e Little River Review - Gorham High School!

Jack Trapper
I can wait
I Can Wait
I miss you.
I miss you like I miss warmth
At the end of a long, painful, cold day, I miss you.
And I have to look at you,
Like a starving man looks at food through glass,
Able to see but nothing else.
I tell myself that you’re happier. It helps.
I tell myself you’re better o� with him
He’s a better guy
I’m not good enough for you.
It helps.
I tell myself I can grit my teeth
And take the pain
A self-made martyr.
I’ll be hurt if that means you’ll be happy.
But you aren’t happy.
For the �rst time in your life,
You’re having doubts
Maybe regrets.
I try to tell myself it’s just the guilt.
It’s just natural.
But a part of me wants to believe it’s more.
A big part of me.
People tell me to forget it
Let it go
She doesn’t deserve you
She’ll just hurt you again
I laugh at that one.
�ey don’t get it.
I’m already hurt.
Tell a man in pain he can’t have pain meds,
Because he’ll get addicted and when he has to stop it’ll
hurt
You think he’ll listen?
No.
I’m already hurt.
You tell me you wish I hated you.
I don’t hate you.
You want to feel worse, take my pain
But I won’t let you.
I love you.
I love you and it hurts.
You always treat yourself worse than everyone else.
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Like you don’t deserve human emotion.
Basic human rights.
Look, you are human.
Just like the rest of us.
I don’t blame you.
You want me to, but I wont.
I just want you to love me again.
I hope someday you might �nd you still do.
I don’t know if you will.
But I’ll wait.
People tell me not to tie myself down to someone
who obviously doesn’t return the feelings.
But you used to.
Maybe you still do.
Maybe it just wasn’t the right time.
Maybe I’m just fooling myself.
Maybe I’m just being a teenager.
Probably.
But I doubt it.
I love you.
I miss you.
I can wait...