A Gnostic Childhood - Gnostic Liberation Front

A Gnostic Childhood
Being about two years old, one of my first memories is that I'm laying
on my back on awakening and looking at the fascinating designs on
the ceiling. I remember being always fascinated with the different
faces that I could detect in the cracks and lines. Suddenly I thought
with real disgust, something like: " Oh no, here I am again back on
this earth and I didn't want to come back." This thought has remained
with me all my life and I can't imagine how a child of two could think
in such terms. But it is absolutely true.
Other thoughts are more pleasant, such as memories of the
beautiful pine forests surrounding Schwerin and the walks we took,
with friends and visitors from Berlin, in those peaceful surroundings. I
remember playing with friends and being taken to outdoor restaurants
to drink "Brause" while the adults had coffee or
beer. One day my mother took me to a "laundry
mat," a forerunner of today's system which
consisted of one room where you cooked the
laundry in a large vat then rinsed it with handcranks
and took the laundry to a huge "Mangel"
which was a monstrous machine with two or
more large drums rotating....I remember being
very fascinated with these workings and wanting
to explore them in more detail. Thus I put my
head very close to the rotating drums to get a
better look, while my mother was busy bringing
more laundry in from the other room. I went closer and closer to these
fascinating contraptions and suddenly experienced a pull beyond my
control which brought my head right into these rotating drums. Of
course, the drums were close together and my head would not have fit
between them, but, nevertheless, my hair was pulled in and my head
got somewhat "mangled." Screaming, "Mutti, Mutti...," my mother
came running and had to shut off this machine in order to free me
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