very best to<br />
make sure everything is correct and as close to perfect as possible.<br />
Stephanie Grant<br />
Assoc. Development Director<br />
This year we moved our <strong>Share</strong> <strong>Walk</strong> to a new location, Tower Grove Park.<br />
The beautiful fall trees provided an awe-inspiring background for our<br />
memorial service and we were so fortunate to have such mild weather after<br />
several days of rain. As our attendance grows year by year, it is<br />
heartwarming to see so many families together on this day to remember<br />
their precious babies.<br />
Megan Nichols<br />
Outreach & PR Director<br />
In the coming months we will begin to plan our 2010 <strong>Share</strong> <strong>Walk</strong> for<br />
Remembrance & Hope and will be taking into consideration all of your<br />
thoughts, comments and suggestions. Thank you again for all of your<br />
support that made this year’s <strong>Share</strong> <strong>Walk</strong> a great success! We look forward<br />
to another wonderful event in the coming fall!<br />
Jeanna O’Leary<br />
Group Coordinator<br />
With hope,<br />
Stephanie<br />
Stephanie Grant<br />
Associate Development Director<br />
Deb Welsch<br />
Administrative Assistant
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Contents<br />
Features...<br />
14…...Jonesboro, Arkansas<br />
16…...Orange County, California<br />
18…...Many Steps for Tiny Joseph<br />
10……..Detroit, Michigan<br />
12…...Proctorsville, Vermont<br />
13…...The National <strong>Walk</strong><br />
Sharing is partially funded by<br />
Employees Community Fund<br />
of Boeing St. Louis<br />
Sharing is the official newsletter of <strong>Share</strong> <strong>Pregnancy</strong> and <strong>Infant</strong> <strong>Loss</strong> <strong>Support</strong>, <strong>Inc</strong>. © 1997
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Jonesboro, Arkansas<br />
Written by Stacey Orr<br />
Jonesboro, Arkansas held it First Annual <strong>Walk</strong> for<br />
Rememberance and Hope on October 3, 2009 at<br />
the beautiful Craighead Forest Park. Registration<br />
started at 9 a.m. and by 9:30 I was in awe of all the<br />
people who had already gathering to pick up<br />
balloons and enjoying a peaceful morning at the<br />
park remembering their precious babies. Our<br />
memorial service began at 10:00 a.m. with opening<br />
comments about <strong>Share</strong>Hope and was followed by a<br />
very touching and heartfelt invocation by Pastor<br />
John Miles. Our local news reporter Diana Davis<br />
who had suffered and early pregnancy loss spoke to<br />
the crowd about her personal loss and how<br />
<strong>Share</strong>Hope is filling a need in our community to<br />
help those who have been touched by the loss of a<br />
baby. Diana then introduced our singer Dia Sawyer<br />
who sang our "theme" song for the walk, “Precious<br />
Child.” It was absolutely beautiful. Then Diana<br />
Davis began to read out the names of all the babies<br />
lost. After all 57 names had been read people began<br />
to walk accross the bridge overlooking the lake<br />
where they released their balloons before<br />
embarking on the 1/2 mile to 2 mile walk,<br />
depending on which route they chose.<br />
I can honestly tell you that I have been running the<br />
<strong>Share</strong>Hope program and support group since<br />
January and not it my wildest dreams did I think<br />
that our first walk would be so successful. It was<br />
with a heavy heart that I was happy to see so many<br />
bereaved families all in one place walking in unison<br />
for the babies that have been lost. We had over 450<br />
people in attendance. I thought if we had 100 that<br />
would be wonderful! What this type of turnout<br />
showed us is that this type of walk is very much<br />
needed and wanted. People need a special time to<br />
remember their children. It was absoultely<br />
precious to see how people "decorated" their shirts<br />
in memory of their baby/ies that had died. Some<br />
had siblings wearing shirts that said "my brother is<br />
an angel." Others had their shirts monogrammed<br />
with the babies' names and birthdates. Some had a<br />
full size picture of their child on their shirts. Others<br />
wore ribbons or made buttons with their child's<br />
footprints or picture. All the shirts I saw were just<br />
precious and I honestly had to fight back the tears<br />
upon seeing each one. One thing that I continued<br />
to say to myself is, “yes it is sad that these babies<br />
our gone, but how powerful their little spirits must<br />
be to have so many who loved them and missed<br />
them show up to remember them in such a special<br />
way.” For months leading up to the walk my prayer<br />
was that October 3, 2009 would be a time of<br />
remembrance, peace and hope for the future. Every<br />
family represented on that day was linked together<br />
by tragedy but we left bound together in HOPE.<br />
To get a better feel of what took place at our<br />
<strong>Share</strong>Hope <strong>Walk</strong> please go to youtube.com and in<br />
the search box type "<strong>Share</strong>Hope <strong>Walk</strong> Jonesboro,<br />
Arkansas" You will find a short 5 minute video of<br />
our walk put to music (“Precious Child” - our theme<br />
song this year.) Thank you to all the people who<br />
work tirelessly at <strong>Share</strong>. It is because of you that<br />
families can find healing, love, acceptance and a<br />
sense of peace on a fall day in Jonesboro,<br />
Arkansas. Your work really is God's work. Thank<br />
you!
