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JANE BARON ˆˆˆˆˆ<br />
FUGUE<br />
ˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆ<br />
kiss him, then made himself stop.<br />
“It’s as much for your sake as for mine,”<br />
he whispered, leaning over Avon, knowing the<br />
words went unheard. “Because you’ll hurt yourself,<br />
too, trying to run from this. And I’m not sure<br />
I can stand to watch you do that.” Rising, he was<br />
surprised to find his knees weak, but the feeling<br />
passed quickly and he went into the lavatory,<br />
returning with damp towel in hand.<br />
And then, methodically, he set about<br />
erasing every sign that he had ever been in the<br />
room.<br />
He maneuvered Avon—a heavy but<br />
unresisting bundle—so he could strip off the<br />
sheets and replace them with fresh ones. He<br />
cleaned sweat from Avon’s body and the traces<br />
of spent passion from Avon’s belly and thighs,<br />
and zipped him securely back inside his clothes.<br />
He even smoothed the ruffled hair and arranged<br />
the discarded tunic and boots neatly by the<br />
bedside, in what might safely be assumed as<br />
Avon-ish manner.<br />
At the door he paused, and then moved<br />
back to look down once more on the sleeping<br />
figure. Sleeping a true sleep at last.<br />
“You won’t remember in the morning,”<br />
he said softly, somehow certain of this. Avon<br />
would not remember—and he himself would<br />
never forget. Tonight had changed nothing, and<br />
yet nothing would ever be quite the same.<br />
“I think I understand.” It was all he could<br />
offer in parting. This odd tryst had given him<br />
some insight, not into Avon’s mind, but into his<br />
heart. From now on, in the depths of Avon’s<br />
most bitter diatribes, in his most searing indictments,<br />
Blake would see the shadow of something<br />
else. He’d had a glimpse of what went on<br />
behind the walls.<br />
And it was possible that though Avon<br />
never did remember, something inside him<br />
would not entirely forget. It could be that some<br />
trace of warmth and trust might linger, and speak<br />
to him when Blake was near. In some far distant<br />
future Blake might even be able to tell him about<br />
it.<br />
Looking at that lovely face, waxen with<br />
heat and utterly distant, Blake felt his own shoulders<br />
slump.<br />
The man asleep was not the one who was<br />
dreaming here. And, Avon’s comments notwithstanding,<br />
Blake could recognize dreams.<br />
With one last glance around the room for<br />
disorder or betraying evidence, he left.<br />
PART TWO: FUGUE<br />
Fugue: In music, a piece consisting of<br />
two harmonizing melodies.<br />
In psychology, a state in which a person<br />
performs acts which are not remembered upon<br />
returning to normal consciousness.<br />
THE ONLY THING FOR IT, BLAKE TOLD HIMSELF<br />
THE NEXT MORNING, WAS TO GO ON AS HE’D BEGUN.<br />
This immediately started up the chorus<br />
of voices in his head, this time all yammering<br />
different things. He cut short the ones doing the<br />
wet-eyed pleading.<br />
Of course it was good, he told them<br />
harshly. I hadn’t ma—had sex for god knows<br />
how long. It was good because I needed it.<br />
He dealt as savagely with the others<br />
which pointed accusing fingers. Perhaps he<br />
shouldn’t have allowed it to happen—but he had<br />
not taken advantage of an innocent. He had<br />
practically been raped. And he was damned if he<br />
was going to have trouble looking Avon in the<br />
eye because of it.<br />
Which was all very well in theory, but<br />
when the actual moment came on the flight deck,<br />
his stomach churned. It wasn’t until he was<br />
certain that the computer expert was regarding<br />
him without suspicion and resentment—or at<br />
least with no more than the usual degree of<br />
suspicion and resentment—that he was able to<br />
relax.<br />
Actually, Blake thought, massaging one<br />
shoulder reminiscently inside his shirt, Avon<br />
looked quite fit today. Very…alert. He couldn’t<br />
ask it, and he was half-glad and half-horrified<br />
when Cally did.<br />
“You slept better last night, Avon?”<br />
Blake held his breath.<br />
“Passably. Why?”<br />
ˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆ PÆAN TO PRIAPUS ˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆ<br />
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