Cosmic Women Magazine Vol. 4

O C T 2 0 2 0 | I S S U E N O . 4
C W C O S M I C W O M E N
K Ò S M I C A S

What happened to you when everything you
have ever dreamed of,
imagen, visualized, became REAL?
What is happening to us all now, in these
New 5-Dimensional Perspective
lives? As your resident Metaphysical
Artist/Alchemist I will tell you this…
The process of Fusion is here and we are on
our way to reconciling all duality.
We take you on
a Cosmic Women (and Divine Masculine)
journey to words, literature, ideas,
photos, and Holistic ways of living. This
magazine is as always to inspire new
thoughts and ways of living. In this Oct
2020 Issue, we are exploring that very Fusion
of language in Kòsmicas. This is
a duel language magazine of English and
Spanish, to be able to merge what we
call… Serpent Tongues.
The idea of Serpent Tongues can be interpreted in many ways…
Kundalini Energy
Merge of 2 Languages
Reconciliation of The Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine Energies
Paradox Thinking and Being
The end of Dark and Light Duality
The Beginning of the Fusion of the New Creation
Heart & Mind
Love & Logic
Spirit & Science
I am sure you can think of many more…

In this Issue we will share with you our actual Mùjeres
Còsmicas ~ Serpent Tongues Exhibit.
A journey which was inspired by the Book “Mùjeres Còsmicas”,
by Dr. Kòsmica, Hilda Sotelo.
I have a great Love and Connection to this particular piece
of work. The Exhibit I created took on a life of its own. Exploring the multidimensional
avenues of Photography, Voice over, Mantra, Literature, Sound Healing, Multimedia
effects, Animation, and of course Performance Art.
When I took on the character of LUCY, originally in Hilda’s
book. I knew most of the metaphysical work would be that of giving the
character a different reality. To first reconcile her “Dark” and lower realm
attributes, and then to give her a Higher Purpose.
Lucy is an Alchemist and Shapeshifter,
and you will see more of her transformation throughout. It is a role that has
since merged into my reality, or did I merge into hers? The New Reality of Lucy
is one of Higher Realm creation, Higher planetary healing, and the application
of Energy work in the mundane of life. Her character continues to expand into several
other forms of art. She continues her journey through the Audio book, Serpent
Tongues. A piece I am immensely proud of, yet still has much more to go. Who
knows… perhaps it is Lucy who is the driving force to this very magazine?
The exhibit then took on it’s on life and many more unfolding of creative express and venture. It has
since debut in 2018 in El Paso, Tx, 2019 in Juarez, Mexico, and recently for an
Academic Conference with The University of Texas at El Paso.
It is evident… we are JUST getting started…
Mandy Shantyne Lopez
Creative Director
CW Magazine

13 Min Exhibit Preview

Drawings By:
Emily Ruth Shackelford
Lucy
Creative Force
EVE
The Green Tara

Kósmicas
Bienvenidas a la unión de Cosmic Women Magazine &
KósmicasEste primer número en español quiero agradecer
primero la invitación de Mandy Shantey López y a las
colaboradoras de este número, la psicóloga Rosa Elva Sotelo
Aguirre y a la doctorante Rocío Acevedo-Carranza por sus
propuestas creativas.Este espacio es creativo, espiritual y
medicinal, creemos que parte de la nueva realidad requiere de
poner atención a lo importante: vida y salud humana y del
planeta. Sin vida y salud no podemos continuar. El enfoque es
vivir pero vivir saludable, ayudarnos a conectar lazos que se
han roto debido a la muerte no solo de humanos también de
cientos de especies animales y vegetales.
En Kósmicas nos quedamos con el problema, es decir, vemos de
frente lo que sucede para detectar colectivamente el origen de la
herida, sabemos que las palabras pueden ser usadas para destruir o
para reconstruir, para empoderar o des empoderar, nuestro
lenguaje nos ata o desata, nos separa o nos une, sabemos que las
lenguas colonizadoras, son lenguas basadas en sistemas binarios, al
igual que la inteligencia artificial, los sistemas binarios nos reducen
a dos opciones sin considerar otras posibilidades comunicativas.
Dentro del sistema binario se encuentran los formatos que diseñan
nuestra vida, y rutinas.
Sufrir-gozar, llorar-reír, amiga-enemiga, blanco-negro. Debido
a las repetitivas guerras, la violencia estructural y sistémica,
actualmente nos encontramos en una etapa de neutralización,
hemos perdido ciertas capacidades humanas como las
conocíamos, los roles de género se están transformando. La
capacidad de llorar, la capacidad de empatía, la capacidad de
sentir se está mermando, el enojo parece arrebatarnos la
oportunidad de ver soluciones sin violencia. La frustración
encarna nuestros cuerpos porque queremos justicia para todes
y todas las especies que se han ido y las especies en peligro.

La definición de guerra y paz, puede adquirir otros matices sin sentidos opuestos, secretos
o escondites. La ofensa y la disculpa van de la mano, ¿a quién ofender, con quién
disculparnos? El eterno juego de la computadora del lenguaje. Al igual, la definición de éxito
viene precedida por fracaso y no precisamente propio o individual, es en el fracaso de
otros, otras y otras especies que se acumulan los grandes capitales en manos de unos
cuantos. El lenguaje basado en el sistema binario necesita ver caer, ver sufrir, ver morir,
atacar, sacrificar, depredar para sentirse exitoso. Al patriarcado, le funciona mejor las
mujeres separadas, enemigas, las amigas hablan, se comunican, rompen pactos de secreto,
¡peligro! Algunas mujeres hacen andar los binarios el bien, el mal, las vigías, atentas. Los
hombres guardan celosamente su función, se avisan para mantener el orden, violentan,
separan, detectan a las enemigas, las acechan, las presentan, las hacen pelear. Sin embargo,
estamos transitando otros caminos para comunicarnos, las palabras se forman o deforman
para elaborar nuevos mitos, la convención del lenguaje desarticula y encuentra hilos para
anudarlos, salvarnos y volver a reconocernos como humanos en las reacciones del cuerpo,
las emociones, los sentimientos, sin temor expresamos en nuestras propias palabras, hemos
encontrado las palabras para decirlo.
Dra Hilda Y Sotelo

