Issue Three
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JESSICA BOWERS<br />
“Why can’t you talk?” kids at school<br />
would ask.<br />
“I’m mute,” Eli would write.<br />
“What’s that mean?”<br />
“It means I can’t talk.”<br />
“Why can’t you?”<br />
“I just can’t.”<br />
And that was always that. Eli couldn’t<br />
laugh with his friends—not that he had<br />
any—couldn’t sing along in music class,<br />
and couldn’t talk to the girl he thought<br />
was pretty without her abruptly turning<br />
away, whipping him with her long<br />
ponytail as she went. He grew to hate<br />
the other kids, and sometimes, he found<br />
himself wishing not that he could speak,<br />
but that all of them were mute like him.<br />
When he lowered the pillow he saw the<br />
flashing lights with their steady tempo of<br />
on off, on off. The pattern calmed him<br />
from his fit, and watching them still, he<br />
put his feet on the floor, straightened his<br />
tiger-striped pajamas and went to the<br />
window. He peeled back the star<br />
curtains and climbed up onto the<br />
windowsill for a better look. Surprised in<br />
his silent way, he knelt there with his<br />
hands on the glass, his mouth half-<br />
parted in childlike wonder as he gazed<br />
at the bizarre activity atop the hill.<br />
Eli didn’t even like to look at the house<br />
in the safety of full daylight, because he<br />
thought he could always sense some<br />
kind of grotesquely shaped shadow<br />
meandering past the grimy window,<br />
watching him. The house was, Eli felt<br />
with a certainty more acute than fact,<br />
the hiding place for the creatures of his<br />
nightmares; for the creatures of all the<br />
kids’ nightmares. When the kids of the<br />
neighbourhood had too many bad<br />
dreams, there wouldn’t be enough room<br />
for the monsters anymore, so they’d all<br />
come out and go into the kids’ houses<br />
instead. Eli’s throat tingled with the<br />
desire to whimper as he imagined the<br />
devil clown scraping its crab claws<br />
across his windowpane, laughing its dry,<br />
wind-up toy laugh and drooling shiny<br />
black blood.<br />
So what did the lights mean? Was<br />
somebody in there, fighting all the<br />
monsters, killing them with light? Eli<br />
didn’t think so. The ichor yellow flashes<br />
painted and repainted sunsets on his<br />
rosy cheeks, dazzling his tentative eyes<br />
and dying his curly dark hair a queasy<br />
green. The sudden enlightenment was<br />
brighter than the light itself! The<br />
monsters were beckoning to him, to all<br />
the kids to come and face them once<br />
and for all. This too Eli felt with that<br />
eminent certainty, the certainty more<br />
concrete than the fact that he had no<br />
voice.<br />
He took a deep breath and swallowed it<br />
down in a painful gulp. Eli had to do it,