CCChat-Magazine_8-The-Conference-Edition

It was still tough, but I was learning to deal
with how I felt, my emotions, my
anger…where it came from, I noticed when it
was building…my Level 1. During this time
my wife and I were meeting up, seeing if we
could go forward with our relationship. It
started as we were going to the same events
through the summer, she thought it a good
idea to break the ice prior to being in front of
our friends.
We started dating again. Eventually I got to
my last evening on the Programme, it was
another tough moment, what would happen
after the Programme. What would I do on
Thursday evenings? I sat on the train station
on the way home, I received a text. It was
from my wife: ‘’Well done, I’m proud of you!’’
I sobbed my heart out.
Time passes by, I left my employer and
started with an agency driving trucks. My
first two weeks were spent delivering to the
area where the Police station I was processed
in, every single day I was there. By the end of
the second week I was screaming ‘’OK I
understand!!’’ you see, both my wife and I
are Christians. I saw it as a sign, a warning of
a sort, not to do the same again, even though
I said I wouldn’t to myself. I worked for the
same company through the agency for 11
weeks.
The Thursday of my final week there, I
walked into work and my boss shouted to me
laughing, ‘’You’re going to prison!’’ I wasn’t
laughing. I looked at my run sheet, yes I was
going to prison, but delivering to one. I felt
sick. I left the depot, feeling as though I was
driving my own prison van. I arrived, spoke
to the Prison Officer and was waved in.
Over an hour I was in there, couldn’t wait to
get out. When I did, it felt like I’d been
released myself. I kept thinking to myself, I
could be doing 25 to life…another lesson
learnt. Eventually after dating for over 3
years, my wife decided not to pursue our
marriage. She resurrected the divorce which
she’d paused a few years earlier. I was
devastated. I still go to the drop in group
held each month for those who’ve completed
the Programme.
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