REVELACIÓN FEMENINA POR
ROCÍO ACEVEDO-CARRANZA
PHD TLC DOCTORANTE
UNIVERSIDAD DE TEXAS EN EL PASO
¡Soy divina¡¡ Eres divina!! Somos divinas!
Sin duda alguna, el momento atómico existe. Me percaté
cuando menos lo esperaba, cuando más vulnerable me sentía
frente al espejo de la vida y de la muerte. Morí y renací en un
instante ¡Qué maravilla! Y fue así como me di cuenta de la
complejidad y de la grandiosidad del Ser Femenino. ¿Por qué
tendemos a compararnos y a minimizar nuestra capacidad de
dar y de recibir sin prejuicio alguno y sin límite? ¿Por qué
envidiamos en otras mujeres lo que inherentemente
poseemos desde hace siglos? Amiga mía, recuerda que somos
la Receptividad del Universo, la mar en reposo, un llanto de
lluvia que empapa y tibia los párpados a pesar de ser
orgullosas, desafiantes, desenfrenadas por el caótico sistema
que nos oprime y nos descompone el espírtu a su antojo
porque lo hemos permitido?
No dejes que el caos externo y despiadado te carcoma el
alma y llene de resentimiento el corazón. No olvides que eres
más noble que la envidia, más fértil que el amor, una guerrera
de luz capaz de transmutar el odio en alegría, los celos en
libertad, la oscuridad en luz. Eres libertadora porque amas la
verdad.
¡NUNCA LO OLVIDES!
Tu gran virtud desde el principio de la creación es el poder compartir sin esperar nada a cambio porque todo lo
femenino viene de la Unidad Perfecta donde todo emana y fluye en el espiral del tiempo y del espacio.

Y es por eso, te invito a que seas esperanza para miles de
mujeres que siguen encadenadas, prisioneras del mundo y de
sí mismas, esclavas de la mente, inseguras, temerosas, muertas
en vida. No las condenes a morir en vida, no las hagas víctimas
sino vencedoras de sus miedos y de sus fracasos. Sé un ente de
paz y de concordia para que puedan alcanzar el cielo
prometido y el canto de la música celeste. Amiga mía, no
tengas miedo de luchar por otras mujeres, de sufrir con ellas e
interiorizar en lo más profundo de tu ser, de reír y de triunfar
con otras. Recuerda que ambas son el reflejo de una misma
voz.
¡NUNCA LO OLVIDES!
Con profunda sinceridad entiende su dolor, su soledad, su
desamor, su incapacidad de verse tal cual es: una hermosa
creación femenina sin pecado original. ERES PURA, siempre lo
has sido por derecho de nacimiento. Eres una mujer que
trasciende cuando pierdes el miedo de aceptar el regalo de tu
divinidad. Nunca te dejes convencer por la engañosa
ignorancia que reprime los sentidos. Ya no mires hacia atrás, ni
hacia el futuro, sólo vive el momento presente porque la
Verdad se encuentra dentro de ti y te hace libre.
Amiga mía:
Te amo, te acepto tal cual eres, te comprendo, te venero. Recuerda
tu poder innato para crear y transformar nuevas realidades.
Y NUNCA OLVIDES
mis sabias palabras si quieres alcanzar el Nirvana:
¡Soy Divina¡
¡Eres Divina!
¡Somos Divinas!

con
Rosa Elva Sotelo Aguirre
Psicología de Monclova, Mexico
CW: ¿Cuál es tu profesión?
R: Soy licenciada en Psicología
CW: Cuando las paciente hablan con Rosa Sotelo, ¿qué nos dice en cuanto a sanación?
R: Que somos seres integrales, mente, cuerpo, espíritu
CW: ¿Cómo son tus terapias diferentes a las tradicionales?
R: Aparte de aplicar las distintas estrategias que aprendí en la licenciatura, yo uso la angelología, el reiky
y otras terapias alternativas combinadas con las tradicionales. Mira, la mayoría de las personas estamos
familiarizadas con los ángeles, entonces, en medio de las crisis, la fe es muy importante. Y cuando rara
vez tengo pacientes que no le entran a la idea de que estamos rodeados de entes que nuestra mente
soberbia no quiere ver o de realidades intangibles buenas y malas, entonces, poco a poco los dejo que
ellos mismos descubran esas realidades y decidan y créeme todos quieren estar en el lado de la luz para
vivir mejor la experiencia humana que ya es de por sí, la sombra o lo necio, como quieras llamarlo. Todos
mis pacientes llegan aquí porque quieren salir de sus penas.
CW: ¿Qué memoria tienes de niña en cuanto a comunicarte con energías no físicas?
R: Siempre me sentí acompañada y bien protegida, aún estado sola, sin duda mis ángeles guardianes estaban
conmigo
CW: Algún mensaje a las mujeres mexicanas con respecto a la situación actual
R: Que el tiempo del sufrimiento y la sumisión ya pasó, es importante valorarnos, empoderarnos, y ocupar
el espacio que realmente nos pertenece.

