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Mari Freeman<br />
“I need to talk. I need to tell you.” He was silent for a minute. She heard a large<br />
intake of breath, as if he were gearing up for something. “My father and my<br />
grandfather both killed their mates in fits of rage.”<br />
She head his footsteps cross her room. Nell held her breath.<br />
“Probably my great-grandfather as well. It’s a sickness. I have it too. I feel it<br />
constantly. Even when you were gone, I felt the constant jealousy. When Mi-ma told me<br />
you were living in that Vampire nest, I destroyed half an acre of trees. Took an axe to<br />
them. Hacked for hours.”<br />
“I—”<br />
“Nell, let me speak, please.” His voice was soft.<br />
She stayed still and kept her eyes closed.<br />
“I’ve always loved you. And I have always fought to keep you far enough out of<br />
my life to keep you safe. I don’t want to hurt you. I didn’t want to know what it was<br />
like to feel your body. Because I was afraid once we were intimate, I wouldn’t be able to<br />
resist. And then I’d be destined to repeat the sins of my fathers. I can’t, Nell. I can’t be<br />
what you need, what you deserve.”<br />
Nell had heard stories about his mother’s death in high school, but considered them<br />
rumors based in teenage angst. She’d never even asked Mi-ma or her father about them.<br />
So all this was to keep from hurting her? All these years?<br />
“I’m trying to protect you, not only from Crey, but from myself.”<br />
More tears started rolling down her face. She had been self-centered. In all this time,<br />
she had never considered he might have serious reasons for shutting her out. She had<br />
thought she knew and understood her wolf.<br />
She was wrong. This changed everything.<br />
She thought back to the last time he’d rejected her, back when they were kids really,<br />
and it had felt as if the world were ending. He’d been a jerk then too, intentionally<br />
pushing her away. Trying to get her to go on with her life even though he’d loved her.<br />
A romantic gesture, sure, but…<br />
“Do you think I can just quit?” She wasn’t sure if he was still in the room or not. He<br />
was still close. Trent wouldn’t leave her vulnerable to Crey, she knew that, but was he<br />
still in the room?<br />
She sat up to check. He stood at the end of the bed. He looked even more tired than<br />
she felt.<br />
“You have to, Nell.” His eyes were pleading. “I don’t have the willpower anymore.<br />
I proved that on the playground. I can’t stand not touching you. At the same time, I<br />
can’t stand the thought of hurting you. I need you to do this for us, Nell.”<br />
She’d never seen him show weakness to anyone. It broke her heart. “Come lay<br />
down.”<br />
He closed his eyes and let his shoulders drop. “That’s not exactly helpful.”<br />
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