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Orange County, California<br />
Written By Kristyn von Rotz<br />
The 2009 OC <strong>Walk</strong> to Remember in<br />
Orange County, California had<br />
approximately 1100 walkers and<br />
raised nearly $30,000 for our local<br />
support groups, hospitals, and for<br />
your <strong>Share</strong> <strong>Pregnancy</strong> and <strong>Infant</strong><br />
<strong>Loss</strong> <strong>Support</strong> organization. Our<br />
event began with a memorial wall,<br />
where parents had the opportunity<br />
to write messages to their babies.<br />
Then our Remembrance Ceremony<br />
began, with a speaker and singer.<br />
We then read the names of each<br />
baby being remembered and<br />
presented the parents with a white<br />
rose. We then began our walk. Along<br />
the way parents had the opportunity<br />
to purchase signs to remember their<br />
baby or babies. The event concluded<br />
with a raffle and parents having a<br />
picnic in the park. It was a special<br />
day to remember all the babies who<br />
were lost to pregnancy and infant<br />
loss. There was laughter, tears, joy,<br />
pain, and love.<br />
To find out more about the OC <strong>Walk</strong><br />
to Remember contact Kristyn von<br />
Rotz at kvonrotz@earthlink.net.<br />
Co-founders of the OC <strong>Walk</strong> to<br />
Remember: Lyndsey McLauglan (L)<br />
and Kristyn von Rotz (R)
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Many Tiny Steps for Joseph<br />
Written by Kristyn von Rotz<br />
Reprinted from the Friday, September 25, 2009 <strong>Issue</strong> of The Orange County Register<br />
I was 24 years old. I was happily<br />
married. I was blissfully pregnant.<br />
Everything was just as I'd<br />
hoped and imagined for so long.<br />
But then I was burying my baby.<br />
It was hardly the way I thought<br />
things would turn out.<br />
When my husband, Mark, and I<br />
found out we were expecting our<br />
first baby six months after our<br />
wedding, we were thrilled. As<br />
my belly grew, I would rub it as<br />
I rocked and sang to the miracle<br />
growing inside me. We told everyone<br />
our wonderful news. We<br />
painted the nursery yellow. A<br />
shower was planned. And the<br />
love for my baby grew with<br />
every beat of its tiny heart.<br />
At 19 weeks pregnant, I went<br />
with my husband, mom and<br />
mother-in-law for the requisite<br />
ultrasound. We saw our baby's<br />
perfect toes and fingers and we<br />
were told it was a boy. We<br />
shared his name with our family:<br />
Joseph Thomas. As we left<br />
the office, we thought that life<br />
was perfect.<br />
How wrong we were.<br />
•••<br />
Kristyn von Rotz takes flowers to the grave of her infant son, Joseph, with<br />
husband, Mark, and children, Leah, 4, and Evan, 2. She visits the site at<br />
Holy Sepulcher in Orange about once a month. "This is not sad to them because they<br />
grew up coming to visit. We always explained their brother is in heaven," she says.<br />
MINDY SCHAUER, THE ORANGE COUNTY REGISTER<br />
As soon as we got home, we got<br />
a phone message from the doctor's<br />
office. We needed to go<br />
back for an emergency ultrasound<br />
the next day. Mark and I<br />
drove around in circles for<br />
hours until our afternoon appointment<br />
with the perinatologist.<br />
We discussed how, no matter<br />
what happened, we would<br />
love Joseph.<br />
I lay down on the ultrasound<br />
table and begged the technician<br />
to tell me what was wrong. Then<br />
I noticed she was crying. And I<br />
knew – my baby was going to<br />
die. The doctor told us our son<br />
had alobar holoprosencephaly, a<br />
rare and fatal brain abnormality.<br />
In shock, my husband asked<br />
how to fix it, but the doctor<br />
shook his head. All I could do<br />
was watch the man who I loved<br />
so much – and who I never had<br />
seen cry – fall to the floor weeping.<br />
In the following days we explained<br />
to friends and family<br />
that our baby was going to die.<br />
We made decisions about where<br />
I would deliver him and where<br />
we would bury him. I suffered<br />
through hours of preterm labor,<br />
because these sick babies often<br />
come early. And I'd rock and<br />
sing to my belly, secretly wishing<br />
I could just die, too.<br />
On July 8, 2004, after 21 hours<br />
of labor, I gave birth to my baby<br />
boy. He was 13 inches and one<br />
pound. His lips were a perfect<br />
replication of mine, and he had<br />
his daddy's hands. And I got to<br />
do what I had dreamed of: I<br />
held him, rocked him and sang<br />
to him. After one minute, his
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breathing stopped, and our baby<br />
boy died in my arms.<br />
We left the hospital 24-hours<br />