"...el tiempo del
sufrimiento y la sumisión
ya pasó, es importante
valorarnos,
empoderarnos, y ocupar
el espacio que realmente
nos pertenece."
https://www.facebook.com/onappafa.regcarbonifera

KÂMBO MEDICINA:
Nature’s Vaccine?
Are you dealing with anxiety, depression, health issues, or feeling stagnant in life?
Sometimes you just need a reset, ESPECIALLY given the energetic climate of the world at
this particular moment. For the majority of people, a reset means starting a diet or juice
cleanse, beginning a meditation practice, or changing up your environment. But, for a select
few, the desire for a complete life overhaul can lead to some unusual solutions—like kambo
medicine. Kambo is the name for a treatment which involves a frog secretion that’s applied
to fresh burn points on the topical layer of the skin; it’s a practice that’s becoming
increasingly popular in Western culture. But, what is kambo, really, in regard to how it acts
upon the body, mind and soul? And is this frog-based cleanse safe? Here’s the scoop on the
shamanic ritual that’s ripe with controversy.

Kambo (Kambô or Sapo)
is the name for a specific Amazonian tree frog (Phyllomedusa bicolor) also known as
the giant monkey frog. The frog is delicately stressed to induce the secretion of the
waxy substance, which is applied by burning the top layer of the skin with a titica or
tamishi vine to the “dots” which are 1/8” in diameter. The frogs are unharmed in the
process, and the medicine is usually ethically sourced from the tribes directly. The
liquid secretion is a potent vasodilator, which increases the blood-brain barrier for both
their own access, as well as for that of other active peptides. Within this family are
medusins, which also have antimicrobial and antifungal properties. Caeruleins and
Sauvagines are peptides that stimulate the adrenal cortex and pituitary gland,
contributing to greater sensory perception and increased resistance. Both peptides
possess great analgesic power, contributing to the increase of physical strength, the
capacity to confront physical pain, stress, dis-ease, and diminish the symptoms of
fatigue. In the medical field, this family of peptides contributes to improved digestion,
and has analgesic properties against pain in renal colic, pain due to peripheral vascular
insufficiency, and tumor pain. Deltorphin is 4000x stronger than morphine and 40x
stronger than beta endorphins. The most famous of these chemicals are a series of
peptides that trigger temporary hyperactivity in the immune system. Basically, kambo
treatments provoke intense flu symptoms, including purging and stool movements or
diarrhea.
The shamanic use of kambo is a tradition amongst several different Amazonian tribes, especially in
the Brazillian Amazon. The word “kambo” comes from the Kaxinawá people, but other indigenous
communities have their own word for the frog secretion. The Amahuaca, Katukina, Kulina,
Yawanawá, Matses, Marubo and Mayoruna communities all reportedly use some form of kambo in
either their hunting or healing practices.

Each Amazonian culture has unique values and
beliefs that they place upon kambo, and it is
impossible to do justice to each of these intricate
perspectives in this brief article. But, to speak in a
very general sense, many scholars report that
kambo is used to purge “bad principals” from the
body. This “purge” often inspires a very severe
bout of vomiting, which thereby expels bad
principals and reinvigorates the participant with
good health.
Kambo is unlike anything I’ve ever
experienced before. It does not contain
any hallucinogenic properties, however,
you may experience visions and fractals.
It is very physically intense for a short
period, and it can cause all kinds of
reactions, from a racing heart to hot
flashes.
Kambo “cleanses” are quickly gaining popularity in the
Western world. Many consumers are drawn to kambo
for it’s believed healing properties; those with
addictions, depression, anxiety, PTSD, and sometimes
serious health issues partake in a kambo detox in an
effort to reprogram their immune system and purge
unwanted “build-up” in their systems. Whether that
buildup is physical or psychological, it is up to the
individual to set their intentions and decide what they
want to purge from their life that no longer serves
them, and what they’d like to welcome in.

What is a Kambo Treatment?
During kambo treatment, a practitioner burns a series of “dots”
on the skin with a piece of titica or tamishi vine, charred wood
or incense. Next, dried kambo is rehydrated and applied to the
open wounds. Within mere minutes, the peptides in the kambo
trigger an intense immune response, similar to allergic
anaphylaxis. Here are some of the main symptoms of a kambo
detoxification experience:
Fever
Swelling of the face
Vomiting / Purging
Bowel movement / Diarrhea
Pain
Rapid heart rate
Urination
Overwhelming emotion
Most kambo treatments consist of
five to six dots. However, a
practitioner might recommend
more or less depending on your
unique needs. Many individuals also
fast for at least 8-24 hours before a
kambo treatment.
In Western contexts, the setting for a kambo ceremony also varies. Many kambo rituals are
performed in a group setting, complete with music, and may integrate other new age practices
like breath work, body movement, crystal therapy, and sound therapy. Some kambo
treatments, however, are given in a more clinical setting. Ultimately, it’s up to the consumer to
research and decide what type of experience is more suitable.

How Long Does Kambo Last?
For most people, the active effects of kambo are short, lasting
between five and 40 minutes. But, in some rare cases, nausea,
vomiting, and inflammation can persist up to several hours
later. If kambo symptoms last more than an hour, the
practitioner will determine the course of action. Persistent
vomiting and diarrhea can quickly dehydrate you and drinking
excess plain water may worsen the problem—electrolyte-rich
fluids are needed after intense bouts of vomiting, and only
medical professionals will be able to give you the precise care
that you may need and stop allergic reactions.
How Does Kambo Work?
The plant medicine community has tentatively embraced kambo, but it is very different from a
traditional psychedelic. Medicines like psilocybin and ayahuasca dramatically alter your consciousness
and temporarily pull you into a different reality. In general, psychedelics produce a profound mental
experience. Kambo is different, however. It exerts its most significant effects on the immune system,
not the brain.
The peptides in kambo are noxious to the human body, so the immune system becomes
hyperactive in an attempt to purge the toxicant from your system—hence, the vomiting,
inflammation, and severe flu-like symptoms. Many practitioners describe kambo treatments as
“nature’s vaccinations,” due to its ability to intensely activate the immune system. The
immunomodulating properties of kambo peptides are a topic of increasing fascination to the
scientific community; kambo peptides are being studied in cancer, pain, addiction, anxiety,
depression, and more.

