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FUGUE ˆˆˆˆˆ<br />
JANE BARON<br />
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crumpled against one thigh. He could not possibly<br />
enjoy, or even participate in, another bout of<br />
any kind.<br />
Blake set his teeth. Avon could not possibly<br />
resist, either, no matter how Blake might<br />
choose to make use of him. He probably would<br />
not even try. His very vulnerability was inexplicably,<br />
horrifyingly tantalizing, as if inviting<br />
Blake to improve the opportunity, to take advantage<br />
of it.<br />
Instead, carefully, Blake took the spent<br />
body in his arms, gathering it to him. Face<br />
pressed into Avon’s neck, he gently began to<br />
thrust between the warm tunnel of those sweatand<br />
seed-silked thighs, drinking in Avon’s smell<br />
and the feel of his nakedness. Fantasy and<br />
memory and the immediacy of Avon against<br />
him combined to send him over the edge in a<br />
matter of minutes.<br />
With a sigh, he felt the wetness flow out<br />
of him, while Avon lay heavy and unmoving,<br />
utterly relaxed in his arms. Blake turned them,<br />
then, for comfort, and they remained like that for<br />
a long time afterward, Avon’s body molded<br />
pliantly to him, Avon’s head resting on his<br />
shoulder, Avon’s heart beating against his. He<br />
stroked the damp hair for a while, then simply<br />
held him, sodden with voluptuous peace.<br />
The one thing in all the worlds he did not<br />
want to do was think. But he couldn’t help it.<br />
What had just happened here? Of all the<br />
places to end up…Avon’s bed. He raised heavy<br />
lids to glance at the still form beside him. Avon<br />
was at peace, now. Surrounded by an aura, not of<br />
tension, but of tranquility and strong contentment.<br />
Closeness—yes, Avon had needed<br />
closeness. Not for a minute did Blake believe<br />
this was something as simple as sex. Carnal<br />
desires could be satisfied through more conventional<br />
means, and he could not imagine Avon<br />
being loath to indulge them. No, what Avon had<br />
required was something Avon could not admit,<br />
even to himself—especially to himself. Something<br />
buried so deep that it could only emerge<br />
when all conscious defenses were down.<br />
ˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆ PÆAN TO PRIAPUS<br />
You got it too, didn’t you? Blake thought<br />
with a mixture of affection and dismay. Bedding<br />
Avon had been the last thing on his mind when<br />
he’d entered this room. But it had<br />
worked…marvelously, he could not deny that.<br />
Good for both of them, and he doubted if either<br />
of them was going to be insomniac tonight.<br />
But now…what? He longed to simply<br />
give himself up to this luxury, to lie replete and<br />
satiated until sleep joined him with the drowsy<br />
lover in his arms. And he couldn’t. He didn’t<br />
dare. Because this lithe and biddable creature<br />
pressed so tenderly against him was going to<br />
turn into a demon from hell at the figurative<br />
crack of dawn.<br />
His emotions rose to war with the lethargy.<br />
How was he supposed to sort out his<br />
feeling about Avon now? It wasn’t simply this<br />
startling hiccup in their relationship; it wasn’t<br />
even his gratitude and his new feeling of appreciation,<br />
of attraction. It was the need he could<br />
still sense in the sleep-drowned body he held.<br />
Emotional need, hungry affection, even love.<br />
But how to square that with the knowledge that<br />
tomorrow Avon would rip himself—and<br />
Blake—to bloody shreds rather than admit the<br />
least of these things? He could do it, Blake<br />
realized, with a sickening lurch in his stomach as<br />
he recalled other times when the tech had felt<br />
exposed or threatened. Avon would make it his<br />
business to ruthlessly exterminated any tender<br />
feeling, any hint of weakness this night might<br />
have revealed. And he would ruthlessly exterminate<br />
Blake, too, if necessary for his emotional<br />
survival.<br />
Hard facts about a hard man. Who just at<br />
the moment was snuggled up to him like a<br />
sleeping baby jaguar. Blake could feel the brush<br />
of eyelashes on his throat, like the wing of a<br />
moth.<br />
There was really no question about what<br />
had to happen.<br />
Gently he disentangled himself from<br />
Avon. The technician’s lashes fluttered once<br />
more and were still; he seemed to be quickly<br />
sinking into unconsciousness. Blake started to<br />
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