later with a tiny box. Inside<br />
were his hat and diaper, two<br />
photos, and a blanket with his<br />
sweet scent still lingering on it.<br />
It was all we had left of him.<br />
The next day we went to the<br />
mortuary to pick his casket. We<br />
chose a tiny white coffin with<br />
gold angels adorning the sides.<br />
Then we picked the plot where<br />
he would be laid to rest. It was<br />
under a beautiful tree where I<br />
could hang a wind chime. Two<br />
days later, he was buried there.<br />
•••<br />
People told me I would have another<br />
baby. They told me I<br />
would eventually forget him.<br />
They told me I would move on.<br />
They told me he was in a better<br />
place. And it didn't help.<br />
The sight of other pregnant<br />
women and infants was incredibly<br />
painful, so for nearly two<br />
months I rarely left the house,<br />
except to visit Joseph at the<br />
cemetery. The only comfort I<br />
found was in an online support<br />
group for women who had lost<br />
babies. And eventually I found<br />
out about Healing Hearts<br />
SHARE support group. Without<br />
these two support networks, I<br />
would not have been able to survive.<br />
But I wished I had found<br />
them sooner.<br />
At night, when I sat with empty<br />
arms, I'd rock and sing to Joseph,<br />
hoping somehow he heard<br />
me. And I promised myself that<br />
I would dedicate my life to helping<br />
other families who had suffered<br />
the devastating loss of a<br />
baby. I would make sure they<br />
received the support they<br />
needed while pregnant with a<br />
terminally ill baby or after the<br />
loss of a pregnancy or infant.<br />
Three months after Joseph's<br />
death, I became pregnant again.<br />
But my innocence had been lost.<br />
The doctor appointments, ultrasounds,<br />
and hospital visits were<br />
all filled with fear and anxiety. I<br />
questioned everything. I feared<br />
everything. Thankfully, my<br />
daughter, Leah Grace, was born<br />
healthy. She didn't heal my<br />
heart, but she filled it with joy<br />
once again.<br />
Through the support group I<br />
attended, I met Lyndsey<br />
McLaughlan, who had lost her<br />
daughter, Lauren Madison, due<br />
to stillbirth. We joined together<br />
to start an annual walk for parents<br />
to remember their babies.<br />
That first walk in 2004 was at a<br />
small park in Irvine. There were<br />
100 people, mostly our friends,<br />
family and support group members.<br />
We fronted all the money<br />
for the event ourselves, and donated<br />
the small amount we<br />
made. Slowly, word of the walk<br />
grew, and a second walk was<br />
held.<br />
After suffering three miscarriages,<br />
Lyndsey went on to<br />
adopt a son, Austin, who is three<br />
years old. I now have another<br />
son, Evan Joseph, who is two<br />
years old. Through our living<br />
children, we found the strength<br />
to continue the walk and our<br />
mission to reach out to as many<br />
families as we could.<br />
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With the help of many passionate<br />
parents and volunteers, the<br />
OC <strong>Walk</strong> to Remember memorial<br />
service and walk is in its<br />
fifth year. More than 1,500 people<br />
have come to the walk to<br />
honor babies lost to miscarriage,<br />
stillbirth, SIDS and other pregnancy<br />
and infant losses. This<br />
year, on October 10 at UCI, we<br />
will again walk for the steps our<br />
babies never got to take.<br />
In the past five years, more than<br />
$75,000 has been raised for<br />
memory box programs and<br />
pregnancy and infant loss education<br />
at nine local hospitals<br />
and for programs at St. Joseph<br />
Perinatal Hospice, which supports<br />
mothers carrying terminally<br />
ill babies. Donations have<br />
been made to four support<br />
groups who dedicate their services<br />
to grieving families. We<br />
also created brochures for hospitals<br />
to distribute to parents<br />
whose babies have died; they list<br />
support resources and a 24-<br />
hour phone number so that parents<br />
have a place to turn when<br />
they leave the hospital.<br />
It's been five years since Joseph<br />
died, and I still wonder why it<br />
happened to us. I may never<br />
know. But I do know Joseph<br />
made more of a difference in his<br />
one minute of life than some<br />
people do in an entire lifetime.<br />
Each day I hold my children on<br />
my lap and sing them the same<br />
hymn I sang to Joseph. And I<br />
remind them we can make a difference<br />
in this world, if only for<br />
a minute.<br />
Kristyn von Rotz is a<br />
freelance writer and editor<br />
who lives in Orange.<br />
For more information about the<br />
OC <strong>Walk</strong> to Remember go to<br />
www.ocwalktoremember.org<br />
or call 800-714-9320.
