Jul/Aug 2006 - Korean War Veterans Association
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60<br />
THE<br />
LOVER<br />
BY HARLEY L. WEDEL<br />
We were both young when we met, and passion ran high,<br />
at least on my part. After all, she was my first true love;<br />
consequently, she would always be the best so far as I<br />
was concerned.<br />
Idid feel my memory of her had been<br />
badly betrayed as I read about the<br />
attempted suicide. Still, I had not followed<br />
her career closely since we parted, so<br />
truly I had no real claim on her. Nor, of<br />
course, did I have a responsibility for anything<br />
happening to her, since we separated<br />
to travel down life’s differing pathways.<br />
We were both young when we met, and<br />
passion ran high, at least on my part. After<br />
all, she was my first true love; consequently,<br />
she would always be the best so far as I<br />
was concerned. After all, how could any<br />
other lover begin to match the first, the one<br />
who taught you so much about things<br />
unknown until the day you met?<br />
Yet, because of our relationship in the<br />
past, the siren song of old was ringing in my<br />
ears. I knew it was only the irresistible<br />
memory of her drawing me back. Simply<br />
put, I had to see her again, and I was thinking<br />
foolishly that perhaps a way could be<br />
found to help ease the pain she must be suffering.<br />
I found where she was staying, but an<br />
inner voice told me not to just walk up and<br />
say, “Hi, Sweetheart, remember me?” This<br />
was because I had been neither the first nor<br />
last of the many lovers in her life. Such an<br />
off-hand greeting after so many years would<br />
surely be a bad way to handle a re-introduction.<br />
Also, she didn’t need any more shame<br />
or pain than she was experiencing already.<br />
Perhaps not before, but certainly after<br />
her dive into the river, guardians surrounded<br />
my lover at all times, so I decided to find<br />
a viewing place where neither she nor they<br />
would be aware I was spying on them.<br />
It took a while to locate, but finally I<br />
found a secluded spot from where she could<br />
be observed in her misery. A wild thought<br />
crossed my mind, and I wondered if it<br />
would be<br />
possible to act as a Knight in Shining<br />
Armor, galloping in on a white charger to<br />
aid her, my damsel in distress.<br />
It took only a glance to realize I could no<br />
longer recognize this lady who had meant<br />
so much to me in earlier times. The intervening<br />
years had drastically changed her,<br />
and certainly not for the better.<br />
A short distance away another fellow<br />
was doing what I had arrived for. He, too,<br />
was watching the warders’ work with my<br />
dearest love. About my age, or perhaps a bit<br />
older, he was just sitting there staring at my<br />
once-was-lover with a tear running down<br />
his cheek.<br />
He acknowledged my presence with a<br />
gruff, “Are you one of ‘em too?” To which<br />
I could only reply, “What-’n-hell do you<br />
mean by that?”<br />
“Oh, nothing, I guess,” he said. “It’s just<br />
that a couple other fellows came by here in<br />
the past day or so. They all wanted to see<br />
her, but nobody cared to get too close. It<br />
seems they are driven to pay last respects<br />
even though she ain’t gone yet.” He went<br />
on, “Each one of them admitted to, and even<br />
bragged about, having had an affair with<br />
her, and I suppose there’s even more mourning<br />
lovers out there who can’t bear to come<br />
see her.”<br />
“I had no idea,” I said, “although it<br />
sounds about right. When I knew her well<br />
she was always vibrant and full of life. In<br />
those days she seemed able to handle anything<br />
coming her way, but that was when I<br />
was so full of her it was impossible to even<br />
think there might be others who also loved<br />
her as I did.”<br />
“Too true,” he responded, and then he<br />
paused as if to reflect on how to express his<br />
feelings in words. Finally, he stated, “She<br />
had lots of lovers, many at the same time,<br />
but never was she cheating on any of ‘em or<br />
bein’ fickle. Each one was as important to<br />
her as another, and never did she fail to give<br />
each one of them a full measure of herself.”<br />
We fell into a silent vigil then, simply<br />
gazing at our former mistress. It sure<br />
seemed odd, two men just sitting there<br />
together talking about a mutual love and<br />
neither feeling the least bit jealous of the<br />
other.<br />
We spent some time gazing at the spectacle<br />
before us. Then, when conversation<br />
resumed, we compared notes about how our<br />
paramour had come to town. We knew she<br />
had been busy over the years, with both<br />
good and bad experiences. Yet, through it<br />
all she had proven to be a great trooper, her<br />
performances always meeting or exceeding<br />
expectations.<br />
On the verge of some real tears, we<br />
decided her try at suicide would have ended<br />
better had it been successful, simply<br />
because the torture she was going through<br />
in front of us was absolutely terrible. Given<br />
present conditions, we concluded her spirit<br />
(probably her soul as well) had been lost<br />
during the painful episode on the river’s<br />
bottom before being rescued<br />
For this we were grateful, and it did ease<br />
some of our concerns, yet we were left wondering<br />
just what she was experiencing. Was<br />
she feeling anything at all?<br />
Shadows lengthened, and just before the<br />
lights were turned on, we watched years<br />
melt away as she seemingly regained the<br />
shape and beauty of her former self.<br />
Dusk deepened; soon, the yard-lights did<br />
come on. This caused reality to return and<br />
hit us right between the eyes. Realizing<br />
there was nothing we could do for her, we<br />
stood as if to go. Yet, both of us remained<br />
rooted to the spot for a short while longer.<br />
Taking a last longing look at our former<br />
beauty, we snuffled, dried our eyes, and<br />
then left for the nearest watering hole to literally<br />
cry in our beer. We knew, for all practical<br />
purposes, she’d been dead since the<br />
suicide attempt. Starting our own personal<br />
wake, we began regaling each other by<br />
swapping stories and anecdotes about her<br />
for an hour or more. Some were of times we<br />
shared, others were about separate experiences.<br />
During one of the quiet spells, my newfound<br />
friend suddenly got rather upset and<br />
cursed the people we saw around her saying,<br />
“Those bastards are nothing but a<br />
bunch of vultures. How can they even sleep<br />
nights after what they do every day?”<br />
Agreeing with him, I replied, “People in<br />
their line of work have no feelings. When<br />
those jackals get through the only thing left<br />
<strong>Jul</strong>y - <strong>Aug</strong>ust A<br />
<strong>2006</strong><br />
The Graybeards