LOOM AND SPINDLE OR Life Among the Early Mill Girls WITH A ...
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In <strong>the</strong> spring of 1840 <strong>the</strong>re was a great revival in Lowell, and some of <strong>the</strong> little girls held<br />
prayer-meetings, after school, at each o<strong>the</strong>r's houses, and many of <strong>the</strong>m "experienced<br />
religion." I went sometimes to <strong>the</strong>se meetings, and one night, when I was walking home<br />
by starlight, for <strong>the</strong> days were still short, one of <strong>the</strong> older girls said to me, "Are you<br />
happy?" "Do you love Jesus?" "Do you want to be saved?"—"Why, yes," I answered.<br />
"Then you have experienced religion," said <strong>the</strong> girl; "you are converted."<br />
I was startled at <strong>the</strong> idea, but did not know how to deny it, and I went home in an exalted<br />
state of feeling; and, as I looked into <strong>the</strong> depths of <strong>the</strong> heavens above me, <strong>the</strong>re came to<br />
my youthful mind <strong>the</strong> first glimmer of thought on spiritual <strong>the</strong>mes.<br />
It was an awakening, but not a conversion, for I had been converted from nothing to<br />
nothing. I was at once claimed as a "young convert," went to <strong>the</strong> church prayer-meeting,<br />
told my "experience" as directed, and was put on probation for admission to <strong>the</strong> church.<br />
Meanwhile, I had been advised not to ask my mo<strong>the</strong>r's consent to this step, because she<br />
was a Universalist, and might object. But I did not follow this advice; and when I told her<br />
of my desire, she simply answered, "If you think it will make you any happier, do so, but<br />
I do not believe you will be satisfied." I have allvays been very thankful to my mo<strong>the</strong>r for<br />
giving me this freedom in my young life,--<br />
"Not to be followed hourly, watched and noosed,"–<br />
this chance in such an important matter to learn to think and to act for myself. In fact, she<br />
always carried out this principle, and never to my recollection coerced her children on<br />
any important point, but taught <strong>the</strong>m to "see for <strong>the</strong>mselves."<br />
When <strong>the</strong> day came for me to be admitted into <strong>the</strong> church, I, with many o<strong>the</strong>r little girls,<br />
was sprinkled; and, when I stood up to repeat <strong>the</strong> creed, I can truly say that I knew no<br />
more what were <strong>the</strong> doctrines to which I was expected to subscribe, than I did about <strong>the</strong><br />
Copernican System or <strong>the</strong> Differential Calculus. And I might have said, with <strong>the</strong> disciples<br />
at Ephesus, I "have not so much as heard whe<strong>the</strong>r <strong>the</strong>re be any Holy Ghost." For,<br />
although I had been regularly to church and to Sunday-school, I had never seen <strong>the</strong><br />
Articles of Belief, nor had I been instructed concerning <strong>the</strong> doctrines, or <strong>the</strong> sacredness of<br />
<strong>the</strong> vow I was about to take upon me. Nor, from <strong>the</strong> frequent backsliding among <strong>the</strong><br />
young converts, do I think my case was a singular one, although, so far as I know, I was<br />
<strong>the</strong> only one who backslid enough to be excommunicated.<br />
And later, when I was requested to subscribe to <strong>the</strong> Articles of Belief, I found I could not<br />
accept <strong>the</strong>m, particularly a certain part, which related to <strong>the</strong> day of judgment and what<br />
would follow <strong>the</strong>reafter. I have reviewed this document, and am able to quote <strong>the</strong> exact<br />
words which were a stumbling-block to me. "We believe . . . that at <strong>the</strong> day of judgment<br />
<strong>the</strong> state of all will be unalterably fixed, and that <strong>the</strong> punishment of <strong>the</strong> wicked and <strong>the</strong><br />
happiness of <strong>the</strong> righteous will be endless."<br />
When <strong>the</strong> service was over, I went home, feeling as if I had done something wrong. I<br />
thought of my mo<strong>the</strong>r, whom my church people called an "unbeliever;" of my dear little<br />
bro<strong>the</strong>r who had been drowned, and whose soul might be LOST, and I was most