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Detroit, Michigan<br />
Written by Angie Winton<br />
We held our First <strong>Walk</strong> for Remembrance and Hope<br />
Sunday, October 4th, 2009. After months of planning<br />
and hard work, the day was finally here to honor our<br />
precious babies. It was a chilly day and we were hopeful<br />
that the rain would stay away. After hours of setup,<br />
people started to arrive. By the time we were<br />
ready to begin, we had over 200 people. Needless to<br />
say, we were amazed at the turnout seeing as it was<br />
our first walk. We gathered under the tent and began<br />
our memorial service when the rain came pouring<br />
down. What were those raindrops? They were simply<br />
tears from Heaven. The service concluded and at that<br />
moment right before our balloon release, the rain<br />
stopped and the sun came shining through the<br />
clouds. What an amazing moment. We released our<br />
balloons and the kids blew bubbles to Heaven. We<br />
concluded our day with our walk and a luncheon.<br />
Fortunately the rain held off again until most of<br />
the participants were back under the tent.<br />
We gave each family a handmade candle globe and<br />
pink & blue ribbons made by our group members. We<br />
also gave each person who came a special pink<br />
and blue silicone wristband that says "Forever in our<br />
Hearts." Thank you to all the wonderful people who<br />
took time out of their day to remember our children.<br />
Sometimes life gets so busy and people seem to<br />
forget but their attendance at our walk proved that<br />
they didn't forget. Our babies are always in our hearts<br />
and well as theirs.<br />
We honestly couldn't have asked for a more successful<br />
day. A special thank you to National <strong>Share</strong> for your<br />
support and to all the individuals who made our walk<br />
so special. I'm honored to be part of such a wonderful<br />
group of people.
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Proctorsville, Vermont<br />
Written by Cara Tyrell<br />
Over 80 people attended <strong>Share</strong> of Southern<br />
Vermont’s First Annual <strong>Walk</strong> for Remembrance &<br />
Hope on Saturday, May 9th, 2009, walking along<br />
the Toonerville Trail. Jeff Hunsberger, founder of<br />
The SIMON Project, acted as Master of Ceremonies.<br />
More than $1500 was raised, with all proceeds<br />
benefiting <strong>Share</strong> Southern Vermont, <strong>Inc</strong>. as the<br />
organization supports local grieving families.<br />
The annual <strong>Share</strong> <strong>Walk</strong> for Remembrance & Hope<br />
provides families who have experienced a miscarriage<br />
or death of an infant with an opportunity for<br />
their children to be openly acknowledged and<br />
remembered amongst family, friends and other<br />
bereaved families.<br />
The morning began with a brief welcome by Cara<br />
Tyrrell, SSV’s Founding Director and Board<br />
President. The memorial included poetry and song<br />
as the crowd remembered their babies lost too<br />
soon. As one hundred-twelve honored babies’<br />
names were read, Paul Ippolito provided acoustic<br />
guitar musical accompaniment.<br />
Registered walkers wore event t-shirts, some<br />
personalized with special commemorations of their<br />
loss. After the ceremony, participants followed a<br />
two-mile walk along the trail, stopping at the one<br />
mile mark to receive a ‘footprints on my heart’<br />
ribbon and balloon. The walk ended back in the<br />
open green where families connected and enjoyed<br />
lunch, donated by local businesses.
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The National <strong>Walk</strong>
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Thank you for another successful <strong>Walk</strong> for Remembrance & Hope!<br />
-The National <strong>Share</strong> Staff