SEPT 2021 Blues Vol 37 No. 9
SEPT 2021 Blues Vol 37 No. 9 Features • Remembering Those We Lost - 13 Brave U.S. Soldiers in Kabul - First Responders on 9/11 - Blues Co-Founder Nat Gutierrez - Officers Lost to COVID • 9/11 Attacks Shape Today’s FBI • Jaeson Jones: Battle at the Border Departments • Publisher’s Thoughts: Part I & II • Editor’s Thoughts • Guest Editorial - Samantha Horwitz • Your Letters • News Around the Country • Warstories & Aftermath • Light Bulb Award: Judge Abigail Anastasio • Open Road: Paint Protection for your new car • Hundreds of NEW JOB LISTINGS
SEPT 2021 Blues Vol 37 No. 9
Features
• Remembering Those We Lost
- 13 Brave U.S. Soldiers in Kabul
- First Responders on 9/11
- Blues Co-Founder Nat Gutierrez
- Officers Lost to COVID
• 9/11 Attacks Shape Today’s FBI
• Jaeson Jones: Battle at the Border
Departments
• Publisher’s Thoughts: Part I & II
• Editor’s Thoughts
• Guest Editorial - Samantha Horwitz
• Your Letters
• News Around the Country
• Warstories & Aftermath
• Light Bulb Award: Judge Abigail Anastasio
• Open Road: Paint Protection for your new car
• Hundreds of NEW JOB LISTINGS
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The nightmares have all<br />
but disappeared. That darn<br />
jumper and Mohammad Attah,<br />
two faces I can recall in a<br />
split second. I hug my family<br />
a little tighter. I tell them and<br />
my friends that I love them<br />
a bit more and then I fight. I<br />
fight the demons of anger and<br />
cynicism the most. Year after<br />
year they come for me somewhere<br />
around two weeks<br />
before the anniversary date.<br />
Even while using tools like<br />
Eye Movement Desensitization<br />
and Reprocessing (EMDR)<br />
Therapy and stress management<br />
techniques, they are still<br />
able to grab hold. They grab<br />
at my heart and taunt me<br />
with thoughts of defeat. They<br />
whisper, “You’ll never really<br />
be okay.” And “You will never<br />
win.” I pause. I take a deep<br />
breath, and say with a smile, “I<br />
already have.” I remind myself<br />
of my why. Seventeen years<br />
ago, in my basement in the<br />
dark, I did not pull that trigger<br />
pressed against my head<br />
when Post-Traumatic Stress<br />
consumed me. Seventeen<br />
years ago, I made a choice<br />
to stay and fight. To bear the<br />
scars in my brain from September<br />
11th so that others<br />
could learn and benefit from<br />
the pain. It was the most difficult<br />
decision of my life, and in<br />
the end, the most rewarding.<br />
What was born from the<br />
pain is a passion driven<br />
purpose to help others<br />
find a way out of their<br />
darkness and despair. To<br />
educate and help smash<br />
the stigma of Post-Traumatic<br />
Stress that surrounds<br />
first responders<br />
with clear message, “You<br />
are not alone” was the<br />
inspiration for my book,<br />
The Silent Fall: A Secret<br />
Service Agent’s Story of<br />
Tragedy and Triumph<br />
After 9/11.<br />
I am never alone on<br />
September 11th. I purposely<br />
surround myself<br />
with other 9/11 first responders,<br />
and others<br />
who serve, some retired<br />
and some still on the job.<br />
Those people who “get it.”<br />
They get where my head is,<br />
my short temper, my frustrations.<br />
<strong>No</strong> one tries to fix<br />
anyone. We simply listen<br />
and offer support. We are<br />
united in our grief and determined<br />
to never forget.<br />
On September 11, <strong>2021</strong>,<br />
twenty years will have<br />
passed. Although our world<br />
has changed tremendously,<br />
my world, for that one day<br />
is infinitely small. I think<br />
of the words, “United We<br />
Stand,” and find comfort<br />
knowing that at least here,<br />
in my hometown, we will<br />
never forget.<br />
Samantha Horwitz & John<br />
Salerno are regular contributors<br />
to The <strong>Blues</strong> Police Magazine.<br />
They are the founders of A Badge<br />
of Honor, a 501(c)(3) post-traumatic<br />
stress awareness and<br />
suicide prevention program for<br />
first responders. Sam’s book is<br />
available to purchase online from<br />
every major retailer. John and<br />
Sam host MAD (Making a Difference)<br />
Radio each Wednesday 7pm<br />
cst on FB @Makingadifferencetx.<br />
For more about Sam and John<br />
and the wellness and resiliency<br />
workshops for first responders,<br />
visit ABadgeofHonor.com. Sam’s<br />
book is available online from every<br />
major retailer.<br />
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