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Table of Contents<br />

Letter from the editor<br />

celebrity skin mixtape by shanice brim<br />

from afropunk w/love by shanice brim<br />

black girls do rock by tionni warren<br />

baby won’t you hold on to me by marissa zimmerman<br />

where are all the disabled women by katrina vargas<br />

we should all be watching misspelled by jean trujillo<br />

AN interview with shuga henry by tionni warren<br />

an interview with april hogue by shanice brim<br />

an affair with myself by dominque aizpurua<br />

The Fix complex by Sara geiger<br />

merpunx by Natlie reitz<br />

not your china doll by kaylee dolloff<br />

suzanne by glenda villalon<br />

so your fave is problematic by shanice brim<br />

feminist read of the month by shanice brim<br />

monthly 101: rape culture by michelle emile<br />

an interview with jane elliott by michelle emile<br />

feminist blogger of the month by matlaleng o. babatunde<br />

red summer by matlaleng o. babatunde<br />

credits<br />

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Letter from<br />

Editor<br />

the<br />

Hello everyone!<br />

First, I’d like to thank everyone for their positive<br />

feedback on the first issue and, of course, for sharing it and<br />

spreading the word! When I first started the magazine I had<br />

this intense fear that no one read it. It was sort of like when<br />

you’re doing a play and you have a dream that no one<br />

shows up opening night. I was tossing and turning hoping I<br />

didn’t do all this work and get so many people involved for<br />

no one to see it. But then you all showed up and shared<br />

our work and I’m so beyond grateful!<br />

This month our theme is Celebrity Skin. We’re focusing<br />

on media driven images of women, body image, media<br />

representation and more. So much of our societal views<br />

on women are written in how we depict them in media. The<br />

songs we write about women, the women we feature in mainstream<br />

magazines, the women we leave out of the conversation<br />

altogether, it’s all tied so closely to how women are<br />

treated in the everyday. In some cases it even informs how<br />

we treat women in real life. I hope this issue makes you think<br />

and I hope you find something that speaks to you!<br />

Thanks so much,<br />

Shanice<br />

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From Afropunk<br />

with<br />

Love<br />

Some of our girls went to afropunk<br />

this year and had a ball.


Outfits


Program<br />

Me and Michelle<br />

we both bought kitten ears.<br />

what’s cuter than bestie kitten<br />

ears?<br />

Left:editor, Michelle<br />

Right: Contributor, Tionni<br />

Flag Dancing


Performances<br />

Lianne La Havas<br />

The Internet<br />

Waiting for D’Angelo. . .for 45 min.


Booth’s and food<br />

Michelle’s Buys


Waiting for the train home<br />

both nights.<br />

Fin


Black Girls Do Rock!<br />

A Book review by tionni warren<br />

What Are You<br />

Doing Here?: A<br />

Black Woman’s<br />

Life and Liberation<br />

in Heavy Metal<br />

written by Laina<br />

Dawes is a celebration<br />

of individuality<br />

but also discusses<br />

the importance of<br />

community and the<br />

effects it has on a<br />

person’s identity. I<br />

initially picked up<br />

the book at this<br />

year’s Afropunk<br />

festival because it<br />

immediately stood<br />

out to me. I am a<br />

young, black woman<br />

who has always seemed to like things that I was told<br />

by my black peers as being “too white” i.e. any kind of<br />

rock music. Although I’m not a huge fan of heavy metal<br />

per se, loving Soundgarden, Incubus, Deftones, and Red<br />

Hot Chili Peppers is hardly a “normal” thing to listen to for<br />

any person of color. Needless to say, the title of the book<br />

spoke to me.<br />

Dawes has a “lifelong love” of metal and has<br />

attended numerous heavy metal shows both as a fan<br />

and a journalist. In her book, she shares her experiences<br />

of being a black woman in the heavy metal, hard rock,<br />

and punk scenes. She also interviewed black female rock<br />

musicians and fans to give their take on why the love<br />

the music, racism, stereotypes, female body image, and<br />

obstacles they’ve had to face in those scenes.<br />

The book starts off with Dawes explaining what<br />

it was like growing up liking something that was thought<br />

of as strange in the black community; the battle within<br />

herself to understand why she likes something that she is<br />

told she shouldn’t. She uses a quote from Camille Atkinson<br />

to explain what many of us feel. “You have people<br />

on both sides of your life...telling you that you are not<br />

black enough because you listen to this music. So you<br />

do question yourself. What ends up happening is that<br />

you create for yourself an identity of what a black person<br />

should be.” As a rock fan, I was constantly told by my<br />

relatives and black friends that I was weird for loving it.<br />

“They’re screaming, not singing. There’s too much spotlight<br />

on the guitar. The music is too loud. How could you<br />

like that music?” All of these things I’ve heard from other<br />

black people are ridiculous and Dawes explains it like this<br />

in a chapter of her book: “I’m Here Because We Started<br />

It.” If you anything about music history, you would know<br />

that what we know as rock and roll today was inspired by<br />

black musicians. A lot of bands like The Rolling Stones,<br />

Led Zeppelin, and The Doors were influenced by blues<br />

singers and bands. So, there really is no logical reason<br />

why it is crazy for people to understand why some black<br />

people may be drawn to the music.<br />

As much as my black friends in the past have<br />

been shocked to learn that I love rock music, some white<br />

people that I have met over the years have expressed<br />

their shock as well. Dawes talks about a time she met her<br />

friend’s white boyfriend and she expressed her love for<br />

punk and metal bands to him. He asked her where her<br />

family was from and she explained that she was adopted<br />

into a white family. His response? “So that explains it.<br />

You’re really white.” What Dawes is saying here is a lot of<br />

the time, people want an explanation as to why they like<br />

the music. You couldn’t possibly have started to liking it<br />

on your own. You’re black. It is almost seen as you are<br />

admitting to committing a crime when you admit that<br />

you like something that is not seen as being normal for<br />

black people. You are seen as denying your people and<br />

your culture. Thank God I love rap music because when<br />

I say I don’t really like R&B, people look at me like I’m crazy.<br />

Dawes and many of black women she talks to do not<br />

want to be<br />

perceived<br />

as wanting<br />

to distance<br />

themselves<br />

from their<br />

black<br />

culture just<br />

because<br />

they like<br />

what they<br />

like.<br />

Writer, Laina Dawes


Alexis Brown of<br />

straight line<br />

They don’t want to “shed<br />

their blackness” they just<br />

want to be individuals<br />

within their communities.<br />

The author interviews<br />

many different black female<br />

metal artists and fans that<br />

give their take on being<br />

black and doing this type<br />

of music. She speaks to<br />

artists like Skin from Skunk<br />

Anansie, Tamar-kali, Alexis<br />

Brown from Straight Line<br />

Stich, and Militia Vox who<br />

fronts a cover band called<br />

Judas Priestess. They all<br />

have interesting experiences.<br />

Skin talks about record<br />

stitch<br />

labels trying to categorize her band as R&B. Other talk<br />

about the pressure to be ten times more excellent than<br />

any white, male band - because if you’re going to come<br />

into a territory that is not seen as black woman territory<br />

then you really have to shred.<br />

Fronting a metal band and being a lead guitarist is seen<br />

as white male territory, so when you see a black woman<br />

doing these things, they command respect which black<br />

women have to fight for everyday.<br />

Racism in these scenes are a common thing even today.<br />

Dawes discusses scary experiences she and others had<br />

being one of the few black women at metal concerts. Experiences<br />

ranged from being shoved into walls, punched<br />

in the face to being called nigger after a show. It is still<br />

so strange for some people to see black people at these<br />

concerts that don’t know how to act or react to their<br />

presence there. They sometimes become very territorial.<br />

Although I’ve never experienced anything so extreme<br />

and I have never attended a heavy metal concert, I’ve<br />

had similar experiences. When I went to a Soundgarden<br />

concert a couple years ago, people looked at like I had<br />

six heads. Not only was I black and female but I loved<br />

Soundgarden so much I came alone. This year I went to<br />

see the Red Hot Chili Peppers with my best friend, who<br />

is also black<br />

and female,<br />

and before the<br />

concert started<br />

to wandered<br />

around to find<br />

some beer.<br />

We got so<br />

many looks<br />

like, “What?<br />

You guys like<br />

them?” from<br />

white fans.<br />

And the black<br />

people that<br />

worked there<br />

looked at us<br />

Tamar Kali<br />

like we were<br />

new alien lifeforms. These two white guys that looked<br />

like they were forty years old tried to get us to sit with<br />

them because of their amazement that we were the<br />

only two black girls at the concert. I was really surprised.<br />

I just thought New York City would be a little bit more<br />

open-minded and not care so much about us being<br />

there.<br />

Dawes’ book is a great in-depth look into the<br />

struggles and joy that us black female rock fans experience.<br />

She talks about the obstacles, but throughout the<br />

book her love for metal, hard rock, and punk emanates<br />

off the pages. The book makes me remember that there<br />

are others out there like me who love this wonderful and<br />

beautifully crazy and chaotic music - that find the beauty<br />

and musical virtuosity in the screams and growls of the<br />

lead singer and the whine of the electric guitar. She says<br />

in the final chapter of her book, “To me, hard rock, metal,<br />

and punk music seemed like the the perfect soundtrack<br />

to letting go and letting inhibitions that had stifled black<br />

women from expressing themselves as sexual, beautiful,<br />

and more importantly, normal women, free.”<br />

This book is a must-read for any black female rock fan.<br />

But its also a great book to read to be more informed on<br />

the subject for all races!<br />

Skin from Skunk Anansi<br />

Militia Vox of Judas<br />

Priestess


BABY WON’T YOU HOLD<br />

ON TO ME<br />

As you know this month we're focusing on media representation, when Marisa Zimmerman sent in these beautiful<br />

photos of her and her daughter we were delighted. Search through Instagram and Twitter and you will<br />

find a bevy of jokes about Black mothers that depict them as harsh, uncaring, and illogical. Black mothers<br />

have been used as a scapegoat for the ills of society for decades now. These photos remind us that Black<br />

women have the same hopes and share the same tenderness for their loved ones as any other group. When we<br />

look at these photos let’s also take a moment to apprecitate the diversity and wonder of women’s bodies. They<br />

come in so many forms and do so much for us all. When we see the photos of Marisa's adorable daughter we<br />

are reminded of why representation is so so important. Young Black women are rarely given depictions of<br />

themselves that feed their inner girl. Black girlhood is so rarely depicted accurately and just as rarely protected<br />

and cherished. <strong>Flower</strong> <strong>Crown</strong> is proud to take a moment to appreciate Black mothers and the humanity of<br />

Black girls.


