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God Porn Four girls stood in front of Ms. Wade’s class. Ms. Wade taught health. The girls held petitions to their chests. Signs reading Abstinence Only sat against the wall. The girls prayed loudly, drawing as much attention as they could. “God porn,” Tayla said. I wondered if the girls saw their words floating bloody in the thick air. No one paid the girls any mind except Ms. Wade. She stood in her doorway glaring at the girls in their perfect clothes with their perfect hair. “Look at the tits on Jessica,” Tayla said. Jessica Barber was the dark-headed leader of the group. Her father was the local Mormon Bishop. She wore a silk halter top that played well with her cleavage. I wasn’t into the whole good girl look, but boobs were boobs. “She asked me once what pussy tasted like,” Tayla said. I wasn’t sure if that was true. Tayla sometimes liked to say things just to see people’s faces. The girls finished their prayer and spread out, stopping people and asking for signatures. They did this every year. The walls seemed to suck in the bitter air. A shiver ran through me. “Let’s go,” Tayla said. I let her pull me away. I looked back once and noticed the darkness gathering around the smallest girl. I couldn’t remember her name, but she was familiar. “Wait,” I said. Tayla stopped and turned. “What?” “I’ll be right back,” I said. The air seemed to press on me the closer I got. I stopped just short of them. They all turned to stare at me. “What?” they asked. <strong>16</strong>
All the courage vanished. I was small again. “Want to sign the petition?” Jessica asked, sneering a little. Tayla came and took my hand. “Not likely,” she said, pulling me away. When we were far enough off, she looked at me. “What was that?” she asked. “I thought I saw something,” I said. She schooled her face but stayed quiet. She knew better than to ask questions she didn’t want answered. 17
Page 3 and 4: Comfortable Madness William L. Alto
Page 5 and 6: Dedication For Lisa, who showed me
Page 7 and 8: still the only teacher who let me g
Page 9 and 10: Hush I was eighteen. I was dreaming
Page 11 and 12: Lines Mornings sucked. Anxiety pois
Page 13 and 14: In the Real World Smokers and stone
Page 15 and 16: On the Outside Narrow, gray lockers
Page 17 and 18: Everything went quiet. Even the big
Page 19 and 20: things from me. Tayla wanted courag
Page 21 and 22: He crawled to his feet, looking for
Page 23: “Yeah?” “Absolutely.” “Wh
Page 27 and 28: Color came back with a crack. Laugh
Page 29 and 30: Kissing my temple, she took me insi
Page 31 and 32: Movie We smoked too many cigarettes
Page 33 and 34: Surrender I couldn’t refuse him.
Page 35 and 36: “Not yet.” His hands stroked my
Page 37 and 38: Lost Meaning I danced. Alone. I dan
Page 39 and 40: Poverty Dinner was one egg, a piece
Page 41 and 42: Unconditional I couldn’t make my
Page 43 and 44: Sour The world was quiet, and I cur
Page 45 and 46: watched her sleep for a long time w
Page 47 and 48: from under the hood played through
Page 49 and 50: Promise Gid stood in the corner sol
Page 51 and 52: Pretty Words “Do you love me?”
Page 53 and 54: A Dream in Daylight Coy was small a
Page 55 and 56: Return I neither slept nor woke. It
Page 57 and 58: She put her hand on my knee. “It
Page 59 and 60: More Trouble Coy came looking for t
Page 61 and 62: Consequences Pastel landscapes hung
Page 63 and 64: Time Out Even at sunset, Hagg Lake
Page 65 and 66: Missionaries Two boys came around t
Page 67 and 68: Tad’s face was hard and pointed.
Page 69 and 70: Doorway It happened fast and it las
Page 71 and 72: Visions People talked. They talked
Page 73 and 74: Alone But Then Not I danced with th
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Dread In the space between sleep an
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Blurred Tayla started the coffee. L
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The Object of Envy Ravens rose on b
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Unprovoked A large mirror covered a
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“I’m sorry,” I said. “Me to
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screamed. I screamed and screamed.
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Glorious Downtown. Sunlight and bri
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Drinks and Sex Men came and went. N
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That World Everything was incompreh
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ain pierced my face and forearms wi
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But she didn’t know. She had no i
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Angie leaned in. Her lips traced a
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Promises Gid stared at me and I sta
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The seatbelt gave way and I jumped
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Taking Charge I lost my mind. Faces
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from the sink. A call button hung f
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Laps Walls the color of eggshells h
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Burning Sin Pain shaped my dreams.
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“Well,” she said. “You made i
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“When they lay on their death bed
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“Same.” “Want to go to your r
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Release They sent me home. It was m
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The Edge of Dreams No sleep. Every
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A Brittle Moment It came all at onc
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Date Night Tayla stood at the stove
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Tragic Morning Trees on the edge of
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Between Here and There “What do y
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Knives and Sadness Lying alone in m
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Prayer “Dear Jesus,” I prayed.
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“Soon enough.” 125
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ightened. Ivory lined green banners
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Back Again Voices filled the cafete
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Slipping Midnight. One. Two. Three
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Lies I hurt. Every movement. Every
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Angie nodded. “Sure,” she said.
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“Butter,” Mom used to say. “N
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Work Out Each step was a marathon.
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First Try “Dance for me,” Tayla
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Suddenly, he was inside me, moving
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“I don’t know,” I said. “I
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I dreamed of music, but I didn’t
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“Jesus,” she said and got out.
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“What’re you doing?” “He wa
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The Plan Comes Together We gathered
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Freak Out I went to bed at three, I
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Vows and Promises Tayla’s hair wa
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He turned to smoke and mist and ros
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Thoughts Biology was a class of lon
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No God Religion and government. Fai
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Almost Breakfast came at me in wave
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Help Steam rolled up and broke agai
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Animal noises ripped out my throat.
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the baby up for adoption. We talked
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Miss Tris didn’t buy all of it, b
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“Why?” “Never mind,” I said
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Fine “You’re getting fatter,”
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Faces Faces melted. Jaw lines narro
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The Beginning of the End The bar wa
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Kind of a Moment I had a plan. For
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“Fine.” When I got to the door,
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Angie laughed. It was a cruel, hard
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A Moment on the Corner Sunlight bro
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No Gray Queertopia was empty but th
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Race Haven was all movement and col
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“What?” Tayla asked. I shook my
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Confession Sleep abandoned me to th
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Silence Six days of silence. I woke
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“I need a smoke,” I said and go
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“Have you talked to her?” “Sh
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“But now,” she said, “now you
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Disturbed Even the echoes died in t
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Nothing Changed Cherry blossoms cam
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Spark All night, I sat in the livin
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Reunion First thing in the morning,
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Back in my Bed Three faces hung in
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Far From Perfect Antiseptic walls r
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Fair Angie stood in the middle of t
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Face I walked in sunlight. It taste
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Names Lunch came and we all sat in
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Fair Warning Coy had something to s
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On the Edge of Things People talked
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“She thought we broke up,” I sa
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“You’re fine,” she said. “Y
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“Some folks,” Mr. Skarey said,
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The baby hiccupped, a rhythmic danc
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“You’re going to be okay,” he
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