While the frog secretions produce extreme physical reactions, they may produce psychological
responses as well. Most Westerners attend kambo ceremonies because of the feel-good effects that
result after the purge. (Although, of course, many attend for relief from physical ailments as well.)
For participants, kambo can feel like an intense cleansing experience, where old habits and ailments
are purged from the body; there’s a belief that the “panama” or negative energy or bad, the harmful,
and the ugly are quite literally vomited out.
And while this may sound odd or extreme to some, feelings of health after a purge are not unheard of,
even in Western culture. For example, it’s not uncommon for vomiting to end the intense pain and
disorientation caused by migraine headaches. There may also be a correlation between some types of
fasting and recovery from the flu. Although, it’s important to note that the science behind these
phenomena is still being discovered, or not fully supporting these activities as beneficial treatments for
either illness.
Nonetheless, the classic kambo purge has had a positive impact on me, as well as the many courageous people
that have participated in the kambo ceremony with me. In the days following the kambo experience, many
people have more energy than they remember ever having. People who may have had difficulty getting out
of the bed in the morning, all of a sudden wake up, refreshed, early in the morning. ready to start their day.
Many feel it pulled toxins, some negative energies, maybe even traumas, out of them. Of course, the idea of a
“purge” can also be a slippery slope. For those recovering from eating disorders or other self-harming habits,
the idea of “purging out the unwanted” may be triggering and cause for alarm. Still, the idea is still appealing
for many who struggle with ailments as diverse as addiction, depression, chronic pain, inflammatory dis-eases
and a multitude of other ailments.
Some people don’t like the physical intensity of the experience, yet most actually don’t mind it,
because they appreciate how lucid they are the whole time. Unlike when on a psychedelic, there is
never a moment where they don’t understand what is happening or when it would be over.

Is Kambo Legal?
Kambo is perfectly legal in the United States, Canada, and in most of the
world. Thus far, Brazil is the only country to ban the commercialization of
kambo. Kambo is also illegal to import in Chile. But, apart from these two
countries, kambo is legal to buy, sell, possess, and administer. In most
countries, kambo is not regulated as a medicine or as a food. So, there are no
set regulations for kambo safety. However, there are associations that offer
independent training and accreditation to help ensure the safety and
consistency of the natural treatment.
Is Kambo Safe?
There’s no doubt that kambo is growing in popularity around the world. But,
with the export of this indigenous tradition comes numerous potential risks. It
is imperative that you check with your physician, and also share with your
practitioner all of your medical and pharmaceutical history in order to
determine if there are contraindications or special protocol to follow. We are
still gaining knowledge about kambo’s actual effects. Nevertheless, it’s
important to remain mindful when experimenting with any type of alternative
health treatment, especially one as intensive as kambo.
Kambo is not Sufficiently Studied
It often seems that Western scientific and indigenous healing practices are at odds with
each other. On one hand, kambo is a centuries-old tradition amongst several Amazonian
cultures. On the other hand, the practice is being commodified and exported to different
cultures around the world. Exporting kambo means that larger populations are engaging
with the remedy. Interest in kambo is growing, thanks to the frog’s new status as an
alternative health trend.But here’s where things get tricky. The more people use kambo,
the greater the risk. The greater the risk, the greater the need to look into the safety of
the practice. Before the health trend kicked in, kambo was limited to a relatively small
population of people. As demand for kambo increases, so does the need to discern
whether or not some people may be more vulnerable to harmful side effects than others.
It’s also extremely important for people to vet their practitioners to ensure that they’re in
safe hands.

Water Toxicity
One of the most significant risks of kambo is one that few people expect: drinking too much
water. Drinking too much water can cause water intoxication—a.k.a. hyponatremia—which
occurs when the body holds on to too much water relative to available electrolytes, like sodium.
The central nervous system relies on electrolytes to function correctly. When too much water is
on board, things go awry—muscle spasms, feelings of drunkenness, and severe health risks are
all possible consequences of water toxicity. Water intoxication is particularly risky during kambo
ceremonies, where vomiting and diarrhea are commonplace. Both vomiting and diarrhea cause
dehydration, removing much-needed electrolytes from the body. Thus, easy access to
emergency electrolyte powders, coconut water, and electrolyte drinks is a recommended
precaution for those who partake in kambo ceremonies.
Unknown Drug & Medical Interactions
Many people look to kambo to heal from often
debilitating health conditions—mental and physical alike.
But, it’s important for those exploring kambo—or any
alternative healing practice, for that matter—to be
mindful that mixing kambo and your daily medications
may increase your likelihood of potentially dangerous
side effects. If you have a medical issue prior to trying
kambo, it’s recommended to consult with your trained
practitioner regarding contraindications.
Staying Safe with Kambo
It’s important to keep in mind that there are always risks
with kambo. Healthcare providers know very little about
kambo treatments, their side effects, and their risks. So,
it’s important that you find a qualified practitioner to
administer the medicine. In an effort to reduce harm, here
are a few safety tips to consider before trying kambo.
Find a Qualified Practitioner
If you’re engaging with kambo outside the
Amazon, you may want to find a licensed
practitioner. Many practitioners in the
United States, Australia, the UK, and Canada
receive training from experienced teachers.
Keep Doses Low
Kambo is not like a psychedelic. Higher doses
do not make you more likely to have a divine
experience or slip into a different realm of
consciousness. Instead, the higher the dose,
the greater the side effects, and the more
difficult the experience can become. So, most
practitioners will recommend that you start
small and test your reaction to kambo first.
The practitioner can try a test point, which is
essentially a small dose of kambo to make
sure that the person is okay with proceeding
with the experience, and determine how many
points make most sense.