Where Are All the Disabled Women?<br />

By Katrina Vargas<br />

Nobody can really applaud the representation of<br />

women in mass media; if we are actually ever shown, it’s<br />

usually as the supporting side character for an aloof, ill<br />

qualified, generically attractive man who fumbles through<br />

life under our care, as the public laughs along while we<br />

roll our eyes and wonder just what we’re going to do with<br />

this rascal. These women are almost always seen, and filed<br />

under, the non-threatening “norm”: white, heterosexual,<br />

cisgender, well-educated, upwardly mobile women whose<br />

lives fill only the blank spaces that need a little noise; women<br />

who don’t take up much room, don’t feel their bodies<br />

failing them, don’t overlap into<br />

spaces they’re supposed to be<br />

hidden away from; these women<br />

never feel lost in, or denied entrance<br />

to, a society that makes<br />

clear they’re not welcome. Oh,<br />

and one thing I forgot to mention<br />

about these women that<br />

would otherwise throw a wrench<br />

into the lives of all these characters?<br />

None of them are disabled.<br />

This sounds nearly<br />

impossible. No disabled<br />

characters? That can’t be. It’s<br />

true, if you run through some<br />

characters in your mind, you’ll<br />

eventually land on a few pretty<br />

significant characters who are disabled; Tyrion Lannister<br />

from Game of Thrones, Walter White, Jr. from Breaking<br />

Bad, Professor Xavier from X-Men - even Hiccup from<br />

How to Train Your Dragon. Listen, I think these characters<br />

are wonderful. I love that they’re all complex people who<br />

are each shown to have their own lives, who aren’t simply<br />

there for the consumption of abled viewers. I love it, I do.<br />

But, these men all fall into the same illusory representation<br />

that these women do, of an ideal reserved for only<br />

so many people; an ideal that doesn’t represent the rich<br />

diversity of the people they’re portraying, falling flat on<br />

the issues surrounding disabled people - who are, by and<br />

large, in poverty, and as such, are often women, people of<br />

color, and members of the LGBTQIAP+ community<br />

(and just forget representation at all if you fall into more<br />

than one of these identities). In the media’s slapdash representation<br />

of marginalized people, disabled characters are<br />

simply a decorated copy of the normalization of people in<br />

power.<br />

Image by Ellen Havasy<br />

So, what do we do with disabled women? How<br />

do we treat them? How do we understand women who<br />

take up space - or who don’t fall into the small corner of<br />

normalized beauty and ability? It’s quite a daunting question.<br />

Perhaps, then, we should start looking at it as “Why?”<br />

rather than “How?”, then. Why are we not seeing disabled<br />

women? Why do we hide disabled women away, rather<br />

than celebrate them? Why do we refuse to tell disabled<br />

women’s stories?<br />

I, alone, of course, cannot answer that any more<br />

than I could answer the silencing of so many other women.<br />

I can only tell you that disabled<br />

women - all disabled women -<br />

deserve to see themselves and<br />

have their stories told. I want to<br />

see media bring attention to the<br />

injustices disabled women face,<br />

especially when their identities<br />

intersect with different systems<br />

of oppression. I want to see the<br />

stories of autistic black girls, who<br />

are often diagnosed years after<br />

white children - or are misdiagnosed<br />

entirely. I want to see the<br />

stories of transgender women<br />

in wheelchairs who struggle to<br />

find housing due to lawful ability<br />

to deny them a home because<br />

of their gender, and absence of accessibility throughout<br />

society.<br />

I want to see the stories of older, deaf bisexual<br />

women who only learn to sign later in life, because of oralism’s<br />

prevalence in her adolescence, excitedly learning the<br />

sign for ‘bisexual’ for the first time. I want to see the stories<br />

of intellectually disabled indigenous girls who struggle<br />

for their reproductive rights, as both an indigenous and<br />

disabled person, and the ability to sterilize them against<br />

their will, at as young as five years of age. I want disabled<br />

women and girls to see themselves, to know themselves<br />

and love who they are.<br />

Write about us. Write about us as you would abled<br />

women and girls. Write about us as our own people, good<br />

and bad, not as a tale of inspiration, or a learning experience<br />

for abled characters and the abled audience. Listen<br />

to us. Think about us. It’s time we came out of your shadows.


We should all be watching Misspelled<br />

by Jean Trujillo<br />

When watching tv it is easy to see that there are many shows<br />

for people with different interests. There are shows filled with<br />

comedy, suspense, intrigue, and mystery. What is often found<br />

lacking in these shows, however, is a diverse cast of well written<br />

women. The web series “MisSpelled” is not one of those shows.<br />

It features a cast of women of color whose characters are<br />

thrown together after discovering they all have mysteriously<br />

acquired magical powers. They are forced to work together to<br />

try to learn how to master their new powers and deal with the<br />

consequences of those powers. As if that wasn’t hard enough,<br />

they also have to learn how to work with each other. This<br />

web series is bursting with funny, dramatic, and suspenseful<br />

moments. The best part is that the series is written by African-American<br />

actress and writer Lindsey McDowell! The web<br />

series’ first season has come to an end and left their viewers<br />

with a dramatic cliffhanger. Lindsey and the cast are currently<br />

working to raise enough money film their second season. All<br />

off their episodes and information about the show and cast can<br />

be found here.<br />

Check out their<br />

tumblr!


An interview with Shuga Henry<br />

by Tionni Warren<br />

always being seen as the matriarch, but that’s how it goes<br />

sometimes I guess.<br />

What are you currently working on/acting in/auditioning<br />

for?<br />

I am always on the audition train. lol. That’s the life of a<br />

performer. I am currently in rehearsal for “Thoroughly<br />

Modern Millie.” I play Muzzy in the show. That is the<br />

same role Sheryl Lee Ralph played on Broadway. It’s a<br />

fun role and the costumes are amazing. It’s going to be a<br />

wonderful time.<br />

How long have you been acting?<br />

I have been acting since childhood. When I came to this<br />

country from Jamaica, it was something I fell in love with.<br />

I don’t think at my young age I knew I was acting…lol.<br />

However, I knew I loved putting on performances and<br />

entertaining people.<br />

Name of some of your past production/films/ What<br />

was your favorite?<br />

Chicago, Hairspray, Aesop’s Fables, A Funny thing Happened<br />

on the Way to the Forum,<br />

The Amazing Spiderman 2, The Sound of Music just to<br />

name a few. Some of my faves are The Sound of Music,<br />

Forum and The Wiz, which I did this summer and had an<br />

absolute blast! It was truly an amazing experience.<br />

Why do you want to be an actor?<br />

I call myself a performing artist. I am not one thing. I act,<br />

sing, write, direct. I am many facets of the drama field. I<br />

do this because I feel compelled to. I enjoy the energy<br />

I give to the audience. I enjoy the energy the audience<br />

gives to me.<br />

What specific area do you want to focus on?<br />

Film, TV, Plays, Musical Theatre? I am open to all areas.<br />

What have you been successful in thus far?<br />

Musical Theatre has been the area that has provided the<br />

most success<br />

How frequently do you get a gig?<br />

LOL... well this year has been the most successful. In the<br />

past it was scattered. I frequently had to create work for<br />

myself. Most of that came in the form of producing my<br />

own shows. Last year the ball began to roll and this year<br />

so far it’s been a steady stream of work.<br />

What kind of character do you usually play? So far I<br />

always get the matriarch or the diva role. I don’t enjoy<br />

What is it like being a black actress in 2014?<br />

It can be quite rough being a black actor or actress. You<br />

are always questioning, “where is there a role for me?”<br />

You go to auditions knowing that it will be you and four<br />

other black persons there b/c it’s not a black show. You<br />

get stereotypical roles at times and you wish many theatre<br />

companies would do multicultural casting. However,<br />

the winds of change are blowing. From theatre greats like<br />

Audra MacDonald playing Mother Abbess in Sound of<br />

Music, to Norman Lewis playing The Phantom in Phantom<br />

of the Opera, to most recently Keke Palmer playing<br />

Cinderella in Cinderella, you can observe a slight shift.


So if it is happening on Broadway, then other theatre<br />

companies will follow. That however, I feel that will take a<br />

few more years. In the meantime, I will keep showing up<br />

and doing what I do best and maybe the creative team<br />

will look past my color and truly see the talent.<br />

you lose faith. It is during these times that I remind myself<br />

of the successes I have had, pray and try my best to work<br />

things out to the best of my ability.<br />

What is your most sought after goal in respects to<br />

working in the entertainment industry?<br />

I would love to be a constant working artist. The goal is<br />

to live comfortably through the craft. I’m not saying this<br />

field will bring me millions. I’m saying that, I would like<br />

to live a good life doing the work I love. That’s the main<br />

goal. If I get my 15 - 150min of fame in the midst of that,<br />

well that’s just frosting and the strawberry on my life’s<br />

cupcake.<br />

Where do you see yourself in 10 years as an actress?<br />

In what ways has it been a positive experience?<br />

My experience as a performer has been positive b/c I<br />

can meet so many different talented people. I get to<br />

laugh and jump around all day and be paid..lol. I have<br />

the opportunity to create something magical ( I know<br />

that sounds cliche) but it is a magical experience. You<br />

can travel to a foreign land, or back in time or out of this<br />

world. What’s more amazing is that you can take a truck<br />

load of people with you to share in the experience. This<br />

business can be very rough, uncertain at times, discouraging<br />

and exhausting. However, I wouldn’t leave it. The<br />

rewards are too great. I truly love what I do; and b/c I<br />

do I teach the craft as well. During my down times from<br />

shows, I teach musical theatre, acting, and voice to young<br />

children to senior citizens. I enjoy teaching very much.<br />

It gives me the opportunity to take the craft beyond<br />

the stage. My long term goal, after I cross my many red<br />

carpets, is to teach on the collegiate level. I would love to<br />

help guide and cultivate a new generation of performers.<br />

Talk specifically about the challenges you have<br />

faced. Financial challenges are the worst.<br />

You have to audition and take enrichment classes, those<br />

are a must. However, you need to survive - pay bills,<br />

eat! The struggle is finding a survival job that will aid<br />

you along until you are blessed with the consistence of<br />

work. Many times you have to piece jobs together. God<br />

bless the people that find the perfect situation. Also, you<br />

have to stay encouraged. As time goes by and you are<br />

not seeing the progress you hope for, you can lose faith.<br />

When the bills are piling up and there is no money in site,<br />

I plan to be a successful stage actress, with a home in<br />

Louisiana and Jamaica, W.I, commuting often to New<br />

York to perform on stage. I know that’s a big dream. My<br />

dear departed pastor, Rev. A.W.C. Kerr always taught me<br />

to aim high. He would say, “aim for the sun, so if you miss<br />

the sun at least you will land on the moon.” And I would<br />

add, “either way you’ll be out of this world”.<br />

What is your advice to young actors of color dreaming<br />

to make it big or have steady work? Aim high<br />

and hold your dreams close. Do not give the power to<br />

anyone to destroy it. Anything in life is possible. Take<br />

calculated risks and don’t let anything stop you.<br />

What area of entertainment do you think is more<br />

open minded when casting black females in production?<br />

Why?<br />

I’m not sure how to answer this question, b/c the problem<br />

exist in all areas of entertainment. However, if I was<br />

to choose, maybe television. There are so many new<br />

concepts. With internet tv on the rise thanks to Youtube<br />

and Netflix, I feel the possibilities are endless.


