Parestan Issue no 8 January 26th 2018

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As I walk this endless shore
With foam caressing my feet
In awe I stare into the horizon
Where the ocean and the sky meet
It's a love story that deceits
Composed with misleading lies
A tale of distant lovers
United, only by our vagabond eyes.

Cold War
by Nisar Masoom
How many angles does the phrase cold
cover?
It could be a cold night or even the Cold
War
A conflict not only fought between two
countries
But between the lower and the upper class
In winter we feel hungrier day by day
The penniless wish for a Merry Christmas

But to no dismay
And their hopes never do last
Watch the one percent
Gift their children bountiful presents
But our destitute souls only wish for something,
be it not even heaven-sent
Just like the winter, hearts of the rich, are
frozen and always resent the underprivileged
I wish on this next December 25th
When I pray to God
He would send Santa Claus
To make the poor feel lesser at odds.

Shehr-e-
Yaaram :
Part 3
By: Eisha-tir-Raazia

*Shumali Waziristan me hamlay se 2 log jaan bahaq. Mutaadid zakhmi.
* Operation zarb e azb din badin kamyabi ki traf gamzan.
*Quetta hamlay k pechay kis ka hath?
*Wazir e azam ka Doura e London. Aham mamlaat zer e behas
Headlines ki tafseelaat is break k baad... Dekhte rahiye ARY news!
Wo khamoshi se headlines dekh rai thi. Ek yai wo waqt hota jb uski baton ko
break lgti thi.
"In waziristan waghaira ka tou.... Uffff!! Kya bnega hmara!" Wo apnay ap pr
tars kha rai thi.
Headlines break khatam Hui tou wo dobara TV ki traf mur k beth gai. Wo, baba,
r bhai srf news dekha krtay they. Ammi, Api r bhabhi hum TV k dramas dekhtin
r sarim ko Facebook k ilawa kisi cheez ka shoq na tha.
Breaking news.... Yeh suntay e wo seedhi o k beth gai.
*Rawalpindi or Islamabad k namwar hospitals me ilaaj mualjaye k ilawa kya o
raha? Jannay k liye dekhiye yh report.
"G me is waqt ek ghar me hun jahan ap dekh sktay hen k ek aurat jinka naam
shumaila h, un k shohar ka abhi abhi dil ka operation hua h.
Operation kamyab tou o gya h pr inko ek r buri adat lg chuki h. Jise hm
manshiyaat ki lat kehte hen. Aurat ka kehna h k un k shohar ko yh adat pehle
nhi thi. Pr ab wo hr waqt wai dwai mangtay hen jo inko operation k bad di gai
thi.
R wo dwai kisi medical store se nhi mil rai beghair doctor ki prescription k.
Mazeed tafseelaat hm shumaila Bibi se e janen ge.
Wo dam sadhay TV screen ko dekh rai thi. Yai kasar reh gai thi ab! K hospitals
b safe nhi raye logon k liye. Wo hmen kya dete hen kya nhi hmen kya maloom?
Medicine k under agar koi addictive drug ho tou log kya kren? Life barbaad o

jati o gi logon ki.
Shumaila ki awaz boht ahista si thi jo usko sai smjh nhi ai. Smjh ai tou bs yai k
us k husband ko hospital se koi dwai mili thi jis me kuch mila hua tha.
Lekin eshaal janti thi k is masoom aurat ne tou yai kehna tha. Blkay asal me
tou do wajuhaat ho skti hen. Ya tou dwai k under waqai koi addictive cheez
dal d gai thi ya phir unhe koi addictive drug e dwai k Torr pr di jati rai. Jo
pehle tou dard ko kam krti lekin bad me uska nasha char jata h.
Usnay baba ki traf dekha phir bhai ki traf. Wo dono b heran pareshan se they
q k jin hospitals k wo reporter naam le rai thi wahi sb se zyada achay
hospitals manay jatay they.
"Kya kuch ho raha h mulk me baba!" Wo baba ki traf dekh k boli jinho ne hlka
sa sir jhatka. "Hmari government ko tou khayaal e nhi h in cheezun ka. Bs wo
apnay gharon me khush rahen" Arham b bol pra. Eshaal ne ek nazar unko
dekha. Wo is bat pr razi nhi thi.
"Bhai! Yh tou hmara b kam h na k dekhen k hm jo kha pi rahay hen wo hmaray
liye acha h b ya nhi? Logon me shaor ki kami h!" Eshaal ne kaha tou wo
khamosh o Gaye. Apni lawyer behn se akhir kahan tk behas krtay?
Wo wahan se uthi r bhabhi k pass chli gai. Bhabhi kitchen me khana bna rai
thin. Wo apple utha kr wahin chair or beth gai r jo news suni thi bhabhi k
gosh guzaar kr di.
Bhabhi ko wese koi interest nhi tha pr phir b sunti rahin. "Shayaan b tou
doctor h. Kahin wo e tou nhi yh kam krta" usne hnste hue kaha tou bhabhi b
Hans prin.
"Wese shayaan nhi tume hr bat pr yad aa jata? Khair tou h lrki?" Bhabhi us k
pass bethatay hue bolin. R wo hns PRI.
"Kya bhabhi! Ap b na! Agr us sarro shayaan ko pta chal gya k ap yahan kya keh
rai hen tou socha h ap k sath kya o ga?" Usne bhabhi ka style copy kia. Jispr

