DM Turner- The Esseential psychedelic guide

Some 30 minutes to an hour into the experience I come to an apex. At this
point I have felt that my will determines whether or not I exist, and whether
or not the universe exists. And I could toggle between existence and
non-existence many times within a second. I've even had the impression that
I could cause the universe (which is quite fluid in the moment) to crystallize
in whatever format I desired although I haven't had the impetus to actually
try this.
After this comes the return to regular consciousness, which begins with one
perception out of each million seeming like it's within my familiar
perceptual structure. These "personal perceptions" increase in frequency,
one every 100,000, one every 10,000. Soon I remember my previous
identity. I've never felt this moment as disappointing, as I frequently feel
when coming down from ecstasy. When I realize I'm coming back it feels
more novel like "Wow, I'm coming back, I wonder what life is going to be
like after this experience." Although there is a feeling that the ride's almost
over this part of the experience is quite interesting, with part of my mind
still running circles around the cosmos, and another part reintegrating with
my identity. Often I experience the return portion of the Ketamine Journey
as an alien rebirth experience. Upon returning to the body, visuals will
continue for a while with eyes opened. These can be quite spectacular and
hallucinatory, and bear more resemblance to DMT visuals than other
psychedelic visuals.
45 minutes to an hour after injecting the Ketamine I'm back though there
remain some strange bodily sensations. I tend to feel light (anti-gravity),
slightly dizzy, have poor motor coordination, and a bit nauseous if I move
around. For a couple of hours after the experience I find it best to just relax,
lay in bed, listen to music, etc. until the recovery period has passed.
One problem I find with Ketamine is that the experience is difficult to bring
back and reintegrate with routine reality. Memory of the experience is even
difficult. Within hours after coming back, 99% of the experience is
inaccessible to my current conscious mind. The Ketamme experience is so
bizarre and otherworldly that a normal mind can't even conceive of
experiencing in this manner. It feels as though some part of the mind
protectively closes off access to the dimensions experienced on Ketamine.
I've recently found a method that is proving effective at solving this
problem. This is to take Ketamine while already high on 2C-B. This seems
to provide a "bridge" between the ego or identity, and a state that is ego-less
and without limitations.
I've observed a fairly mixed response in others I know who have tried