Stick to Traditional Placement
Shamanic practitioners traditionally apply kambo to
the ankle, shoulder, or arm most often. However,
some practitioners may recommend applying
kambo to chakra centers, which align vertically up
the middle torso. Applying kambo to the chest may
give the noxious peptides a shortcut to the
bloodstream. A trained practitioner should be able
to work with you to find the best dot locations for
your body.
Avoid Overhydration
A kambo experience can be taxing, but over-hydrating can worsen the
experience by causing its own series of side effects. To avoid
hypernatremia, avoid drinking more than one liter of water per hour,
and do not drink this much for several hours in a row. Ask your
practitioner about drinking water with added electrolyte powder
instead of plain water if you vomited or had diarrhea during your
kambo experience.

DIVINE MASCULINE
PERSPECTIVE
Toxicity
Lorenzo De Rogel
Mexico, City

Toxicity
Divine Masculine
Recently, I have come in contact with
beings of my gender, male, that are
standing true to their old programing. A
programing that no longer serves a
purpose, but is forcibly trying to be of
purpose. It would be very simple to delete
said programing, but that is not what we
are here to do. We are here to transmute
these old paradigms. So, what were these
men doing that would be termed toxic?
Well, one of them was promoting the
negative aspect of the Divine Masculine
and forcibly trying to bring down the
Divine Feminine. His actions of trying to
overpower the Divine Feminine by putting
down the female gender promotes toxicity
in the world. He does this by calling them
names that are demeaning, wanting to
enslave them to their own will that is
outdated and antiquated. These tactics
have been ingrained in most men and
women, since the Greeks and Romans
were ruling (which is not a very long time
ago, about 3000 years roughly). Before
this movement, both male and female
were balanced. Yet, an occurrence gave
way to perversion and slowly, both Divine
Genders began to falter.
As of recently, the Divine Feminine
started to realize that this way of being
was wrong and has risen and left the
Divine Masculine behind. The Divine
Feminine is above the Divine Masculine,
and this is an issue. Both need to be in
balance. Both have a place in the
Cosmos. They have been given to each
and every one of us. We all have the
Divine Feminine and Masculine within
us. It is Hermetic Law, the Law of
Gender, where everything has its
masculine and feminine and it manifests
on all planes; Law of Gender (which does
not mean genitals) manifests on this
plane. The theory is that the ancient
cultures vigorously imposed this on
mankind after many learned these laws,
BUT falsely applied them. Another
instance of toxicity I encountered
happened concurrently where two
women involved with the same guy
brawled it out against each other
because they found out they were seeing
this same man.

The two females fought one another (toxic femininity), while the guy stood there watching
the onslaught (toxic masculinity). The two females allowed their egos to rule them, the act
of violence amongst them. The two females should have joined forces and have seen the
guy for what he is, gone their merry way and never looked back. Nonetheless, they fought
each other and most likely fell for his so-called “charm”. His actions will continue because
they have allowed it. Toxicity is promoted by both male and female alike. For one cannot
exist without the other. We are all too familiar with the term “toxicity”: an object, idea, or
person that produces harm to those around them. We all know someone or something that
has that effect in the world. We, as beings that are aware of the higher planes of existence
and that of the divine, know all too well that these should not be fed. They should also not
be ignored, but dealt with in the astral plane. A superior plane than the one we are in is the
best way to deal with toxicity. Remember the Hermetic Law of Correspondence, “as above,
so below”. Therefore, by transmuting this energy and raising its vibration to a high positive
vibration in the ethereal, or astral, it will reflect onto this physical plane. Thus, correcting
the issue on this plane. It takes practice and an in-depth knowledge of Hermetic Law and
Cosmic Laws. Now, we will be judged by what we know and what we have done, and no
longer can we be bystanders.

Conscious Evolution -
Part 1:
Taking Things Personally
Suzie (Ram) Dalessandro
~ music therapist
~ pleasure goddess
~ ordained Buddhist priest
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Lying in his bed, I am unclothed with the top of me in direct contact with the air while the bottom
of me is blanketed. One leg is bent, the other extended. The corners of my eyes burn from the
hour of the night and my nervous system refuses rest, even though I have been asking for sleep
now for two hours. He laid with me and massaged my joints, wondering if it felt too rough or just
right. I felt him giving his attention, his time, and his love for my body, for my comfort, for my
satisfaction. Although I would’ve chosen a rested hand to his active touch, I embraced his effort
and welcomed his love. Moments went by and our heart rates increased, our touch reciprocal,
our breath in sync. There was little sound but heavy breath releases in cadence until the
movement between our two bodies slowed and came back to a rest. He is now upstairs, and I lay
alone staring into the darkened room with a dehumidifier dancing with my thoughts. Inside of my
stomach remains a density in which I choose not to move, instead I let it rest there as tears begin
to fill my cheeks but do not make it out of my eyes. The thoughts in my mind question where this
density is from and predict I’ve done something wrong to have it there. I watch the thoughts and
now the forming tears rise to my nasal passage.I feel alone. I feel used.Louder thoughts begin to
predict his love is conditional on what he gains from me, what his body receives from mine, that
his touch was merely a bribe in an effort to receive what he cared for. He got it, and now he has
left. His footstep patterns let me know he has moved on to other tasks. I dance between
humiliation and abandonment.
“When people take things personally their fight or flight response kicks in. "Should I shut down / take distance
or should I ward off / attack?" When we feel like our ideas, identity, possessions, relationships, territory are
threatened it's almost as if our lives, our very being is in danger. Depending on our perceived ability to handle
the threat we either cover our vulnerabilities to minimize damage or become combative. The pain of taking
things personally has shown me how far out I project my sense of self. The more phenomenon that I identified
with, the more potential loss and insecurity. As I worked through the release of my expanded identity I came
back home to myself and found tremendous freedom and ease.”
- Shawn Zemba, Mastery Trainer-

