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- Page 4 and 5: 4 Chapter 1: A First Goodbye Kiriko
- Page 8 and 9: It was a bizarre thing - separated
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- Page 16 and 17: 16 There was a high-school baseball
- Page 18 and 19: getting so happy about?” “There
- Page 20 and 21: money, and even being happy isn’t
- Page 22 and 23: But as much as I looked for them, I
- Page 24 and 25: man who appeared to be her boyfrien
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- Page 42 and 43: I pondered his words. But as much a
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- Page 46 and 47: 46 Chapter 3: Scoring Points I thou
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56 her joke. “So anyway, what abo
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like a spider web. Sitting down, I
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“Did you have a fight?” “No,
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pulled the covers up to her mouth.
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death - wears off, everything that
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66 “Quit while you’re ahead,”
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68 shoulders ease up. “What are t
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have to double up the layers. Can y
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72 An awkward silence prevailed.
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pullover with gray parents. She wor
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After about ten seconds, he held hi
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was a powerful smell of death that
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discussion had no place here. “Le
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endering me unable to play piano, a
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car. The blood that had sprayed ont
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The art student was looking down at
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88 I took the blouse out of the was
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“I think you’re under a misunde
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Chapter 5: The Girl and the Dressma
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misunderstanding didn’t last long
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they looked like exaggerated stars
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Since I figured she might need them
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100 According to the girl, her next
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102 potatoes weren’t heated very
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104 step too late, the back entranc
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106 It was a chilling night. It was
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108 the woman’s corpse was found,
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110 barely beat out the girl. For s
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112 explanations she gave me, she d
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114 But after a few minutes, she ge
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116 of the blades. Only the minimum
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118 The girl sat on her bed, facing
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120 “Nope, I made her cry. She hi
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122 shape of icicle makes you want
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124 Following the girl’s directio
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126 “Yo, Akazuki,” he said to t
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128 me, but - ever since the day I
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130 “By the way, guy in the sungl
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132 He held down her arms against h
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134 The image of my pinky falling o
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136 breath. I got off the man and w
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138 nearly made me nauseous. All cu
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140 for. With the addition of our e
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142 “Hey!” Turning around as my
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144 then was told “Oh, it’s hal
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146 I felt a weight on my shoulder.
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148 the stove. I tended to make it
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150 I removed my hand from her knee
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152 Chapter 7: A Wise Choice The so
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154 around in your condition. And y
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156 pinky. “Did you wash this?”
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158 I remained silent, then heard a
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160 However, I only wrote about twi
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162 haven’t thought deeply about
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164 With no time to explain that on
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166 alone.” “I see. Well, tell
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168 But in the end, all I got from
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170 “I don’t get what that mean
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172 Ultimately, I was a person unab
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174 I finished shopping and returne
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176 “Well, why don’t you try ac
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178 Buying clothes, listening to mu
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180 ---------- I lept awake in the
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182 no disgust or guilt. Instead, I
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184 taking revenge. So please, don
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186 to the station. The screeching
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188 the victims were just numbers t
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190 strong will to keep my postpone
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192 forward to the moment she stabb
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194 at random.” “A joyride, you
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196 She asked her first question.
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198 By then, I realized what she me
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200 Alas, I listened to three songs
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202 snow as this light and fluffy p
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204 She’d left me a few clues. I
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206 she left. She’d left just one
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208 covered her eyes with my hands.
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210 “But that desperate effort ca
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212 escaped into alcohol. I bought
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214 Kiriko and I barely talked on t
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216 Chapter 9: Let There Be Love My
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218 Immediately, she put the electr
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220 I looked terrible in the mirror
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222 to music, yes, but I also wante
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224 Every element that made him up
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226 He’d beat me for the most tri
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228 Mizuho into becoming my penpal.
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230 met in five years simply becaus
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232 “Hey,” he replied. Definite
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234 correspondence was perfectly he
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236 I was strong enough to resist i
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238 watching, and I didn’t have t
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240 Until the moment I well and tru
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242 you,” said his eyes. So I rep
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244 get there within thirty minutes
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246 I thanked him and accepted it,
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248 Surprisingly, my “much too co
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250 ---------- Having thought only
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252 to your one-person rhythm. So f
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254 Yet a month after my reunion wi
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256 went to pick it up, and saw it
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258 worry him any further. As we wa
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260 “What is it?” Suddenly, Miz
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262 the gazebo. I yawned endlessly,
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264 “I’ll be honest with you an
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266 Mizuho closed the curtains, tur
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268 Mizuho sat on the bed, and I pu
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270 I wouldn’t be able to postpon
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272 Completely separating my mind f
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274 being someone else’s business
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276 He walked with me on his back.
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278 He said he wanted to ride the F
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280 remained 17, just the way I was
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282 fallen over. The boarding platf
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284 Just like the days when we list
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286 The letters Kiriko and I exchan
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288 Afterword There are a lot of ho