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JANE BARON ˆˆˆˆˆ<br />
FUGUE<br />
ˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆ<br />
Avon even as he cherished Kerr? He hated to<br />
believe that of himself. But otherwise why<br />
should it distract him so? Why should it…excite<br />
him? Certainly, he had no need of proud, unreachable<br />
Avon now. In the blithe and irrepressible<br />
spirit that was Kerr he found more delight<br />
and satisfaction that with any other bed-partner<br />
in his life.<br />
What more could anyone want? Kerr<br />
was interested only in bringing joy to both of<br />
them. He accepted anything Blake did without<br />
qualm, and seemed to take his greatest pleasure<br />
in pleasing Blake. As time went on, he seemed<br />
more concerned with Blake’s responses than<br />
with his own. Perhaps most meaningful of all, he<br />
adjusted himself to Blake’s moods and needs as<br />
if in telepathic rapport.<br />
And because of that the fabric of Blake’s<br />
life was changing. The Federation was no less<br />
persistent, the search for Star One no less frustrating.<br />
But at the end of each day was a haven of<br />
warmth and peace where he could sink into<br />
receptive arms and drink comfort until he was<br />
full. And that…made all the difference in the<br />
worlds.<br />
The night after attempting to weave an<br />
alliance between two warring revolutionary<br />
cells on Voltara—twenty two hours of walkingon-eggshells<br />
negotiations which ended in abysmal<br />
failure—he’d stumbled into his room exhausted,<br />
falling onto the bed wearing everything<br />
but his boots. He roused to fuzzy awareness<br />
some indeterminable time later by the mattress<br />
sinking as it took weight.<br />
“Kerr,” he slurred, eyes lidding shut<br />
again even as he stretched out a gathering arm.<br />
“’m sorry. Too tired t’ even sleep properly…”<br />
But the explanation was not needed; already he<br />
himself was being clasped in a comforting,<br />
comfortable embrace. He relaxed into the undemanding<br />
arms with a sigh of gratitude and slept<br />
sound and warm—to awaken the next morning<br />
alone. That settled once and for all the question<br />
of whether Kerr was able to ‘wake’ himself and<br />
do whatever else was necessary to keep them<br />
safe. The thought brought a slow smile to<br />
Blake’s lips and he had trouble keeping himself<br />
from turning it on Avon the next day and thanking<br />
him for his consideration.<br />
Orac had said that in a <strong>fugue</strong> state Avon<br />
became almost exclusively right-brained, leaving<br />
left-hemisphere abilities such as deductive<br />
logic, formal operations, and linguistic skills far<br />
behind. What remained was motor memory,<br />
intuition, and a sensitivity to affect—emotion—<br />
that was almost preternatural. Kerr did not understand<br />
words but it was impossible to lie to<br />
him. Focusing only on tone and stance, he felt<br />
the emotion under the strings of phonemes and<br />
responded to it. Though he did not always retain<br />
what he learned, he was in many ways extraordinarily<br />
competent, gifted. A classic example of<br />
what had once been called an ‘idiot savant.’<br />
Sometimes Blake wondered just how far<br />
that competence extended. There was the day<br />
the door chimed while he was fiddling unsuccessfully<br />
with the intercom, which had broken.<br />
“I didn’t realize it was this late,” he said,<br />
after the traditional greeting had been exchanged.<br />
The routine never altered; Kerr walked<br />
up and laid his head on Blake’s shoulder, no<br />
other parts of their bodies touching. It had a<br />
vaguely mystical quality, returning to haunt<br />
Blake at odd moments.<br />
“Make yourself comfortable. I’ll be<br />
right back.” Tossing the probe onto the desk in<br />
disgust, he strode to the bathroom. He emerged,<br />
minutes later, to find Kerr lying peacefully with<br />
closed eyes on the bed—and the intercom fixed.<br />
“Did you do that?” He bent over the<br />
recumbent form trying to pierce through the wall<br />
of those long lashes. “My inter—” He was cut<br />
off as strong slender hands caught two fistfuls of<br />
his robe and pulled him down.<br />
After some indeterminate time he removed<br />
his tongue from Kerr’s mouth and finished<br />
the question, more out of stubbornness<br />
than anything else. “My intercom. Did you<br />
mend that?”<br />
But Blake had nothing on out-stubborning<br />
Kerr. Those slender fingers got hold of<br />
one end of the tie to Blake’s robe and pulled as<br />
ˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆ PÆAN TO PRIAPUS ˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆ<br />
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