I forget.
I remember.
It is my body, too, that gains from his. I receive just as much, if not more, from the choices he
makes which include me. When his freedom includes me, mine, and his, it is so comforting and
pleasant. And in this moment, though he only moves a mere ten feet above me, his being and
attention might as well be fields away, for I am alone. I am used. Yet, I used him.
His freedom offends me. I take his freedom personally.In the darkened room, I do not
understand how deep this abandonment travels. At the same time, part of me rejoices in that it
is so deep in the core; it feels safe to be revealed, safe to be seen, ready to be felt.He did not
hurt me. He did not reject me.
He did not wrong me.
And yet,
I am alone, except very much held by this density inside. Like two strangers sitting
together in silence outside of a local coffee shop on an inquisitive afternoon. This
density is here and it continues to rise in its obedient pattern, its comfortable
emotional home.I wonder how long it took me to stop blaming him for this built
up energy, this practiced role of victimhood? That was until I chose to respect his
freedom, his boundaries, his sovereignty and to take care of my own experience.

Conscious Evolution - Part 1: Taking Things Personally
Diosas, hello there.
I am Ram, I am Suzie, I am Musical, I am Spiritual, I am Safe, I LOVE
consciousness, and I LOVE growth. What does it even mean to
“consciously evolve”? Welp.It turns out we are evolving, regardless of
what we think. Sometimes, it’s easy to think, and even feel like, we are
in a rut and we aren’t growing or changing. Some of us are asking
either unconsciously or very consciously, “is this it?” But what if we
stop at the motivation or the high of spiritual connection? What if we
miss out on the human parts? The ego parts?Basically, what I’m
getting at is consciously evolving is not only becoming aware of
limited thinking or patterned behavior that no longer serves us. It is
also about embracing it and even learning to integrate it into our
experience, how you show up in life. For example, we evolve when
we go through pain and we understand the lesson or wisdom in that
time. We evolve when we stop blaming each other and start
questioning what inside of us resists connection. So, to consciously
evolve, is to consciously suffer.
What?
Yep.
Consciously suffering. Sakhyamuni Buddha explains that suffering exists, that
there is a source for suffering, there is an end to suffering, and there is no
suffering. So… there are a few ways to consciously suffer. ONE WAY is sitting
in a room with no physical threats around, going into humility, remembering a
time we experienced rejection or abandonment. We train the body and human
to not be controlled by avoiding these sensations, rather mastering them…
learning from them… breathing into them. Another way is to observe when we
feel offended, wronged, threatened by the world. Sometimes, when we feel
threatened, we respond as if we are being threatened, and there really isn’t a
threat around to be found.I am by no means denying suffering. Suffering is part
of life. If life had a recipe, it would include: pain, confusion, love, joy,
connection. ‘Course this is from the perception of the human.

Conscious Evolution - Part 1: Taking Things Personally
From the perception of the soul,
however, the recipe of life is: love and
joy, because the soul just wants to
explore and experience things! Living as a
soul means to suffer while being in
gratitude. Because you are not a body
with a soul. You are a soul with a
body.So! If consciously evolving means to
observe, embrace, and integrate every
single experience, then let’s dive into
tendencies of “taking things personally”.
When we do this, is it possible to use this
tendency to evolve? In the introduction, I
give a vulnerable narration of an
experience I recently had when I used a
moment of taking something personal to
be conscious of my patterns and to avoid
projecting blame as soon as possible.
What was happening was beneath a
mental level understanding, because
there was a strong sense of fundamental
abandonment raising in my body, when all
my partner chose to do was leave the
room after intercourse. (Which he later
sensed and explained how he was
wanting to watch YouTube and knew I
wanted to rest. So, in an effort to not
disturb me, he went upstairs.)
Consciously evolving is noticing that
potential inside, recognizing it, not
denying it, stopping the projection or
blame, and giving it what it wants:
attention. This so it can be fully
integrated within your grid and no
longer manifest in relationships with
others.Whew! Breathe for that
one!Remember a time someone’s
behavior or emotional process asked a
role of you that you did not necessarily
want. We can go on a surface level. For
example, when your friend may need
an ear and you tend to have a busy
day, but you listen anyway. Or we can
go a bit deeper, where your lover
projects stories onto you that you are
clearly not part of. But because you are
in their field, you play a role in their
show while parts of them resolve
whatever needs to be resolved at the
expense of your identity. Or we can go
even deeper. Where there is someone
so special in your life, and they just do
not embrace you for exactly who you
are; for exactly what you have to offer
them. For example, you want them to
be your lover, but they only see you as
a resource for entertainment or
friendship.

You want to be vulnerable and seen, but their capacity to be vulnerable in return does not
match your availability… and you’re left feeling potentially angry, or deeply disappointed. If
we are studying what “taking something personally” means, we need to understand that we
are doing just that: TAKING someTHING from outside and claiming it as OUR OWN. If we
are taking something from the outside, and claiming it as our own, what is “outside” and what
is “our own”?Hmm…Notice how there are benefits to taking something personally.
It keeps us here.
It keeps us human. It keeps us identifying in this world. We can use taking things
personally as a tool. When we are aware of taking something personally, when we
limit our identity to that of a title or occupation, or when we suffer from the opinion
of someone else…. we can do it in a conscious way. A way that doesn’t ruin
relationships or cause a self-defeating cycle. Taking things personally can actually be
a road sign into growth, IF we are willing to observe it, to embrace it, and to expand
our perspective from what life can give US, to what we can give LIFE.
In pleasure, suzie
Owner of BE YOU Music Therapy & Meditation
Owner of BE YOU Conscious Cleaning Services 412-447-1422
Remote services and In-person services
Mercer County, Pennsylvania and surrounding areas