wo zor se hns din.
********
"Hi!" Eshaal bhaagti Hui us k pass ai. Taqreebn ek maheenay se wo hr roz
yahan atay they. Shayaan ne b jese kismat k faislay pr sir jhuka lia tha. Isliye
ab hr Roz wo lrki us k sath hoti. Hasb e mamool apni sunati. Us se poochti
jwab na milnay pr khud e jwab b de deti. Kya talent tha!
"Uff! Pta h kl news me khabar ai thi. " eshaal ne farz smjha hua tha k usko
pooray Pakistan ko ek bat 50 bar lazmi btani h.
"Kya khabar?" Ek meheenay me itna change aya tha k sarro shayaan uski
baton ka jwab de data tha. Yeh boht bara change tha wese.
"Islamabad n Rawalpindi k namwar hospitals me nashawar adwiyat ka supply
chal raha h" Usne ARY anchor ka style copy kia. Wo jwaban khamosh raha.
Bolnay ko kuch tha e nhi.
"Kahin tum b tou nhi yh kaam krtay?" Eshaal ne kadray tajasus se poocha r
wo achanak thathka. R chonk k use dekha. "Aray mazak kr rhi hun tum tou
serious o Gaye" R us k mathay pr ubhri shiknen ab ghaib o chuki thin.
"N me bs next week k bad practice start kr rhi hun. Ab or ghar nhi bethne
hota. Me bore o jaongi" Eshaal ne kaha r shayaan ko Islamabad kachery k
wakeelon pr tars aya jinka tough time start honay wala tha. Usko eshaal pr
utna bharosa tha k wo sbki bolti bnd kr degi. Blkay koi bol e nhi skay ga.
Wo dono walk khatam kr k wapis janay k liye nikal Gaye.
********
Usko dekhte e wo bench pr se utha r wapis nikal gya. Peechay usne shayaan
ko be intaha awazen din pr shayaan ne uski kisi awaz pr dehan na dia. Wo
apnay maazi se wabista kisi shaks se nhi milna chahta tha.
Wo wahan se seedha apnay hospital aa gya jahan uska dheyan bata rehta tha

