Stories from the Edge - Volunteer Now
Stories from the Edge - Volunteer Now
Stories from the Edge - Volunteer Now
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some it looked as if <strong>the</strong> Time was Nigh. But such a frightening tactic assumes that those watching are perfectly healthyboth in mind and body."No one thought about those struggling to cope both in and out of <strong>the</strong> closet,” according to David McCartney. Hisexperience of medical experts alerting <strong>the</strong> gay community to <strong>the</strong> danger within, was cold and clinical. This was objectivescience. The object at <strong>the</strong> o<strong>the</strong>r end of <strong>the</strong> microsope or <strong>the</strong> end of <strong>the</strong> scalpel was just that - an object. No longer arehuman beings part of such a process. The natural scientist seeks truth. The objectivity is above and beyond subject's basicneed for tender loving care. "The humanity isforgotten somewhere along <strong>the</strong> line,” according“its flag was to be <strong>the</strong>rainbow, <strong>the</strong> universalsymbol of unity”to David. The only gay people who take a steptowards protecting <strong>the</strong>mselves are those withhigh grade self esteem. Most gay men in <strong>the</strong>ir30s and 40s and older have grown up in andcome through a society where <strong>the</strong>y wereencouraged to hide <strong>the</strong>ir homosexuality.Despite <strong>the</strong> 300 year old claims of <strong>the</strong>Enlightenment to reject traditional authorityand embrace a humanist perspective, gay menare still victims of dogma. Heterosexualmarriage is <strong>the</strong> highest value. To be gay was to be a freak, a deviant, perverse. The self image in <strong>the</strong> mirror is of a shatteredpersonality living <strong>the</strong> life of deception. Lack of self esteem resulted in high levels of depression and high rates of suicideamong <strong>the</strong> gay community. Many gay men suffer nervous breakdowns as run of <strong>the</strong> mill. Many hide <strong>the</strong>ir sexual orientationbecause of homophobia among <strong>the</strong>ir peer group. Ironically some of <strong>the</strong> virulent gay bashers are in reality closet gays clearlyin denial. Surveys suggest that a gay man is 70 times more likely to attempt suicide. This in turn can have a knock on effectby imposing suicide guilt on those who survived or are left bewildered and frightened. David McCartney has lost severalgay friends who tried to square a gay circle in a hetero-world. The impact on him has been devastating. He admits he isoften confused why some people who seem to be coping, and even coming to terms with being gay, <strong>the</strong>n kill <strong>the</strong>mselves.He admits in <strong>the</strong> words of Shakespeare, "There is no art to define <strong>the</strong> mind in <strong>the</strong> face. I think <strong>the</strong> social and personalisolation play a big part. You would never believe <strong>the</strong> terrible feeling of isolation allied to <strong>the</strong> inability to deal with <strong>the</strong>internal conflict,” he said.Psychological problems are a major difficulty for <strong>the</strong> Rainbow Project. It now has a counsellor whom like David is also avolunteer. He sees <strong>the</strong> project’s task is to 'empower' <strong>the</strong> individual to take control of his life. However it was <strong>the</strong> physicalhealth problems that were life threatening. Rainbow volunteers give out information into a range of diseases. They alsoprovide details of how <strong>the</strong>se can be avoided. David is not going down <strong>the</strong> way of <strong>the</strong> early government health adverts with<strong>the</strong>ir emphasis of scaring <strong>the</strong> hell out of people. Instead he tells how Rainbow has developed a series of fun cards similarto <strong>the</strong> Pokamon cards which can be collected. The idea behind such promotion is to produce a positive attitude towardshealth care and hopefully change gay men's behaviour.