Meet Aprill Hogue:<br />

Artist, Designer, writer.<br />

Fashion is all about representation.<br />

What you wear represents who you<br />

are but women of color have for far<br />

too long been unable to recognize<br />

themselves in this form expression.<br />

Aprill Hogue is here to change that.<br />

Interview by Shanice Brim<br />

When did you start illustrations?<br />

I’ve always loved drawing, painting, and creating art<br />

with my hands, ever since I was a young child. I began<br />

to take my career as an artist more seriously in high<br />

school as I developed a comprehensive portfolio and<br />

applied for college to further my studies. My career as<br />

an illustrator soon began after graduating college in<br />

2012 with a BFA and concentration in illustration.<br />

The art world is still very segregated and it’s still<br />

hard for artists of color to break into that scene.<br />

What do you think can be done to get young girls<br />

of color interested in art? And how do we break<br />

the barrier in the art world.<br />

I think in order to get young girls of color interested<br />

in the arts, we have to make a conscious effort to not<br />

only include them visually, giving them positive representation<br />

in the art world. In addition, we have to<br />

include intersectional subject matters that they care<br />

about and can relate to. I think a great way to start<br />

that process and conversation is by providing the general<br />

public with a better knowledge of existing press/<br />

and or media, safe spaces, and artists, that make an<br />

effort to include more representation of people of color.<br />

For example, more public spaces like the MoCADA<br />

Museum in Brooklyn NY, featuring more artists of color<br />

such as Mickalene Thomas, and media/ press such as<br />

on www.upworthy.com<br />

You have a children’s book called Margret’s Mane.<br />

It’s about a young girl’s natural hair journey. What<br />

inspired this and can you talk about your own<br />

journey with your hair?<br />

Margret’s Mane is a children’s book not only about a<br />

young girl’s natural hair journey, it’s also a tale about<br />

a young girl’s journey to love and fully accept herself<br />

as she is. Hair can be a controversial topic in the black<br />

community, so I wrote and illustrated this book in<br />

hopes that it would inspire other girls from all walks of<br />

life to love whatever hair type they’ve got.


Thus empowering them to have more confidence to just<br />

be themselves, to embrace who they are, and most importantly<br />

love who they are. Regarding my personal hair<br />

journey, I’ve always worn my hair natural. I decided to loc<br />

my hair in 2008 before leaving off for college because I<br />

wanted a change, but still wanted to keep in it’s natural<br />

state. I’ve always admired locs, so I just took the plunge--<br />

and when my hair journey first started out, I didn’t always<br />

receive kind words from friends and family members.<br />

Some thought that I was ruining my hair, as I transitioned<br />

into the ugly duckling stage, allowing my locs to fully<br />

mature. Now, six years later, I love my hair even more,<br />

it’s very much a part of my identity and it’s my favorite<br />

accessory. I love to change my hairstyles, trying new colors<br />

every now and then, and dress it up with fun bows,<br />

decorative pins, and colorful scarves. Now, those same<br />

people that were uncertain about my new hair venture<br />

love it too. I’m really glad I listened to my own heart, and<br />

made the best decision that was right for me in the end.<br />

Your artwork is absolutely gorgeous and so playful.<br />

Are the women in your images women you know?<br />

Who inspires your work?<br />

My amazing fans inspire my work most. They truly keep<br />

me going with all their support, kind words, and utmost<br />

excitement when they receive my products in the mail.<br />

I wouldn’t be able to continue to be inspired without<br />

them, and my awesome supportive team of close friends<br />

and family.<br />

I remember being in high school and wanting one of<br />

Marc Jacob’s bags that had the little drawn characters<br />

on them and not seeing any Black girls on them.<br />

Seeing the items in your store was like breathing a<br />

sigh of relief. It’s nice to know that someone sees the<br />

missing the demographics. Can you talk about what<br />

representation means to you?<br />

Representation means everything to me! It’s the main<br />

reason why I created this brand Little Ms. Aprill. I aspire<br />

to create more positive, inclusive, empowering visual imagery<br />

for all girls to feel connected to. In hopes that this<br />

Or do you just draw what comes to mind?<br />

Thank you! None of my characters are people I know<br />

personally, I usually just draw inspiration from my everyday<br />

life, and just sketch it out and watch it blossom from<br />

there as I add paint and glitter in the final stages. I encounter<br />

some pretty colorful characters in my everyday<br />

life, and via social media, so when I find things I enjoy,<br />

or spark an interesting experience for me, I try to sketch<br />

it out when I have some alone time in my studio. Each<br />

character has her own unique personality, look, and style.<br />

brand will only grow, and inspire more young women to<br />

love the skin they’re in, and know that they shine.<br />

When did you decide to create a store and what advice<br />

would you give to someone looking to do it?<br />

I decided to create a store when I realized not everyone<br />

can afford high-priced, original works of art from<br />

artists. Yet, people still want to have art in their lives, so<br />

I worked hard to create a product line that would allow<br />

anyone and everyone access to take a piece of my work<br />

home with them, whether it be a vibrant, colorful tote,


or a cute, compact, pocket mirror... I wanted to give the<br />

public more access to my art, so the everyday girl on the<br />

go could take it home too. Thus, I decided to just go for<br />

it--my online store was created soon after. My advice for<br />

anyone looking to create a store of there own--go for<br />

it!! It can be a lot of hard work, handling custom orders,<br />

shipping out packages, and keeping track of inventory--so<br />

keep that in mind. Be sure to stay organized. Start<br />

small, perhaps try a test run on a site that will print, sell,<br />

and ship your products for you via a third party vendor-<br />

-like Spreadshirt, Zazzle, or Society6 until you get the<br />

hang of things on your own.<br />

Was there ever a moment when you were scared to<br />

start these ventures? How did you work through it?<br />

Intersectional Feminism is of great importance to me.<br />

That is to say, Feminism that acknowledges all forms of<br />

oppression are connected and they are all put into place<br />

in order to systematically discriminate against marginalized<br />

groups of people in our society. This form of feminism,<br />

recognizes that people have multi-layered identities<br />

and they should all be treated with respect as they all<br />

come together to make up the unique individuals of the<br />

world. The feminists of today are not all white, cis-gendered,<br />

able-bodied women... and I think it’s important<br />

to reflect upon that reality when we encounter and<br />

experience hard hitting issues of the present day, such as<br />

racism, sexism, transphobia, homophobia, and the like...<br />

What can we do to improve on feminist culture?<br />

Absolutely!! Sometimes I had my doubts that I’d receive<br />

any positive feedback... but, despite that negative-self<br />

talk, I knew I had to just take the plunge and hope for<br />

best. So far, the response to my work has been so validating,<br />

positive, and inspiring! I love hearing from others<br />

tell me how much they love my art, and how awesome<br />

it is that they can see themselves in my work. It keeps<br />

me going, knowing that my work is really touching other<br />

people in a positive way.<br />

It seems that in the feminist world these online<br />

shops have started to become more and more popular.<br />

Feminism in this age is just as much a culture<br />

and a lifestyle as it is a movement. What is feminist<br />

culture/lifestyle to you? What are the pros and cons<br />

to you?<br />

I think we can improve on being more inclusive in our<br />

Feminist culture today. And by doing so, I mean being<br />

more open and representative of women’s intersectional<br />

identities as people. I think there can never be enough<br />

representation for marginalized groups in our society,<br />

such as the LGBTQ community, especially the transgender<br />

women and men in the community, women of color,<br />

disabled persons, and the middle and lower class working<br />

families of today.<br />

Do you have any other projects you’d like to tell our<br />

readers about?<br />

I’m on an exciting new adventure. I’m planning on going<br />

back to school next Fall, to pursue a master’s degree in<br />

the field of Art Therapy!


To check out Aprill’s store Click here!<br />

Aprill’s Children’s book Margret’s Mane is here!<br />

You can also find her on tumblr and facebook!<br />

These pocket mirrors are going for $7!<br />

These buttons are only $2!<br />

Margret from Margret’s Mane.


