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EXPERIENCES IN A CONCENTRATION CAMP<br />
me childish relief) "who looked so vulgar and brutal<br />
that the nurse in the out-patient ward in my hospital<br />
would not even have admitted him to the waiting<br />
room."<br />
Fortunately the Capo in my working party was<br />
obligated to me; he had taken a liking to me because I<br />
listened to his love stories and matrimonial troubles,<br />
which he poured out during the long marches to our<br />
work site. I had made an impression on him with my<br />
diagnosis of his character and with my psychotherapeutic<br />
advice. After that he was grateful, and this had<br />
already been of value to me. On several previous<br />
occasions he had reserved a place <strong>for</strong> me next to him<br />
in one of the first five rows of our detachment, which<br />
usually consisted of two hundred and eighty men. That<br />
favor was important. We had to line up early in the<br />
morning while it was still dark. Everybody was afraid<br />
of being late and of having to stand in the back rows. If<br />
men were required <strong>for</strong> an unpleasant and disliked job,<br />
the senior Capo appeared and usually collected the<br />
men he needed from the back rows. These men had to<br />
march away to another, especially dreaded kind of<br />
work under the com<strong>man</strong>d of strange guards. Occasionally<br />
the senior Capo chose men from the first five<br />
rows, just to catch those who tried to be clever. All<br />
protests and entreaties were silenced by a few wellaimed<br />
kicks, and the chosen victims were chased to<br />
the meeting place with shouts and blows.<br />
However, as long as my Capo felt the need of<br />
pouring out his heart, this could not happen to me. I<br />
had a guaranteed place of honor next to him. But there<br />
was another advantage, too. Like nearly all the camp<br />
inmates I was suffering from edema. My legs were so<br />
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