ya shayed kehne ki had tk.
Hospital k bad psychiatrist k sath appointment thi. Hasb e mamool usne use
ajeeb trah ki goliyaan de di thin jo wo janta tha k wo nhi le ga. Uska ilaaj
kuch b nhi tha. Ho b kese skta tha!
Wo wahan se seedha apnay apartment me wapis aya. entrance me ek boht bara
portrait tha. Wo uski traf dekhe beghair seedha siriyaan char k upar chla gya.
Upar ja k usne fridge se juice nikala. R ek e ghoonth me poora glass khali.
Phir se wo kaam me lg gya. Achanak uska fone bja. Ek nazar caller ID ko dekha
tou nazar pher li. Fone bjta raha r phir bnd o gya. Call krne walay ko b
shayed aadat thi isliye phir fone na kia.
Wo kam bnd kr k terrace me aa gya r gallery pr bazo tikaye samnay baraf Bari
ko dekhne lga. Wo ek simple T shirt pehne hue tha. Lekin bahir ka mosam us pr
rati barabar asar na krta tha.
Wo Khamoshi k sath maazi ki khubsurat yadon me khogya tha. Uska maazi uskay
haal se kafi behtar tha. Boht khubsurat khwab ki trha tha r haal ek buri mgr
sachi haqeeqt....
Shayaan mene tume kitni bar kaha h kapray cupboard me dal dia kro....R yh
dekho socks sofay pr pri hen..... Had ho gai h yar! Socks shoes me dalnay me
kitni der lgti h? Lekin nhi sb me e krun. Tum tou koi kam nhi krtay. Aj me ammi
ko tumari shikayat lgaongi. Boht sar pr chara lia h mene tumhe...
Wo sari cheezen samaitatay hue hasb e mamool usko daant rhi thi pr wo konsa
uski sun leta tha.
"Tou tum krdo na...... Ab tumne muj sarr pr chraya hua h isme meri kya ghalti
h?" Wo hnste hue bola jisme eshaal ne ghussay se pillow us k mun pr Mara jo
usne catch kr lia. Usne wapis pillow Mara jo seedha us k sar pr LGA. Eshaal ko
ghussa aa gya r usne bhari bhari floor cushions r sofay pr se cushions utha
kr usko maray. R yun nai pillow fight start!!

Achanak tez hawa ka jhonka aya r wo apnay maazi se khofnaak haal me wapis aa
gya. Kbhi kbhaar insaan k under reality face krne ki taaqat nhi hoti. Shayaan
me b nhi thi. Pr wo kya krta. Kya wo sb theek ho skta tha? Kya wo waqt wapis aa
skta tha????
*********
Shayaan ek patient ki file dekh raha tha jb Mohib us k pass aya.
"Han kya o raha h?" Mohib ne atay e kaha. "Kuch nhi bs naya patient tha na
kashif usko brain tumor diagnose hua h. Usi ki file dekh raha hun. First stage
tumor h so easily cure o jayega. Shukar h jldi diagnose o gya." Shayaan ne use
detail btai.
"Hmm... R news dekhi? Hospitals k baray me pta chla?" mohib ne poocha r
shayaan Zara sa seedha ho k beth gya. "Han suni thi. Pr choro rumor o ga. Aise
thori ho skta h?" Shayaa ne la parwai se kaha.
"Kitnay behis log hotay hen jo mareezun ko b nhi bakhshtay." Mohib ne kafi
ghussay se kaha r shayaan tng pra. "Ohoo choro tum b kya le k beth Gaye.
Kahan na rumor h!"shayaan ne kaha tou mohib ne sir hilaya." ALLAH kre aisa e
ho" Wo keh kr khamosh o gya. Uska mobile table pr PRA hua tha jb call bji. Koi
unknown number tha. Mohib ne ek nazar Dali r call disconnect kr di. "Utha le
na" shayaan ne kaha. "Nai unknown tha. Wrong number o ga" Mohib ne kadray
laparwai se kaha.
"Doctors ko unknown numbers se calls ati rehti hen. Pick kr lo" Shayaan ne
aise kaha jese mohib ko tou pta e nhi h. "Agr important Hui tou dobara aa
jayegi. Abhi tum utho r chlo mere sath" Wo boht israar kr k Mohib ko apnay
sath tea time k liye le e gya.
*******
Trail 2 pr aj subah e subah badal utray hue they. Tez hwain b chal rahi thin.
Aise me wo dono aj phir morning walk k liye wahin they.
Eshaal aj track suit k bjae white kurta r black jeans pehn kr ai thi. Jb k
shayaan black T shirt r black jeans pehne hue.
Mousam boht pyara tha. Aj eshaal zyada bol nhi rai thi jispr shayaan ko

