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NAOMI<br />

CAITLIN<br />

Often, when I tell other non-religious<br />

people that I’m reading the Bible with<br />

my girlfriend, I get a blank look and a<br />

‘why?’ Fair question, especially coming<br />

from people who’ve known me for a<br />

while.<br />

Until I went to university, I was the kind<br />

of atheist who had never given much<br />

thought to religion, except to assume<br />

that a) it was all a bit pointless and b)<br />

nobody my age was actually, properly<br />

religious - were they? And then I<br />

moved into halls of residence and met<br />

my neighbour, a Christian. We got on.<br />

We became friends. Through her, I met<br />

other Christians, and became friends<br />

with them too. Then, just over three<br />

years ago, I started going out with one<br />

of them. And she’s not just a Christian,<br />

she’s a theology student! Sometimes I<br />

go with her to church, or to Bible study.<br />

And although I can often be heard<br />

loudly asking how this became my life<br />

as I listen to yet another debate on the<br />

finer points of Anglican theology, here I<br />

am. Reading the Bible.<br />

That’s a lot to tell someone in one go<br />

though, so I say I’m doing it because<br />

it’s interesting. Which it is. What I don’t<br />

explain (because it’s personal and a bit<br />

mushy) is that I want to actively try to<br />

understand more about Christianity,<br />

about the Bible’s place in it, and about<br />

faith in general, not just to satisfy my<br />

own curiosity but because it is a part<br />

of who my girlfriend is. Before we got<br />

together, I would never have guessed<br />

how significant her faith and my lack of<br />

it would be in our relationship. Reading<br />

the Bible and talking through each<br />

chapter has sparked some interesting<br />

and revealing conversations about<br />

where our beliefs intersect and diverge.<br />

Inevitably, our longest and most<br />

interesting conversations have been<br />

about the Gospels. When Caitlin<br />

converted, she accepted Jesus Christ<br />

as her Lord and Saviour. For me, He’s<br />

more of a vague acquaintance. It is<br />

when we read the Gospels that I am<br />

most aware that the Bible is not only<br />

a cultural artefact but a holy text. I’m<br />

sure that most of the people reading<br />

this will consider that an eye-rollingly<br />

obvious thing to say, but I haven’t<br />

always known it and I think that’s true<br />

of a lot of people who grew up without<br />

a religion. It is sobering to remember<br />

that what I see as an intellectual<br />

exercise, Caitlin sees as central to her<br />

faith.<br />

Every story and every person in the<br />

Bible has been different to what I was<br />

expecting, and this is true of Jesus<br />

as well. I genuinely thought that the<br />

Bible was going to be full of boringly<br />

good people being boringly virtuous<br />

- how did that rumour get started?!<br />

The Jesus I am confronted with in the<br />

Gospels is neither the gentle hippy<br />

that many other atheists talk about<br />

(‘he was just a great moral teacher!’),<br />

nor the terrifying judge that people<br />

wearing sandwich boards in the city<br />

centre shout about. What I am mainly<br />

struck by is that what Jesus is asking<br />

you to do is really hard. It is nice, as<br />

an atheist, to be free to disregard the<br />

difficult, boring or unpleasant parts of<br />

the Bible, to not have to wrestle with<br />

Jesus’ commandment to give up all<br />

material possessions, or to cut off my<br />

right hand if it causes me to sin. Still,<br />

this experience has made me examine<br />

my own beliefs and behaviour. Like<br />

Harry Potter, I have to choose between<br />

what is right, and what is easy.<br />

I could talk a lot more about what<br />

I’ve got from this experience - how<br />

disappointed I was when I found out<br />

that Exodus isn’t quite the same as<br />

Dreamworks’ The Prince of Egypt,<br />

how much I’ve enjoyed telling various<br />

long-suffering friends and relatives<br />

what went down between Jacob and<br />

Esau, how I instantly became obsessed<br />

with John the Baptist - but ultimately<br />

what it has been is a challenge. I have<br />

questioned my own thoughts and<br />

reactions every bit as much as I’ve<br />

questioned Caitlin’s, and I certainly still<br />

have more questions than answers.<br />

And I’m still not a Christian. But I think<br />

it’s been good for me, and I want to<br />

