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Having a child grow<br />
and change so rapidly<br />
creates a sense of nostalgia<br />
(and sometimes panic)<br />
in me like few things do<br />
and I often find myself<br />
reflecting back on my own<br />
childhood as a measure of<br />
comparison. There are<br />
particular memories that<br />
stick out in my mind–<br />
like sitting at the kitchen<br />
table with my grandmother<br />
playing endless hands of<br />
double solitaire and learning<br />
how to fry chicken in her<br />
cast iron skillet–that I hold<br />
near and dear to my heart.<br />
Then I think about the life<br />
that my husband and I have<br />
created for our son and<br />
wonder, of all the memories<br />
(good and bad) that he’s<br />
sure to have, what will he<br />
actually hold onto?<br />
I have to remind myself, on a near-constant basis, that I am actually contributing<br />
to a narrative that my son could possibly play in his mind for the rest of<br />
his life. And that one day, he’ll be creating and instilling memories and moments<br />
and traditions, God-willing, into his own children based on that narrative.<br />
No one has to be reminded that life is short. I already feel the personal<br />
pressure of not “maximizing” my time here on earth as I have tendencies of<br />
taking the same paths over and over again and have made, admittedly, little effort<br />
to change it. I get into these epic ruts where days or even months may pass and<br />
then I look up and it’s Christmas again! I start to calculate how many Christmases<br />
I have left–and I again worry that I’ve wasted precious time. Why do we do this<br />
to ourselves? Or maybe it’s just me.<br />
I really do have good intentions, though, and know I need to do better.<br />
So, in the spirit of spring renewal, I am becoming more intentional about<br />
making the most of every minute and creating the kind of legacy that will<br />
endure long after I’m gone. I’m gonna live like I’m dying, as Tim McGraw<br />
would say! (A quick side note, I’m not dying. I’m just middle-aged, hormonal,<br />
and waxing philosophical.) Hopefully it will serve as an important way to stay<br />
focused on what matters most.<br />
As parents, we tend to stress about things that don’t matter all that much,<br />
don’t we? Our kids probably aren’t going to remember every detail of our home<br />
decor or how perfectly the beds were made. They likely won’t remember that<br />
time the laundry was all piled up on the laundry room floor or whether our<br />
refrigerator was stocked with name brands or generics. And if that’s the case,<br />
and I hope it is, then what will they remember?<br />
Well, I think they’ll remember traditions . . .<br />
Despite my own parents divorcing when I was four and living full-time with<br />
my mom, there are some really specific things that I remember about my dad’s<br />
parents. I remember that they were tall. My dad is 6’6” and his dad was 6’5”.<br />
And I know that they loved to play golf and his mother made “trash” every year<br />
at Christmas. So several years ago, I decided to start making trash during the<br />
holidays, too. I went out and bought a huge glass canister with a lid that would<br />
hold up to two gallons of the savory homemade snack mix and, despite having<br />
no idea if the recipe was even remotely similar to that which I’d had so many<br />
years before, it turned out deliciously and my son now totally identifies it with<br />
Christmas–just like I did all those years ago.<br />
Kids have deep need for predictability. They’ll remember, with great fondness,<br />
the traditions you establish—whether it’s a weekly game night, places you<br />
regularly travel for family getaways, or, in our case, Sunday dinners around<br />
the table, a custom started by my own maternal grandmother. Be deliberate<br />
about creating some traditions that they’ll want to pass on to their own<br />
children someday.