A Gnostic Childhood - Gnostic Liberation Front

Spiritualism and Near Death Experiences
Suddenly they knew how simple the truth really is, and how they
could find indescribable joy and bliss in selfless service to All life.
The following account of my life is the story of my quest for wisdom
and truth. I call it a " Gnostic childhood," because I believe that we
are eternal children of God and because my life has always been
lived in an intuitive sense. Having been a "rebel" since birth and an
outcast almost as long, I think that there are quite a few people who
could find my story interesting and perhaps even helpful. Especially
since my present incarnation came about in a very desperate and
horrible time and place and took me almost purposefully into realms
and directions no one could have ever imagined at the time. Even
though, someone did, an old lady in the back of a store, a 'fortune
teller,' told me at the tender age of fourteen, that I would be going
overseas and marry an 'exotic woman,' and that I would have two
children, a boy and a girl, and eventually be wealthy. Well, I did go
overseas and marry an exotic woman. A Colored or 'African-
American' woman and had a son with her. But the marriage didn't
last more than two years. I also had a daughter when I married
again a not so exotic woman of Irish, Russian and French descent in
1978. Unfortunately the part of the prediction about being rich did
definitely not come true. As a matter of fact, I have always had
barely enough to just get by, but have never been rich even in the
most imaginative sense. The only explanation for this false
prediction could be that by the standards we lived in in Germany at
the time of the prediction, my standard of life here in the United
States could be viewed as 'wealthy.'
Nevertheless, I have always felt guided and protected, even under
the most desperate circumstances and adventures. Perhaps it is my
intuitive life-style and my often 'naive' honesty and faith in spiritual
guides and their guidance which often 'miraculously' led me through
even the most ugly and dangerous paths and experiences without a
scratch. Often doors were opened to me as if by miracle and forces
would move circumstances in my behalf almost forcing me to go in
directions which contemplated 'rationally' would have scared me to
death, as I'm not really a brave soul by nature.
Most people who knew me as a child, young man, and even now,
either hate me or love me. They saw me as very innocent and pure,
as a naive, idealistic child and young man even though I was in my
own opinion far from it. Yet I understand why they felt this way,
because in a dualistic sense of self perception I saw myself in the
same light, although I also knew that it wasn't really true. Or was it?
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