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sweet-smelling cloth was pressed against her face she inhaled gratefully in sobbing gasps.<br />
"You will forget," said Mary's voice.<br />
"Oh, Mary, why, why did you let him hurt. . ."<br />
Darkness came, and she sank back into the dream she called ordinary life. They left her, hurt and<br />
bleeding, al<strong>one</strong>.<br />
MARY: THE RESURRECTION OF THE INQUISITION<br />
I am so frightened for Patricia and Jonathan I do not think I can bear it. Tonight we made a terrible, terrible<br />
mistake with them. Unbelievable that we could be so foolish! Or is it so unbelievable? In an institution two<br />
thousand years old there is precedent for every error. The <strong>one</strong>s who unleashed the Black Death<br />
prematurely in 1334 made a greater mistake than we have, after all.<br />
But that is history and this is now. She is bleeding, maybe dying, at this very moment! If I could sweat<br />
blood I think I would.<br />
But I am absolutely helpless. If I show myself now I risk exposure of the whole Church. Error must not<br />
be allowed to compound error.<br />
So I spend these predawn hours writing, hoping that somehow the act of putting pen to paper will relax<br />
me enough for a few hours of rest.<br />
What a disaster! And there was so much time wasted after she was hurt! We had to get safely away<br />
before calling the priest. I can only hope and pray that he gets Patricia to a hospital in time.<br />
My God, we had to leave her!<br />
I look at my words as they stand on the paper, dry and still. Words of fear. I think it, I say it—fear, fear,<br />
fear.<br />
We live exactly like all night things—we hide and scurry and know the way of silence. We and the rats<br />
and owls and bats.<br />
The children are so incredibly important. Please, please may no more harm come to them. Our mistake<br />
has exposed them to an even worse enemy than our own stupidity!<br />
The Inquisition will certainly have noticed our gaudy public fiasco. Now our tireless old enemy will be<br />
after them again.<br />
It hides for a few years, to lull us, to tempt us. . . .<br />
Then it jumps out of nowhere—right at our throats!<br />
The Inquisition will battle us until Catholicism withers away. The last priest, in the last moment of the last<br />
Catholic church on earth, will strike the last blow at us.<br />
They say we are evil, that we work to make Satan manifest, to give Him physical form.<br />
I say, dear Inquisitors, evil is not all black nor your "Satan" all bad, and the world is not as simple as you<br />
would like to believe.<br />
Inquisition: it means inquiry. Question. Such a small word for such a great terror.<br />
To the common world the Inquisition is dead and g<strong>one</strong>. How would the ordinary Catholic feel to know<br />
that the handsome priest with the briefcase, striding so confidently out of the Chancellery, is an Inquisitor?<br />
And that the Sam-sonite case contains a thumbscrew, a radio direction-finder, and a car bomb?<br />
Daddy laughed and called them Christ's terrorists.<br />
I do not laugh. They murdered my father by exposing him to plutonium. They chose that particular horror<br />
so the radiation would prevent us from salvaging his semen and thus his precious genes.<br />
Dad—covered with sores, gasping, his hair falling out on the pillow. Oh, God, help us!<br />
Deliver the children from such a fate. Deliver my boy!<br />
Must these hot summer days be his autumn? Death, birth, the roll of seasons, sky-changes: Jonathan is<br />
the end of a long line, the perfection of two millennia of patient breeding.<br />
The Inquisition is so skilled. How can they be so damn good at it? They're just a bunch of fanatical<br />
priests!<br />
The world has forgotten us, but the Church has not, not for an instant.<br />
I hear my heart beating: bump-bump, save his life, save his life.<br />
I love you until my heart will break, it takes my breath away to touch you, and I cannot speak to look on<br />
your beauty. You liked to swim, you liked to play basketball, to listen to your short-wave, to look at the<br />
stars.<br />
We raped your mind so that the Inquisition could not even torture the truth of your identity out of you.<br />
And now look— the disaster of this night will attract them like flies to a corpse!