Kabbalah World Center - "Breaking the Iron Wall"

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38) Why is the involvement in Torah and complete and proper devotion called Torah "for its own sake" and devotion that
isn't appropriate called "Torah not for its own sake"?If the reason is that a person who learns Torah is obligated to intend
to give pleasure to the Creator, then the proper form of learning should be called "for His sake", instead of "for it's (the
Torah) own sake"?
39) The Torah brings a person to spiritual life called "chayim" (life). If a person doesn't intend to learn Torah "for it's own
sake" for life, and studies "not for it's own sake", this is called death. Therefore Torah which brings a person to spirituality
is called "giver of life", but Torah which doesn't bring a person to spirituality is called the "giver of death".
40) It's written " I have toiled and I have found' believe, I have not toiled and found- don't believe." At first glance it's
difficult to understand this. Toiling means working in order to "acquire" something, where as "finding" implies receiving
without any effort. Than how can it say "I have toiled and I have found"? Because if toil was involved it should have said "I
have toiled and I've acquired" or "I have toiled and have merited" but not "I have toiled and I've found"?
41) It is written that we find the Creator in the Torah ; the Creator hides himself in the Torah.Shouldn’t it be however that
He hides himself in physical things, and reveals himself in the Torah. How is it written that Hashem hides himself
specifically only in Torah? It's also written that the Creator hides himself, such that one must pray for Him to reveal
himself. Why does He hide himself? And why must we ask of Him to reveal himself?
It's only possible to find the Creator in the places where He hides himself. If we say that the Creator only hides Himself in
the Torah, than this is a sign that his place of concealment is only in the Torah.
42) We don't understand the Creator's providence over us. This is the main cause of distance from Him, and causes us to
transgress His Will ; and the cause of all our anguish and our stumbling into intentional or unintentional transgressions. If
we were to remove this cause we would relieve ourselves of these troubles and be able to truly cling to Him with all our
hearts.
43) If the Creator would reveal Himself to us in such a way that who ate something forbidden would immediately choke,
and all who perform a mitzvah would have immediate pleasure, who would even consider transgressing knowing that his
life is at stake? It would be like running into a blazing fire! Who would than abandon the Will of the Creator, that is mitzvot,
rather we would fulfill the Torah quickly and zealously, like a person who's unable to separate himself from a physical
pleasure that has been given to him. . If it were revealed before us the way that the Creator supervises the world we
would all be completely righteous people!
44) It is clear if the providence were to be revealed, we would all be completely righteous people clinging to the Creator
with the greatest of love.
Many try to cling to God and only a few individuals actually succeed. Because the reward of a Mitzvah is not revealed, and
neither is the punishment of one who transgresses. Rather things appear quite the opposite. Therefore understanding the
providence of God is the reason for all the good, and the lack of understanding is what causes all the bad and evil.
45)The feeling of providence comes to a person in two ways:
"concealment" panim (hidden faces)" which is divided into two:
single concealment or
double concealments - that is, concealment within concealment "gilui panim (revealed faces)" divided into two:
(Revelation of) Supervision of reward and punishment
(Revelation of) Eternal providence.
46) When the Creator hides His face a person feels this in the form of pain and difficulty as he has either a single or a
double concealment.