Dominique Aizpurua<br />

an affair with<br />

myself


The Fix Complex:<br />

How The Media perpetuates rape culture<br />

By Sara Geiger<br />

Trigger Warning: descriptions<br />

of rape and<br />

sexual assault.<br />

The Fault in Our Stars<br />

has become the most<br />

recent catalyst when<br />

it comes to influencing<br />

a large crowd of<br />

young teenage girls.<br />

It may provide the<br />

possible message of<br />

Hazel Grace (main<br />

character) needing<br />

someone to rely on<br />

in times of turmoil.<br />

However, this instills<br />

the promotion of<br />

the idea that she still<br />

Source:fishingproceeds.tumblr.com<br />

needed a romantic<br />

interest to feel any sort of fulfillment in her young life.<br />

Boys seldom are sentimental in media. While girls, on the<br />

other hand, are taught to accept and ‘work’ with what is<br />

given (even if it’s an unsatisfactory partner). Yet, audiences<br />

are supposed to regard the rarity of men acting this<br />

way as an appreciated novelty.<br />

This concept also propagates itself into a self-proclaimed<br />

need for one to “fix” another. To further clarify- this idea<br />

(that I’ve fittingly named “the fix complex”) occurs in a<br />

majority of male characters whose plot is driven by the<br />

feeling of necessary emotional repair for the female<br />

counterpart.<br />

The fix complex is quite similar to the Manic Pixie Dream<br />

Girl trope; one character’s sole purpose is to fulfill and<br />

create significance out of the main character. Simply<br />

put, it turns ‘romance’ into a project for one person in a<br />

relationship.<br />

Typically, the fix complex and assumptions of attraction<br />

do not only heavily influence their main target audience<br />

of young people- they can prove to be detrimental once<br />

it’s an actual pursuit on the part of young men.<br />

These implications are portrayals of pseudo-relationships.<br />

It can be inferred as the root of continuous teen dating<br />

violence, which around 9.4% of American teens have<br />

experienced. (source)<br />

On a much larger societal scale, the impact plays a role in<br />

encouraging rape culture.<br />

Often, boys are taught to grow out but seldom show<br />

sentimental feelings. While girls, on the other hand, are<br />

taught to grown in, to accept and work with what is given<br />

(again, feeling the need to “fix”). Yet, because women are<br />

depicted often as romantics, submissive, etc., audiences<br />

are supposed to regard the rarity of men acting this way<br />

as an appreciated novelty.<br />

In her book, All About Love: New Visions, bell hooks<br />

incisively describes this unwritten social code-<br />

“…the paradigms of leader and follower often prevail,<br />

with one person assuming the role deemed feminine and<br />

another the designated masculine role. No doubt it was<br />

someone playing the role of leader who conjured up the<br />

notion that we “fall in love”, that we lack choice… This way<br />

of thinking about love seems to be especially useful for<br />

men who are socialized via patriarchal notions of masculinity<br />

to be out of touch with what they feel.”<br />

In Twilight, both characters, Bella Swan and Edward Cullen,<br />

attempt at modifying each other in a power struggle.<br />

However, as we all know, the relationship becomes<br />

over-dramatically fatal as Bella puts her life on the line for<br />

what she considered to be love.<br />

The way Edward goes about seducing Bella also includes<br />

stalking and breaking into her room to watch her<br />

sleep. And are we, as an audience, supposed to find this<br />

charming?<br />

“Twilight portrays the mutual infatuation of its teenage<br />

protagonist Bella and the breathtakingly handsome<br />

vampire Edward with a sexually charged tension that<br />

quickly leads to his complete domination of the young


young woman, which<br />

she eagerly embraces.”<br />

(Borgia, “Twilight:<br />

The Glamorization of<br />

Abuse, Codependency,<br />

and White Privilege”)<br />

In 50 shades of gray,<br />

Christian Grey’s backstory<br />

of having an<br />

abusive “crack whore”<br />

mother, motivated<br />

Anastasia Steele to<br />

fix him emotionally.<br />

Grey had an aggressive<br />

manner of this,<br />

especially since Steele<br />

source:latimes<br />

seems to have little sexual-identity<br />

before him. Not only does this encourage conditional<br />

relationships, but also a very warped perception<br />

of the BDSM community and most importantly- consent.<br />

A study in the Journal of Women’s Health by Amy E.<br />

Bonomi, PhD and several others at Michigan State<br />

University, classifies the connection between health and<br />

popular media depicting violence against women. In this<br />

case, 50 Shades of Grey was used as the prime example.<br />

The study analyzed college students’ survey with how<br />

much of the book they read. It was found that one third<br />

of the subjects that read the book were more likely to<br />

have experienced a form of abuse or victimization.<br />

What does this tell us? Well, the article following the<br />

experiment states:<br />

“Problematic depictions of violence against women in<br />

popular culture—such as in film, novels,<br />

music, or pornography—create a broader social narrative<br />

that normalizes these risks and behaviors in women’s<br />

lives…E.L. James insists that she wrote Fifty Shades ‘for<br />

fun’ to provide women with a means to openly express<br />

their sexuality while denying concerns that Christian and<br />

Anastasia’s relationship mimics real-world abusive relationships.”<br />

Pop songs, too, have glamourized the concerning<br />

issue. One Direction’s hit song “You Don’t Know You’re<br />

Beautiful” implies that the female the song is directed to,<br />

has the subordinate role and should rely on the speaker.<br />

In another instance, the infamous and catchy date-rape<br />

song Blurred Lines isn’t just a feminist nightmare because<br />

of the sexual objectification of women. It’s main idea of<br />

the speaker in the song presuming conditions of sexual<br />

attractions (i.e. “You know you want it”)<br />

Robin Thicke has shown again and again his lack of<br />

respect through his career and so-called craft. This year<br />

being, that he released a whole album dedicated to<br />

getting back his ex-wife Paula. It is only a real-life case<br />

of forced separation anxiety brought on by media driven<br />

labels. Stalking and obsessiveness is now a trait associated<br />

with cute.<br />

These occurrences of co-dependency, on any partner<br />

in the relationship (male or female) teaches that a significant<br />

other will fulfill someone’s life. Teenage girls, in<br />

particular, participate in these types of relationships more<br />

than any other group because of our low emotional-intelligence.<br />

The idea of being good, without problems is<br />

instilled into our brains, when faced with conflict- a solution<br />

and process to deal with it is unknown.<br />

We usually rely on someone else to create an illusion; to<br />

believe the conflict resolved. Far too often, the dilemmas<br />

are something such as loneliness, the usual teenage<br />

coming-of-age trope. When girls and young women get<br />

caught up in said relations, it becomes a cycle- a difficult<br />

one to break from.<br />

The self-esteem and understanding of self-worth from<br />

young women and girls can become compromised; as<br />

well as their own safety. When “No” is confused with<br />

“Convince Me”, one party starts taking charge regardless<br />

of consent.<br />

When this sort of power dynamic is settled between two<br />

people, the possibility of rejection leads to aggravation,<br />

frustration, and as it has been proven: violence. The type<br />

of violence can range from directly affecting one individual,<br />

to on a much more massive scale.<br />

Some publicized accounts of said situations include: Elliot<br />

Rodger’s UCSB massacre, Maren Sanchez’s death over<br />

a prom date refusal, Miss Wu beaten to death for not<br />

giving out her phone number to a group of men, and


not to mention the terrifyingly real rape and exploitation<br />

in Steubenville.<br />

What’s portrayed on the news, has no comparison to the<br />

amount of real-life encounters involving seduction and<br />

violence in order to fulfil desires.<br />

A woman on Tumblr with the username vampmissedith,<br />

remembers an encounter her sister had in middle school:<br />

“...my sister was in eighth grade. There was a boy in two<br />

of her periods who would ask her out every single day.<br />

(Third and seventh period, if I remember correctly.) All<br />

day during third and seventh she would repeatedly tell<br />

him no. She didn’t beat around the bush, she didn’t lie<br />

and say she was taken—she just said no.<br />

Rapists: Trent Mays, left, and Ma’lik Richmond. Source:<br />

abcnewsgo.com<br />

One day, in third period, after being rejected several<br />

times, he said; “I have a gun in my locker. If you don’t say<br />

yes, I am going to shoot you in seventh.”<br />

She refused again, but right after class she went to the<br />

principal’s office and told them what happened. They<br />

searched his locker and there was a gun in his backpack.<br />

When he was arrested, some of my sister’s friends (some<br />

female, even) told her that she was selfish for saying no<br />

so many times. That because of her, the entire school was<br />

in jeopardy. That it wouldn’t have killed her to say yes…”<br />

I interviewed a couple of high school girls who were<br />

brave enough to share their story of harassment, assaults,<br />

and or rapes.<br />

“I had an angry boyfriend. Every single time I said no to<br />

something - a sext, a nude, sex, he would make me feel<br />

terrible, like I was committing a crime by refusing. When<br />

I got raped, I specifically told him no. When he heard<br />

this, I got shoved to the ground, his hand cupped over<br />

my mouth, and he told me to shut up. No wasn’t in his<br />

vocabulary.”<br />

-Anonymous<br />

Another young woman tells her own story:<br />

“At least two or three days out of the week you get hit on,<br />

right? I mean I even got followed by a guy masturbating<br />

in his car. That was pretty scary considering what could’ve<br />

happened, but he didn’t say anything.<br />

But another day, I was sitting down in the mall waiting for<br />

my mom. I had a paint splattered bookbag that caught<br />

some guys attention. He seemed friendly and he said it<br />

remind him of paintballs.<br />

“Well.. cool”. I said. End of conversation, but he doesn’t<br />

leave.<br />

He starts to flirt. ‘Oh you are really gorgeous...such a<br />

beautiful face. Would you like to join me?’<br />

I said ‘Oh, uh no I’m like fifteen’.<br />

He replied back ‘Oh well that’s not a problem, sweetie I<br />

mean you don’t need to tell nobody.’<br />

I told him I was sorry, that I was waiting for my mom.<br />

He laughs and pats my hand like its cute, saying “Tell her<br />

I want to set up a play date with you then.’”<br />

-J<br />

Almost every young woman your girl you ask, will have a<br />

story like these- including myself.<br />

On the ride home from a library trip with a male classmate,<br />

I had gotten off at my stop of the train to leave,<br />

but he followed me. He continuously tried to force himself<br />

and grab onto me, eventually what lead to me being<br />

assaulted. He convinced me prior and afterwards that it<br />

was something that “just needed to be done and gotten<br />

over with”<br />

Vampmissedith’s raw closing statement is as follows:<br />

“Girls are being killed for saying no to prom invites.<br />

Girls are being killed for saying no to men. They are creating<br />

an atmosphere where women are too scared to say<br />

no, and the worst part is?<br />

They are doing it intentionally.<br />

They want society to be that way, they want women to<br />

say yes entirely out of fear.”<br />

The mentality that someone needs a romantic partner in<br />

their life so they may feel validation, comfortable, safe, or<br />

any other attribute that one doesn’t know how to achieve<br />

by themselves, is wrong. It will lead to the unspoken and<br />

unclear “agreement” (which isn’t actually consent), that<br />

another party is asking for it.<br />

It can never be assumed that attraction is present between<br />

two people. If falsely assumed anyways by misinformation.<br />

When said idea is embedded as a social norm,<br />

the least that can be done is media reforms geared<br />

towards youth and what it means to be not only healthy<br />

in relations- but also with yourself. Young people of my<br />

generation cannot forget that “No” is and always will<br />

be a complete and fully acceptable answer.


Merpunx<br />

by Natalie Reitz<br />

Model: Perse


Not Your China Doll<br />

by Kaylee Dolloff<br />

AUTHOR NOTE: When I say Asian from this point on, I<br />

mean East Asian unless I say otherwise. This isn’t to say<br />

that Central, Western, and South/eastern Asian people<br />

don’t have their own problems with their portrayal<br />

in the media; however, I, being an East Asian person<br />

myself, don’t have enough knowledge of what other<br />

Asians have to go through so I will be writing from my<br />

own experiences as a Chinese person so I won’t speak<br />

over other groups. Also note that I’m American so<br />

everything I say is from an American perspective. (e.g.<br />

“media” referring to American media)<br />

If you ask mainstream media, Asian people are nothing<br />

but stereotypes. The men are either masters of martial<br />

arts or they’re completely emasculated and used as<br />

comic relief with their broken English and strange habits.<br />

The women are portrayed as sexy geisha, dragon<br />

ladies, subservient schoolgirls, or nerds who only exist<br />

to be an obstacle for the white female lead to conquer.<br />

Both are subjected to the perpetual foreigner trope,<br />

and we often are given no names or distinct personalities<br />

– and if we are given names, they’re usually<br />

foreign sounding, since there’s no way Asians can be<br />

born and raised in America with American sounding<br />

names.<br />

We’re going to focus on the image of the Asian woman,<br />

since Asian women never really have existed as<br />

their own people in media and this has affected how<br />

your everyday Asian woman is perceived extremely<br />

negatively.<br />

One of the most notable trends is the stock Asian<br />

appearance in female characters: small in stature, thin,<br />

and incredibly fair, with either very small and slanted<br />

eyes or big, wide, doe-looking ones. There are Asian<br />

women who look like this, sure, but this is by no means<br />

all of them so it makes no sense that they’d be presented<br />

as such. Asian people, and to a more general<br />

extent, people of color, have a lot of genetic diversity,<br />

but media refuses to acknowledge this for pretty much<br />

every race of color. There is no “right” way to look<br />

Asian, but the media has ingrained a predefined image<br />

of what an Asian woman is so deeply into our culture<br />

that anyone who doesn’t fit in that little box isn’t really<br />

considered Asian enough, or she’s seen as undesirable.


