Issue Three
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The price of admission to their club is an<br />
answer to a question. The question is<br />
whispered to the candidate at the<br />
beginning of the evening. After dinner,<br />
when the coffee is being poured, he is<br />
obliged to answer. The men converse<br />
quietly; anticipating that they will have to<br />
stop talking soon to give the young man<br />
the floor. He’s standing next to the sofa.<br />
He’s very chilly and regrets not having<br />
chosen a spot next to the fireplace, if for<br />
nothing else, to add some color to the<br />
story. “Ok, it’s now or never,” he says to<br />
himself as he takes a deep breath. The<br />
custom is to repeat the question to the<br />
group and begin. He clears his throat<br />
and looks around the room, making eye<br />
contact with a few members but ignoring<br />
most.<br />
“What’s the worst thing you’ve ever<br />
seen?”<br />
“I’ll tell you the worst thing I’ve ever<br />
seen and along the way I’ll also confess<br />
to the worst thing I’ve ever done.” He<br />
pauses to collect his thoughts and<br />
begins.<br />
The summer was hot and boring. I am<br />
an only child, and so I was always left to<br />
my own devices. My father worked and<br />
was never around. Although my mother<br />
didn’t work, I don’t remember her at all<br />
through that summer. It’s as though she<br />
disappeared until the day when much to<br />
my surprise, both my parents appeared<br />
to tell me that we were moving. I was<br />
eight.<br />
There was a handful of kids my age on<br />
our street that would typically come by<br />
my house in the morning. One would<br />
look through the screen door to see me<br />
sitting on the couch watching TV. After<br />
he could see my mother wasn’t in the<br />
room, he would say, “Hey pussy, ready<br />
to go?”<br />
“Yeah, fucker – give me a sec,” I would<br />
respond.<br />
I’d put on my shoes and let myself out<br />
the back door to get my bike. I would<br />
ride it to the front of the house, joining<br />
the small group of boys, and we’d start<br />
our day.<br />
One morning late in the summer we set<br />
out but didn’t stick to our normal route. I<br />
yelled to ask where we were headed.<br />
No one answered so I yelled again; this<br />
time making sure my voice was louder<br />
than the wind in our ears and<br />
punctuating the sentence with a curse<br />
word. David, who was just ahead of me,<br />
turned his head very quickly and yelled,<br />
“You’ll see!” Then turned and yelled