Movement magazine issue 154
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NAOMI<br />
CAITLIN<br />
Often, when I tell other non-religious<br />
people that I’m reading the Bible with<br />
my girlfriend, I get a blank look and a<br />
‘why?’ Fair question, especially coming<br />
from people who’ve known me for a<br />
while.<br />
Until I went to university, I was the kind<br />
of atheist who had never given much<br />
thought to religion, except to assume<br />
that a) it was all a bit pointless and b)<br />
nobody my age was actually, properly<br />
religious - were they? And then I<br />
moved into halls of residence and met<br />
my neighbour, a Christian. We got on.<br />
We became friends. Through her, I met<br />
other Christians, and became friends<br />
with them too. Then, just over three<br />
years ago, I started going out with one<br />
of them. And she’s not just a Christian,<br />
she’s a theology student! Sometimes I<br />
go with her to church, or to Bible study.<br />
And although I can often be heard<br />
loudly asking how this became my life<br />
as I listen to yet another debate on the<br />
finer points of Anglican theology, here I<br />
am. Reading the Bible.<br />
That’s a lot to tell someone in one go<br />
though, so I say I’m doing it because<br />
it’s interesting. Which it is. What I don’t<br />
explain (because it’s personal and a bit<br />
mushy) is that I want to actively try to<br />
understand more about Christianity,<br />
about the Bible’s place in it, and about<br />
faith in general, not just to satisfy my<br />
own curiosity but because it is a part<br />
of who my girlfriend is. Before we got<br />
together, I would never have guessed<br />
how significant her faith and my lack of<br />
it would be in our relationship. Reading<br />
the Bible and talking through each<br />
chapter has sparked some interesting<br />
and revealing conversations about<br />
where our beliefs intersect and diverge.<br />
Inevitably, our longest and most<br />
interesting conversations have been<br />
about the Gospels. When Caitlin<br />
converted, she accepted Jesus Christ<br />
as her Lord and Saviour. For me, He’s<br />
more of a vague acquaintance. It is<br />
when we read the Gospels that I am<br />
most aware that the Bible is not only<br />
a cultural artefact but a holy text. I’m<br />
sure that most of the people reading<br />
this will consider that an eye-rollingly<br />
obvious thing to say, but I haven’t<br />
always known it and I think that’s true<br />
of a lot of people who grew up without<br />
a religion. It is sobering to remember<br />
that what I see as an intellectual<br />
exercise, Caitlin sees as central to her<br />
faith.<br />
Every story and every person in the<br />
Bible has been different to what I was<br />
expecting, and this is true of Jesus<br />
as well. I genuinely thought that the<br />
Bible was going to be full of boringly<br />
good people being boringly virtuous<br />
- how did that rumour get started?!<br />
The Jesus I am confronted with in the<br />
Gospels is neither the gentle hippy<br />
that many other atheists talk about<br />
(‘he was just a great moral teacher!’),<br />
nor the terrifying judge that people<br />
wearing sandwich boards in the city<br />
centre shout about. What I am mainly<br />
struck by is that what Jesus is asking<br />
you to do is really hard. It is nice, as<br />
an atheist, to be free to disregard the<br />
difficult, boring or unpleasant parts of<br />
the Bible, to not have to wrestle with<br />
Jesus’ commandment to give up all<br />
material possessions, or to cut off my<br />
right hand if it causes me to sin. Still,<br />
this experience has made me examine<br />
my own beliefs and behaviour. Like<br />
Harry Potter, I have to choose between<br />
what is right, and what is easy.<br />
I could talk a lot more about what<br />
I’ve got from this experience - how<br />
disappointed I was when I found out<br />
that Exodus isn’t quite the same as<br />
Dreamworks’ The Prince of Egypt,<br />
how much I’ve enjoyed telling various<br />
long-suffering friends and relatives<br />
what went down between Jacob and<br />
Esau, how I instantly became obsessed<br />
with John the Baptist - but ultimately<br />
what it has been is a challenge. I have<br />
questioned my own thoughts and<br />
reactions every bit as much as I’ve<br />
questioned Caitlin’s, and I certainly still<br />
have more questions than answers.<br />
And I’m still not a Christian. But I think<br />
it’s been good for me, and I want to<br />