Asian media that’s consumed by American audiences<br />

isn’t helping much, either; take KPOP, for example.<br />

KPOP stars are thin with fair skin; if they don’t<br />

have fair skin, they’re generally Photoshopped to<br />

look paler in photos. (Thanks, colorism!) Most, if not<br />

all of them, have extremely “white”-looking features;<br />

this isn’t inherently a bad thing, but the imbalance of<br />

Asian celebrities with white features makes the overwhelming<br />

majority of those without seem even more<br />

ugly and undesirable than they do already.<br />

The problem with this is that KPOP celebrities by<br />

no means accurately represent the average Asian<br />

citizen, but kboos (and weeaboos, as far as JPOP<br />

goes) have pretty much interpreted it as such. Kboos<br />

and weeaboos have a false image of what an Asian<br />

is supposed to look like, and so they dismiss anyone<br />

who isn’t from East Asia, calling them the “dirty<br />

Asians.” Even China isn’t safe, despite its people<br />

having relatively similar characteristics as other East<br />

Asian countries; some kboos and weeaboos will call<br />

Chinese people dirty as well. Of course, this isn’t<br />

good for Japanese and Korean people either; once<br />

kboos and weeaboos discover that Japanese and<br />

Korean people shockingly aren’t as fair and beautiful<br />

as their idols, they’ll slander them like the rest and<br />

continue to put their idols up on a pedestal. It’s nasty<br />

stuff, and this is all due to the influence of white<br />

supremacy and that white is the ideal. (But not too<br />

white, or else you won’t be considered a real Asian)<br />

And trust me, I’ve had my fair amount of experience<br />

with not being considered the “ideal” Asian. Not<br />

pale enough (even though I really am pretty pale<br />

already), not thin enough, not tall enough, not short<br />

enough, not white enough. Asian women can’t win<br />

in discussions with white people.<br />

But hey, PSA to any and all Asian people (not<br />

just East Asians, I mean ALL Asians here): you are<br />

enough. Even if you don’t fit into the small box of<br />

what is considered Asian by American standards,<br />

you should be Asian enough for yourself and honestly<br />

that’s all that matters. So don’t try to appease<br />

to white people, because they shouldn’t dictate your<br />

identity; only you can do that. Embrace yourself and<br />

all your Asian-ness, and disregard people who tell<br />

you otherwise!<br />

Suzanne<br />

by<br />

Glenda<br />

Villalon


So Your Fave is Problematic<br />

By Shanice Brim<br />

Source: http://zustin.tumblr.com/post/85457457310/when-urfav-fucks-up-and-u-cant-defend-them<br />

I’m not entirely sure how to talk about this subject<br />

because it’s something I fight with every day. I’m a<br />

Black feminist. It’s something that I hold near and<br />

dear to my heart. I love Black feminism/feminism<br />

and the culture even though it can get on my nerves<br />

sometimes. I actually foam at the mouth with excitement<br />

when talking about it but there’s this other<br />

thing that I’m also really passionate about: rap. I love<br />

rap. Yes, there are rap songs and there are rappers<br />

who are woman-friendly but I still dance along to<br />

“Pop That.” It’s terrible. The thing is I know the lyrics<br />

don’t reflect my beliefs but sometimes when<br />

dancing or singing along to certain songs I feel like<br />

I’m co-signing the material. This is a problem any<br />

conscious person is going to come up against at<br />

some point because the sad truth is that because<br />

we haven’t been able yet to eradicate the isms and<br />

phobias we’re fighting against our entertainment is<br />

littered with it. If we cut out every single thing that<br />

was problematic I’m afraid we wouldn’t have much<br />

of anything to consume entertainment wise. The<br />

idea of the problematic fave has become something<br />

of a tumblr talking point. It sort of started with the<br />

tumblr Yourfaveisproblematic. It posts the receipts<br />

of your faves problematic behavior and some of it<br />

is, well, pretty damning. Some of my faves are on<br />

yourfaveisproblematic. Hell, some of feminisms pets<br />

are on yourfaveisproblematic. For instance, Courtney<br />

Love. I grew up listening to Hole and idolizing<br />

Courtney. I’ve seen Hit So Hard. I have the albums.<br />

When looking for a name to encompass the theme<br />

of this issue, her band’s song “Celebrity Skin” came<br />

to mind. Here’s her list:<br />

• Uses gay as an insult.<br />

• To a black audience member: “Do you really like<br />

rock music? Because you’re African-American.<br />

That would be like me being into Lil Wayne.”<br />

• “I’m allowed to use the word ‘f**’ because I’m a<br />

gay icon”<br />

• Said she hopes Dave Grohl get “ass-raped”<br />

• Covered Jay-Z’s “99 Problems” and left all the<br />

n-words in<br />

• Has a song called “r****d girl”<br />

• At the Comedy Central Roast of Pamela Anderson:<br />

“I’ve been clean and sober for a year, so all<br />

these drug jokes are r*****ed”<br />

• “You African-Americans only know about me<br />

because I’ve been arrested”


It’s pretty bad. Ok, like. . . it’s heinous. When I<br />

was first introduced to Courtney Love it was through<br />

a documentary on Vh1 about Nirvana. I thought<br />

it was cool that she was girl with a guitar who was<br />

unladylike and screamed a lot. Something about<br />

that appealed to me. I’ve always loved women who<br />

do things they aren’t “supposed” to be doing. I love<br />

female rappers for the same reasons. I didn’t start<br />

really really getting into Hole and Courtney until I<br />

was watching 10 Things I Hate About You one day<br />

and I decided to google the references they were<br />

making to bands like Bikini Kill. That was the day that<br />

lead me down the feminist culture rabbit hole. I went<br />

on a feminist girl/female lead band rampage and,<br />

voila, I became obsessed with Courtney. Luckily, being<br />

that I am a millennial, I never actually purchased<br />

anything Hole related so I can safely say she doesn’t<br />

have any of my money but it still hurt like hell when<br />

I found her page on YFiP. I remembered Courtney as<br />

the girl who told me to be fearless and unapologetic.<br />

Fortunately, she wasn’t the only public figure who<br />

inspired me to do just that so you haven’t really seen<br />

Courtney or Hole on my blog so much these days.<br />

Some problematic faves are not so easy to let go of<br />

though. Some of us have problematic faves that we<br />

simply can not release from our clutches.<br />

For me that person is Beyoncé. I’ve been a fan of<br />

hers since she was a shade-throwing, side-eyeing<br />

teenager in Destiny’s Child. Ah, yes. I remember<br />

it vividly. Picture it. 1999. I’m 9 years old dancing<br />

around my living room to “No, No, No. Pt.2” I can<br />

just about smell the nosalgia which is why (along<br />

with the fact that I am a feminist and human being)<br />

I felt as if she had personally slapped me in the face<br />

when I got to “Eat the cake, Anna Mae” in “Drunk in<br />

Love.”<br />

Now Beyoncé did not say those words herself.<br />

. . but she did allow her husband to say them<br />

on what was clearly meant to be her big feminist<br />

grand opus. It hurt even more when fans raised the<br />

subject and she responded in her Beyoncé-like way<br />

by making it a point to blatantly and proudly shout it<br />

alongside her husband-she even makes a big show<br />

of getting the crowd to sing it with them.<br />

For those of you who do not know what<br />

I’m even talking about (believe it or not some poor<br />

soul is probably still under the impression that Jay-Z<br />

said, “Eat the cake, anime.” Which is like. . . what?)<br />

Tina Turner’s life story was turned into a film called<br />

What’s Love Got To Do With It? It follows Tina from<br />

her early years to her start in rock with her husband,<br />

Ike. Ike was a batterer. He visciously abused and<br />

even raped Tina Turner who is Beyoncé’s hero and<br />

who she is most often compared to (which makes<br />

this even more confusing.) The line Jay-Z is referring<br />

to comes from this scene:<br />

Not funny at all.<br />

The whole movies is tough to watch. Why either of<br />

them think is alright is beyond me and yet. . . I still<br />

love Bey. I’ve downloaded a version of the song<br />

without Jay but I still love her.<br />

So the question becomes, “What do I do<br />

when my fave’s beliefs, words, or actions don’t line<br />

up with what I believe is right but I still love their<br />

work?” According to YFiP’s “Now What?” section:<br />

Am I still allowed to like them?<br />

Yes. No one is stopping you from doing anything.<br />

You can like and consume their work without liking<br />

them as a person. You can even like them as a<br />

person, so long as you recognize that they do have<br />

problematic issues.<br />

How can I be a good fan?<br />

Try and make them a better person. If they do<br />

something problematic, call them out on it. I recognize<br />

that famous people are busy and don’t read<br />

every single Twitter reply or Facebook comment<br />

they get, but still try it. At the very least, you’ll be<br />

educating other fans.<br />

How can I be a conscious fan?<br />

Recognize that they did something wrong. Accept<br />

it. Don’t try to defend it or explain it. Say “so-and-so<br />

makes great music, but I wish they weren’t racist” or<br />

“I think that they’re really talented, but they are also<br />

sexist”. It’s a package deal. Tell other fans what they<br />

did. When praising them, don’t ignore the problematic<br />

stuff. Talk about that too.


This is pretty good advice but that doesn’t<br />

erase another problem. So, you’ve decided to acknowledge<br />

that your fave is, indeed, problematic.<br />

You’ve called them out. You remind other fans of<br />

what they’ve done. You don’t defend them. But is<br />

that enough when you’re still putting money in their<br />

pocket? Yes, education is important but who’s learning<br />

anything when the cash is still flowing?<br />

A lot of people tend to illegally download or<br />

stream the work of people they feel are too problematic<br />

for them to support. I mean, I just admitted<br />

to downloading anything Hole related when I was in<br />

high school; however, while it may be a solution for<br />

a generation of people for whom downloading has<br />

become such a part of our nature that we forget it’s<br />

illegal. . . unfortunately, it is, in fact, still illegal. Some<br />

people argue that paying up doesn’t really matter<br />

because these people mostly get paid through touring<br />

or by their label; or because most of the money<br />

goes to their producers and writers but. . . it’s still<br />

getting there. Some people say, well they’re already<br />

rich so it doesn’t even matter. . . but you know that<br />

any way you slice it your money is in their pocket.<br />

Then there’s the whole Spotify thing.<br />

At first I thought this was great. I could legally<br />

stream the songs of my problematic faves without<br />

feeling culpable and then I learned they get paid<br />

per stream. It’s only a little but they’re still getting<br />

paid. So now you’re wondering. What do I do? I<br />

think your safest bet is to buy used. Not only is<br />

none of that money going to them but it’s cheaper<br />

than if you had bought it straight up anyway and it<br />

keeps those frightening emails from your internet<br />

service provider out of your inbox. You can also go<br />

to the library. I did that a lot. It’s free and they get<br />

nothing from it. During college, one of my besties<br />

and I would hit up the Blockbusters that were closing<br />

down in town and buy used DVDs. Major help:<br />

super cheap, extra features, none of the guilt. Yard<br />

sales are cool and you can also see what place in<br />

your town sells used films, cds, and records.<br />

These are some of the things that have<br />

helped me and I think these are some good ways to<br />

wear your beliefs on your sleeve while still consuming<br />

content you don’t necessarily agree with or from<br />

people you think are despicable. And remember,<br />

knowing why something is problematic and being<br />

able to educate others on it is extremely helpful.<br />

Sometimes, people aren’t even aware of what they<br />

are supporting or participating in when they consume<br />

something. Sure, some people might react<br />

badly to seeing something they love being called<br />

out but others just might learn something from it<br />

and that is something. Remember that calling someone<br />

out can be an act of love. You’re saying to that<br />

person or fave, “Hey, I like you and I know you can<br />

do better than this.” You’re offering that person a<br />

chance to better themselves and you’re giving voice<br />

to your own beliefs. Who’s your problematic fave<br />

and how do you deal?