keep going.<br />

NAOMI BERRY<br />

With glee, I suggested to Naomi that<br />

we take part in my Church’s ‘Bible in<br />

a year’ challenge. I didn’t think that<br />

this would stop the barrage of daily<br />

questions about Christianity, but I did<br />

think that it would give her context<br />

for my own explanations of theology,<br />

orthodoxy, and the quirks of the<br />

Church.<br />

Naomi is intelligent, and I knew she<br />

would love the strangeness of biblical<br />

texts, especially the Hebrew Bible. The<br />

trickster Jacob and the fool Esau, the<br />

drama of Exodus, and the polemic of<br />

David’s psalms delighted her, and it<br />

has been even more delightful for me<br />

to read these with her. Bible study has<br />

been fun with texts from the Hebrew<br />

Bible. Reading Ruth together was<br />

wonderful because we were able to<br />

discuss the various interpretations<br />

of the relationship between Ruth and<br />

Naomi, arguing over which made the<br />

most sense and conceding that more<br />

than one reading can be applied.<br />

Reading the New Testament has been<br />

less fun for me. Because it is more<br />

central to my faith, the challenges that<br />

came from Naomi felt more personal<br />

to me. I didn’t mind laughing over the<br />

stupidity of Abraham trying to pass<br />

his wife off as his sister, but I did mind<br />

criticism of Jesus. I was constantly<br />

gauging her reaction to Him and giving<br />

my own explanation of the text, figuring<br />

out where I stood in relation to it and<br />

trying to convince her to agree with me.<br />

It reminded me very much of reading<br />

these texts myself for the first time; I<br />

converted from atheism at 19, went<br />

to university to read English and came<br />

out with a Theology degree specialising<br />

in biblical studies. Because of my<br />

experience of studying the Bible with<br />

other Christians and other students, I<br />

thought I would be able to approach<br />

this objectively. I was prepared - I had<br />

my theology textbooks, my knowledge<br />

of biblical exegesis, and some of the<br />

apologist arguments I was fond of<br />

when I first converted.<br />

But objectivity has not happened.<br />

Something about reading the Gospels<br />

with someone who I love and respect,<br />

and in our home, meant that I was<br />

much closer to reading it devotionally,<br />

but I was still being confronted with<br />

criticisms I would expect to be fielded<br />

in a university or evangelistic setting. I<br />

had read the Gospels critically before, I<br />

had read them with Christians before,<br />

but never before had I read it in a<br />

personal way with someone who wasn’t<br />

a scholar and wasn’t a Christian, but<br />

who early on grasped the elementals<br />

of exegesis. I’ve suddenly become<br />

equally yoked with someone in terms of<br />

biblical interpretation, except that their<br />

views often differ greatly from my own.<br />

This hit me harder than I expected,<br />

especially when Naomi didn’t like<br />

something that Jesus said or disliked<br />

one of my favourite verses. However,<br />

giving concise reasons for why I<br />

found something beautiful or morally<br />

challenging helped me to understand<br />

my own relationship to the Gospels.<br />

I feel like layers of interpretation and<br />

certainty have been pulled away and I<br />

am left looking at the Bible in its raw<br />

and powerful complexity. And this<br />

will happen again and again as I keep<br />

rereading it. And I will encourage<br />

others to read the Bible for themselves,<br />

and not as a means of conversion. The<br />

Bible is more than John 3:16, and more<br />

than an ancient text. It is a holy text,<br />

but it is also a cultural artefact. There<br />

is so much interpretation, so much<br />

which needs to be contextualised,<br />

dissected, explained and contested.<br />

We have as much right to embrace this<br />

odd collection of books as previous<br />

generations have - creating meaning,<br />

and insight, and most importantly<br />

destabilising the truths, reactions and<br />

certainties we had previously taken<br />

from them. We should remember<br />

this, the weirdness of these texts,<br />

their plurality and mystery and the<br />

fascination that they hold not just for<br />

Christians, but for everyone. Reading<br />

the Bible is an end in itself, not merely<br />

a means to substitutionary salvation.<br />

CAITLIN WAKEFIELD<br />

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