Esme Ojeda
Cosmic Women Magazine Editor & Producer
Currently based in
the United Kingdom

Emily Ruth
Shackelford
Elemental Reading
Tarot Forecast with Cosmic Tarot Girl! Overall energy reading for the Autumn and early
Winter season of 2020 Don’t forget that in addition to your Sun sign, you can check your
Moon, Rising and Venus signs for additional clarity!
Fire Signs - Aries, Leo and Sagittarius: Fire signs, your motto for this
season is “Remember that you are Gold” and I love this energy for
you. It’s intense but beautiful and it feels like you all are going to
have opportunities to further integrate different aspects of your
multi-dimensional selves and further ground them into your day to
day life. If you feel the pull to research anything that feels familiar or
calls to you, then follow that and see where it may lead you. You’re
going to get a lot of upgrades and downloads over this course of
time, specifically I’m seeing upgrades to your Solar Plexus and Throat
Chakras. Just go with the flow and stay in tune with yourself and
your needs. Do something to keep your vessel active. Some different
tools that could help are crystals like turquoise, lapis lazuli, and any
kind of agate. Food wise, things like pomegranates, lettuce, mangos,
and ginger will help you to thrive during this time. Essential oils like
peppermint, frankincense, or cinnamon would be good as well.

Emily Ruth
Shackelford
Elemental Reading
Water Signs - Cancer, Scorpio and Pisces: Water signs, your
motto for this season is “Wear your crown high and let it
shine” and this is some fierce energy coming in for you all.
Keep an eye open for repeating animal totems and research
things related to them if you feel called to do so. You’re
coming into a period of time where you have to be
courageous and ask for what you want, and then be fully
open to receiving it. Remember that you are sovereign
beings and you’re worthy of all of the best things that life can
bring to you. Remember that redirection is protection and
focus on being present in your energy and in the moment.
Move out of fear and doubt, and ground into expansive love
and unshakable peace. You have everything you need to be
successful, so hold faith and jump into the energy of
prosperity. Make sure you rest your vessel and release
anything that doesn’t belong to you. Some different tools
that could help are the crystals green aventurine, jade, rose
quartz and rhodonite. Also foods like cherries, oranges, and
avocados or essential oils like peppermint and cinnamon.

Emily Ruth
Shackelford
Elemental Reading
Earth Signs - Taurus, Virgo, and Capricorn: Earth signs, your motto for this season is “Traveling
home to your heart is the start to remembering who you are” and I feel like that is so beautiful.
You’re ready to level up and you know the process of leveling up starts with the inner work.
Remember that the unknown is only unknown for as long as you leave it unexplored, and
remember that while you walk down this new path, you don’t have to walk it alone. Don’t be
afraid to reach out to your loved ones for support. Trust in your higher power or god of your
own understanding. Trust that if things move in or out of your life, it’s for a reason and
everything will work itself out in the end. You’re ready for this, so allow any feelings of anxiety
to pass through you, and transmute them into excitement. Create and hold a space of grace and
compassion for yourself as you transition out of the old and into this new phase. Some different
tools that could help are the crystals bronzite, rose quartz, clear quartz, as well as orange or
green calcite. Foods like peaches, plums or oranges. And also essential oils like rose, rose hip,
bergamot or pine.

Emily Ruth
Shackelford
Elemental Reading
Air Signs - Gemini, Libra, and Aquarius: Air signs, your motto for this season is “Don’t
deny the signs you’re seeing and instead choose to trust in what your eye is perceiving”
and wow, that’s so freaking powerful haha. You’re minds are always so active and how
could they not be? Do your best to use that power to your advantage Air signs. Don’t
just see the obstacles, use your mind to perceive beyond them. Focus your energy and
attention into what you want to bring about. You are really tapped into a lot of potent
and tangible energy right now, so lean into that and align with that. You have the map,
the car, the keys, and the gas. You’re all locked in and ready to hit the road, so go go go!
Have confidence that the road laid out in front of you is going to lead you exactly where
you’re meant to be. The Divine knows what it’s doing. Some different tools that could
help are crystals such as tigers eye, blue agate, selenite, and while not technically
crystals, I’m feeling that petrified wood and seashells would also be of assistance to you.
Foods such as apples, quinoa, lots of greens, and oats as well. Essential oils like cedar,
orange, lemon, and pine.

Designing a New World
By Christi Conde R.N., Reiki Master
We are in a time of great change, and as you may have noticed, the
energy these days is more powerful than ever before. Everything is
amplified. I have heard the word “intense” used often from my
students and clients. It feels like the buffers that used to exist
between thought and manifestation are disappearing. Let me just
say, instant manifestation is great, if you are practiced and skilled at
energy alignment and positive focus.
"But, if you’re not…I’m guessing 2020 has been
a wild ride for you."
This amplification of energy is also enhancing our guidance system. Meaning, that when you
are thinking or acting out of alignment with your highest and best good, you will know it. It’s
like the small voice inside you that used to gently urge you in the direction of your desires has
to scream at you now to keep you from misusing the energy and creating the illusion of chaos.
When you’re focused in alignment with the flow of love, you feel exhilarated, but if you have
been absorbing the fear around you (and there’s a lot of it out there) and focusing on that,
you’re probably having bouts with anxiety or straight up panic.
The fear you experience in response to a negative thought is supposed
to serve as guidance, an indicator to stop thinking that thought and
redirect your focus, while happiness indicates you are in alignment with
your highest good. Emotions are Divine guidance. When you listen to
this guidance, you cannot get it wrong, because it always flows from
Love for all, and it will always guide you to your highest and best good.
The problem is, most of society is already in fight or flight (because
2020) so triggers are easily tripped. And once they are, it becomes hard
to recognize our guidance much less access the wisdom in it.