|Feminist Read of the Month|<br />

By Shanice Brim<br />

When we think of the word “abuse” we tend to think of it as<br />

something that “happens” to women. We think of women cowering,<br />

broken glass, black eyes- we hardly ever think of how the broken<br />

glass got on the floor or the hands that made the bruises. This is<br />

par for the course when we talk about victims of a lot traumas and<br />

it’s part of the reason why we’ve been so slow about fixing so many<br />

of the issues quietly plaguing our every day lives. When we only<br />

think of trauma as something that happens to someone and not as<br />

something that is caused by someone we lay the problem at the<br />

feet of victims to fix it for themselves. What makes Why Does He Do<br />

That? Inside the Minds of Angry and Controlling Men so important<br />

is that it doesn’t treat abuse as something that just happens. Lundy<br />

Bancroft has spent years working with thousands of abusive men in<br />

an attempt to rehabilitate them. He uses these experiences to focus<br />

on the tactics, underlying thinking, and conditioning of abusive,<br />

controlling, and/or angry men. He places these men at the center<br />

of the conversation in a way that showcases how their actions work<br />

and their effects. Even if you’ve never been in an abusive relationship<br />

this book can save your life. It can help you recognize the<br />

warning signs before you get too deep. It can help you recognize<br />

when you’re being manipulated and groomed for abuse. If you<br />

are in an abusive relationship this book not only helps you better<br />

understand the various tactics your abuser uses against you, the cycle of abuse you’re stuck in, and the kind of abuser<br />

you’re dealing with; it has so many resources about how to get out and who to talk to when you need it. If you are in<br />

a relationship with someone who is of the same sex/gender as you, Bancroft prefaces the book by saying that much<br />

of the same rules apply and then he goes in to detail about when and how abuse will vary between opposite sex/<br />

same sex couples. This book is so so important which is why we’re giving a physical copy away this month!<br />

Please message us on tumblr if you are unable to afford a copy and we will see what we can do!<br />

For info on how to enter to win a free copy fo this<br />

book please click here.


MOnthly 101: Rape CUlture<br />

By Michelle Emile<br />

Rape culture is when rape is normalized and prevalent in<br />

a social, ethnic or age group due to beliefs about gender,<br />

sex, and sexuality. Rape culture promotes misogyny and<br />

sexual violence through behaviors like ‘victim blaming,<br />

sexual objectification, trivializing rape, denial of widespread<br />

rape or refusing to acknowledge the harm of<br />

certain forms of sexual violence that don’t fit a checklist<br />

of stranger or violent rape stereotypes. [1 http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rape_culture]’<br />

Rape culture also has a correlation to forms of discrimination<br />

including racism, homophobia, ageism, classism,<br />

and religious intolerance. It is used in genocides and wars<br />

as psychological warfare, in prisons to oppress the weaker,<br />

as a cure for women who do not identify as straight<br />

[1].<br />

It allows people to rationalize rape. Whatever rationalizing<br />

we use to continue to embrace media that degrades<br />

women and holds them accountable for their own<br />

victimization will help to create an opinion that leads to<br />

the trivialization of rape. People will start questioning or<br />

judging the victim:<br />

“Well if she wasn’t doing…”<br />

“If she wasn’t wearing…”<br />

“She shouldn’t have…”<br />

“She knows he…”<br />

We normally see rape as something that men normally<br />

do to women, so we neglect that women can rape men<br />

or other women. We neglect that trans people can also<br />

be raped or that unfortunately it is common among<br />

trans people too. This way of thinking makes it hard for<br />

those who have been victims of sexual violence to come<br />

forward because that judgment, questioning, and/or<br />

discrimination is overpowering and puts them in a more<br />

exposed position instead of allowing them to get the<br />

treatment, justice, and respect they deserve.


experience sexual assault in their lifetime and 1 in 33 for<br />

men. You never know who is a victim or a survivor of sexual<br />

violence, by humoring rape you are silencing victims<br />

and survivors and belittling a very troubling experience.<br />

You cannot assume someone was not sexually assaulted;<br />

there is no look one has for it, it cannot be seen and is<br />

not something people put out in conversation. You can<br />

know someone for years and still not know that part of<br />

their lives. Also when using rape jokes you may never<br />

know if you are talking to an abuser or rapist and those<br />

‘harmless jokes’ then become a justification, encouragement,<br />

or an excuse for continuing their behavior.<br />

The media, but let’s give a couple of examples:<br />

Music:<br />

We’ve seen the controversy of Robin Thicke’s “Blurred<br />

Lines” (which is pretty much sexual harassment set to<br />

a groove), Rick Ross’s creepy verse in “U.O.E.N.O.” (“Put<br />

a molly in her drink and she ain’t even know it.), and<br />

Miguel’s “How Many Drinks?” (which is about Miguel<br />

pondering about how much alcohol he needs to ply a<br />

woman with in order to get her to go home with him.) I<br />

still hear “Blurred Lines” and “How Many Drinks” on the<br />

radio. Are they catchy, yes; to be honest I had a hard<br />

time understanding the controversy of the two songs,<br />

because I didn’t catch it the first time I heard the song.<br />

“Blurred Lines” sounds fun and cute. Miguel’s “How Many<br />

Drinks” sounds sexy, and “U.N.E.N.O.” has a great beat<br />

behind it (which is why it has several different remixes to<br />

it.) But unfortunately there is a simplicity here: What we<br />

put in effects what we put out. It may not happen now,<br />

but eventually it can obscure our thinking.<br />

The celebrities we excuse:<br />

R. Kelly has been in the news repeatedly for his statutory<br />

rape cases, but people still encourage the man by separating<br />

him from his music. Obviously, who people are and<br />

what they do as their profession are different, but people<br />

are still accountable for their actions. Excusing someone<br />

who is a celebrity or well-known for their work and negatively<br />

viewing the victim especially without listening to<br />

them is not acceptable.<br />

Rape jokes:<br />

Rape jokes may not seemingly be harmful, but they are<br />

and they’re very encouraging towards rape culture. They<br />

belittle what it is and make fun of or blame the victim.<br />

There is a huge fraction of women who have been<br />

victims of sexual violence and there are some men as<br />

well. To my understanding it is 1 out of 4 women who will<br />

As mentioned earlier, it can have so many effects. People<br />

who are not educated about rape tend to unknowingly<br />

victim blame by asking questions that imply one could’ve<br />

done something different to avoid their experience.<br />

People can be judgmental. No matter how unpleasant a<br />

person is, no matter how someone dresses or acts, what<br />

risks they take, it is never acceptable. In American society<br />

we teach women from when they are young to always<br />

be conscious of not getting raped. Women cannot wear<br />

certain things, we cannot be alone with boys, we can’t<br />

be out late at night, especially alone. e always need to<br />

be aware when walking to our cars or homes, we need<br />

to be aware of men and their body language. Don’t<br />

allow a man into our houses when we are alone, be in<br />

the company of a man you trust, when sleeping over a<br />

friends house stay close to the friend. Don’t drink too<br />

much, don’t allow yourself to be under the influence of<br />

alcohol or drugs. Unconsciously we’ve been conditioned<br />

to always worry about the possibility of being sexually<br />

assaulted. But men are never taught not to rape. What<br />

precautions do men have to go through in order to prevent<br />

thinking it’s okay to sexually assault someone?