keep going.<br />
NAOMI BERRY<br />
With glee, I suggested to Naomi that<br />
we take part in my Church’s ‘Bible in<br />
a year’ challenge. I didn’t think that<br />
this would stop the barrage of daily<br />
questions about Christianity, but I did<br />
think that it would give her context<br />
for my own explanations of theology,<br />
orthodoxy, and the quirks of the<br />
Church.<br />
Naomi is intelligent, and I knew she<br />
would love the strangeness of biblical<br />
texts, especially the Hebrew Bible. The<br />
trickster Jacob and the fool Esau, the<br />
drama of Exodus, and the polemic of<br />
David’s psalms delighted her, and it<br />
has been even more delightful for me<br />
to read these with her. Bible study has<br />
been fun with texts from the Hebrew<br />
Bible. Reading Ruth together was<br />
wonderful because we were able to<br />
discuss the various interpretations<br />
of the relationship between Ruth and<br />
Naomi, arguing over which made the<br />
most sense and conceding that more<br />
than one reading can be applied.<br />
Reading the New Testament has been<br />
less fun for me. Because it is more<br />
central to my faith, the challenges that<br />
came from Naomi felt more personal<br />
to me. I didn’t mind laughing over the<br />
stupidity of Abraham trying to pass<br />
his wife off as his sister, but I did mind<br />
criticism of Jesus. I was constantly<br />
gauging her reaction to Him and giving<br />
my own explanation of the text, figuring<br />
out where I stood in relation to it and<br />
trying to convince her to agree with me.<br />
It reminded me very much of reading<br />
these texts myself for the first time; I<br />
converted from atheism at 19, went<br />
to university to read English and came<br />
out with a Theology degree specialising<br />
in biblical studies. Because of my<br />
experience of studying the Bible with<br />
other Christians and other students, I<br />
thought I would be able to approach<br />
this objectively. I was prepared - I had<br />
my theology textbooks, my knowledge<br />
of biblical exegesis, and some of the<br />
apologist arguments I was fond of<br />
when I first converted.<br />
But objectivity has not happened.<br />
Something about reading the Gospels<br />
with someone who I love and respect,<br />
and in our home, meant that I was<br />
much closer to reading it devotionally,<br />
but I was still being confronted with<br />
criticisms I would expect to be fielded<br />
in a university or evangelistic setting. I<br />
had read the Gospels critically before, I<br />
had read them with Christians before,<br />
but never before had I read it in a<br />
personal way with someone who wasn’t<br />
a scholar and wasn’t a Christian, but<br />
who early on grasped the elementals<br />
of exegesis. I’ve suddenly become<br />
equally yoked with someone in terms of<br />
biblical interpretation, except that their<br />
views often differ greatly from my own.<br />
This hit me harder than I expected,<br />
especially when Naomi didn’t like<br />
something that Jesus said or disliked<br />
one of my favourite verses. However,<br />
giving concise reasons for why I<br />
found something beautiful or morally<br />
challenging helped me to understand<br />
my own relationship to the Gospels.<br />
I feel like layers of interpretation and<br />
certainty have been pulled away and I<br />
am left looking at the Bible in its raw<br />
and powerful complexity. And this<br />
will happen again and again as I keep<br />
rereading it. And I will encourage<br />
others to read the Bible for themselves,<br />
and not as a means of conversion. The<br />
Bible is more than John 3:16, and more<br />
than an ancient text. It is a holy text,<br />
but it is also a cultural artefact. There<br />
is so much interpretation, so much<br />
which needs to be contextualised,<br />
dissected, explained and contested.<br />
We have as much right to embrace this<br />
odd collection of books as previous<br />
generations have - creating meaning,<br />
and insight, and most importantly<br />
destabilising the truths, reactions and<br />
certainties we had previously taken<br />
from them. We should remember<br />
this, the weirdness of these texts,<br />
their plurality and mystery and the<br />
fascination that they hold not just for<br />
Christians, but for everyone. Reading<br />
the Bible is an end in itself, not merely<br />
a means to substitutionary salvation.<br />
CAITLIN WAKEFIELD<br />
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