CONFIDENCE IN DISGUISE
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Finding Your FIERCE<br />
Katie Kinnemeyer<br />
I am 28 years old and I am FIERCE.<br />
And you’re FIERCE too. Do you know that?<br />
If so, high five yourself! If not, high five<br />
yourself anyway! Because you are... but it’s<br />
understandable if you don’t know it yet...<br />
My FIERCEness is directly correlated to my<br />
evolution as a female. I didn’t really enjoy my<br />
experience as a female until recently, and that’s<br />
because I’ve always had this nagging feeling<br />
that there was something – this invisible force<br />
field – that directed me down a certain path,<br />
and when I tried to deviate it would bounce me<br />
back to its own trajectory. It’s taken me a solid<br />
28 years to 1) figure out I am a FIERCE being,<br />
and 2) believe that 24/7.<br />
Ladies, we are recipients of a centuries-old<br />
legacy that just doesn’t work in the 21st<br />
century (really, it never did). For millennia,<br />
women played a role in society that was largely<br />
determined for them, not by them, with them<br />
having no say in the matter. Their FIERCE was<br />
diminished, if not extinguished, by the stories<br />
their societies were telling them about their<br />
“place” in society.<br />
FIERCE = bold, fiery, intense, passionate,<br />
powerful, relentless, strong, untamed, wild.<br />
FIERCE = no more following the script that has<br />
been laid out for you.<br />
FIERCE = having control over your own<br />
agency, and blasting it out into the world.<br />
Taking control over your own agency means<br />
you are making your own moves. You know to<br />
the depths of your soul who you are and you<br />
interact with the world accordingly. You are<br />
a FIERCE being who doesn’t act according to<br />
others’ wishes or expectations – you act from<br />
your core, your center.<br />
I can remember starting my journey to<br />
discovering my state of FIERCE when I was 15.<br />
It didn’t really click until I was 27. But when it<br />
did click, I didn’t want to be anything other than<br />
FIERCE. I started figuring out how to be more<br />
FIERCE more often, and bring that energy into<br />
my life so I can put my FIERCE energy back into<br />
the universe.<br />
Here are the steps I’ve taken to make sure<br />
I’m living my life more and more FIERCELY<br />
everyday.<br />
NOTICE.<br />
The first step to finding your FIERCE is simple:<br />
start paying attention. WAKE UP! Start noticing<br />
the times when you are following a script that<br />
is not your own. You can find your own clues<br />
by noticing when something doesn’t sit well<br />
with you, or make sense to you. When you pay<br />
attention to these moments, you’ll naturally start<br />
questioning what is going on in those situations,<br />
and why it doesn’t make sense to you.<br />
When I was in high school, I was expected to<br />
follow this path: get good grades go to college,<br />
get a secure job, get married, have a family, live<br />
happily ever after. This story was constantly<br />
reinforced (it still is) – by my family, teachers,<br />
career counselors, peers, Disney movies, the<br />
media, you name it. For the most part, I bought<br />
into this story up until it was time to get my first<br />
job after graduate school.<br />
I graduated with my MBA during the first year<br />
of the recession. The story for newly-minted<br />
MBA graduates is that the next logical step<br />
is to immediately start working in a secure,<br />
predictable, well-paying corporate job. When I<br />
started grad school, my goal was to have a job<br />
at Procter & Gamble when I graduated. In my<br />
first few months, I met someone at P&G who did<br />
exactly what I wanted to do, and I convinced<br />
him to informally train me. I learned a lot about<br />
what it was like to work at P&G, and I realized<br />
it was not appealing. Around the same time, I<br />
discovered I love the energy at startups and<br />
small companies.<br />
All of the sudden, I felt an internal resistance as<br />
I applied for jobs in the corporate world. When<br />
I considered other options, I realized I needed<br />
to do something so I wouldn’t stay stuck in the<br />
MBA graduate story, where I was beginning to<br />
suspect I didn’t belong, which brings me to the<br />
next step of finding your FIERCE:<br />
REBEL. LOUDLY.<br />
When you start paying attention to something<br />
that doesn’t sit well with you, it’s hard not to<br />
do something about it. This is where you rebel!<br />
I’m not talking about breaking rules just to be a<br />
punk, but deviating from the script you’ve been<br />
unknowingly playing by all along, and making<br />
tweaks to the story until it starts making sense<br />
to you.<br />
I didn’t get a job until 7 months after I graduated.<br />
The delay was uncomfortable (MBA’s are<br />
supposed to graduate with a job lined up!), but<br />
I knew that settling for a job that would make<br />
me miserable would be unbearable. My first<br />
job was a 3-month contract working for a small<br />
interactive firm. No benefits, and no guarantee<br />
of employment beyond 3 months. Despite my<br />
parents’ concern, I jumped on this job, because it<br />
was my first foray into a field I really wanted to<br />
be in.