aware or not and the language you use or your behavior<br />

can possibly be silencing them or making them less likely<br />

to open up to you about such a difficult topic. Understand<br />

that people of all genders can be victims, survivors,<br />

abusers, or rapists. Rape is not usually about sex, it’s<br />

about power and the best way to avoid being influenced<br />

by rape culture and understanding is allowing for open<br />

intellectual conversations about it and learning as much<br />

as possible.<br />

Rape culture encourages and excuses men for rape.<br />

Rape culture views men as animals who have this instinct<br />

to have sex with women who slip up from their responsibilities<br />

of not trying to get raped. Men are viewed as<br />

predators and women as prey. If a woman is wearing a<br />

‘slutty’ outfit she should expect men to want to have sex<br />

with her. If a woman allows a man into her home, she<br />

should know that he wants to have sex. If a couple is<br />

married, why wouldn’t the spouse want to have sex? This<br />

kind of thinking encourages the idea that men are these<br />

instinctive predators by saying, “She should’ve known;<br />

he’s a man.” That is an implication that men are all the<br />

same, they have this uncontrollable urge to have sex and<br />

when they think it, they can’t help themselves, they have<br />

to do it. Not only does rape culture encourage this- it<br />

holds women to a higher standard of protecting themselves,<br />

while men are held to a very low standard for<br />

taking accountability for their own actions. We view rape<br />

as someone wanting to have sex, while the other person<br />

does not and that is not usually the case. In most times<br />

it’s more about power then sex. It is the idea of knowing<br />

that you have the power to control someone else which<br />

is very much linked into misogyny and the sense of<br />

dominance, a trait linked to misguided masculinity, which<br />

involves it’s own discussion.<br />

There is so much about rape culture and this is just a<br />

start, but please be aware of what you allow yourself to<br />

be influenced by. Think about the language you use. Everyone<br />

knows a rape victim or survivor whether you are


An Interview with Jane Elliott<br />

By Michelle Emile<br />

Image by Karen Llamas


When did you become aware of discrimination and<br />

the privilege you have as a cis white female?<br />

I became aware of sex discrimination when I realized<br />

that my mother was angry at me for not being born a<br />

boy! She never forgave me for that. I became aware<br />

of the privilege I have as a white person when I was in<br />

high school and I, and all the other girls in the school,<br />

had a crush on this gorgeous male student and my father<br />

informed me to stay away from him because his grandmother<br />

was a mulatto. That handsome creature could<br />

look at us, but he couldn’t touch us. Too bad for us,<br />

actually.<br />

When did you decide to become an activist against<br />

discrimination?<br />

When I was about four years old and my maternal<br />

grandfather would come out to my father’s farm and<br />

sit in my uncle’s car, but he wouldn’t step foot on Dad’s<br />

property because he had vowed never to do so, since<br />

my mother had married out of the Catholic Church. My<br />

paternal grandmother hated my mother, because she<br />

had inveigled my father away from his Baptist upbringing.<br />

That’s when I began to question organized religion<br />

and its application.<br />

Have you ever explained discrimination to someone<br />

who eventually changed their minds and practiced<br />

standing up for minorities?<br />

I used to try to explain the ignorance of discrimination to<br />

people, but I never accomplished much until I found out<br />

how it felt to walk in the shoes of someone who is being<br />

discriminated against on the basis of the color of their<br />

eyes. Then, all of a sudden, my father’s warnings that<br />

you can’t judge a book by its cover, and you’d better not<br />

judge someone until you’ve been where they are, came<br />

back to me, and I began to challenge the prejudicial<br />

statements I was hearing and to teach about the discrimination<br />

I was seeing. I’ve changed numerous peoples’<br />

minds by using the eye-color exercise with them and<br />

by describing what happens to white males when they<br />

are put in the same position in which they expect white<br />

women and people of color to live. I’ve watched those<br />

who have decided to learn, change not only their behaviors,<br />

but also their attitudes, toward minorities. After<br />

my father saw the Canadian film which was made in my<br />

third-grade classroom, he said, “I wish somebody had<br />

taught me that when I was nine years old.” And he never<br />

used the term ‘mulatto’ or told a racist joke, again.<br />

Quite frankly, I’m not surprised. How do you change<br />

centuries of ignorance in a few decades? Also, quite<br />

frankly, I don’t think prejudice is the problem: Discrimination<br />

is the problem, and while I don’t really care how<br />

you feel about me, I do care how you treat me. Your<br />

emotional commitment to ignorance, which is what<br />

Nathan Rutstein says prejudice is, is your problem, not<br />

mine. It only becomes my problem when you begin to<br />

treat me unfairly because of your ignorance. Prejudice<br />

is still going strong because ignorance is rampant in this<br />

society. How else can anyone explain the anger that has<br />

exploded in this country because of a black man being<br />

elected to the White House? I am more concerned<br />

about white mens’ fear of losing their numerical majority<br />

in the US and so losing their power, than I am about their<br />

prejudice. Prejudice is an attitude, while fear is an extremely<br />

strong emotion, particularly when it’s combined<br />

with sexual myths.<br />

How often do you meet white Americans who believe<br />

that racism is a constant fight because of the<br />

instilled reinforcement of white privilege?<br />

I don’t meet many white US citizens who believe that<br />

racism is still alive and well in this country. Most white<br />

people know nothing about white privilege and don’t really<br />

believe it when you try to analyze it for them. Many<br />

of them make statements to the effect that ‘those people’<br />

should be glad we brought them over here; after all, look<br />

at what’s going on in those places in Africa. And during<br />

the Ferguson fiasco, I was informed that ‘if they didn’t like<br />

it, they should go back where they came from’. I wish I<br />

had a dollar for every time I heard that statement in the<br />

last few months. Anyone who thinks we are in a post-racial<br />

society, needs to understand that many white people,<br />

upon being told that they have privilege, respond that<br />

God meant it to be that way. If He hadn’t, He’d have<br />

made us all the same color. And now, we’re right back<br />

to organized religion, upon which much of this nonsense<br />

rests, and by which much of this nonsense is perpetuated.<br />

How do you feel knowing that prejudice is still going<br />

strong (Ferguson, trans phobia)?


What do you think is the best way to advocate as<br />

someone of privilege who is an ally?<br />

Stop trying to teach people of color how to understand<br />

white folks; I think they understand white folks all too<br />

well. I didn’t know how I looked to people of color until<br />

the day I had the wrong color eyes in my third-grade<br />

classroom, and I watched the students with the right color<br />

eyes exhibit the behaviors toward the out-group that<br />

they had seen exhibited by the significant adults toward<br />

minorities in their environment.<br />

Stop thinking that you’re doing minorities a favor by<br />

advocating for them. I’ll not forget the 75-year-old<br />

woman who said to a group of African American women,<br />

during the debriefing of the exercise, that she couldn’t<br />

understand why they were being so critical of her, “...after<br />

all I’ve done for you people over the years.” OMG! She<br />

learned a great deal in a short time, that day, and afterward<br />

said she’d never forget it.<br />

Learn to listen to minorities, instead of insisting that<br />

they listen to you. You can’t really learn about racism<br />

from white folks, no matter how well-read they are, nor<br />

how many books they’ve written. People of color may<br />

not be fully aware of how the system works, but they<br />

darned sure know how it feels. Don’t, however, go up<br />

to the nearest person of color and say, “What’s it like to<br />

be black?” Don’t laugh! I’ve heard it! Often! Don’t ask<br />

people of color to bleed all over the floor for you. They<br />

aren’ responsible for your education; you are. For a start,<br />

you could go to my website, jane@janeelliott.com, and<br />

download the bibliography that you will find there. Read<br />

every book on it and then read all those other hundreds<br />

of books that are out there about those who are other<br />

than white, Anglo-Saxon, heterosexual, able males and/<br />

or females.<br />

Stop pretending that you practice the Golden Rule:<br />

White people, as a group, do not treat people of color<br />

the way white people want to be treated. NO ONE<br />

wants to be treated the way the majority of white people<br />

in this country allow people of color to be treated. Furthermore,<br />

how do we know that people of color would<br />

appreciate being treated the way we want to be treated?<br />

Do men want to be treated the way women want to be<br />

treated? Do I, as an old woman, want to be treated as a<br />

teenage boy wants to be treated? Does a Lesbian want<br />

to be treated as I, a straight woman want to be treated?<br />

I would respectfully suggest that we all commence to<br />

follow the Platinum Rules, which says, “Do unto others<br />

as others would have you do unto them.” In other words,<br />

treat others the way THEY want to be treated. In order to<br />

do that, you have to ask them how they want to be treated.<br />

You have to listen to their answer, and then you have<br />

to do as they ask. It’s something called ‘communication’,<br />

and until we learn how to do that, the -isms which separate<br />

us will never be resolved.


Feminist Blogger of the Month:<br />

Hannah Giorgis<br />

Interview by Matlaleng O. Babatunde<br />

Source: instagram.com/ethiopienne<br />

With prose that flows like poetry and a sound mind to match, self-proclaimed awkward Black girl Hannah<br />

Giorgis is taking the internet by storm. If you’re apart of the activist tumblr community, you’re probably<br />

familiar with the short whimsical remarks, and mind blowing essays of Hannah from her blog Ethiopienne.<br />

Hannah’s writing and art has contributed to the activist mobilization of social media, and created more platforms<br />

and spaces for women to exist. She has succeeded in making (un)learning and pertinent topics that<br />

are often only available to those in academia, accessible to the public. Hannah proves the notion that compassion<br />

is the basis of activism, not just through her work, but through her existence. Each word she writes<br />

is an intricate love letter for her people, for her craft, and for those who have gone before her. It is through<br />

her audacity to exist compassionately that she has cultivated her profound Black feminist rhetoric.