khushgwaar herat hui. Usne waja poochna munasib na smjha qk wo us k haq me
behtar tha.
Kafi der jb eshaal kuch na boli tou us se ruka na gya. R wo balakhir pooch e
betha.
"Aj tum kuch bol ku nhi rahi?" Andaaz aisa tha jese uspar koi ahsaan kr raha ho
pooch kr.
"Shukar h tumhe khayaal tou aya. Warna me smjhi thi k tum poocho ge e nhi r
muj khud e btana prega" Eshaal b shayed isi intezar me thi so shuru o gai.
"Wese masla bara h!" Eshaal ne kaha tou wo uski taraf mura. "Ku kya hua?"
Shayaan ne poocha. "Masla yh h k kl yani Monday ko mera law practice day 1 h."
Usne apna masla btaya r shayaan ko hnsi ai pr control kia rkha.
"Ohhh acha." Usne mukhtasir jwab dia. "Bnda best of luck e bol deta h." Eshaal
ne narazgi se kaha. "Best of luck" phir se ek r ahsaan kia gya.
"Ahhhhh Thank you." Eshaal ko boht khushi hui. Bal akhir sarro ne best of luck
bol e dia tha. Uski sari tension pal bhar me jese khatam o gai thi. "Pta h ab muj
darr nhi lg raha. Cuz ab luck best o gi" Eshaal ne kaha tou shayaan Zara sa
chonka phir khamoshi se chlnay lga.
*********
"Us hospital se paisay milay?" Usne kadray ahista awaz me call pr kaha.
"Nahi filhaal nhi milay" dosri janib se ghabrai Hui awaz ai.
"Jldi le k ao paisay. Warna badshah hmen maar dalay ga!" Usne ghussay me kaha.
"Acha bs thora waqt do me le aonga. Hr Roz jata hun pr Dr. Raza bahanay bna
raha h." Dosri traf se jwab aya.
"Meri bat kaan khol kr sunlo. Srf do Dino ka waqt h warna badshah hmara
qatal kr dega
Khairiyat chahtay o tou paisay jldi le k ao. Me badshah ko bta deta hun k ranga
do Dino me paisay le ayega. Theek h?" Usne tanbihi andaaz me kaha. "Han han
theek h" dosri traf se hami bhari gai. "Ek kam dhang se nhi hota.... Rkhta hun"
Ghussay se keh kr usne call kaat di..
********

if i try hard enough,
i can block them out.
all those voices telling
me i’m not worth it,
all those sounds of
doors being banged shut
and locked.
the repetitive curses aimed
my way,
the leather being slipped
out swiftly,
the bone-chilling sound of
the belt being whipped in
the air,
and the deafening screams that

leave my mouth dry..
if i try hard enough,
i can convince myself
that nothing ever happened.
i can block out the
pain, the bruises,
and the feelings.
i can convince myself
that neither the abuse
nor the abuser can
define me.
i can be myself,
i can leave it all behind
and i can start
over again; by
blocking it all out
M

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In her journey to unravel the truth,
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Help!
Hello can you hear me
I am in pain
Pain that has echoed me
The shadows move, they laugh at
me, mocking my weak state
Screams
All I can hear is my screams
I am dying and the world is just
seeing me
please help
I am a Muslim of Myanmar
Syria
Palestine
Kashmir
Yemen
DO they not see me falling in my
own blood
Help
By : Sibt-e -Ali

How many words can you
make out of
?
(Hint: flow, low..)

A Day of
Mourning
The sun of newborn morning
was moaning and grieving
Sadness dimmed it's glow
And it stopped beaming
The shadows of cruelty
spreaded it's wings
Ended many lives, left
many eyes weeping
They plucked the flowers
before they bloomed
Showered them with blood
left them ruined
The heartless put out candles
in their eyes
The merciless didn't
listen
to their cries
The sky was silent, the
wind
stopped breathing
Cruelty won, the devils
were laughing
Above on sky, the doors
of heaven started opening
The angels stood still,
Gloomy and waiting
Saying the chapter of
past
is still not close up
Time would repeat itself
untill the world end up
By: Faryal Shah

-

“They took me
away..”
By Nimra Faisal

Papa, they took me away
Papa, they took me away
With my innocence, they played
Hungry were those eyes
Muted were my cries
My body trembled with fear
But there was no one near
I felt so weak
The dark consumed me
Mama, I was alone
Shredded to the bone
It was a coven of insanity
Void of humanity
My mind was raged
While I was caged
They were bloody marauders
And the world was the applauder
For it was their feast day
I was fresh meat
Now in this dump, I am obsolete
Incarcerated by flies
Mourning are the skies
Robbed of dignity
Credit goes to their malignity
Mama, why is everyone crying?
When my shroud is shining
Tomorrow they will all forget
And leave you both desolate
They will bury the grief
Oh, they are so “shareef”
Everything will turn to quiet
Until another pair of dark eyes
would drive them wild…