When you feel fear(guidance), take a deep breath and ask
yourself, “Am I in danger, or am I just afraid?” If you have the time
to ask yourself that question, you’re probably not in danger,
which means you’re just afraid. That’s great, because the fear is
coming from a thought you are thinking, and you can alter your
thoughts. Listen to and learn from your guidance. Breathe
deeply the minute you notice emotional discomfort. After a few
(or many) deep breaths, you will be able to explore your feelings
and find the triggers that cause you stress. Then you can design a
new response to the trigger and move forward free to create
something new!
We are, after all, the energy that creates worlds and we are here to create in this world. Awaken
your fearless inner child. Rediscover the joy of exploration. Daydream, build things, tell stories,
write stories, good ones with positive messages and act them out. Run, dance, sing, and most
importantly, play! Be childlike. Little children don’t watch the news or worry about tomorrow. They
busy themselves making their own fun. They feel what they feel in the moment with no excuses or
reservations. Then they move on to play, easily letting go of the offending thought. They believe in
magic and miracles. They exude pure love and adoration and are most willing to receive it in
return...Goals!?!
Make no mistake the world has changed and will continue to change. Energies are shifting
and paradigms are crumbling. It is our responsibility now, to use this amplified energy to
design a new world. History repeats itself yes, but history is written by the historians. Why
don’t we write a new story, one worth repeating? Let’s listen to our guidance consistently
and with it we can design a future flowing from and in love. Let’s go play! Let’s use our
powerful childhood imaginations to come up with solutions instead of problems. Whatever
we imagine, will be. So, let’s imagine shifting our vibrations from surviving to thriving, from
scarcity to prosperity, and most importantly from hope to faith. Then, with the wide eyed
wonderment of children, we will watch as prosperity flows into a whole new world.
…” A little child shall lead them” –
Isaiah 11:16

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Navigating a Holistic Life
Cynthia Micoletti
Holistic Meals
@Holisticmealsep
A phrase that has been popular in my vocabulary lately is
“We are on level 10 Jumanji”. The year 2020 has certainly proved
to be one of the most exciting, yet challenging years of my life. As
an empath, having the ability to understand the experiences and
feelings of others, it has been nothing short of a roller-coaster of
emotions that have been hard to navigate in the best moments,
and speedways to anxiety and panic attacks at the worst.
However, I have found that it has been eight months of the most
introspective therapy I have ever undergone. This has forced me
to take a look at the areas that I tend to leave to “when I have the
time” and “it is not that urgent”.

I want to sit here and write to you that even the most “put together folks” have never
experienced any of this, but that would just be a lie. We read so much about “self-care” on
social media, but what does self-care look like? It’s not just baths filled with lavender, spa
dates, positive quotes, treating yourself to a good book, etc. Self-care requires rigorous
self-reflection and work, and let’s be honest, most of the time is not appealing. It is like
that scene in Snow White when the Evil Queen asks the mirror “Who is the fairest of them
all?” then the mirror gives her an answer that she is not happy with. But let’s face it, we all
saw that coming. Facing ourselves and seeking growth is the most painful and beautiful
thing we can do. Living holistically means that you have to balance your entire being to be
fully functional; Mind, body, and spirit. However, today’s times have proven hard to keep
track of what is up and what is down, and like all, I have had a hard time keeping up with
one or two of these at a time.
Did you know that your mind is your strongest muscle? However, this is the one muscle
that we often forget to exercise. Have you heard of “We are what we think?”, well, that
is one hundred percent true. Meditation and positive affirmations are a great way to help
your thoughts work for you. I am your classic overthinker, as well as your classic realist.
Although these may not seem too bad, they can get pretty crazy, really fast.
I wake up with the intention to start the day on a positive note by waking up early,
meditating for 15-20 minutes and reciting my affirmations each day. This does not
mean I walk around like I never have bad days, or that I have a happy smile as if I’m on
happy pills. It means that when the day is not going exactly how I envisioned it, I will
have more compassion towards myself, know that the situation and feelings are
temporary, and I have the choice to come out of it in a positive way.
Our body is our temple. We all know that exercise generates endorphins and
endorphins make people happy (thank you, Elle Woods!). Yet I know that even the folks
that like to work out regularly sometimes have trouble following through during these
times. I like sharing this because sometimes we see regular gym-goers or health
aficionados as intimidating folks, and build it up in our heads that their discipline is an
unattainable goal.

We need to decide to work on ourselves and strive to become
the best version of ourselves. We need to see exercising and
feeding our bodies nutritious foods as a daily decision. Don’t
worry about where you are right now. Don’t worry about
starting a new diet or routine. Don’t worry about having lost
ten pounds and you just weighed yourself and are now fifteen
pounds heavier. Like any relationship, the decision to make it
work depends on us, and it’s a daily decision. The question
being, are we ready to make that commitment to ourselves? Be
compassionate with yourself, and just start again, learn and
grow.
Last, but not least, is our spirit. This one is the trickiest. Spirituality has nothing to do with
religion. I believe that it doesn’t matter what you believe in. I believe that it is more
important what our belief system is going to do to help us become the best version of
ourselves, and in turn, help others to thrive. Having something greater to believe in takes
the focus away from our ego, which gives us a perspective away from our mind.
At Holistic Meals, we love food and we love to help! All of our products from our Infused
Olive Oils, Spice Rubs, and our Meal Preparation Catering Services are crafted with love.
We are dedicated to provide the tools that you will need to kick start, re-start, or
maintain your lifestyle change. In these times where human connection is craved, being
there for one another is extraordinarily important. That is why you will see us each
weekend at the various Farmers Markets. We at Holistic Meals know that sometimes we
need a champion to help us through the moments that are not easy to navigate, or when
we’re feeling discouraged, and need a partner to make it through tough times. With
Holistic Meals, you will never be alone in your wellness journey.
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