I was first introduced to your work through an essay<br />

you wrote about how love in communities of color is<br />

a form of resistance. What struck me the most about<br />

the essay, and what continues to strike me about<br />

your writing, is the clarity with which you spoke<br />

about White supremacy and racism, concepts that<br />

are difficult to grasp and even more difficult articulate.<br />

How important is clarity and maintaining accessibility<br />

to all audiences, not just those in academia,<br />

to you and your writing?<br />

This is something I struggle with a lot, to be perfectly<br />

honest. I started writing for a public audience while in<br />

college, in the kind of academic environment that encourages<br />

the use of big words even in our social justice<br />

spaces. It’s taken a lot of active, conscious effort to<br />

unlearn the idea that my ideas are only valid if they are<br />

framed in words and concepts that academia and white,<br />

upper middle class audiences validate. I still struggle with<br />

that, but it’s so important to me to be writing things that<br />

are accessible and relatable to the people around me<br />

who have inspired me and my work. And I think sometimes<br />

when we talk about this, the desire to stop using<br />

big words or jargon in our writing, there’s a misconception<br />

that we do it because we think our communities<br />

aren’t able to understand what we’re saying. That’s so<br />

far from the truth; a lot of the most profound lessons I’ve<br />

learned have been from people around me who didn’t<br />

have a degree that validated their wisdom. For me, it’s<br />

about valuing and connecting to the wealth of knowledge<br />

that comes from inside our communities—on and<br />

in our own terms.<br />

When did you start writing and how has your writing<br />

evolved over the years?<br />

I think I’ve always been writing in one way or another. I<br />

can’t remember a time when I didn’t walk through life<br />

connecting things to words and stories and characters I<br />

had read. There’s this really incredible Zora Neale Hurston<br />

quote from Their Eyes Were Watching God that<br />

captures how I think of writing and the fact that for me,<br />

feeling is writing and writing is just feeling out loud:<br />

“There is a basin in the mind where words float around on<br />

thought and thought on sound and sight. Then there is a<br />

depth of thought untouched by words, and deeper still a<br />

gulf of formless feelings untouched by thought.”<br />

My writing has evolved in the sense that I give myself<br />

the space to actually do it. When I was younger, feelings<br />

would come to me as phrases and sentences but I didn’t<br />

believe I was worthy of turning them into paragraphs<br />

or pages. I knew something was coming together in my<br />

head but I closed myself off to the possibility of creating.<br />

I’ve learned to trust myself a bit more, to recognize that<br />

my stories are valid and my feelings aren’t trivial (and<br />

even if they are, it doesn’t mean I shouldn’t write about<br />

them). I’ve grown up. I’ve learned to nurture my writing,<br />

to love myself critically and critique myself lovingly.<br />

Who inspires your writing the most?<br />

I am blessed to know some phenomenal, dynamic, brilliant<br />

women. My friends, my former professors, women<br />

I meet organizing, my colleagues, the women writers<br />

I’ve read years ago whose work still sits on my heart like<br />

a warm embrace. I write a lot of things for my mom,<br />

whether they’re formally addressed to her or not. She’s<br />

taught me that activism is fundamentally about compassion,<br />

and I try to write her compassion into everything<br />

my fingers touch. A lot of my writing is about making<br />

visible what we have been shamed into keeping buried<br />

within us, and I feel especially honored when I am able to<br />

do that for and with other Black women.<br />

When were you first introduced to Black feminism,<br />

and what was your initial response to it?<br />

I don’t know that I can trace the moment I was first introduced<br />

to Black feminism. I think again of my mom, who<br />

worked and hustled and sacrificed so much for me and<br />

my siblings—is that not her own feminism? She weaves<br />

together so much, pulls the very fabric of our family<br />

together at times when it feels like it is going to unravel.<br />

She does it all with such unabashed femininity, without<br />

refusing to hide her flaws or fears. That’s Black feminism<br />

to me. I might not have always had the words for it or a<br />

theory to point to when people ask, but I think on some<br />

level I’ve always known that my mom is magic. And that’s<br />

Black feminism—our own special brand of live-saving,<br />

life-giving magic.<br />

Is it difficult to incorporate your activism into your<br />

daily life?<br />

I guess that depends on how you define activism. I think<br />

some of the most difficult activism we can do is at the<br />

interpersonal level. That’s not to say that systems change<br />

isn’t fundamental to fighting injustice, because I don’t<br />

think we can ever overstate the extent to which oppression<br />

is absolutely structural. But when you do little things,<br />

like have difficult conversations with friends and family,<br />

that’s a little step toward making this world a better one.<br />

And I think loving black people in this world that says we<br />

are unworthy of life—that’s activism, too. There are so<br />

many different ways to resist in your everyday interac-


day interactions. Some of that might be by supporting<br />

organizations doing incredible work, but it might also just<br />

be affirming people whose humanity is regularly denied.<br />

When and why did you decide to make your blog?<br />

I think I made it my sophomore year of college on a<br />

whim. Honestly, I thought it was going to be a fashion<br />

blog…which is a bit funny in retrospect. I really did start<br />

it with the intention of sharing photos of Afro-diasporic<br />

people in dope clothing. And while that’s still part of what<br />

I regularly (re)post, it definitely shifted pretty quickly to<br />

encompass a lot more.<br />

How do you navigate through patriarchy and White<br />

supremacy in academia?<br />

Not easily! Sometimes I get upset with myself because<br />

I didn’t take care of myself well at school, but then I<br />

remind myself that the institution itself was built with the<br />

understanding that bodies like mine are not human. I<br />

made it through because of my friends and community<br />

(especially groups like the Women of Color Collective),<br />

but it wasn’t easy. I felt like waking up every morning was<br />

in and of itself a painful act of resistance. That is not a<br />

sustainable way to live. My blog helped me remember<br />

there is a world beyond my campus, but even that wasn’t<br />

always enough. I found myself constantly having to<br />

balance between keeping pain to myself for the sake of<br />

my pride and unveiling my wounds to people who would<br />

often dismiss them. I also got through it by reading Black<br />

feminist authors. Everything I was going through, someone<br />

had been through before. It helps to know you’re<br />

not alone.<br />

Many of us are bloggers and are in the position<br />

to bring awareness to the recurring extra judiciary<br />

killings in America, and the devaluing of Black life.<br />

However, sometimes our attempts to raise awareness<br />

can be counterproductive by inadvertently eliciting<br />

the apathetic consumption of Black death. How<br />

can we raise awareness to the devaluing of Black life<br />

without advertising the consumption of Black death?<br />

I think we have to recognize that sometimes that’s not<br />

even within our control, but we can also try to be strategic<br />

about what our goals are. Do we just want people to<br />

know that Black folks are being slaughtered? Or is there<br />

something else we are asking for? And I think a lot of<br />

times we don’t know what that “something else” is…and<br />

that’s not necessarily wrong (because we are allowed to<br />

want our pain seen, we are human). But it does make it<br />

harder to rally public awareness in a constructive way.<br />

Before I write something that will involve invoking Black<br />

death, I try to ask myself “to what end?” What do I want<br />

the reader to come away feeling or doing? Sometimes<br />

having a tangible goal like that can help mitigate the<br />

feeling that we are just putting Black suffering on display<br />

to be consumed.<br />

My parents are both African immigrants, and I’m<br />

very proudly the product of trans-continental love.<br />

I’ve always sort of felt like an intruder in America,<br />

because of my Blackness, and a stranger in South Africa<br />

and Nigeria because of my western upbringing.<br />

Do you have any advice for children of the Diaspora<br />

on how to reason with this feeling of displacement?<br />

Oh goodness. That’s my whole life—and it’s very much<br />

a work in progress. I think about this all the time. I don’t<br />

know that I have the answers, or that anyone does. What<br />

I am trying to do right now is to reckon with how my diasporic<br />

identity enables me access to things in this country<br />

that African American people are sometimes barred<br />

from. I know the lines are blurry, that Blackness is complicated,<br />

that we are intertwined in complicated ways that<br />

can’t exactly be mapped out perfectly. But the biggest<br />

piece of advice I have for fellow diaspora kids is to not<br />

feel like we have to rely on existing identity frameworks<br />

to make sense of ourselves. It’s okay for your identity to<br />

shift, for your knowledge of self and place and society to<br />

influence you in different ways as you grow. But try to be<br />

conscious of how your identity affects other people, how<br />

you fit into a larger web. Don’t discount other people’s<br />

pain in your rush to find a place for yourself.<br />

Do you think of that “hashtag activism” is effective<br />

in sparking and maintaining movements? Also, how<br />

do you think social media has affected social consciousness<br />

and activism?<br />

You know, the discussion around that term really frustrates<br />

me. Very few people who use hashtags and social<br />

media as one of many tools think it is the be-all and endall<br />

of activism. Of course it has its limits; so do protests<br />

and rallies and boycotts. All activism has limits. Activism<br />

has to be multi-pronged, and I see social media as one<br />

of those many prongs. When you look at moments like<br />

Michael Brown’s murder, it becomes really evident that<br />

social media, Twitter in particular, served as this incredible<br />

space for people to come together, strategize, keep others<br />

informed, and ensure that this boy’s death did not go<br />

unnoticed. That’s powerful. For a lot of people who have<br />

been pushed out of newsrooms and traditional journalism,<br />

social media is a way of talking back. We can speak<br />

out—and we can do it in real time. Sure, social media can<br />

also bring out people’s combative sides, but what organizing<br />

space has ever been free of conflict?


Sure, it can be easy to forget about movements when the<br />

next new thing pops up. But monumental things have<br />

happened. Feminista Jones organized rallies all around<br />

the country to mourn the people we have lost to police<br />

violence. Social media activism doesn’t exist outside “the<br />

real world.” It’s just a different way of coming together.<br />

What constitutes a good/helpful ally?<br />

A good ally is someone who enables you to do the work<br />

you need to do as a member of a marginalized community<br />

by a) getting out of your way, b) amplifying your<br />

voice, and c) working within their own community to<br />

support your goals. Indigenous Action Media published<br />

a piece a while back about wanting “accomplices, not allies.”<br />

I don’t need people in my life who like to feel good<br />

about themselves; I need people committed to ending<br />

injustice from which they benefit.<br />

How do you juggle your professional and personal<br />

life while still maintaining a successful Blog and<br />

growing social media empire?<br />

I don’t sleep nearly enough. I drink a lot of coffee. Don’t<br />

tell my mom I said that. Also LOL at empire. I’m just an<br />

awkward black girl with a blog.<br />

What topics do you think need to be introduced to<br />

our modern feminist discourse?<br />

I don’t think it needs to be introduced because it’s not<br />

new (people have been saying this forever), but I would<br />

really love to see feminism address the gender binary<br />

itself. I want us to stop failing trans women, to not simply<br />

“include” trans women and women of color and poor<br />

women in a framework that doesn’t account for their<br />

needs at best and is actively harmful at worst. I want it to<br />

explicitly center the needs, voices, and leadership of the<br />

most marginalized, the most targeted for violence.<br />

before. Tell your friends how much they mean to you.<br />

Find something you love about yourself everyday. Reflect<br />

on all you have learned. Create. Read this from the Crunk<br />

Feminist Collective.<br />

You mentioned on your blog that you paint. Is there<br />

an intersection between art and activism? Do you<br />

find that your work in Black feminism affects your<br />

art or vice versa?<br />

I paint things for people I love. That expression of love in<br />

this world is a form of activism to me. But people have<br />

used art as a tool of public activism for so long—I think<br />

of Mickalene Thomas, Kara Walker, Kehinde Wiley. Sonia<br />

Sanchez once said, “the Black artist is dangerous. Black<br />

art control’s the ‘negro’s’ reality, negates negative influences,<br />

and creates positive images.” In that way art is<br />

both a tool and product of activism.<br />

What does feminism mean to you?<br />

bell hooks said it best: “Feminism is not simply a struggle<br />

to end male chauvinism or a movement to ensure that<br />

women will have equal rights with men; it is a commitment<br />

to eradicating the ideology of domination that permeates<br />

the Western culture on various levels-sex, race,<br />

class to name a few-and a commitment to reorganizing<br />

society…so that self-development of people can take a<br />

precedence over imperialism, economic expansion, and<br />

material desire.”<br />

Feminism means I’m human, and so is everyone else. We<br />

deserve rights, and we deserve love. Some people have<br />

always been seen as less human, so my feminism exists<br />

to affirm them and dismantle the systems that deny their<br />

humanity.<br />

Do you have any advice for Black girls who are<br />

expected to start the school year afresh at their<br />

respective institutions after an emotionally taxing,<br />

traumatizing and rage filled summer?<br />

It’s okay to disconnect. You don’t have to be plugged in<br />

to Twitter or Tumblr or Facebook at every moment. It’s<br />

exhausting, and it’s not necessarily even productive. The<br />

movement will be okay if you take a break. Take time<br />

away from everything—from social media, from classes.<br />

Read a lot of fiction. Read Black feminist authors. Love<br />

on yourself—take the extra time to do your hair, to rub<br />

shea butter into your calves, to perfect that winged liner,<br />

whatever. Compliment a Black girl you’ve never met


Red Summer<br />

By Matlaleng O. Babatunde<br />

If a Black girl falls in the middle of a night<br />

Does she make a sound<br />

Will anyone hear me<br />

Or am I just a lone tree<br />

Elongate my limbs cut off my trunk<br />

I’ve no longer got a home<br />

I’m a loner that roams<br />

Will I make a sound<br />

Bleach the pain away<br />

Till there’s no more Black till there’s no more you<br />

Retame your soul<br />

Put yourself in a cage<br />

Burn away all remnants of Renisha and Michael and pretend this summer never happened<br />

Forget the tear gas, even though its malevolent fumes still burn your eyes<br />

Forget the screaming though your throat is still raw with thunder<br />

Forget the pain and the maimings<br />

And the pain and the maimings<br />

And be at peace<br />

Bleach your memories away till all that’s left is peace<br />

But you can’t bargain for something as intangible and fleeting as peace<br />

Forget the bitter taste of the strange fruit<br />

Let your mind be hung up<br />

On a pedestal<br />

Until it rots and stinks<br />

Like an unkempt meat and then you will know this rage<br />

This rage that takes over me<br />

Till I black out I Black out I black Out<br />

One second I’m saying don’t shoot and the next second I am six bullet holes, a sun spoiled corpse, fermented<br />

dreams<br />

I am no angel<br />

Scrub the blood from this red summer away<br />

Somewhere between the red puddles and Black skin you must find from within<br />

to Dance<br />

Shuck<br />

jive<br />

Do anything you can to stay alive<br />

Forget the rage<br />

Forget the hands up


Forget the bulging eyes and twisted mouth<br />

Forget the way your muscles twitched from holding your hands up for so long<br />

Forget your Blackness.<br />

There’s no room for that here<br />

We just some Black faces floating in White spaces<br />

Aint nothing more aint nothing less<br />

No room for thoughts for emotions for anger rage or grief<br />

Only room for numbness<br />

Can we hold any more pain my loves<br />

We are not an a thousand cheeked people.<br />

Can we turn any more cheeks my loves<br />

I can feel it now<br />

My face disappearing into white space<br />

My soul being fine crushed into dust and scatter along the nothingness like stars<br />

My mind being informed and transformed and deformed<br />

And somehow I will have to transform this red summer into empty dead white.<br />

Can we hold any more red my loves


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